I relaxed my body and evened out my breathing, pretending that I was knocked out as I waited for the time that Stone falls asleep. The second he does, I'm ripping my body from under the blanket, put some clothes on, and I'm running out of this room, far away from him.
After Stone almost choked me to death and kissed the breath out of me, he dragged me under the sheet and commanded me to go to sleep. But how could I even sleep in this situation? I couldn't keep my mind off his huge bulge poking my lower back as he was stark naked under the sheets.
What am I going to do? I'm so terrified of him already.
After some time, I felt his breathing relaxing, and I took that as my cue that he was asleep. I slowly attempted to remove his hands that were gripping my waist from me, but to my disappointment, he wouldn't budge. What the fuck. I tried to pull his arms off once more but flinched back into place when he unexpectedly tightened his hold. I slowly turned my head to look back at him, but all I could see was his dark figure as the lights were turned off. "Try to get out one more time," he boomed in a warning tone.
Never in life would I imagine myself in this situation where a man is demanding obedience from me because he thinks I'm some property he could claim as his, and if I don't submit, I would be punished.
I'm going to act like I'll listen to him and do everything he says for now because he won't let me out of the room. But, as soon as I step out of this door tomorrow, I'm going straight to my dad and telling him everything so we can leave this place. Mr. Armsberg knew that this was his son's room. Just like I predicted, this shit was a setup. But, of course, things were too good to be true. People never do something for the sake of kindness or anything for free.
I won't be here to know what more they are planning to do to me; I'm sure my dad will drag me out of this place after I tell him everything.
....I don't know when I fell asleep last night, but I woke up this morning to find the empty bed with me sprawled out alone. I turned to look at the side where that man slept last night, but only to find it cleaned as if I was the only one who slept in here. It's a good thing that he's gone. Now I can just get out of here.
I quickly ran out of the bed and walked into the closet. I was surprised to see it packed with men's and women's clothing and accessories. I looked closer to see some of those were mines—the ones I bought with me here. But I didn't touch my luggage, who did this? Did Stone have people bring up my stuff in here? He's the only one who came into the room. I'm sure it was him. He really is planning on keeping me here. I won't let him hurt me again.
I grabbed one of my oversized hoodies that reached down to my knees and threw it on with a pair of sandals. As soon as I finished, I dashed out of the room and into the elevator.
The elevator dinged, signaling that I had reached the third floor. I quickly walked out, determined to get out of here as soon as I could but slowed down when I noticed Isabel from the corner of my eye; I turned my head to get a full glimpse of her, only to see her holding a small suitcase.
She turned the corner, and her eyes met mine. "Hey, Sie, how was your night?" she said, waving at me.
"Hi Isa, um, it was something" I took a long pause, debating if I should say something but decided against it. "Where are you going?"She looked down at her luggage and exclaimed with a smile, "Oh, I'm just going to spend the week with a friend." After she said that, she looked around as if watching to see if someone would hear her.She looked down at her pearly watch before raising her head and looking back at me again, "I'll be back before you know it, okay?" with that, she took her luggage, and just like that, she was gone. I hope she has fun wherever she's off to.
Now to focus on me, I have to find my dad quickly.
As I made it all the way to the other house's dining room, The sound of laughter entered my ears, and I recognized that it was my dad and Mr. Armsberg."Thank you so much for everything; this is the kind of lifestyle that I've always wished I could give my daughter; I've always felt like a failure because I couldn't provide her the basic needs; her mother was not the best either." My dad chuckled. "My little girl just turned 18, and I felt like she missed a lot of her childhood".I thought back to the times when I, too, felt like I wasn't enjoying being a kid; I never got the luxury of being free of worries, and I never got the chance to be a teenage girl worrying about typical teenage kinds of stuff either. Listening to my dad addressing and saying what I wish he could have seen brought tears to my eyes. So he does care about me?
Maybe I have been a brat. Perhaps I was the selfish one in my family who never thought about others' emotions. I never really thought about how hard it was for my father; I never knew how hard it was for him to feel the way that he does.Maybe it was all in my head, Or maybe Stone just went to the wrong room last night, and he was drunk or something... I guess. Alcohol does make people do irrational things without thinking. Maybe it really was an accident. This could have all been a misunderstanding. I should drop it and give this family one more chance, at least just for my dad's sake.
"Oh hey, Sei" I got startled as I heard my dad's voice. "We didn't see you there." He said with a soft chuckle
"What are you doing here?" Mr. Armsberg said with his left brow slightly raised.
