This has been the worst day and night of my life since my Mum died, I think. Walking from the kitchen and realizing Violet had walked out of the house, my heart fell through the fucking floor. I knew instinctively she had gone to try to help Hattie. The way she had been blaming herself, the way she had been talking. It was the only thing she could be doing. Why else sneak out? The thing was Lachlan and I had been chatting in the kitchen for a little while as he made the coffee. So I wasn’t sure how long she had been gone. And when we put out an announcement out to guards and border patrol to search for her, there were no sightings of her. She must have fled. The thing was, Hattie and Lachlan’s house was quite close to the southern border of the pack, so if she had shifted and let her wolf take charge it would have taken no time to leave the pack. But it was a fair distance to her grandfather’s pack, and would she even know the way? Lachlan went into a melt down the moment we rea
Hearing the guard tell me Hattie had just driven through the gates, I am feeling such a mixture of emotions. I can't believe she is back. He let her go! ‘What?!’ I exclaimed. ‘Is she okay?’ ‘Sorry Alpha, she didn’t speak. Just waved and drove through. So I guess she is coming home.’ the guard told me. I cut off the link ready to try to link Hattie, so desperate just to talk to her, know she is okay. Yes, the guard says she is in our packlands now, but I need to know for myself she is okay. But Tate interrupts just as I am about to try the link. “Lach?” he says. “What is wrong?”I sigh, he must have seen me mindlinking. My face likely gave away something was wrong, it is not the best at hiding my emotions... “Hattie has come home. That was the guard on the gates. She has just driven through into pack.” I say, the emotion spilling out of my voice. The shock on the faces of Tate and our fathers was crazy. Understandably so, because I have to say I was just as shocked w
We see Hattie walking into the house and her and Lachlan are instantly wrapped in a tight embrace. He must be so relieved. A pang of jealousy runs through my body. Why can’t my girl be home? I find myself questioning. But no, she can’t be home because it seems she took it upon herself to go and free her friend. So silly… Yet, a part of me feels guilty for not realizing this could be her plan. The things she had been saying should have given me an inkling that this would be what she would try. I feel so stupid. Such a failure as a mate. And I had only been her mate a matter of days, yet I had already failed her, potentially to the point it could cost her her life. My heart felt like it was clenching in pain at that prospect... breaking at the thought of losing her. I can't let that happen! They walked into the lounge hand in hand. Hattie looks to me, a sad smile on her face. This cannot be good, I think to myself. She has things to tell me... “T. I am sorry.” She says, though
So he takes me back to where we collected Hattie from, and we go into the little cabin. I think perhaps, with the fact he, had made polite conversation all the way here, he might be kind and let me stay out and about in the cabin, not like I plan to make a run for it. Well, not just yet anyway. I had handed myself to him in after all. “This is where we used to come and stay when we were growing up as a family. Been in the family for years” Damien says as we walk inside the old, run-down cabin. "You won't know much of the family, I assume, will you?" Oh how sweet, a family heirloom. I get to sit and likely die in something that has been passed down generation to generation in my family. A family I don’t even know. That until a matter of days ago, I didn't even know it existed. I simply nod. “ Look dear, I have things I need to do back in the pack. Need to check on someone. So you will need to go down to the basement, Violet, where Hattie was staying, I am afraid. I will b
I rushed back to pack from leaving Violet in the cabin. This dashing back and forth was getting tiresome already. With Hattie, I kept her in the cabin as I knew my pack would be the first place they would come to look for her and I would have lost my bargaining tool had they got her back.But for Violet, it was somewhat different. Yes, because I plan to keep her for some time now, I know it would be easier to have her locked up in the pack somewhere, so she was nearby and easier to get to and from to cut out all the rushing around. But it would be too risky. I did not want any chance of the news of her being in my possession getting out. Especially not to the Alpha family or any other higher ups. Even saying she was visiting family for me, would bring questions, considering the nature and history of my family. It was not worth the risk. So, after much consideration, I had decided the pack was not going to be ideal and for now the cabin was best, perhaps moving her at a later date. Sh
Oh, I feel so terrible. We left the hospital and I went straight to my son, Blaine’s house. I stayed so much longer than intended as Blaine was asking me to help with things around the house, and I did not want to say no. Then we got chatting as we so often would, and time seemed to run away with us. Before I knew it, they were saying they were going to get sorted for bed, and I realized it was near midnight! I pondered over what was best to do. I felt so guilty that I had left Violet locked up all alone in the cabin basement all afternoon, and now the night too. But it was probably going to draw attention to myself if I left the pack at this time of night. Plus, she may well have fallen asleep by now, as she had run all the way to our pack, only sleeping briefly in the forest in her wolf form, so she was probably shattered! So I decided it was better to leave her to sleep, and I would go over there in the morning armed with some breakfast and a chance to
