Instantly, Ava moved her gaze to the lady next to him. Sitting elegantly beside her dashing fiancé, Lady Selene Wyndham was an epitome of beauty and grace. Ava had never seen anything quite like her. She was... perfection. The lady had a classic beauty of an aristocratic woman. She had a heart-shaped face with a pair of almond-shaped eyes, with thick and long lashes framed her sapphire blue orbs. Her straight and narrow nose pointed high, Ava imagined a little bird could perch on it, and her thin lips were taut, seemed like she was not into humor and hilarity. Her hair was a blonde color in the lightest shade that her pale forehead seemed to merge with her hairline. She wore sapphires in her hair and neck, matching her eyes and her light blue gown in an understated elegance.
The following barouche brought Princess Charlotte and Lord Wyndham, and the last one brought Lord Carlton and Lady Cecily. Ava didn't saw Magnus there. Apparently he didn't join the parade. His parents were a beautiful and elegant pair. Ava recognized a significant resemblance to Magnus in his father's face, but his father's eyes were cold and calculating just like the duke, and his expression held no sign of humor. His wife was no different, she held her chin up and lowered her lashes, gazing into the distance as if the crowd wasn't worth the least bit of her attention. Ava could not imagine the way they would have looked at her if Magnus ever introduced her to them.
Another formation of guards in uniform following behind the barouches in the same numbers like the first one. The crowd hailed the noble family in great excitement.
"Blessings on the fair ruler!"
"God bless the betrothal!"
The duke turned to the crowd and waved a hand to greet his people. His lady followed him, waving gracefully like a queen. None of them smiling, yet they still charmed the people exceedingly. The couple looked fantastic and equally fit to each other.
A strange, incomprehensible feeling overwhelmed her. Everybody was happy for the couple, but she wasn't. She couldn't deny they were a perfect match. Despite her dislike of the duke, she couldn't agree more. But something felt wrong, misplaced. She couldn't explain what, she didn't understand either.
Of course she didn't feel happy for the duke. He was the man responsible for her despair, the man who had turned her world upside down in the twinkling of an eye. He was the reason she drowned into sorrow and devastation for months, even now she felt nothing but emptiness. From the very first time, he had been cruel to her. He looked at her like she was some dirt on his shoes. He intimidated, insulted and threatened her, using her weaknesses to suppress her. She recalled all the painful experiences and looked at him once again.
It surprised her that she didn't feel a burst of hate shot through her. She should hate him as hell, she got all the reason. But somehow, she didn't hate him. She just couldn't. She didn't know why. Perhaps the story of his tragic past had tugged at her heartstring.
At the moment, as if he might hear her thought, the duke turned his head in her direction and spotted her rightaway. His eyes caught hers and lingered a little longer that he turned his head back slightly for a while as the barouche moved forward, leaving her behind.
She caught her breath. He saw her! No, he looked right into her eyes. She couldn't blink as his gaze locked with hers.
"The duke just looked at us here!" A woman near her exclaimed cheerfully. Was it real? Or was it her imagining that he was looking at her only? Perhaps he was just scanning the crowd.
No. He looked at me straight in the eye and he even turned himself backward as the barouche leaving. He didn't just look around intentionally. He looked at me.
Don't be ridiculous. You think he was deliberately searching for you among the crowd? For what reason? It was totally nonsense.
"Oooh, they are the most beautiful couple ever!" Fortunately the women's rattling distracted her from the inner conflict. The whole parade had slowly disappeared from the sight.
"I can't wait to see the wedding. I heard it would be held a couple of months later in the St. George Cathedral Church in London. His Majesty and the Queen herself shall attend."
Lady Byrne tried to keep her flaunting as subtle as possible, yet she determined to make sure everybody knew she was on the list of the invitees. The A-list precisely.
"I should see my dressmaker immediately, my gown is supposed to be grande, it's for the duke's wedding!"
"The wedding will never be held." A sharp voice startled the crowd. All heads turned to Nora, the Gypsy woman. She strained her eyes and shook her head.