"I wanted to see my dad," I said, moving from the corner and walking over to them. Damn it, I wasn't supposed to look like I was eavesdropping. I look hella suspicious right now.
I wrapped my arms around my dad as I made it over. I rested my chin on his chest and looked at him over my lashes. "Good morning, Daddy." Way to go on not making myself look suspicious; I haven't called him Daddy in so long that he was taken aback. "Is everything okay?" He said, brushing his hands over my head. He knows I wanted something. I took a deep breath and convinced myself that I was okay. It was all just in my head. It was probably a one-timing thing, and if I go back to the room later, he'll be gone and leave an apology note saying that he was drunk. Let's forget about it and accept this life for your father. He deserves a chance to be happy and relaxed.
"Yes, I wanted to eat breakfast with you," I said, holding him tighter.
"Wow, my daughter cares," he chuckled and took my hand in his, and we headed to the dining table with Mr. Armsberg trailing right behind us....Breakfast with my dad was really peaceful.
Things felt just like the old days; maybe I should open up my heart more and stop seeing the bad in everything. Stop looking too deep into things— which always ends up hurting my feelings. That had always been a bad trait I struggled with all my life. Because of that, it prevented me from doing many things. I'm always wondering what can go wrong everywhere I go, and most of the time, I can't help but do that."Are you excited to start college?" I looked up to see Mr. Armsberg staring at me, smiling. I honestly so badly wanted to slap that smile out of his face. That two-faced bitch. "No," I simply answered him, gently moving the plate away from me since I was finished.
"No?" He said with a confused face. "Then why are you going?"
"I need a stable job to make money and have a good life, so where do people go to do that? "College," and my dad wants me to go," I said sarcastically.
He chuckled at my response. "Well, you don't have to go if you don't want to, my son has a company, and he could hook you up with a stable job that pays very well; he was looking for a personal assistant anyway," after he mentioned his son that was a no for me. I'm going to stay away from that man.
"I would love to have you as my PA," I thought I was over things. Even though this is his house, I wasn't expecting Stone to walk in here. The way I had manipulated myself to believe that he would walk in here on his knees and apologize for what he had done to me is insane.
The sound of his deep voice entering my ear woke me up instantly and had me sitting straight like a statue. Everything was real; what he did couldn't be blamed on alcohol. He knew exactly what he was doing, and I knew that since last night.
I've always been able to manipulate my thought process easily; it was a coping mechanism of mine, something to ease my mind when I am under extreme stress.
"That would make everything so much easier for us," he said casually; I felt like there was more meaning to what he said. There had to be; the double meaning of his words were loud and clear.
He dragged a chair back and sat right next to me. My dad and Mr. Armsberg were sitting on the other end of the dining table while Stone and I sat on the other end facing our dads. Stone turned his body around, fully facing me. I could feel his eyes raking over my face as he took in the details.
I. am. so. scared. right now.
I'm getting scared of him— terrified even.
"We're going to have so much fun," he said huskily, and suddenly heat submerged my thigh as a big hand settled on my bare thigh. Oh no.I looked down to see his lighter tone hand placed on top of my brown tone thigh; his hand started trailing over my thigh with a weight that will make sure I won't be able to forget the rough feeling of his hand for the next few weeks to come as it moves its way higher up. I quickly grabbed him as I tried my hardest to keep my movement minimal because my father sat across from me. But, unfortunately, My hand gripping his didn't stop his movements. Instead, the heat of his palm intensified as he tightened his hold.
My heart rate escalated rapidly as his hand continued its hunt and made it over to my private. He cupped my core into his large palm, and my eyes widened as he gripped it.
I snapped my eyes to him, only to be met with a wide smirk plastered on his face as if he was winning.
Suddenly his fingers slid my panties to the side, and his bare hands touched my lips. He moved his fingers up and down my lips until they came in contact with my clit. He stared into my eyes deeply— as if he wanted me to remember the core memory of the first person ever to have access to my forbidden area. He smiled lazily and started rubbing circles. Oh My God.Why did I not wear any long pants? I blinked continuously, trying to clear my eyes from the tears threatening to moisten them. "I've never done anything like that before, so I'm scared," I said more to Stone, hoping he understood me. Hoping he understands exactly what he is doing to me at the moment.
