I yawned while I while I was looking on the stage. Magna and I sat on the left bleachers while the marching was ongoing. It was quarter to three when the program started. I wear the dress that I have borrowed from Magna. She was surprised that I am not wearing Carx. I don’t know what to actually say but I decided to keep silent, so she’d no longer be curious of what’s going on.“I couldn’t believe he’s graduating high school now,” said Magna while she giggled. “It feels like yesterday was the time we meet for the first time.” She sighed and looked at Carx who’s walking himself to the aisle and after his name has been called.I remain silent amd deep thoughts bothered me all day long. His approach and attitude to me was absolutely terrible. I avoid to look at him and decided to look on my phone imstead. I opened one of my social media app and scrolled up to get newsfeed. There I saw photos of Camila at my mother’s tailor shop. They’ve got a selfie and even tagged me in her post. Dad
After the graduation, Carx together with his friends tag along to celebrate in fancy restaurant. It was actually a bit awkward because Rue had invited me and Magna to join their celebration. I really tend to refuse their invitation since what had happened these days. I feel intense inside the van by Carx’s father. It was humiliating to even seat with Rue who forced to have me sitting with him. Magna was okay with everything, and I was shocked to see she was with Ronald.“What do you like to drink later, Annette? Do you want to taste an expensive wine?” Rue asked while he was scrolling on his phone and looking on food online app, probably to order something though we’re up heading to a resto. “Have you tried drinking ‘em?” He added after he noticed I wasn’t responding.“Oh, actually. I don’t drink—”Shortly after I respond Feliz interrupt our conversation and smile as he said, “Just treat her milkshakes. She probably liked that.” He looked st me and tried to sound nice after he noti
It was a cold night and electrifying moment as Carx hold my wrist and pulled me away from them. We just headed outisde the restaurant and took few steps till we reached the van where they’ve parked it. I looked at him in confused look. I am actually intense with what he just did to me. I know he got an audacity to embarrass me and belittle me infront of hi friends. “Take your hands off me, sir.” He get off me and grinned as he said, “I don’t want you here.” I froze in a moment and I stuck staring to his eyes. He have those tamed yet not really calm one. He have the confidence but dangerous. He have the peace, but chooses the chaos. And I have my principles, yet I decided to get trampled on multiple times by his reckless tongue.I get hold of myself and stop tears coming out. I swear to myself that this would be the last time I’m getting his insults. I’ve had enough. I breathe in and smirked while I lift my head from as if trying hard to avoid showing off my emotions of how painf
I arrived at Camila’s house widely smiling and make her confused as I sat on the edge of her bed reminiscing what happened earlier. I was shock to hear her teasing me about the guy, which he meant Feliz. And I don’t know why she have the idea of pushing me to him. She poked my waist and said, “I didn’t know why you came up here to just show me how happy you were these days.”“I don’t know what you’re talking about. I just got embarrassed earlier, that’s all.” I defended myself from her curious eyes and how she looked at me trying to rip off my lips as I wry aggressively. She chuckled and rolled her eyes as she said, “I don’t believe you. Anyway, I want to ask you something.” She looked at me after she went through her mirror and probed her face both sideways with a grin added question, “How do you know Carx?” Her voice was serious that it made me nervous what to tell. Should I tell her that I am working to him before? Or just made an excuse of who was that guy?“Huh?” I acted like
I silently accept the water that Istanio gave. I feel so small and uncomfortable here. I sometimes feel how it’s to much to bear seeing how Carx would just glare to me and expressionless. I forced myself to calm from shivering. He stood so chill, fierce and unbothered. He was holding his cigarette inserted between his fingers and can beer in his left hand. They’re boisterously laughing with his friends who are also drunk. I quickly shifted my gaze and look directly to Istanio’s eyes when he reached for my hand and gently squeeze it.“Sorry if I startled you,” he said and laughed after he let go of my hand immediately. He forced a smile and looked at my eyes with concern. His eyes were beautiful at this closer look. It was brown and how his eyelashes also was effortlessly attractive.“No. It’s fine,” I replied and already intertwined my fingers as I stooped so low, avoiding his eyes deeply looking into mine. I sigh as when I heard Carx laughed softly. “When did you just worked here?”“
After a week staying again in my hometown. I became indifferent and somehow feel I have able to forget things that I went through from his cruelty. It’s harsh and seems that life isn’t for me, I scanned my room after I have cleaned the area before leaving tomorrow heading back to the city for my college’s semester.A knock interrupts me that I swiftly turned into. It’s mom holding her phone and was checking on me by her suspicious eyes. “You really ready to go, dear?” she asked and tilted her head after noticing my curtains were changed,“Well, I’m not. But I wish I’m prepared for the school,” I said and giggle as I reached her arms and snaked my arms to her, grinning playfully. I looked at her ensuring the hope for them. I ran to an opportunity that I’ve regretted my whole life without them knowing. I appreciate how my parents poured their sacrifices and support for me. Thus, I swear to get hold to claim my manifest’s outcome of endeavor.“Sooner, I’ll be taking you as well to the c