"They are not meant to be. The duke will get married before long, but not to the lady he has just engaged with."
For an unfathomable reason, Ava felt a shiver crept along her nape.
"Oh God!" Lady Byrne placed her hand on her chest. "It's too bad... why? The lady will be perfect for him."
Nora's eyes shining with a gleam Ava saw before when the woman was revealing her past.
"The woman belongs to him is a vibrant spirit, a truly brave one, and Lady Selene is clearly not the fiery, passionate soul in my vision."
She continued as the crowd went silent, spellbound by her words. Ava caught her breath, and cursed herself for doing so. Whoever the duke was going to marry had nothing to do with her. But why she was waiting for the next words in wild anticipation?
"He has the kind of fate of his father. He will be loved powerfully, thoroughly, unconditionally. The woman's love is pure, ever so sincere nothing comes close to it. Beneath the delicate facade, a truly warrior soul. She will sacrifice her life to keep him from harm. She will fight legions of army to protect him. She will shed the last drop of her blood to save him with no regret, not expecting he will love her in return."
Women sighed in unison over her hyperbolic prophecy. Polly rolled her eyes and grimaced in wry amusement. The crowd started muttering noisily.
"But will he ever love her back?"
A woman asked hopefully.
"There's little chance." Nora answered after a moment's contemplating.
"He is a tortured soul, broken to the very core. His heart has long frosted over. It's a miracle if he will ever be able to love again."
***
"Such a beautiful country" Lady Selene Wyndham said as they left the crowd at the townsquare, heading to Vermont Manor. "I think I may very well like it. I could enjoy myself living in here."
"I'm glad you like this place, my lady" Ashton replied politely. "I fear the country will bore you."
"I always love the countryside" She closed her eyes and breathed deeply in effortless grace. "Nothing beats the fresh air, something you rarely find in the city. And the blue sky... and the green grass in the meadow. I remembered in my childhood, nothing made me happier than staying in my father's estate."
Ashton studied his fiancee in a short glance. She was all a man could ask for a wife. Remarkably beautiful, her natural elegance was breathtaking. She never ceased to stir the crowd everytime she walked into a room. And more than just a pretty face, she was a smart woman. She had a strong opinion about everything. Not a typical of overpampered, ignorant lady.
She was perfect for him. She would make a great duchess. A wife could significantly elevate her husband's reputation in society if she played her role very well, and he knew she would.
"I hope you like the room I chose for you. It has the best view to the rose garden."
Selene smiled brilliantly. "It is splendid."
She looked right into his eyes.
"I like everything in your country, Your Grace, especially the people. They are very friendly and polite. The way they welcomed us at the parade, it really touched my heart. I feel their love and respect for you."
"I'm grateful. They may very well love you as their duchess"
Ashton took her hand and kissed it lightly.
"Is there anyone amongst your people who you consider special, or closer to you than anyone else, Your Grace?"
He had no idea where that question might lead, so it took a while before he replied.
"There are some persons I know and get to know me personally. Mostly the most important persons in this town. The priests, the doctors, the principal of local school and some teachers, and some more..."
"I saw you searching for someone in the crowd when we were on the parade..." Selene said in an indifferent tone. "Looked like you found what you sought, from the way you turned backward like you didn't want to lose it. Who might draw your attention so much, Your Grace? The person must be very interesting..."