"I know," he replied, his voice deep and husky. I quickly snapped my eyes back to my dad to see him staring at me with a worried expression. "What's so scary, Sei?"
I thought for a moment, trying to find something to say to him, something to give him a little hint, but as I was about to open my mouth, I was interrupted by Mr. Armsberg. "It's time to leave now, Henry, or we might be late," he said, standing up from his chair.
"Oh right, we'll talk when I come back, okay?" my dad said, looking back at me one more time. I stared at my dad, actually screaming in my head for him to come back as they started walking out of the dining room, leaving me all alone with this man.
His hands which were still in my panties, brought me back as he retreated them. I was about to release a breath of relief, thinking that he wouldn't take things much further, but I was suddenly lifted off my seat, and in one swift motion, I was straddling his lap face to face with him.
The statics started going off in my head at the realization of our erotic position, and as I was about to scream at him to let me go, his lips crashed down on mine, shutting me up. Then, one of his hands went to the back of my neck, and he held my head still, kissing me hard. I almost screamed inside his mouth as his fingers made their way back into my panties and separated my slightly moist folds.
I grabbed his hand in an attempt to push him away from me, but it seemed like none of my struggles phased him as he easily found my clit, and he began rubbing in a not-so-gentle motion with purpose. Tears blurred my vision, and I began to fight harder against him to let me go, but all became futile as I seemed powerless against his bigger forms and bulging, muscled arms that had a tight grip on me.
After some time, as my struggle began to calm down and my nether lips became wet from all his rubbing on my clit, the sound of our lips parting ways echoed in the living room. His hand still held the back of my head tight, he stared into my eyes, and I thought my heart was going to pop out of my chest from the scary glint I noticed in his hazel eyes. He leaned down towards my face, and his breath tickled my ears as he whispered, "One finger."
My mouth widened ajar as he slowly shoved a finger into my sleek hole.
"Stop," I begged pathetically. By now, I could not stop the tears from escaping my eyes no longer. One of my hands reached down, gripping his wrist as the other began pushing against him harder.
"Shh," he shushed me. His eyes were trained down on me, watching my every reaction, every wince, and every tear form as he began moving his one finger back and forth slowly.
He brought his head down and rested his forehead against mine, staring into my eyes. "Relax, I can make you feel good," he said, placing a soft kiss on my parted lips that seemed to want to scream but was unable to do so as I was in shock. Then I felt the stretch of an added finger, and that was enough to make me go violent."Stop! I don't want it," I cried and attempted to drop myself off his lap. My scream got louder as he swiftly stood up, pushed me down harshly on the dining table— knocking the breath from my lungs— and slammed both his fingers deeper into my walls. The feeling of being stretched registered in my mind.
"I don't care; I told you that you're mine; I can do whatever I want," He stated, staring deep into my eyes and making me realize how fucked I was.I whimper as the pace of his fingers increases, and it brings me nothing but pain from the slight stretch. I felt the softness of the pad of his thumb on my clit, and he started rubbing in an attempt to get me wetter.
I closed my eyes and tried again. "Please don't do this to me." Sobbing, I wiggled against him and felt his hold loosen and his fingers slowly extracted from my hole. Thinking that I had freed myself from him, I wasted no time rolling away from him and let out a pained gasp as I fell off the table.
I pulled my panties up, got on my hands and knees, and ran under the table. I brought my trembling knees to my chest and looked down at his spotless leather shoes. The sound of his phone ringing caught my attention; at the second ring, the call cut, and with my heart pounding against my chest in fear, I watched as he bent down with his phone against his ear as stared back at me with a strange gaze.
A smirk formed on his features, bringing the two fingers which were inside me not too long ago to his lips. He took them inside his mouth and sucked them clean. "I'll take it tonight, Mein Liebling" (My darling); with that, he got up, and I watched his shoes walking away from the table.
