“ you know you look more pretty when you moan and I love the way you react when the real deal is inside of you “ Trevor had a mocking smile on his face as he drove .I didn’t fail to notice the way he gave me a stare as if he was intentionally saying that just to puss me off .The last thing that I would do is get pissed off and I wasn’t trying to do that , not right now , not after the event that had happened between us .I didn’t want to think that I was a cheap slut for sleeping with this guy .You wouldn’t blame me though , he is the hottest guy in college if I am not mistaken and I know that a lot of ladies would really be opportuned to be with him or even still spend time with him , they see that as an opportunity and I am pretty sure that they would take that time for granted and so I wasn’t the one that is going to risk spending more time with him , that isn’t happening .“Are you even listening to me pumpkin “ I turned to face him the moment he said that .I didn’t w
“ I think you should explain yourself to why a guy dropped you off and you didn’t come back with your friend and just decided to come back home in another guys car “Shuan's voice stopped me in the hallway , the moment that I got in .I didn’t know why he sounded so mad with the way he said that .I turned and that was when I saw him standing by the corridor .He had that cold look on his face that I had never seen before and I didn’t just know if I was the cause of it or if I was not , but I didn’t do anything and nobody was going to make me explain myself to him.“You should go get ready for work shuan , I don’t know why you are waiting for me by the corridor when you should be with my mom and getting stuffs ready “I replied him trying my best to sound as formal as I could and trying to brush off the way he spoke to me , I didn’t want to think that he was mad at me .“Don’t you dare walk past me young lady “he whispered and grabbed my hands hardly as he pushed me to the wal
Dirty affairs 47 Class started as early as 8 and I have sitting down here and listening to some damn lecture even though I knew that I didn’t want to sit here and listen to what anyone had got to say but it was just like I have no choice but to sit here . I didn’t know why Angel came late today and had to sit at the back . She just managed to say hi to me and even after saying hi she didn’t spare a glance at me . I didn’t know if she was mad that I went home from that club yesterday . But it was my fault though , I just wanted to go home to my own peace . “You lied though and you know that '' my mind taunted me . I tried my best to keep that thought behind me , the lady thing that I would want at this moment is to think that she found out that I went home . I didn’t want that to happen , I didn’t want her to feel bad and all that , The last thing that I would do is say this out , I better keep this to myself . All that I could think of as I sat there was for the final class t
It was hard getting mom permission to allow me to attend that hangout again not after what happened the last time . I knew that she was just trying to look out for me but I really did appreciate if she didn’t have to do all the time when I was going out , I have to ask her every time that I had to go out and it was beginning to get on my nerves knowing how much I didn’t want to do that . “ Don’t tell me you are still mad because your mom asked you a few questions , you should be damn lucky that your mom is that way with you and even let you go out even though the both of you live in the same house and in the same state . It it was my mama , you would be damn to even step out of the house , not when he knows you have classes the next day , that’s the worst thing that can ever happen you and I know you don’t want it , so be grateful that your mom isn’t that way , but I still love my mama still I just feel like she’s just trying to protect and I appreciate that . “ I would really love
The tears kept falling off my eyes as I sat at a corner of the bar house .The tears were falling down and it was just as if I couldn’t control them .No matter what I did or how much I tried to hold myself from not crying , I just couldn’t help it , I was losing every inch of it .My heart was hurting, it was hurting right inside of me .I felt like I was going to explode if I spent more time here , I just couldn’t help the way I felt right now .“ Don't tell me you are crying because of Trevor , don’t tell me that girl “ I raised my head and that was when I saw angel looking at me .I could see how much she was panting from chasing after me and trying to get to me .I didn’t know why I had to cry , and couldn’t control my emotions .I just didn’t know why I couldn’t help it , was I stupid enough to know that he would never take me seriously .I shouldn’t have thought about something else when I thought that it was going to be him .“ Come on girl you didn’t have to run off like
The past few weeks have been the worst of my life , I must admit .The thought that I had people who would support me in any way and I thought that they loved me was just pure lies and I hated the way I had been lied to .I just had doubts and I didn’t want anyone to even come say hi to me , that is how mad I am right now .After finding out that the girl I considered to be my friend was with the same person who plotted against me , I didn’t know if I would be able to be free with anyone again .I still couldn’t understand why everything turned out this way and why she stopped so low to my face when she could just tell me the truth .I must admit that I miss Angel but then I am hurt and she has betrayed me which is the worst thing that I had to even imagine .Never did I think that I was going to be a bet to some guy whom I thought liked me .It was after everything that I began to Understand why he did some kind of shit , he just wanted to get me on his bed and he d