Ashton froze instantly. Had he been so reckless that she noticed what he did secretly? He had done it in the slightest way possible. He managed to reply in a cool tone as well."I thought I saw someone, but I was quite mistaken." The less he spoke about it the better. Fortunately Selene didn't push him further. He was glad they reached the manor shortly afterward. The Wyndham family retired to their room. The lunch reception was still a few hours away. He withdrew to a quiet living room, allowing himself to have some privacy for a while. His mind was consumed by the earlier moment. The fact that Selene was aware of it disturbed him. He recalled the moment at the parade.He was waving to greet the people when he felt someone was staring at him. Actually everybody was staring at him at that time. He was the main spectacle at the moment, the reason people were coming and waiting. What else should they be doing?But it was d
"How are you feeling now, my dear?" Lady Byrne asked her in the afternoon after the parade while Ava was serving her some biscuits and tea."I'm fine, milady." She smiled and returned her gaze shortly while pouring the tea. Lady Byrne knew most of the story. She had told her everything except her true identity. When Magnus suddenly disappeared from her life, the lady never stopped questioning her about it and finally, she gave in to her demands. Besides, she had found that the lady was a true friend indeed, not a careless gossiper like she presumed before.She was just about to leave to the kitchen, pretending to refill the empty teapot when the lady touched her hand."You're not fine, my dear. Your lips are smiling but your eyes are not. Your eyes have stopped crying but your heart has not."Ava couldn't find a word to reply."Come and have a s
Soon they left the busy street and reached a rural area. Ashton slanted up the small hill fast. He had anticipated that this was the only path which the market street led to, so he had his horse waiting for him uphill. Soon he caught up her again from up above. She was easier to spy on than the other target.Ava arrived at home in the lunch hour as usual. Today was passing like any other day, but she knew today she would change her life some other way. She was on a crossroad. She had come to a point that she decided she couldn't live like this anymore, but she hadn't made up her mind yet. She finished her daily chores, took a quick bath and changed her clothes. Soon after everything had done, she stepped out of the house and walked along the lane, into the grassland spread downhill.She drifted aimlessly through the meadow. All she needed was time for herself, without noise or interruption. Time to contemplate her choices. Time to tune into
She contemplated the words. If it was true, it meant the man she loved would stay beside her for all her life. Well, it could be... but she didn't want a lifetime affair."Will I live in proper and righteous way?""I have no doubt. I see great power and wealth and honor."Polly was right, the dramatic and hyperbolic prophecy was getting tedious now. It was impossible for any decent man to have her. It would have sounded less nonsense if the woman said she was going to marry a villager, a man with lowly status and a humble beginnings who didn't require a respectable background from her. A man who could marry whoever he wanted. She smiled at the thought. Indeed, the people who had nothing were the people who had the infinite freedom. But if her prophecy was true...She shivered at the first thought crossed her mind. If she was going to marry properly and live in nobility, chances were she would be marr
A silhouette stood in the dark, beneath the trees. The moon rose, sending moonbeams through the leaves and for a moment the figure looked like a ghostly shadow. Until his silver locks gleaming at a ray of light.Ava gasped when she recognized him. In the midst of the dark with moonlight illuminated his face, he looked like an angel of death.The scarred man who held her grinned maliciously."Look who's joining the feast."He made a quick scan of the duke's simple yet well-made clothing."Tis' fancy blueblood will make a great deal of fortune." He cocked his head."Finish him, Gully."The gloomy villain stormed to him like a ravenous animal. Her eyes widened as she noticed the man looked like a hulking beast compared to the duke's tall and slender figure.It happened too fast she could barely see anything. A sudden whistling, a flash of white light, then all s
She sensed his resistance instantly as he stiffened and pulled his hand off. She knew it wasn't for the pain but his distaste to her touch."Hold on, please let me help you. The bleeding is awful. We have to bind your wound."Studying his wound with a quick glance, he found her reasonable. He was seriously injured and needed immediate care. There's no point in denying her help."If you will allow me, it won't take long ..." she glanced up to see his reaction, but his expression was indecipherable. "May I ..." She reached his hand very carefully, fearing he would shrug her off at once.He didn't. She wrapped and tied the handkerchief around his hand, a trickle of blood soaking the white fabric, but the bleeding had slowed down. She felt him watching silently, and she got a bit nervous. As soon as she finished the task, she pulled off and stepped back.She seemed restless and regre
"Your Grace, I believe your hand will recover completely and you will be able to draw exceedingly well just like before."He turned to her abruptly and she nearly jumped at his terrifying expression."This, is just a sort of entertainment for me. Nothing more. Would I be able to draw again or not, it doesn't matter to me. I don't give a bloody damn!"And unexpectedly he flung the sketchbook away into the lake."No!" She couldn't help a cry. She was staggered as the sketchbook made a splash on the lake surface and drowned entirely into the water.She turned and stared at him as if she was looking at a ghost. Her dramatic expression was almost amusing him. He challenged her surprised gaze with a murderous glare, intended to scare her away.
