After Gladwin left, Abigail sat on a bar stool. She took a deep breath and exhaled slowly as if trying to release the heavy burden she had been carrying without realizing it.
What did his uncle do this time? How long will the man stay? Why did that man come back without any notice at all?
Abigail glanced at the two bedroom doors, which were closed alternately. She was sad for her friend. She was the only person who knew how much her step-cousin and best friend fell in love with her uncle.
Yes, Abigail knows Flavia loves Gladwin even though she discovered it accidentally.
She knew why her friend chose to leave Kansas and study in California. It was none other than the girl's attempt to forget her uncle, who suddenly decided to continue earning his doctoral degree in Germany.
Heartbroken teenage Flavia. How could it not be the man she loved decided to leave after rejecting her love? A love that she hasn't even had the chance to express directly.
Flashback
That was the day Antony's family celebrated Ignazio's third birthday, as well as a thanksgiving for Claire's pregnancy, which was seven months old.
Abigail, Flavia, and their friend Haisley, who was on holiday in Kansas during their college years with Gilbert, Steven, Loretta and Nathaniel—a figure whose existence was shocking—chose to sit together in the gazebo to enjoy food. Gladwin arrived late at that time. He came with fellow doctors who worked at the same hospital as him and joined them. Freddie and Phoebe.
"Can I join?" Greet Freddie in a friendly manner. Abigail and Flavia knew him because the doctor often came to their house to play. Meanwhile, Phoebe, this is the first time they have met.
"Please, Doc," Abigail answered. The almost entire pavilion was now full.
"This is Doctor Phoebe. She's new to our ward." Gladwin said as an introduction. "These are my nieces. Abigail, Flavia. And their friends." Then, they introduced themselves to each other.
Abigail watched Phoebe and Gladwin take turns. Judging from her movements, she knew that the female doctor liked her uncle.
Regarding age range, Abigail, Flavia and Haisley were the younger people among the ten. So when those people talked about business and things appropriate for their age, the three young girls didn't understand. But there was one thing that Abigail understood from the gathering of people there. The smell of love and jealousy wafts in the air.
Abigail could see how Nathan didn't take his eyes off Haisley, and neither did Steven. And every time Steven looked at Haisley or was nice to her, Nathan's face would suddenly turn cold.
Meanwhile Gilbert. The man Abigail likes also clearly likes Flavia, even though the face he shows looks flat. Both she and Gilbert knew that the person Flavia adored was Gladwin.
Meanwhile, Gladwin, whether he knew or chose to pretend not to know, preferred to pay attention to Phoebe, who was sitting beside him.
Abigail didn't lose her mind. Because she knows Flavia won't dare to express her feelings, she will try to help her.
"Hey, Uncle." Point Abigail to Nathan, Gladwin and Freddie. "May I ask you something?" She asked, to which the three answered with nods. "But please answer honestly." Abigail continued again, to which the three gave a nod. "Okay, here's the question. So, I'm currently eighteen years old and going on nineteen. Do you think that's an adult or a child?" Abigail looked at Freddie first.
"Obviously, still young. Not yet an adult." Freddie answered honestly.
"Same," Nathan answered
"Depends," Gladwin answered.
"Depends on what?" Abigail asked, confused.
"Depends on what kind of adult you mean. Physical or mindset?"
"Both of them," Abigail answered again.
"Yes, everyone has a different character. Some are mature in mind but have yet to be in age. And some are the opposite."
Abigail's brow furrowed. "Okay. Now assess the three of us. Me, Flavia, and Haisley. What does our uncle think?" She challenged.
"I don't know Haisley. As for you, you are far from an adult. You are still a child. And Via, she is already an adult in her thinking." Gladwin answered honestly.
"Okay. Next question," Abigail said. "For example, Haisley, Via, I like men the same age as the uncles here. Will you accept us?"
"Like and love may have different definitions for us boys and those of you who are still young," Freddie answered.
"It means?"
"There is like just like. There is something that leads to obsession. There is love that is love. And there is love that is based on obsession. So which like and love do you mean?"
Abigail frowned. "Mm... a kind of like where our heart beats faster than usual when we see that person. Then we wish we could keep seeing him. Waiting for his message; who knows when it will come in? Or beating just by getting a greeting from him?"
