I'm Sorry!

"Hey Precious dear. How are you?" she hugged me and I hugged her back.

"I'm very fine thank you. What about you? You still look so lovely" I gushed.

"Oh dear, I'm getting old and these kids just keep someone on their toes" she grinned and I smiled.

We talked for a bit and she took the kids and left but not before I told her I won't be around for a while. The kids were upset but we managed to get them to smile again.

I looked at them as they left. I've always wanted kids, and I still do but I need a man for that. I thought about having it with Ethan. Getting married, a beautiful honeymoon, lovers quarrel, and kids but now, I just don't know, I can't marry someone who doesn't trust me.

"You think too much" Joel snapped me out of my reverie making me turn my gaze to him while giving him the best smile I could muster.

"Yeah but that's all I do these past few days. I miss him, Jo, so much but I can't be with someone who doesn't trust me. Who doesn't look twice before reprimanding me, w