We sat opposite one another in the lounge of the old cabin, eating the breakfast food in pretty much silence. I see my grandfather occasionally looking at me curiously. The fact, he said earlier I had reminded me of my Dad and also his wife, which would be my grandmother, had taken me by surprise, but it was the look on his face. It was a softness, a caring look. One of love and affection. Not the sort you would expect from a man described the way I had heard him spoken about. “Was the food okay for you dear?” Damien asked me. “Yes, thank you.” I nodded, actually having enjoyed the cooked breakfast food he had brought with him. “Good, I am sorry I did not come back last night. I got held up in my pack, and then it seemed too late and did not want to wake you if you had fallen asleep, because I realized it would have been a long day for you coming to find my pack.” He explained. As I sat and listened to him, I could not help but feel a little bad for being so critica
I sit, my body trembling as I recall the things that had happened. I hate reliving this. The mistakes I have made. The regrets I would live with for all eternity. But this girl needs to know these things. She deserves to hear my side too. So she can make an educated decision when it comes to it. I could see Violet sitting taking in my words intently, like she was listening to every word carefully. Nodding her head at me. When I look at her, I can't help but be reminded of my wife and my son. She certainly has a look of them both. Their hair color... their eyes... their skin tone...No, I need to focus. I need to continue this. I need to tell her what happened. She must know my side of the story. She has only heard the side from the rest of the family. The family that hates me. That blame me for my mother's death... “As it turned out, our first pup was a little boy.” I wiped away a tear that had slipped from my eye at the memory. “Our beautiful Jacob. But Jacob was poorly. He had
Dear Diary… Well, how can life change in the space of a year? By a crazy amount when you learn your parents lied. Or perhaps not so much lied but kept secrets from you. Secrets do nothing but make life difficult. Make life twisted and they hurt when they are finally revealed. But the secrets in the end brought me the happiness and life I was meant to have. Could the secrets have been part of the fate that led me here? Who knows? Having learned the things I have about being a werewolf, and how the beliefs are, fate plays a big part in our lives. Perhaps the path my life took was all a part of fate's plan... A path that brought me to the Autumn Moon Pack. To Tate. The handsome, mysterious Beta. The sweetest, kindest man I had ever met, that I was able to call mine. All because of a goddess I had never heard of until I learned of my heritage as a werewolf, blessing him as my fated mate. My fated mate. My love. My future. And now the father to the little one I am carrying inside my
I wake up wrapped in the warm embrace of Tate. His head is resting on my shoulder. “Good morning beautiful” he whispers. I found myself chuckling. “Good morning to you too” I whispered back. “You know I am going to have to get you up and out of bed shortly for your training.” He says with a sigh. “Euurrgghh!” I grumbled. “But the bed is so warm and comfy!” Training has been going on almost each day since we returned to pack six months ago. Lachlan was relentless. Though I can’t blame him, Azaria was just as unrelenting too in her necessity for me to refine these gifts of mine and in her need to make me as strong as she could, both physically and mentally. “Oh. You mean you don’t want to stay in bed because of your handsome mate?” Tate huffs, flipping himself, so he was suddenly on all fours, leaning over me. I find myself smirking at his playfulness. We had most definitely refined our relationship and our gifts… “Perhaps I was just coming to that…” I teased,
The doctor leads us into Damien’s room. He is not looking good. Though what would I know? I am not a doctor. But he looks like he is at death’s door. And it scares me. But he is in the right place. Tate had told me this hospital had some good doctors, and I am sure Lachlan would do what he could to make sure he got the best care possible. Pierce led the rest of the family into the room. All looking equally shocked by the state of my grandfather. I doubt the doctors would allow us all to stay in here together for long before trying to throw us out. “What has the doctor said?” Adam asks, I am surprised he is here, expecting him to be with his son, though I can only assume his mate is there, as I have not seen here since we arrived. Lachlan looks up from where he was standing by the side of the bed, his grandfather not having moved since we walked in here. His eyes not having moved from his brother in the bed. “The doctor said he is stable now. Though he is badly injured. He