"Are you annoyed if he is with another woman?" Freddie asked, and then Abigail nodded. "Are you worried that he didn't send you a message? But did you have the courage to ask him how he was doing first?" Abigail nodded again. "Did you cry when he left?" Again, Abigail nodded. "Then, if another man approaches you, will you accept that man?" This time, Abigail shook her head. "Even though he is more handsome or richer than that person?" Abigail nodded. "Okay, fix, it's love. Even though I don't know how long it will last." Freddie said with an amused smile on his face. "But considering that you don't turn to men who are more handsome or maybe richer, it means you sincerely love his ugliness." Laughter could be heard echoing in the pavilion.
"So?" Abigail asked impatiently.
"Yeah, if that happened to me, I wouldn't mind. Twelve years apart, it's not that bad. Besides, that's enough age to live together or get married."
"I'm okay. I'm only two and eight, only ten years apart." Nathan answered casually.
"How about uncle?" he asked Gladwin.
"For me, No!" The answer is short.
"Why?"
"The answer is clear. It feels like marrying my niece. I prefer women who are not too far apart in age. At least our mindsets are balanced.
"A decade's difference has more or less an influence on a relationship. Characteristics, hobbies and ways of learning will be different. In a relationship, the main foundation is communication.
"We can't give in and become childish to balance ourselves with a younger partner. Likewise, you can't pretend to be mature to balance us, older men.
"And other complicated problems will arise due to one factor. Age. Even though those who are the same age don't necessarily have any conflicts. But in terms of communication, they feel more comfortable." The answer is long.
Abigail nodded in understanding what her uncle said made a lot of sense. Although on the other hand, she was pretty heartbroken to hear that.
Abigail looked at Haisley, who was smiling blushingly, looking satisfied with the answer from Nathan, the man she adored.
Meanwhile, Flavia seemed smiling, trying to look as strong as usual. Her friend knew that what Gladwin said was an indirect rejection of her existence, of her love. The girl was sad, and it could be seen from her eyes. But Abigail didn't want to prolong it.
Decade. That was the word Gladwin said earlier as a benchmark. Walls built to keep away from Flavia's love. And since then, Flavia seems to have kept her distance from Gladwin. And when Gladwin said he would continue his PhD in Germany. The girl chose to pursue her scholarship at UC Berkeley as her last attempt to forget her love.
Flashback Off
Flavia blinked and realized that she was no longer in the living room. She tried to get up from the bed and noticed something strange with her right hand. When she turned, she could see an IV needle attached there. What happened? Flavia tried to remember. Earlier, she was lying on the sofa, dreaming of meeting Gladwin. Gladwin? Flavia furrowed her brow. Yes, even though it seemed real, Flavia knew it was just a dream. But what about the IV in her hand? Did Abigail call a doctor for her? Flavia uncovered herself and slowly got out of bed. The marble floor beneath her felt cold on the soles of her feet. Although her body felt fresher than before, and her head no longer ached, she still felt weak. Flavia turned off the IV and removed the needle slowly. Her hand felt a pinch as the plaster and needle came off. She opened the door and saw Abigail sitting at the bar table, busy with her tablet. "Awake already?" she asked with a worried expression. Flavia just nodded. "Feeling better?"
Dear Diary Long time no see My greeting for you that I copied from someone who always greets anyone he knows, whether it's someone he loves or just a friend... Long time no see The first sentence he uttered with a smile that made my heart beat uncontrollably... The sentence that made me understand what admiration is, since I was 13 years old... And when was that? Ten years ago? I never thought that the owner of that sentence could be seen by me again now, after five years of not meeting... Yes, not with me, because with his core family, he always meets. It's just me who always avoids every time I find out about his whereabouts... Am I wrong, Diary? Ten years of harboring feelings that initially I thought were just admiration for his handsomeness, intelligence, and humor... He, whom I initially admired when I was just a naive little girl about what love is, only considered him as an elder brother figure that I never had. But these ten passing years have not changed the sp
Flavia noticed a foreign car in her driveway. It wasn't actually a foreign car, but Gladwin's car. So, her uncle had decided to inform Flavia's parents of his return. That meant the man was rested enough and ready to be teased by Flavia's mother and siblings. Knowing this, Flavia just smiled quietly to herself. Carrying her siblings' shopping items to the playroom, Flavia then chose to hide in her father's office. She had two reasons for doing so. The first reason was Gladwin, and the second reason was that she genuinely wanted to finish her work quickly. Flavia was majoring in administration at college. However, thanks to her uncle Altezza, a skilled architect, she learned how to create building designs and use computer applications widely used by talented architects today. Flavia had already measured the shop they were going to rent, and now she was planning its interior design before deciding on the workers who would execute it. Her work took time, so she only came out when sh
