Darling, I hope I didn't make you wait too long..." Magnus came to an immediate halt when his gaze met another person waiting for him there. Ashton turned from the canvas, leaving the paintbrush and the palette to the easel.
Damn, Magnus thought. What a perfect timing.
"Ash... I think you're someone else."
"Obviously."
Ignoring his taunting reply, he looked around at a glance. He hoped Ava had not come here yet.
"She has gone."
Magnus got stiffened at once.
"You've met her? Damn, what have you done to her?"
"It's nothing important. I have to tell you, forget that wench. She's not right for you, at all."
"And I have to tell you, mind your own fucking business."
"Anything regarding our family honor is my business. Do you know who is she?"
"I damn well know." Magnus snapped. "She is Livingston's offspring."
"So you know she is far below our socially acceptable standard. I have to remind you, you're obliged to avoid everything that will bring shame and disgrace on this family ..."
Magnus held out his hand and shook his head while deliberately giving him a dramatic sigh.
"Pardon. I'm not the least bit interested in listening to your paramount lecture."
"Fine." Ashton replied with the same indifferent tone.
"From now on, you're done with that chit."
Magnus took a quick step toward him, standing just inches away from him, challenging his gaze.
"You don't have authority over me. Damn you, you might be the bloody duke, but you can't dictate my life!"
He considered to do something entirely shocking like gripping his collar and putting a fist into his proud face. God, that would feel terribly great.
"And if you ever, ever offend her again, I swear I will break your neck."
"Go ahead, then." Ashton arched his brow in a mocking way, challenging Magnus' scathing glare.
"Because I don't plan to stop as long as I see it necessary."
Magnus squeezed his fingers until they hurt. He had sworn that the next time he had a duel with him again, he would take nothing but victory. Unfortunately it was still too early now, and he knew better than anyone that Ashton was as dangerous as he was with his sword in fistfight. He couldn't risk another defeat.
One day, he promised to himself. One sweet day.
*****
Standing by the bedroom window, Ava stared at nothing but darkness in the distance. The recent incident had left her in turmoil. Soft moonbeams shone through the room and she looked down at her wrist. A tiny yellow dirt stained the delicate skin there, it must be the spattered ink from the duke's hand.
All the bitter rejection was only a beginning. If she wanted to carry on with this relationship, there would be millions of obstacles to come in the future. Would they have the strength to stand in the storm? Would they ever make it through?
Have faith, she reminded herself again. If a little setback could weaken her will, how could they face a bigger challenge? A great storm might be on its way, but she believed, they would overcome no matter how hard it could be.
*****
"Who's coming at this hour?"
The dawn was just about to set and the sky had just turned into a lighter shade. Polly rushed to the window and peered through the misted glass. She glanced at Ava and gave a teasing smile.
"Guess who?"
She opened the door and Magnus appeared in the doorway.
"Hi Polly." Magnus smirked then his eyes riveted to her.
"Hello,"
His eyes were laced with guilt.
"I apologize I couldn't make it yesterday, dear." He came towards her.
"The old man kept me training. He insisted I shouldn't leave before he thought it was enough."
Ava gave him a thorough glance. Magnus had been training so hard recently. He really determined to prove something to his parents, to himself even more, that he could be better than his cousin, at least in one thing. She could see changes in his appearance. He became more muscular and a bit rough, and it just made him looked so ruggedly handsome.
Polly had disappeared somewhere, leaving them in privacy and he came closer, his hand brushed her cheek.
"I hope he wasn't so mean to you yesterday? I'm sorry if he made you feel so bad."
Terribly, she thought. But she didn't want to provoke him into an unnecessary confrontation.
"Ava, dear. What are you thinking? You should tell me if he hurt you. I will go now and kill him."
"No, no. You need not to worry." She assured him. "It was quite unpleasant, but not something I can't deal with."
"My brave girl" His eyes flickered with admiration. "Today is for you, every second of it. Come on, I'll be with you all day."
He stayed by her side the whole morning, walked her along to the market, his hand never left hers. He asked her the details of what happened in the tower yesterday, and she had no choice but to tell him.
"Bloody arrogant" He grumbled, seemed deeply irritated.
"Sometimes I feel, I've been misplaced for all my life. Really, I don't belong to my family. I can't wait to quit and forever be free from them."
He thought for a moment before continuing.
"Their conceit overwhelms me. They think and act like they are the most perfect, dignified, flawless persons in the world. I can't stand such hypocrisy any longer."
"One could hardly blame them for that.
Your family has an impeccable reputation for hundred of years. Thus far they has never been touched by any scandal or indignity. No wonder they despise me. I was born from misdeed, I live in disgrace, and now I've been soaking in scandal."
He squeezed her hand gently in his hold.
"It's entirely not your fault. You cannot choose the way you came to this world, dear, it was given to you, you can't help it."
