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CHAPTER FORTY-THREE

MALAKAI

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Trigger Warning: This scene involves themes of homophobia, abuse, and brainwashing. Reader discretion is advised. This is pure fiction and does not depict the actions of any religious group.

It's white everywhere.

My head is hurting. My foggy brain can't even think of why I'm here.

The only thing I feel is terror when I realize I am strapped to the bed. Is this a clinic?

But... Why?

The door opens, and my blurry vision adjusts to see the Reverend enter, accompanied by sister Agatha.

The memories start to claw in, and my heart sears with panic.

Let me out!

My body begins to jerk against the straps that keep me in place. I remember everything now.

'...The truth is, son, you're broken. You're sick. And we're going to fix you...'

No!

The only one who can fix me is him. Pierce.

'Where are you, don't you love me anymore?'

I want to tell him that I did not want to leave him. I want to keep my promise, but these chains are stopping me.

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