Flavia sat silently in the car driven by her private chauffeur. This morning, she had an appointment with Abigail at their new café to discuss the furniture they would buy before her friend got busy with her photography schedule. It had been several days since the dinner event with Gladwin. As Flavia knew from their previous conversation, her uncle had started working actively at a renowned hospital not far from the new café. This meant that soon, after the café officially opened, she might meet her uncle again and even his colleagues. But long before that happened, Flavia had to come up with a reason to avoid the party her step-grandmother was planning for her uncle. It would be a celebration for Gladwin's return and his acceptance at one of the prestigious hospitals in their city. It's not that Flavia disliked her step-grandmother or felt uncomfortable in her stepmother's family. On the contrary, she felt very comfortable. Even though she was Claire's stepdaughter, Claire's famil
Dear Diary, I want to vent again, after holding it in for some time. May I? Where should I begin this complaint? I just want to know, until when will these trials keep coming to me? After days of trying to avoid them, why do we have to meet again? It feels like I'm running in circles. When I think I've gone far enough, in the next step, I'm back to the starting point of my journey. Is this fate? I can't say it's fate. Not after the cruel fate separated me from him. Not after the cruel fate gave me a... I don't even want to say it because I don't want to remember it. Dear Diary, I promised that I wouldn't wait anymore. But seeing him again makes my determination waver. I'm entranced by his smile, and I fall in love because of his laughter. I'm trapped again, falling into his charm. I don't deserve to hope for him. It feels like, to fall in love with him, I don't deserve it. Maybe in the past, I dreamed of having him. Loving him for the rest of the life that God gave me. But
"Why is Uncle here?" Gladwin turned to look at his niece. Her beautiful face looked melancholic, her cheeks reddened by the hot sun. They were sitting on a bench in the courtyard of the orphanage, right under the tall mango tree. "Why indeed? Is Uncle not allowed to be here?" Flavia turned, looking back at Gladwin with her golden-brown eyes and shaking her head. "Not like that. It's just that I heard today Grandma is organizing a welcome party for Uncle at home," replied Flavia in her calm tone. Gladwin noticed the movement of the girl's skirt as she shifted back and forth. "So, if Grandma is throwing a party, I'm not allowed to be here?" Gladwin asked, raising an eyebrow. "Not like that," Flavia replied with a tone of resignation. Gladwin liked hearing the girl in front of him whining. It felt like seeing Flavia ten years ago when she was still a teenager. "I mean, the party is for your welcome. Uncle is the main star; how can the star not be present at his own event?" Gladwin s
Flavia gazed at the two-story house with a long sigh. The luxurious house that had been her second home for eleven years once again made her feel uncomfortable. For the past five years, the place always made Flavia nervous. Carrying a paper bag with clothes she had intentionally chosen for this occasion, Flavia walked in following Gladwin. Instead of using the front door, they opted to enter through the side door that led directly to the kitchen. The housemaid who already knew her greeted her warmly. "Is Mom already here?" Flavia asked, glancing towards the interior of the house. "Yes, Miss. Mrs. Claire is in front of the house with Mr. Antony," replied the housemaid, acknowledged by Flavia with a nod. "And Abigail?" "She's upstairs. Getting ready, she said." Flavia nodded again and chose to walk up the stairs to her friend's room. The room they always shared when they gathered there. Flavia knocked on the door as a form of courtesy. She never wanted to open the door directly, f
"I'm not acting strange. Medusa is too arrogant. I can't stand her having a relationship with Uncle Gladwin, especially when she openly insults you. Who does she think she is?" "But it didn't have to be so confrontational, right?" Abigail just shrugged. They were now in the living room where a long bench filled with plenty of food was served, and dinner began after a few words from the party organizers. Flavia was still at Gladwin's residence, helping the household assistants clean up the leftovers of the guests while some men continued the drinking session in the backyard. "Are you staying overnight?" Abigail asked, carrying a dirty plate in her hands. "No, I'll be heading home," Flavia replied, placing the plate on the bar table, which would later be washed by the assistants. "Why? I was planning to stay here and not go back to the apartment." "There's still work I need to finish," Flavia said casually. "Work or..." Abigail paused her statement. "Abby, stop teasing me." Ab