School didn’t feel so different when I got back .I didn’t fail to notice that everything was just the same as of Nothing had happened .I packed my car in my usual spot and then walked out of the car .The first thing I noticed when I got out was the weird stare that most of the girls gave me when I stepped out .I didn’t try much to put my thoughts on it , I just didn’t care why they were staring at me and it didn’t seem to matter because I have been getting those state from the first day that I set my foot in this school .I didn’t know why it felt weird but something told me that there was something off about the weird stare that I got .I didn’t want to think much about it , the only thing that I got on my mind at this moment was to attend the class and once all my classes for today are over , I would be going back home and straight to my room .Shuan had promised that he was going to take me out tonight and mom even agreed to it. I didn’t know if I was doing the right thing
I walked out of the classroom and I could see the stares that the student were giving me Even though I didn’t seem to care , I just wanted to get home and get this done with .The stares, the mockery and the betrayal made me hurt the most .I thought that I could trust people but the more that I could see how much they were not worth it .Walking towards my car, I could notice angel standing by it .She looked rough and her hair was the worst , I had never seen her in such a state before .A part of me wanted to care and ask if she was alright but remembering everything that I had gone to go through , I didn’t know if I even wanted to see her or just wanted her to die .“ Get away from my car Angel , the last thing that I want is to see you , I guess you know how much I hate you and I would really appreciate if you stay the fuck away from my stupid life that I am living and let me be , I don’t want to be friends with you anymore , so stop it .Angel ran towards me and h
Dirty affairs 112Angel , Angel “ I screamed at the top of my voice as I banged at her door .I knew that she might not be in or maybe she might be with her boyfriend but I just can’t risk it. I really wanted somebody that I wanted to talk to , I didn't care who it was .The only person that came to my mind was her , my girl. I knew that no matter what it was , she would be the last person that would ever turn their back at me at this crucial moment of my life but I am not going to do it anymore , I think that I am done doing this .I kept banging and banging and banging and after hitting the door for more than 30 minutes it was then that I realized that she wasn’t even in .I had never felt so helpless my entire life .I knew that it was best that I sat here and waited for her after sending her a text .I couldn’t understand what had just happened today and I wouldn't deny the fact that I had just gotten the wurst day of my love . The person that I thought was my boyfri
Dirty affairs 111Mom , mom , mom “ don’t go , don’t walk away from me “ I yelled as I dragged myself away from shuan and tried to button up my top .My head was spinning in different directions and I was breathing so hard .I knew that I was definitely going to pass out from this if I continued .But what could I do ?I thought that I had promised myself that my mom would never find me in a state like this .How could I have been so careless to let this happen , I thought that I was done with shuan , how could I be so stupid and miserable and foolish to let him do this to me again .As I rushed out of the room in a haste all that I could see was Shaun sitting comfortably in the bed, not panicked .I knew that it was my right state then he would be having some kind of explanation to do but right now , the only thing that I can keep thinking of is the pissed woman who just walked out of the door and that woman was my mother . When I rushed out , I found out that mom had taken the
First glump , second glump and I was driving straight to shuan .In the midst of all this all that I wanted at this moment was to see my step dad , it was just as if he is the only one who wouldn’t judge me for what I wasNot even my mama called to ask me how my birthday went , I had never felt this way my entire life the way I am feeling right now .Maybe I am just being punished for all the stupid decisions that I had taken in my life , maybe next time I really do have to think before I make some stupid decisions .I drove straight into the compound and to my greatest surprise , Shaun was standing by the door and he was waiting for me .This was literally the last thing that I had ever expected him to do for me .I thought that he was going to be mad because of the way that I treated him the last time but instead he acted in the direct opposite of it and if I hadn’t chased him away , I wouldn’t be here right nis .The moment I came down , shuan walked towards me and getting to wh