I watch her. Doing whatever it was she was doing. Speaking as someone else through her body? She is unreal. How did she manage that? Her eyes shifted, to a deeper blue. She looked like she was from another world for those few moments she spoke. An aura radiating off her that gave that otherworldly glow. The voice coming from her was unrecognizable to me. But the look on my grandfather’s face changed instantly. Color draining from his skin. Eyes wide open as he looked at her, and I could see tears in his eyes. ‘What the fuck?’ I mindlink Tate. ‘Not a clue. I thought Azaria was going to talk, she can do that like most of us can. But that is not her voice. That voice is not Azaria's. I do not know who that is.’ Tate says, yet his eyes have not left his mate. He looked fearful for her, not knowing what to expect. All these gifts are new to us. We don’t know how she will be with them. During them, or after them. What effect they could have on her. But Azaria clearly felt the
I stood watching Lachlan walking away from me. My skin turning cold hearing my brother’s name echoing through my mind. How can they seriously expect me to want to help him? He killed our mother. Kidnapped her. Then tortured her to the point of her death. No. Have they lost their damn minds? I look to Pierce. His eyes are dark, but he is watching me. A sad smile on his face. He knew of this? I find myself struggling to speak. No. Have they lost their damn minds? I can hear voices surrounding me, but they are not registering in my mind. This is madness. This made no sense. They had brought my brother back here. To the pack we had him exiled from. What the hell was Lachlan thinking? Was he even fit to be an Alpha of our great pack? Does he not know what this man was capable of? Suddenly, a hand is on my shoulder, snapping out of my angry mind wandering. I realize there are many more unfamiliar faces surrounding me now. Unfamiliar. But yet they have a hint of familiarit
I stand waiting within the pack hospital as requested by my grandson. Things seem so hectic in the pack. My son dashing off here and there. I hate being old and not quite so able to help anymore. That used to be part of the role of Alpha I loved the most, the drama… the action. And I have to say it was something I missed as I got older, as I handed down the role to my son. Lachlan’s call was unclear. The signal was not good, and the reasoning behind him wanting me at the hospital was not quite explained. He just asked me to be here, saying I would be the best candidate for a blood donor if needed. I am not going to decline that, if somebody needs my help, it is there, no matter how old I am. I may feel like an old and decrepit man most days, but if I am still capable of helping, if it is needed, then I will be there. I may not be able to do much as a former Alpha and I miss that role and all that came with it, but if I can help, then they could rely on me. I had got here as quic
I watch as they drive away with my grandfather in the back of the truck. Fear is filling me. He looked dead. I was pushing toward him, trying to get to him, wanting to try to heal him. But Tate was mindlinking me, telling me to stand back, to not try this for the first time on him, not to risk his life further when I am not sure of what I am doing. Lachlan is taking charge. The voices are just a blur to me. I hear Adam saying that my grandfather’s wolf is dead. How can that be? He has been suffering, and nobody seemed to know other than his son. How much pain had this man had to endure? “Violet, come on now, we need to go.” Tate is leading me to a waiting car. I can only assume we are heading back to Autumn Moon. Azaria seems to have retreated once more. She is meant to be a gifted wolf yet seems to spend most of her time hiding in the outer edges of my mind. Though my lack of experience of how to deal with her maybe doesn’t help. My body was in a daze. Nothing around me reg
I feel my wolf pushing through and shifting once more, my body adjusting and altering of its own accord, turning into Rye, the dark gray form of my wolf. He seems to have pushed me right to the back. I can sense his anger. I don’t know what happens, but he is suddenly moving toward the two wolves still fighting alongside us, and before I know it, and because they are so engrossed in attacking one another, Rye pounces… Bringing his jaw down on the neck of the Alpha, clamping his teeth into the neck and sinking them in before twisting. The Alpha realizes what is happening and tries to fight back, but the grip Rye has is too tight and the way in which the Alpha is moving is only making the situation worse for himself, as I hear a galling snap as his neck breaks, and he falls from the grip of Rye before Lachlans’s wolf takes him and attacks him once more, making sure he is dead. Aggressively dropping him to the floor once he is done with him, before his human form is suddenly pu
I check on little Alfie. He is still snoozing, his little eyes tightly shut as he is swaddled in his blankets tightly to protect him from the outside elements, as well as having been in the protective embrace of his parents as we have alternated in carrying him since leaving the hospital. He has slept so soundly since we left, and I am glad. Hopefully, he will stay that way until we reach this new pack. I did not expect all of this, but deep down I have to say I am glad. Our pack never offered us much, and the hospital did not have much in the way of options for our little one. We feared we would lose him. Hopefully, our new pack may be able to give us hope for a future for me and my family. My mate and our little one. The pain of losing our firstborn tore us down, but we worked through it and decided to try again. We were overjoyed to discover we were expecting another pup. Our beautiful child. The creation of our love and happiness of being mates. Only to discover he too had th