After a long search in the deep, cold water, Ava finally found what she sought for. The lake was deeper than one she used to swim in Roseville, so it wasn't as easy as she assumed. The water was clear under the bright sunlight but as she went deeper, it got darker. It took a little while before her eyes adapted well with the low light. She was glad she had the stamina. She could stay six to seven minutes under the water.She felt relief as the dark cover of the book caught her eye. The water was biting cold. She would freeze if she stayed here any longer. She took the book and held it tight, she was just about to swim up when something came around her waist and pulled her up.Panic struck her instantly. She had been caught by some water creature! An image of a giant octopus flashed in her frantic mind. She struggled, moving helplessly to fight whatever captured her, but it was too strong. She pushed the tentacle encircling her belly with one
Carrying the old, unsent letter in his hand, Ashton took a determined step to Lord Carlton's bedchamber. The door was left slightly opened, as to make it easier for the servants to hear if the lord rang the bell. He stopped in front of the doorway and peered inside. Through the narrow opening, he could see his uncle across the room, sitting on the wheelchair by the window, gazing out into the wintry garden outside."Do come in."The lord called without glancing his way. Despite the head injury, his uncle hadn't lost his usual alertness, and the wheelchair didn't make him look less forbidding. He was very fortunate the injury didn't cause him any permanent damage, and though he hadn't quite regained his normal strength until this day, the doctor said that he would no longer need the device in a couple of weeks.Lord Carlton turned in his wheelchair to face him as he entered the room."What is it?"His uncle
Present DayWhen Ava peered into his chamber this morning, she found that he'd been able to get out of bed without any help. He stood in front of the mirror with a brush covered with lather in hand, meeting her gaze within the reflection. He paused, watching her breeze into the room and walk toward him."Oh, you're up already. Do you feel any better today?"She asked casually."Very much so. I think I'm going to have some fresh air. I'm tired of being confined in this room."Stopping within a foot from him, she glanced at the shaving equipment on the dresser."Let me help you.""There's no need-""Sit over there."She ignored him, motioning him to sit on the sidetable. Obediently, he did her bidding, half-sitting on the edge of the sidetable. With a brush, she smoothed the lather evenly ove
For a moment, she was quite bewildered by his request, but then she realized, by asking her to do so, he was trying to be completely truthful to her, to share his darkest secrets with her, no matter how sordid and shameful they were, to let her see the ugly side of him and to trust her without reserve.She settled back into the chair and took the letter from his hand. She opened the envelope and unfolded the letter, clearing her throat before she started reading,"Dear Carlton,I hope you will understand why I choose this way. I can no longer carry on in this fashion. It's not that I don't love you enough to go on. No words can express how much I love you. I die a little inside each time I see you. You can't imagine how difficult it is for me, but we both know that this is the best for us. I know you can't desert your family, and I don't blame you, for I can never do that to my son eith
Several hours later..."This is unspeakable. I can't believe it."Magnus' voice carried clearly across the hall. He turned around abruptly, wild sparks shooting from his eyes as he gazed furiously at the woman sitting in an armchair on the other side of the room."For Christsakes, why would you do this, Mother. How could you?"Lady Cecily stared into the void without so much as a word. Her eyes devoid of emotions, her refined feature as hard as granite.Sitting in a wheelchair pushed by a servant, Lord Carlton entered the parlor. Behind him are two of the guardsmen. Shooting a bitter look at his wife, he uttered with a composed voice."You'll be up before the magistrate to face the legal consequences of your crime. I've sent words to the authorities. The Constable will pick you up at first light."The lady took the notice with a pr
