Can someone just tell me something to make me snapped at myself.Sa tahimik at malamig na lobby ng kompanya ni Ansel pinili ng utak ang mahipnotismo sa sinabi niya.My brain keep thinking about that gray suit na naging paborito na'rin yata ng utak kong punahin ng punahin.I awkwardly smiled at him ."I'm not used hearing compliments"napatingin siya sa tumaas kong kamay para alisin ang naging pagtayo ng balahibo ko sa siko.Nagpakita ang ngiti ni Ansel at pakiramdam ko mas lalo akong nabingi ng buong paligid."The curls is really beautiful"puna niya pa.I nodded my head and look at our surroundings.The workers is watching us from here.Sino ba namang hindi kung ang isang ito ay dito talaga ako hinintay .I was actually expecting I'll arrive at his office at madadatnan ko nga siya doon pero hindi naman nangyari."Come on ,i think i have a lot of things to do"aya ko at nag-umpisa ng umabante.Pinilit ko ang sarili kong ignorahin ang mga tingin.This wasn't the usual thing that they see in the lob
"Can you promise me that Caza?"malumanay ang boses ni Ansel na pinakikiusapan ako.My heart is beating a slow but in its loudest beat.Naging mabigat ang tingin ko sa kanya at hindi ko alam na bigla-bigla na lang na gagaan ang loob ko sa sinabi niya."Caza?Can you promise me that?"napatango ako dahil sa matagal na pagtitig.He look at the folder on my hands and extended his."Pipirmahan ko ba 'yan?"i regain myself by snapping at what I'm holding."Yes—"i eyed his door."You guys were talking kaya naman bumalik na lang ulit ako" i clamped my lips together.That was a lie Azazel, narinig mo nga ang usapan nila.Maybe not the whole thing or the part where they exchange words but still you heard a part of it. Goodness sake! Ansel's eyes is still looking so serious that i feel like he knew that i just don't simply walk here as soon as i heard that they were talking,alam naman niya yata talaga na nakarinig ako ng kaunti. The whole office is freezing and it didn't help my nerves.Sa tingin ko rin
I look at him carefully ,really carefully.Sa ngayon may mga dumagdag ng emosyon niya na alam kong meron din pala siya.Ansel can be mean ,can be caring ,can be caring and cold at the same time .Kagaya na lang ng paghahangad ko sa labas ,dahil palagi na lang akong nasa loob.Maybe i missed things inside or may mga hindi lang na-explore ,kagaya ng park na pinagdalhan sa'kin ni Ada ,na noon ko lang din nalaman .I was so curious on what i will find out outside that i missed having inside.Nakakatawa na lang na maiisip ko ito in the middle of a conversation with at sa panahon at taon pa na ,na kung saan malapit na akong umalis."Do you see me, as someone bad right now?"his expression change once again and i don't know why my mind and eyes will clearly made some moments to capture it.Ngumiti ako at tinignan ang kamay naming magkahawak.Something i know that a couple should do was to hold hands ,kiss,hug--things like that.Hindi ko pa na-sesearch kung pwede lang ba sa magkaibigan ang ganitong gaw
"Hi!"nalundag ko siya sa tuwa sa nakita kong dala niya .He chuckled when i cling to his neck.Inalalayan niya ako sa baywang bago ko pa man siya mapakawalan.I admired the bouquet once again ,dahil ang mga bulaklak ay pinaghalong pale pink at red.Inilahad niya iyon sa akin kaya naman buong galak ko iyong kinuha sa kanya.I fell inlove with it over and over again.Sa dami-dami ng nakita ko kanina ay ngayon pa ako talaga naging ganito.Inakay ako ni Ansel sa baywang papunta sa kung saan .Humakbang lang ako kasabay niya habang tinitignan at inaamoy ko ang kasama niya.Namalayan ko na lang na kahit nakatigil na kami ay hawak niya pa'rin ako.I look up to him only to find out that he is been staring ."What?"ngumisi siya at tinignan ang damit ko.Bumaba din tuloy doon ang tingin ko.I am wearing a floral dress na kulay white at yellow na umabot sa aking tuhod.First time ko nga rin na magsusuot nito .I felt the sudden gushed in my cheeks.Hindi ko naman alam na may pupunta dito."You look pretty with