She could feel sincerity and acceptance in his voice. Magnus, why did he have to be so perfect? She never met a man as genuine, honest and humble as him.
"And my haughty family, they have their flaws too, although they have successfully kept it hidden from anyone until now. And no matter how great Ashton thinks he is, he cannot escape his tainted past, too..."
In an instant, she got curious. As though he could read her mind, he smirked and pulled her hand.
"Come on, I want to show you something."
***
They arrived at a fancy cottage made of stone before a lake. Although it was just a small property, the structure was designed to perfection in a classic architecture style, and made with the finest materials to the very detail. She had no idea what was the purpose of the cottage. To her surprise, Magnus brought her to the back of the building. He didn't find any difficulty unlocking the back door with a thin wire, like he had done something like this a hundred times before. She smiled at the imaginings of him as a naughty boy. Undoubtedly he had thrown himself into mischief very often.
The door opened with a soft clicking sound, and they ventured into the dark room. He moved in the dark easily, obviously he had been very familiar with this place. He reached the window and pushed the curtains open, soon the room was flooded with natural light.
Dozens of paintings crowding the walls. Hundreds of them were on the floor, some were arranged in horizontal lines leaning to the wall or stacked in a heap. Some of them were held by easels. However, the room was large enough to provide space for the total disorder. There were only a minimal set of furniture in the room. A couch, a large wooden table and two chairs.
"What is it?" Ava looked around in wonder.
"It was once a studio."
"Is this yours?" Ava was puzzled, if this studio was his, they shouldn't come from the back door.
"No..." Magnus grinned, a mischievous glint sparkling in his eyes. "Actually it was the late duke's studio, and now it belongs to Ashton."
"Magnus!!!" She exclaimed at once.
"We have to get out of here soon! What if he finds us here?"
"Easy, sweets, easy..." He calmed her."He will not find us here. He had never come here again for a long, long time.""Are you sure?" She glanced around the room cautiously.He nodded with an assuring smile."Take a look around, you'll enjoy some of very fine arts here."She moved closer to one of the paintings to have a better look. Soon she was fascinated by the magnificent beauty before her. She found a series of old paintings in similar style nearby. With a further observation, she considered the arts seemed to be made by a young artist, probably a child. A very talented one. A thought flashing in her mind. Was it him who painted them all? She remembered how beautiful his painting she had accidentally seen yesterday."Oh, you're bruising my pride, sweetheart." Magnus' hurting voice came from behind."Ashton doesn't need one more person to admire him. He already got more than
The same day a couple hours laterAshton walked into the room that once his favorite place in the world. The only place where in his solitary being, he could feel the least alone.Ironically, this place was left to him by his father, the person who had caused the greatest loss and misery in his life, the one who was responsible for making him literally alone in this world, on his own, belonged to no one.Dusty and silent, this studio held lots of memories of his childhood. It was the place where he found solace, doing what he loved the most alone. Surrounded by silence, with pencil in his hand slid on the paper, or paintbrush between his fingers swept over the canvas. Entirely alone, absorbed in doings of his own choice. It was the time when he sank into the depth of peace beyond all the riotous thoughts.Nobody knew he still came to this place. He still painted, though his uncle had once told him th
It was over. Her relationship with Magnus had come to an end. She knew a great storm would happen one day, but she didn't expect it to come very soon, and that it would force them to break apart so abruptly. She walked home with a blank stare and an empty heart. The sky above her was getting dark. From a distance, lightning struck following by a loud thunderstorm. People rushed to escape themselves from the coming rain, but she remained slow. Some of the people stared at her in confusion, yet they were passing her without breaking pace.From the opposite direction, came a familiar sight. Magnus was walking toward her. He smiled and waved at her. Her heart ached as if it was squeezed by a cold fist. She didn't have a heart to say goodbye to him. She knew she would never be strong enough to lose him. She fought back the tears and turned away, running to another direction."Ava, wait!" In a second, he already caught up, he grabbed her wrist and
She felt a sting of pain and closed her eyes. Why did it seem impossible to escape the hands of fate? Was the curse too strong to be broken? Was it her destiny to follow the path of her ancestors?"No, Magnus. I'll never be your mistress. I'll never be any man's mistress.""Don't get me wrong, my love. I don't intend to buy you. I know you will never set a price for your love. You know I love you and respect you as well. But we have no other way. If we want to stay together, it's the best we can do.""No, Magnus. I'd better leave you than being your mistress. I've promised myself, no matter how hard life might be, no matter how impossible it might seem, I'll never choose that path. I will never be called whore, and my children will never be called bastards."She pushed him and sidestepped around him. He grabbed her hand."I never give a damn about whatever people think, I'll never see you as a