I wasn't wrong... He knew exactly what he was doing.I laid still on the floor, unable to move; my body was still in shock, and even after I saw his leather shoes disappearing from the dining room and out of the door, I didn't move an inch. I couldn't move an inch. I didn't know what to do or where to go; I wanted so badly to go lay down somewhere, but I can't just go to the room, sit down, and wait for Stone to come violate me. I know the next time he see's me, he'll do something bad to me. What am I going to do? What can I say to my dad? Is he going to believe me after I acted like everything was fine this morning? Mr. Armsberg even put out a great proposition/ alternative for me about work; my dad will definitely call me spoiled now. The thoughts swarmed my head and only caused me to start hyperventilating. Why are bad things always happening to me? What am I going to do?Seeing no solutions to any of these situations, I cried harder. On the verge of my breakdown, I was startled out of it when the sound of a man's voice entere
With great difficulty, I got off the bed and made my way to Stone's house. It took me about 15 minutes to get there on foot. Not only was it far, but I took my time to walk there; I was basically dragging my feet because of the dread I felt. When I got inside the house, the whole mansion was quiet. It was scary; it was like everyone left the estate, and I was left alone to make my way to Stone. I walked to the elevator crying my eyes out, knowing what was waiting for me in that room. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused with everything, but one thing I know for sure is that Stone won't leave me alone. Maybe I'll try talking to him about why he should leave me alone. I'll tell him I'm a lesbian, and men don't attract me. What am I saying? I've never been open about my sexuality; I'm too pussy to do any of that. The only thing I know is that I'm attracted to girls; I've never looked at boys; I don't find them interesting. Stone has been the only man that I've been in such close co
As his tongue licked and sucked on my clit, along with his fingers thrusting into my hole, pleasure crept up on me. My body started to give him the reaction he wanted. I couldn't move, and I couldn't focus on anything but his assaults on me. The way he slurped up my juices and spat it back only to slurp it back up had my eyes rolling to the back of my head. I put my hand against my mouth and felt my orgasm ripped through me. I heard him chuckling darkly before he started his assault on my clit all over again. My body started shaking as I reached my fourth orgasm. I can't believe I just did that. I want him to stop. I accidentally looked down to see him already staring at me; seeing my expression, he smirked before I felt him slowly adding another finger. I screamed, causing my grip on his hair to tighten.He started chuckling darkly. "Baby, it's just three fingers; you'll thank me later for preparing you," he growled, forcing his fingers in. I cried, telling him how much it hurt, but
"You amaze me every day, Amore Mio.""What, how?" I said, feeling confused, and then that's when I noticed the car was stopped in front of a big luxurious restaurant, the place looked beautiful as there were garden fields at every corner I looked with flowers and lights adding more to its beauty and giving the feels of a fairytale. A line of men in black suits and white ties stood outside, forming an entrance to the building. "You've zoned out throughout the whole ride, and I parked the car exactly 10 minutes ago."I kept my head down, not wanting to see his face, but I could feel his gaze on me, hard."Sorry," I apologized not knowing if he was upset or not about my zoning. He hummed before opening his car side, I tried to open the passenger's seat, but it was lockedHe came around and opened my side. "I will be the one escorting my woman out of the car, always," he said, stretching his hand out for me to take. Why is he acting like a gentleman, the word gentle doesn't go with him
I covered my eyes with my palms not wanting to see those inhuman acts. "Sierra, pay attention," his voice boomed in the room. I was startled at first, but I removed my hands and looked at him. I turned my head as I heard a table being dragged, two people who have similar features to Stone placed the table down in front of the men who's screams got louder. They both started chuckling and it's then that I noticed those two were twins. They both looked exactly the same. Stone started walking to the table and he placed down machetes, a hook, a chainsaw, and all other kinds of cutting weapons. "Who's first?" He said calmly, grabbing a long knife."Boss please, please forgive me, I will work for free, I didn't mean to do it!" The same guy cried with blood mixed with spit dripping out of his mouth. "You, come," Stone said, pointing at him. "You talk too much, '' Stone calmly said, soon his screams echoed throughout the room as Stone jabbed a knife through his tongue and stuck it on the w
I spent the whole day with my dadI needed him. I needed someone to feel safe with.We had our little family time, and I was relieved knowing that he had been asking about me.He went on a business trip with Stone's dad that same night, and he didn't get the chance to see me before he went. He saw Stone and asked him to tell me that he was going away for a couple of weeks. Stone's evil ass didn't tell me anything, making me believe that my dad didn't care about me. We were now inside Apple to get a new phone so he can contact me anytime. I have no idea where my old phone is. I'm not sure if I dropped it in Stones's house or outside but it's somewhere in this estate. For some reason, me and my dad left the whole conversation about his whereabouts, and we ended up talking about him being a grandpa."Dad, what! I'm 18 years old. Why would I have kids?" "I'm just saying Sie, I never see you talking with any boys, are you secretly dating someone or something? You better let me know I wa
