Chapter 4

Chapter 4

LAYLA’S POV

After finally speaking out the buried thought in my mind, I refused to think about it any more. I needed to focus on what was more important, to get this project done and with the research from Prof. Germanus I actually think I’m going to ace this work.

I opened my bag trying to bring out my laptop to continue the work but I don’t find it there. I could have sworn that I carried it with me…shit! I guess I just have left it in a hurry when I was trying to check out that café.

I don’t feel like driving home but I guess at the end of the day, that was going to be solution. I quickly hurried to the car grabbing my things and dumping them in the passengers seat.

I got home not even bothering to lock the car because I know I was going to be out it in a minute. I stepped into the house and was surprised with the sight I met.

Nate was sleeping on the couch and I must say this was a first. I knew he had late night shifts but still he always ended up going to his room at the end of all his shifts so how come he crashed here.

I bent down to stare, this was one of the rare opportunities I could see my husband up close and this time I wasn’t going to take it for granted. I knew he didn’t love me and that Chloe was back which meant my little chances were gone but I couldn’t take my eyes off the beautiful creature before me.

I love how innocent he looked and I could see dark circles under his eyes which shows how stressed he must have been. Has he eaten? His lips opened slightly as little sighs came from them, I was tempted to go closer and I shamelessly did. I always want us to be romantically In love and not this façade. I ran my hands through his face softly trying not to wake him up and he mumbled. I found my king cute until I heard it clearly “Layla” he mumbled, stirring. Due to the shock I jerk up quickly hitting a vase.

Shit! I woke him up. But could I have heard the right thing?

“Layla?” He asked like he was trying to be sure.

“Uhmmm, I didn’t mean to interrupt your sleep. I’m so sorry. I was just leaving” I was trying to clean up the mess of the glass but he stopped me.

“Stop. Why are you back early from school?”he said and then his eyes moved to the vase.

“I went but left my laptop so I just came to grab that” I stopped when I noticed he was staring at the vase. “ I didn’t mean to break the vase, I’ll pay for it. I’m so sorry” I apologized. I’ve tried my best to avoid him all this while and now I’ve broken something of his, good job Layla I’m sure he is going to love me real fast.

“You can’t pay for it”he sighed. What’s so precious about this vase, I could literally just get it from Walmart on my way home so why was he reacting this way.

“I don’t understand. I’ll get the same design”

“It was a handmade, you can’t get it anywhere” I didn’t know if he was pisssed or basically just pouring his frustration of work on me but I knew that handmade or not this vase wasn’t worth that attitude from him.

I continued what I was doing but stopped when I saw the card placed close to the vase, it was from Chloe. I guess she is really special and here I was thinking I could win his heart not knowing I am the biggest fool on earth.“I’ll try to get the same design” I tried to reason with him but he wasn’t getting it.

“It was freaking handmade” he repeated .

“So what if it was handmade? I’ll freaking pay for it okay! I’ll pay her to make another one for you”I yelled. I didn’t know when tears started falling from my eyes but I ran out. I didn’t want to go through this in his front.

What the hell did she mean to him that me breaking her vase pissed him off.

I’m done feeling this way, I can’t do this anymore because I fear I might die from high blood pressure and heart attack, I can’t continue panicking whenever I hear he is with Chloe or any other lady. I don’t want to be that person at all but I fear that every woman might just be the one he chose to fall In love with over me.

It has been hard to admit and I really mean hard. I think I’m filing for a divorce…. I can’t deal with this anymore, I don’t even think I have the strength to go back to school to do my research but I know I can’t go back inside that house. I needed to clear my head and I knew just where to go.

I cleaned my tears and smudged mascara, I didn’t want to look like shit and scare people on the road I mean this isn’t Halloween.

I drove off to Amanda’s house because I knew she would have a solution and help me take my emotions.

The minute I stepped in her pouch the door opened.

“Oh my! You look like the uglier version of Cinderella’s step sister Mabel” she teased and I couldn’t help the laughter that came out from me. She always knew how to cheer me up.

“What happened? “she finally asked the minute I sat on the couch.

“Can I just get some time to cool off first?” My head was hot and I wasn’t sure I was ready to start offloading everything.

“Sure… take your time,I. Do you want anything to drink or should I just skip to ice cream” she beamed. She knew I loved ice cream to death and the honest truth was that ice cream was the only thing that could keep me sane right now .

“The ice cream” I shamefully requested making her laugh.

“You never change, I knew it. I’ll be back” she left and brought back big bowls of supreme vanilla flavored ice cream. I instantly forgot my problems with Nate and started thinking of how I was going to devour this ice cream.

“Now are you going to tell me what happened?” She asked after she dished my portion of the ice cream.

“I forgot to take my laptop to school and I went back home to get it”

“So you are this sad cause you left your laptop at home?”she was confused.

“No I’m this sad because I’m admitting to something that I’ve been avoiding for a while”

“Which is ?”

“I think I’m really going to file for a divorce” I’m actually going to through with it.

“Seems you have made up your mind?”

“Yes, tonight I will be telling him,I need to be free.”

TBC