Dark clouds were laying heavy on her heart. There had been no sunshine since they had been apart. The sun still rose and shone every morning just the same as it did yesterday, but she couldn't feel the light nor the warmth. She was empty inside, on her own.She didn't know which hurt her more. That they couldn't see each other anymore or that he couldn't make her more than his mistress.She was such a fool. What made her think he would ever plan to marry her? Moreover, what made her think he would be willing to run away with her, leaving his privileged life behind and never looked back? She wasn't worth it. He was right, what he offered was the best any man could offer her. She was nothing but a pariah, she wasn't fit for any decent man, let alone the nobility. In her naivety she thought she could climb higher than any of the women of her family, but the truth was she could never escape the filth that ran in her blood, imprinted in her genes
Instantly, Ava moved her gaze to the lady next to him. Sitting elegantly beside her dashing fiancé, Lady Selene Wyndham was an epitome of beauty and grace. Ava had never seen anything quite like her. She was... perfection. The lady had a classic beauty of an aristocratic woman. She had a heart-shaped face with a pair of almond-shaped eyes, with thick and long lashes framed her sapphire blue orbs. Her straight and narrow nose pointed high, Ava imagined a little bird could perch on it, and her thin lips were taut, seemed like she was not into humor and hilarity. Her hair was a blonde color in the lightest shade that her pale forehead seemed to merge with her hairline. She wore sapphires in her hair and neck, matching her eyes and her light blue gown in an understated elegance.The following barouche brought Princess Charlotte and Lord Wyndham, and the last one brought Lord Carlton and Lady Cecily. Ava didn't saw Magnus there. Apparently he didn't join the p
Ashton froze instantly. Had he been so reckless that she noticed what he did secretly? He had done it in the slightest way possible. He managed to reply in a cool tone as well."I thought I saw someone, but I was quite mistaken." The less he spoke about it the better. Fortunately Selene didn't push him further. He was glad they reached the manor shortly afterward. The Wyndham family retired to their room. The lunch reception was still a few hours away. He withdrew to a quiet living room, allowing himself to have some privacy for a while. His mind was consumed by the earlier moment. The fact that Selene was aware of it disturbed him. He recalled the moment at the parade.He was waving to greet the people when he felt someone was staring at him. Actually everybody was staring at him at that time. He was the main spectacle at the moment, the reason people were coming and waiting. What else should they be doing?But it was d
"How are you feeling now, my dear?" Lady Byrne asked her in the afternoon after the parade while Ava was serving her some biscuits and tea."I'm fine, milady." She smiled and returned her gaze shortly while pouring the tea. Lady Byrne knew most of the story. She had told her everything except her true identity. When Magnus suddenly disappeared from her life, the lady never stopped questioning her about it and finally, she gave in to her demands. Besides, she had found that the lady was a true friend indeed, not a careless gossiper like she presumed before.She was just about to leave to the kitchen, pretending to refill the empty teapot when the lady touched her hand."You're not fine, my dear. Your lips are smiling but your eyes are not. Your eyes have stopped crying but your heart has not."Ava couldn't find a word to reply."Come and have a s
Carrying the old, unsent letter in his hand, Ashton took a determined step to Lord Carlton's bedchamber. The door was left slightly opened, as to make it easier for the servants to hear if the lord rang the bell. He stopped in front of the doorway and peered inside. Through the narrow opening, he could see his uncle across the room, sitting on the wheelchair by the window, gazing out into the wintry garden outside."Do come in."The lord called without glancing his way. Despite the head injury, his uncle hadn't lost his usual alertness, and the wheelchair didn't make him look less forbidding. He was very fortunate the injury didn't cause him any permanent damage, and though he hadn't quite regained his normal strength until this day, the doctor said that he would no longer need the device in a couple of weeks.Lord Carlton turned in his wheelchair to face him as he entered the room."What is it?"His uncle
Present DayWhen Ava peered into his chamber this morning, she found that he'd been able to get out of bed without any help. He stood in front of the mirror with a brush covered with lather in hand, meeting her gaze within the reflection. He paused, watching her breeze into the room and walk toward him."Oh, you're up already. Do you feel any better today?"She asked casually."Very much so. I think I'm going to have some fresh air. I'm tired of being confined in this room."Stopping within a foot from him, she glanced at the shaving equipment on the dresser."Let me help you.""There's no need-""Sit over there."She ignored him, motioning him to sit on the sidetable. Obediently, he did her bidding, half-sitting on the edge of the sidetable. With a brush, she smoothed the lather evenly ove
For a moment, she was quite bewildered by his request, but then she realized, by asking her to do so, he was trying to be completely truthful to her, to share his darkest secrets with her, no matter how sordid and shameful they were, to let her see the ugly side of him and to trust her without reserve.She settled back into the chair and took the letter from his hand. She opened the envelope and unfolded the letter, clearing her throat before she started reading,"Dear Carlton,I hope you will understand why I choose this way. I can no longer carry on in this fashion. It's not that I don't love you enough to go on. No words can express how much I love you. I die a little inside each time I see you. You can't imagine how difficult it is for me, but we both know that this is the best for us. I know you can't desert your family, and I don't blame you, for I can never do that to my son eith