After paying and walking out of the pharmacy. Jordan was all I could think about. He looks like such a genuine and friendly guy. Nothing like the man I've been forced to spend my time with. What I would do to have people like him in my life. I went back to Apple to find my dad sitting and waiting for me."Look who's back, how're feeling," he said, standing up and handing me the apple bag"I feel so much better." "I would've been back earlier, but I met this guy named Jordan."My dad smiled brightly"Ooh, is that my new potential son-in-law" What's his obsession with being a grandfather, I'm only 18 damnit. "No, dad what the hell" Chuckling he said "I'm not getting any younger""You're 48, that's so young, like what"... All I can say is my dad is a clown. I didn't realize how much I had missed him. My face was slacked with happy tears as he made me laugh out loud with his corny dad jokes. We spent the whole day together shopping and eating, he even took me to this beach that he j
I got out of the shower, dressed up and ready to go to the movie theater with Isabel when I got startled as I noticed Stone in the middle of the room removing his shirt. I stood there frozen hoping that I didn't make any noise for him to notice me. Shit, he's back. All that shit I've been talking about and all that bravery and confidence I felt is gone as he slowly turned around and looked at me."Come here baby" he growled in his deep voice, fully removing his shirt. I was scared of going to him but I couldn't help the moistening that I felt between my thighs at his voice. Is this who I am? Is this the effect that Stone already has on my body? God, I'm embarrassingI slowly made my way towards him with my eyes stuck on his chest. I didn't want to meet his eyes. He took two long strides and reached out to me wrapping one hand around my waist and the other holding my neck in place as he smashed his lips on mine, ravishing my lips."I fucking missed you," he said pulling me and moving
A few months later Sierra POV Change, what is change? I am very familiar with the verb. It has happened all my life. I have never stayed in one place for too long; here I was for the final time moving. Moving to a new life, a new beginning, and a new setting. The background change will do me good. I needed a new place away from that house; Stone didn't mind when I talked to him about wanting a new house. He had only smiled at me, stating, "Whatever my wife wants." It took a few weeks to renovate the new house how I wanted, but ultimately, it's done. I was excited to spend some time outside in the big garden house in the backyard. I try to spend as much time outside as I can. Maybe it's because of the time I spent confined in that white room with not even a speck of sunlight. I tore my gaze from the window and looked at the back seat where my twins were fast asleep. We'd been driving for over two hours now; they were sleepy. A small smile made its way onto my lips, and I looked over
"You're all dismissed," I finally decided to end this meeting that's keeping me away from my little family for so long. They know from my tone that I am satisfied and approve of our process. I pay these people well for a reason, so I only need to work when I want a full report. It isn't surprising to say that I am the happiest man on earth. I have two loving children, a beautiful obedient wife, control, and most importantly, an empire for my family to rule over for generations to come. My eyes stayed glued on Sierra as the sound of chairs being pushed back into place echoed in the room, and soon the door closed, erasing all signs of this meeting. "Stone, you broke the poor girl. The twins should use some of your techniques on their girlfriend. I heard she's been giving them a hard time" I looked over at Jonas, who sat across from me with his eyes on me as he talked about Sierra. Seems like everyone is finding their soulmates at the moment. Good luck to them with taming their little s
I stood silently over, reading the names written on the tombstone. At least Stone was kind enough to bury them and let my dad, Avery, and Danny rest in peace. I was scared to face the three people who were the cause of the guilt eating me inside; I still feel like running away and crying in a corner whenever I think about them. The events of when Stone broke the news that he killed them still runs through my head—that was the worst day for me to be alive because of what he had put me through.For the past month that I have been released from hell, I feel like I have entered a new one, Except this one was much prettier and more luxurious. My fear of Stone has genuinely taken a toll on my body, being so close to him all the time, having to see his face when I first wake up in the morning. Everything was triggering to me.I am surviving only because of my kids, but even then, I had a hard time adjusting to suddenly seeing them, they're my babies, but I feel so distant from them. I tried
