Chapter 93: Regret

I'm ashamed because I grew foolish at the periods when I should have been falling in love with her. The drugs that I slathered all over my body had me completely engulfed. At times when I should have loved her more, I was preoccupied with the desires of my body. In part, I wanted to bring back the past because I never imagined it would be so agonizing to see her walk to the altar while my cousin waited for her at the end. Although I didn't see myself with her kneeling at the altar at the time, it occurred to me that she was wearing the veil of the wedding dress and that my cousin was with her at the time that I would have been. I wish I could make a pledge to her in front of God. However, no matter what I do, that is impossible due to the amount of sin I have given her.

The girl stripped off all of her clothing from head to toe. It was evident from the expression on her face that everything she was doing was taking place outside of herself. She stares at me with loathing in her eyes.