Several hours later..."This is unspeakable. I can't believe it."Magnus' voice carried clearly across the hall. He turned around abruptly, wild sparks shooting from his eyes as he gazed furiously at the woman sitting in an armchair on the other side of the room."For Christsakes, why would you do this, Mother. How could you?"Lady Cecily stared into the void without so much as a word. Her eyes devoid of emotions, her refined feature as hard as granite.Sitting in a wheelchair pushed by a servant, Lord Carlton entered the parlor. Behind him are two of the guardsmen. Shooting a bitter look at his wife, he uttered with a composed voice."You'll be up before the magistrate to face the legal consequences of your crime. I've sent words to the authorities. The Constable will pick you up at first light."The lady took the notice with a pr
With soundless steps, Ava sneaked her way to Lord Carlton's bedchamber. The door was slightly opened, allowing a shaft of light from inside the room to spill out into the dark corridor. Stopping by the doorstep, she peeked into the room through the small opening. In the middle of the large bed, the lord lay as white and still as death. A candle burned in the nightstand, casting a dim glow in the gloom of the chamber.Drawing a long, fortifying breath, Ava slipped into the chamber. Crossing the room, she moved around the bed and sat in the chair nearby, gazing regretfully upon the lifeless face.To have a death on her conscience was too great a burden to bear. Perhaps she was a fool to think that to confess her sin and beg forgiveness from the insensible victim would give her a little comfort, but she just couldn't help it."I'm so sorry, My Lord." She began."I thou
There hadn't been much progress on Lord Carlton's condition the following day. He remained unconscious, only a faint pulse indicated there was life in there, yet it hung by a tenuous thread. In the morning, Doctor Haynes returned to check on him. Ashton asked him if there was any hope, and the doctor shook his head slightly in answer.In contrast to her dramatic reaction over Lord Carlton's condition the day before, Lady Cecily showed little interest in taking care of her husband. Instead, it was a loyal servant that had worked for the family for nearly fourty years who seemed to care deeply about him, feeding him with broth and water every hour, and applying soothing balm to his chapped lips. When she had finished her gentle ministrations, the old maid would kneel beside his bed and folded her wrinkled hands, praying for the master's recovery.Inside one of the sitting room in the secluded West Wing, Ashton stood gazing into the fire where
Ava blanched upon hearing his oath. She'd never heard such ferocity in a person's voice. Quick to notice her sudden pallor, Ashton took her hand, murmured some excuse to Aunt Cecily and Magnus, and led her out of the room."Your hands are so cold," He looked down at her hand in his hold with concerned frown. Too overwhelmed with distress, she let him take her to her chamber upstairs."Nobody will know about it." He said once the door closed behind them, and when she remained mute, pale and cold with fear, he headed to the sideboard and poured a glass of brandy. He made her finish the drink in two long swallows, and took the empty glass from her trembling hand. Setting the glass in the nearest sideboard, he placed his hands on her arms, forcing her to look directly into his eyes."Listen, I've told the guards never to breathe a word about it to anyone. I'll replace them immediately. Don't be afraid, I won't let anything bad happen to y
The next thing she knew, Ashton and the guardsmen already moved with mad haste to save Lord Carlton's life. By sheer luck, one of the guards had managed to get a wagon from a local farmer to bring the wounded lord home. She fixed the bandage and tried to slow down the bleeding, doing the best she could without further question, since the severity of the lord's injury left no time for explanation. Unfortunately the process of removing the lord from the building into the vehicle and the rough journey back home seemed to worsen his condition. Once they arrived home, a servant rushed to fetch the new doctor. During the wait, Ashton could hardly think of anything else. He was too distraught with fear, not certain Lord Carlton would survive another minute. Thankfully, within minutes the doctor arrived with his nurse."I'll do my best."Doctor Haynes promised before closing the door to Lord Carlton's bedchamber.
It seemed like the matter was urgent and highly confidential, Uncle Carlton didn't even leave his name on the message. Pulling the top drawer, he slipped the note beneath the piles of documents and rushed out of the room.*****By the time Ava returned to the study, an empty room greeted her. A sudden sense of premonition settled over her, and she instantly suppressed it. He might have retired to his chamber, or he might have been doing some other activity in another parlor somewhere in the house, she told herself. Still, she couldn't help but quicken her pace as she rushed through the house, desperate to find him as soon as possible."Edward, where's my husband?" She asked when she came across the butler in the corridor. The butler halted and bowed."His Grace has left the house a few minutes ago, Your Grace."Her heart immediately missed a beat."What?! Where?""I