EMMAI worked about eight hours over that first weekend at St. Agnes, mostly because I was still trying to catch up and become familiar with all of the patients. In addition to those currently on the floor of the oncology wing, we had others who would be coming in for treatment in the future. I wanted to begin establishing some protocol for integrating natural healing into their care plans from the start. And to be honest, being in the air-conditioned corridors of the hospital was a far cry better than melting in the afternoon heat in my trailer. On Sunday afternoon, Jenny called me just as I left St. Agnes and invited me over to swim and eat dinner. I was pathetically grateful for both the company and the chance to be in a real house. The home she was sub-letting from Nico really was gorgeous. I loved the lush backyard, with flowers and deep green plants surrounding the swimming pool. Jenny made us salads with crusty homemade Italian bread and special vegan cookies for dess
EMMAIt was a Friday morning, and I had gotten up early to get some work done at the hospital before the official day began. At least, that was what I was telling myself; in truth, it had been a very still, muggy night which had dawned to an even hotter, more humid morning, and the idea of air conditioning had been too tempting to resist. I was sitting at one of the nurses' stations, working on the computer there as I enjoyed my coffee. I chatted back and forth with Darcy, who was just finishing up her overnight shift. "Rough night?" She eyed my jeans and sleeveless blouse. "You're not the fashion diva I'm used to seeing." I grimaced. I hadn't shared the details of what I privately referred to as my living situation with anyone but Jenny, who had seen it up close and personal. Despite the challenges of my home, I still tried to come to work dressed professionally, but this morning, bleary-eyed from a restless night, I hadn't been able to muster the energy for heels and a dre
EMMATwenty minutes later, just as the shift was changing and the hospital was transitioning from nighttime vibe into daytime brightness, I dragged my feet down the hallway toward Dr. Girard's office. I hadn't felt this much trepidation and guilt since I was a sophomore in high school.The door was open, and I paused just outside. He was sitting at the desk, his head bent over the keyboard of his computer. As before, he seemed to feel my presence before I made a sound. "I wondered if you'd come, or if you'd just pretend that this morning didn't happen." I sighed, resting my back against the doorjamb and stretching my neck. "I have a quick temper, and I have a tendency to speak before I think. My mother used to say that my mouth went into drive before my brain was engaged. But even so, I don't hold a grudge, and I always own up to my mistakes." "That's good to know." Finally, Dr. Girard looked up. "On the other hand, I'm a stubborn son of a bitch. I have an unfortunate habi
EMMA"If I had half the intelligence I claim to have, I would have taken you up on your offer to move in here with you as soon as you mentioned it." With a happy sigh, I turned over on my raft to grin at Jenny, who was stretched out on a chaise lounge alongside the pool. "This could be my life all the time. I wouldn't have to worry about sweating through every night, trying to get lukewarm water for a shower, how to keep my food cold . . . or my new best friend, the skink." Jenny laughed and shaded her eyes to look at me. "You have a new best friend who's a skank? Do tell. Do I know her?" "Skink, not skank," I corrected. "And no, I don't believe you've had the pleasure. We met four nights ago . . . you remember the day we had that killer storm, and then instead of cooling things off the way storms do up north, it actually left us with more humidity? Remember that?" She snorted. "Vaguely. I can't be sure, since I live in the lap of air-conditioned luxury." "Nice. Well, any
EMMAJenny wrapped her arms around her middle. I could see the tremor in her hands. "You left me. You . . . we made love. And then you were gone. Just . . . gone, with no explanation. You walked away from me, Nico." Her shoulders squared. "No, you fucking ran away from me, like what we did-what was between us-like it didn't matter at all. Like it meant nothing." I was frozen to my spot in the pool, both arms resting on the raft, my eyes wide as they darted from Jenny to Nico. I knew that this was an intensely private moment, and I should get the hell out of here, but I was afraid of what might happen if I reminded either of them of my presence. There wasn't any way for me to get out of the water gracefully. My only other option was to sink underwater, and call me crazy, but I wasn't prepared to drown to give them privacy. "Jen." Nico reached for her hand, and with some effort, pried it loose from where she was gripping her arm. "Jenny. Please. Listen to me. You're right, I did
DEACONDeacon"You know, sometimes I can't believe my cancer doctor is so freaking hot." Angela Spencer leaned her pale cheek on her hand and sighed, pretending to look dreamy as she batted her eyelids at me from her bed."And that's why you're my favorite patient." I strolled into the room. "Aside from being full of shit, how are you doing today?" "Hey, do you talk to all of your patients with that mouth?" She pretended to scowl. "And I'm fine. I mean, as fine as anyone with acute lymphocytic leukemia could be, particularly when she is facing the chemo that's going to wipe out her immune system and leave her vulnerable to all manner of illness and infection. That kind of fine." "I understood what you meant." I crossed my arms and leaned my ass on the corner of the desk that was pushed against the wall. "But at least you have the best digs on the floor in which to go through all the fun and games." It was true, too. When I'd set out to make this wing a reality for St. Ag
DEACONI tried to let it go. I intentionally avoided going past Emma's office after I left Angela Spencer's room; I made the rounds to see my other patients, focusing on the real issues and worries that they were facing. Shortly before the end of the day, I met with a man who had just been admitted for his initial treatment for pancreatic cancer. George Brewer was understandably nervous, worried about both his prognosis and his treatment. I was in the middle of reassuring him when Emma knocked on the door. "Oh." She looked momentarily nonplussed when she spotted me sitting in a chair near Mr. Brewer's bed. "I'm sorry, Dea-Dr. Girard. I didn't realize you were in here. I can come back." "No, that's all right." I could be magnanimous, I decided. I had to be professional, after all; I didn't want anyone to get the sense that Angela had teased me about. I wasn't in competition with Emma Carson for the affection or the respect of our patients. "Actually, this is great timing. Mr. Br
EMMAI hadn't realized that part of responsibilities at St. Agnes would be calming down after Deacon Girard had gotten me all riled up. I didn't know that was going to be a regular part of the gig. Yet here I was . . . again. I'd managed to grit my teeth through the rest of the afternoon, doing my best to hide any residual frustration about my spat with Deacon. I knew it shouldn't matter. He'd disagreed with something I'd done-which, apparently, he hadn't even known about because he hadn't bothered to read my notes on the file. It was infuriating-and over something so stupid. As I drove home in the setting sun, still in a little bit of a funk, I called Jenny. Today was her day off, so I hadn't seen her. Actually, I hadn't seen much of my friend since Nico had swept back into her life. He wasn't living with her-he was up to his neck in work, since the restaurant was opening in a week-but he drove over several nights a week, and she'd made the trip to St. Pete more than once, as