I totally won't like to prepare at this kind of hours.So as they said that it is supposed to be a surprise for me but they ended up telling me their surprise instead.It was because i can't give them exact answers kaya naman kinailangan ko na nga yatang iinvolve ang sarili ko kahit na supposed to be 'surprise' nga 'yon.Now that it is just a week before my 18th birthday at ngayon mas lalo akong naging busy.I was with different people everyday at kahit na pagod na ako madalas, i can't just said no dahil naaapura na'rin naman sila kaya naman pinipilit ko na lang ang sarili ko pagdating sa hapon.We are planning about the debut program ,about the invites ,themes ,venue ,whatsoever. Kung alam ko lang na napakarami pa lang gagawin bago ang pinaka-actual i don't think i will like to throw a grand party again.Dahil nga businessman ang dalawang lalaki sa buhay ko,they told me that they really needed most of their partners in business to be invited at nalulula na ako ngayon pa lang dahil hindi k
I sighed once again and he wipe my tears away ,kumawala pa ang isang hikbi mula sa akin at tumulo pa ulit ang isa pang luha sa aking pisngi.He kissed my temple again and hug me real tight.HIndi ko alam kung gaano na kami nagtagal doon sa pagyayakapan.While he is doing his very best to comfort me ,nagiging effective naman 'yon. "Caza ,hushed now ,we still need to go down there and face all of them"napapikit ako ng sumikdo nanaman ang kaba sa aking dibdib.Nagpractice ako ,oo ,sa harap ng maraming bulaklak sa garden,sa mga kaibigan ko pero hindi sa harap ng more than 1000 na guest na may iba't-ibang mukha .Oh!My God! I am really going out of my mind!Sa tingin ko natapos na nga ang cocktail hour pero nandirito pa rin kami at pilit akong kinakausap ni Ansel na maging mahinahon. Can you imagine Azazel,mas gugustuhin mo pa bang magsalita sa harap ng libong tao na walang mukha , baka naman matuluyan ka ng mahimatay at kahit kailan hindi ka na makapagsalita.Huminga ako ng malalim at umalis n
Soon after ay nagdi-dinner na.There were bands playing instrumental soothing songs at ngayon nga ay nakaupo ako sa grand table kaupo si Papa at Kuya .Ada is with her family and so was Krystal at nakikita ko lang ang pwesto nila mula dito sa pwesto ko.I am consciously eating my food dahil alam ko,and i can't feel their stare were towards me.Binigyan ako ng part ng cake ng kapatid ko,the one that i blew with candles bago pa man mag-umpisa ang dinner na 'to.My gown was too big that they have to stand up when they wanted to give me something.Nasa pinakagitna tuloy ang naging pwesto ko tapos almost nasa dulo na si Papa at si Kuya .Matatapos na ako sa pagkain ko ng maglapag pa rin ng paborito ko ang kung sino kay papa ay kuya ng pagkain sa plato ko.It was that Lumpia that i can't say no.Dalawang piraso lang kasi ang ibinigay sakin ni Kuya kanina dahil kailangan yatang lumibot kami para sa mga bisita.I look up only to see Ansel smiling at me ,he even arrange some of the strands of my hair i
My father politely nod his head at Tita Letty habang kimi lang naman ang ngiti ni Tita sa kanya."She remained at the top one Mr.Millano.She is really a bright lady"maikling tumango si Tita as she glances at me.When my father thanked her as if there was an awkward silence that drowns us."This is a very beautiful theme that you picked Azazel"bumati na sa akin ulit ang tatay ni Ansel.Michelle on his side, nodded at him earnestly."Thank you po Sir""Oh no!Drop the formalities.Call me Tito"tumawa si Tita sa ginawa ng asawa niya.They all smiled at me na nakumbinsi nila akong ulitin ang sinabi niya."Thank you Tito"Tita cheered with her daughter na nahiya ako dahil medyo malakas at nakakuha iyon ng pansin sa iba.My brother smiled at them ,dumamot na sa pagbibigay ng ngiti na kanina lang ay free niyang ibinibigay kahit sa mga masama ang naging komento sa'kin,ngayon na hindi naman masama ang naging turing sa'min tsaka naman siya ngayon nagdadamot.Medyo nagtagal kami roon na nakikita ko na a