With soundless steps, Ava sneaked her way to Lord Carlton's bedchamber. The door was slightly opened, allowing a shaft of light from inside the room to spill out into the dark corridor. Stopping by the doorstep, she peeked into the room through the small opening. In the middle of the large bed, the lord lay as white and still as death. A candle burned in the nightstand, casting a dim glow in the gloom of the chamber.Drawing a long, fortifying breath, Ava slipped into the chamber. Crossing the room, she moved around the bed and sat in the chair nearby, gazing regretfully upon the lifeless face.To have a death on her conscience was too great a burden to bear. Perhaps she was a fool to think that to confess her sin and beg forgiveness from the insensible victim would give her a little comfort, but she just couldn't help it."I'm so sorry, My Lord." She began."I thou
There hadn't been much progress on Lord Carlton's condition the following day. He remained unconscious, only a faint pulse indicated there was life in there, yet it hung by a tenuous thread. In the morning, Doctor Haynes returned to check on him. Ashton asked him if there was any hope, and the doctor shook his head slightly in answer.In contrast to her dramatic reaction over Lord Carlton's condition the day before, Lady Cecily showed little interest in taking care of her husband. Instead, it was a loyal servant that had worked for the family for nearly fourty years who seemed to care deeply about him, feeding him with broth and water every hour, and applying soothing balm to his chapped lips. When she had finished her gentle ministrations, the old maid would kneel beside his bed and folded her wrinkled hands, praying for the master's recovery.Inside one of the sitting room in the secluded West Wing, Ashton stood gazing into the fire where
Ava blanched upon hearing his oath. She'd never heard such ferocity in a person's voice. Quick to notice her sudden pallor, Ashton took her hand, murmured some excuse to Aunt Cecily and Magnus, and led her out of the room."Your hands are so cold," He looked down at her hand in his hold with concerned frown. Too overwhelmed with distress, she let him take her to her chamber upstairs."Nobody will know about it." He said once the door closed behind them, and when she remained mute, pale and cold with fear, he headed to the sideboard and poured a glass of brandy. He made her finish the drink in two long swallows, and took the empty glass from her trembling hand. Setting the glass in the nearest sideboard, he placed his hands on her arms, forcing her to look directly into his eyes."Listen, I've told the guards never to breathe a word about it to anyone. I'll replace them immediately. Don't be afraid, I won't let anything bad happen to y
The next thing she knew, Ashton and the guardsmen already moved with mad haste to save Lord Carlton's life. By sheer luck, one of the guards had managed to get a wagon from a local farmer to bring the wounded lord home. She fixed the bandage and tried to slow down the bleeding, doing the best she could without further question, since the severity of the lord's injury left no time for explanation. Unfortunately the process of removing the lord from the building into the vehicle and the rough journey back home seemed to worsen his condition. Once they arrived home, a servant rushed to fetch the new doctor. During the wait, Ashton could hardly think of anything else. He was too distraught with fear, not certain Lord Carlton would survive another minute. Thankfully, within minutes the doctor arrived with his nurse."I'll do my best."Doctor Haynes promised before closing the door to Lord Carlton's bedchamber.
It seemed like the matter was urgent and highly confidential, Uncle Carlton didn't even leave his name on the message. Pulling the top drawer, he slipped the note beneath the piles of documents and rushed out of the room.*****By the time Ava returned to the study, an empty room greeted her. A sudden sense of premonition settled over her, and she instantly suppressed it. He might have retired to his chamber, or he might have been doing some other activity in another parlor somewhere in the house, she told herself. Still, she couldn't help but quicken her pace as she rushed through the house, desperate to find him as soon as possible."Edward, where's my husband?" She asked when she came across the butler in the corridor. The butler halted and bowed."His Grace has left the house a few minutes ago, Your Grace."Her heart immediately missed a beat."What?! Where?""I