The bed is warm and soft. The scent of Stone's manly cologne invaded my senses. It was more intense than before. I wouldn't doubt he was in the room; his presence wouldn't let me forget about him, not even for a second. For the past weeks, I would wake up wrapped in his arms, where he would later proceed to fuck my brains out and make me feel complicated feelings. I felt his hand caressing my face; moments later, a pair of lips softly pressed on mine. The atmosphere around the room felt different, warm. The air didn't feel suffocating. And the bed definitely was different. It was soft and fluffy compared to the one I'd been sleeping on for the past months. My eyes fluttered open, needing to see why the atmosphere had changed. I was met with a pair of dark eyes staring back at me. My body shivered, and shocks shot up my body due to our proximity, an effect he left on me from our constant sex. My eyes scan the room, and I realize I am back in our room. I was out? Stone had finally tak
My body felt numb and alive at the same time. The tiny little specks of shock shooting throughout my body wouldn't stop. Nothing ever stops, not the pain, the pleasure, and certainly not the fear. The fear that I have of Stone is almost second nature to me. It increases with each passing second, and I get frightened that at some point, it might become all I know; I might fall into a scary world where all I feel is fear of my husband.It brings tears of sadness and a bit of joy as I recognize that I've lost myself to Stone. It makes me happy because I will no longer fantasize about my life without him- it always leads me into trouble. The thought that there could be life out there for me without him always drives me to make foolish choices in hopes of getting away from him; In the end, I get hurt, really, really bad.A life where I am utterly submissive to Stone is much better than a life where I fight for the impossible. I can't escape him. I could never get away from him. He made tha
"Not bad, I like it. I'll be expecting a real kiss next time." He walked around me and sat on the bed. "Come here" my heart drops to my ass every time he says that phrase. I never know what he thinks when he says it, but it's usually to beat the fuck out of me.I limp towards him. Careful not to put too much pressure on my bandage foot. I sat on his lap sideways, just like I always do. His arm securely wrapped around my waist, holding me close to his chest. He placed a kiss on the side of my head, the side of my face, and my neck. His lips lingered on my neck more than usual. But I felt the effects of his warm lips shooting up my core.After getting my foot hammered to the ground, things changed. I really have given up. Just the thought of running away scares me now.His lips were warm, and his soft breath blew against my skin. His proximity allowed me to feel every bit of his body warmth, and I couldn't help but notice my body leaning more into him. My fear of Stone has skyrocketed.
"Disobedience, it makes me happy Sierra, and you're going to find out why." He stated darkly, taking off his blazer. My heart thumped rapidly against my chest as I clutched the bedsheets tightly. When he started marching toward the bed where I was sitting, at first, my body froze in fear as a natural response to him. When I was finally able to scoot away, he was already right in front of me. He reached into his back pocket and pulled out handcuffs. The thought of having these cuffs around my wrist again drove me out of control, and I started kicking him as they were the only weapon I could use at the moment. I must've caught him off guard when my leg kicked him straight between his legs.He released my arms, and I rolled off under him. Dropping to the floor, I looked at the door and bolted for it.A scream tore from me as I was picked up and lifted off my feet. He roughly threw me on his shoulder, and I fought harder. "Let me go!" I screamed and trashed around, kicking my legs and thr
"Stop crying" I jumped from my seat as his deep voice commanded me darkly. I quickly wiped the tear I didn't know I had shed and looked up at him. He looks at the bowl and smiles. "I was hoping you touched it. That would have given me another reason to play with you. Looks like I'll have to wait a little longer."This is what he wants. To hurt and control my mind, for fear of him to cloud my vision and to cower at just the mere thought of him. Stone is not a regular man. I genuinely believe that he was born evil."Good to see you finally moving around. I thought I had killed you," he says nonchalantly, staring at me."Why are you doing this, Stone." I managed to ask, even though I knew his reasons. I just couldn't comprehend it. I know I'm pathetic, but why does he have to hurt me like this.He ignored my question. "I expect you to be on your knees by the foot of the bed when I walk into this room and a proper greeting from my wife." He said, casually looking at me. Why is he calling m
Time is slow. Everything around me moves in slow motion. I feel cold, like a falling leaf from its tree in autumn. My body shivered, not due to the room temperature. The room was rather warm. The weakness and loneliness I had succumbed into forced my body to shiver. As if I were walking in the middle of a snowstorm.It's striking to me how everything seems so warm at the moment, yet my body shivers. My eyes scan the room for anything that looks cozy and warm, thinking that if I keep my eyes on it, I can somehow compare its warmth to a person.I need to touch something. I wish for my legs and hands to be free. To be able to hug myself. I am afraid my hands will fall off my body if cuffed like this for even one more hour. I will no longer have an arm if the devil doesn't come to free me. I hate him and wish to be far away from him, yet I find my eyes traveling to the door every passing hour, hoping he will come and set me free.I know if he comes down here, it will be most likely to puni