66 I Trust No One

(Winona)

Wanting to believe everything will be okay and actually believing it are two different things. Inside me the doubt and stress over Abby’s health is ever present. If it was only that, I’d probably cope better.

But I’d be incredibly stupid to think that all is going to be rosy with Judy and Ashlyn. We may get a six-month respite, though I doubt it will last that long, but they will both just be planning their next step to remove me from their lives.

My emotions are fraught with the thought of losing Abby to something I have no control over. I need to make sure every second here is worth it for her. We’ve been here a week and Jayden and I are out tidying my garden while she naps.

“I’m considering home-schooling Abby.” I say as he pulls weeds.

“Why?”

“I have a lot of time on my hands, and it would be easier on her.” I clip half-heartedly at the unruly hedge.

Jayden wipes his hands on his denim shorts. “It might be easier, but I think it would also be limiting.”

“There’s a lot mo