I had the worst birthday ever .Yes you heard me right and I wasn’t bluffing when I said that I just had the worst birthday ever .I knew that I was the one who threw everyone around me away but I never said that they should avoid me for my special day .Maybe I had turned out to be that horrible bitch that literally no one wants to associate themselves with .Angel was the only one who literally called to check up and was here with me all throughout the night .I must say that she did her best even though we still had our fight .I know that I can’t blame her for that , after all I haven’t been the best girl towards her and I know that I have been living in her face all this while .Even though this hurt so much like hell , I don’t think that I will ever be ready to let anyone know that I have been screwing my step dad .I could never l , it’s the most disgraceful thing that I had ever thought of in my entire life and it's just like hell . For the first time ever in weeks , I f
Happy birthday my darling .” Angel's voice broke me out of my thoughts as she planted a soft kiss on my back .What do you suggest we do ? Trevor isn’t coming .My head snapped at the mention of his name and I turned to look at Angel who had made that statement .I felt sick to my stomach .I didn’t know what it was with her , I had told her severally , times without number that I do not want his name to be mentioned close to me but it’s just as if she can’t understand a word of what I am saying and she keeps on making that mistake over and over again it was like she was doing this on purpose .“ I told you that I didn’t want to hear his name no more why do you keep on mentioning his name? What do you aim to achieve by trying to get on my nerves .“ grab that damn phone , call him . Tell him that you are sorry “ she told me, obviously pissed .I turned to look at her , the anger and the hate burning inside my heart .“ No “ Angel's face turned to that of total horror when she
I just don’t get it , I don’t why he acts that way towards you, I don’t know when he is going to know that if you love someone , you have to stay with them and treat them right because you will never get a better version of it again .I smiled hearing her last statement , I know that she was just trying her best to make sure that I felt okay .I could tell that by just looking at her .I loved the way Angel would always make me feel welcomed regardless of what the situation might be .“ I will be fine baby , you don’t have to worry about me .Angel turned and gave me that look. I know that she was questioning everything that had got to do with me at this moment but I couldn’t help it , there is no way on earth that I would understand why this has to happen to me in the first place .“ It's been days since I last saw Trevor , I haven’t heard from him nor have I spoken to him .I have never been this mad at anyone my entire life the way I was so mad at him at this moment .The
Dirty affairs 106 The house has been so calm since my step dad left .I had so many thoughts that were going through my mind at the same time , I didn’t want to think that it was what I was thinking .I made sure that I cleaned my whole room and taking the last look at myself I knew that I was ready to go .I grabbed my keys from where they were and just as I was about going out , I bumped into Trevor .I know what he was doing here .I thought that he had gone away .I could see those looks and I could tell that they aren’t just looks , Thomas' judgemental looks were literally killing me .He stood there watching me and the only thing that kept going through my mind at this moment was when he got into the room because I know that he never did , not one that I was aware of .The both of us stood there in total silence not saying a word to the other even though we so much wanted to .I had never felt that intense feeling ever in my entire life , I could literally feel my hear
Trevor stupid there for a while without saying a word o the both of us .I had never been in a situation like this in my entire life , all that I wanted was for the ground to open and Swallow me .I had never been so speechless and the shock was something that I never expected .I knew that he left , but I never expected him to be this back this early .I couldn’t imagine what he had heard . what if he heard us talking about it? , I didn’t want to think that he heard about all the stufff that we had just said .The tears started pouring out of my eyes without control at that moment .I am pretty’s sure that he heard us talking about it and now I know that he would be planning on breaking up with me , I could never tell , I couldn’t imagine .These were the two important people in my life and i couldn’t belive the fact that I was just throwing them away .what the fuck is he doing here ? Shuan snapped at me angrily .I knew that he was pretending to be mad , he had no right
The rays of sunlight were the first thing that I saw and when I opened my eyes , I could see a figure standing there just right in front of me .I know that I moved out of my mom's house yesterday but what I couldn’t understand was who and how he got here . My eyes opened immediately and I saw the figure that was standing there. I knew that this wasn’t a fucking dream , it was him , he was standing right there and looking at me like I was some kind of movie .I could never understand this man , what the fuck was he doing here .For the record , I never wanted him to know where my house was .I knew what I did when I kept this away from him but the fact that he could still find it made it more challenging for me .“Shuan , wtf are you doing here ?” I scream at him at the top of my voice .I had never been so pissed at anyone the way I was so pissed at this man at this moment .I couldn’t imagine what might have happened between him and Trevor as I wasn’t here .I didn’t know