I continue myself doing daily routine. It was unusual for me to act like everything would seem to be an episode from series I’m watching while I was in Junior High School. I feel how things instantly changed and even heard how my relatives experiencing difficulties due inconsideration that auntie’s children been doing with their lives. I was stuck staring on my phone as I waited myself to arrive back to the city. Where I’m deciding to get an apartment and look for part-time jobs since there’s only remaining week before my class starts. I have to try things I never been into, which sadly doing house chores are the basic job I knew suited for myself as an average kid.The province is calm as I expected. The falling leaves, clean lawn and yards. Untamed waves on the shore during high tide in the evening. How the moonlit reflects the ocean and stars flickering from thousand miles. I wish to have these by my embrace. I’ll be missing the harmonious environment where I grew up. Cities been
I unpacked my things already and went downstairs to help Camila for cooking lunch. I still remember the time we’re playing at their spacious living room and now already half of it was replaced for new room added for their guest. Which where Camila’s cousin staying. I rushed going to their kitchen and saw her already wearing sleeveless top with still jeans on. “Oh, hi. Are you done already?” She asked while her eyes focused slicing the butter. I walked towards her and smiled. I saw how she quickly rose her left brow and determined glaring at me. I pulled other ingredients she’ll going to use for cooking later. She was about to grab it from me that I have avoided away from her and slowly arranging them on the counter. Mostly are cans, spices, and other seasonings for marinating the chicken meat she have put in the freezer earlier before I’ve changed my dress.“I never thought you can cook,” I said and teased her with my mischievous grin. “Oh, probably you’re practicing to impress som
After days staying at the hospital. I already discharge that Saturday after Trexon visited me yesterday and promised to help about the job he offered to me. The cold air welcome me the moment I stepped inside my room. I arrived at apartment exactly noon time. I get home all alone. The room was silent and peaceful. I closed the door behind me and stare at the ceiling. The day that cause trauma all my life reminded me how I let myself broke into pieces even more. It sadden to realize I was left all alone after meeting those people I once hold onto. Camila didn’t even bother reaching me out, or even Carx to apologize of what he done. I went to my full length mirror and saw my skinny reflection. I saw how my eyes already darken under. I heaved a sigh and reach the call at the telephone. “Hello,” said the man from the other line. It was hoarse voice and I can clearly hear how he was sobbing while talking to me. “Who is this?” “Your dad,” he shortly answered. This was the first time
The next morning, I feel unwell and wasn’t feel comfortable even I left alone in my room. What Carx had done to me was unforgettable and brought me into biggest trauma that would forever hunt me, even in daylight. I couldn’t help but shed in tears again. I was laying in this hospital bed. There was none of them visiting me. Even Camila that I wished had changed her mind at least just to see me if I was doing fine. She really change and becoming unpredictable. I reached my phone and saw missed calls and messages from my parents. One message caught my attention and notice it was an unknown number. The message told something I wish I was familiar of it since that first time of meeting each other: ‘I’ll visit you by 9PM, sweetie.’ I was hoping of whoever it was. I became too desperate after everyone had left me broken. They left me being mum all my life, giving me endless trauma, hated my whole being, and blaming me for everything shit I must’ve done. I cried again, but this time becaus
“What happened?” I was surprised seeing Camila broke in tears. She also glared at Carx beside me. I quickly went to her but she just step away and rolled her eyes at me. Her cheeks were all red as she kept wiping off the tears on her cheeks. I was confused when I exchange stares with her including Carx who stood beside me and didn’t care to Camila glaring at him. “You betray me too, Anne,” she said and looked to me with as she scoff in disappointment. “Have you ever wondered what would I feel when I’ll figure this out?” Her voice shake and she could cry again at any time if she continue with her words. She was really heart broken that I couldn’t help but to only look at her. I know she don’t like the idea of me getting near her when I hurt her which I was unsure about. “What do you mean?” I avoid my eyes from her. I bit my lower lip and saw Carx moved away form me and attempt leaving. Rue stopped him by grabbing his left arm. They exchange stares to each other. I saw how Camila st
“Do you know each other?” I heard Istanio’s voice echoed when he already reached our direction with his confused expression. I looked away after I noticed this stranger in front of me was glancing as he smirked. Istanio smiled at me while I started to eat the food I have ordered earlier. I shook my head after I met Istanio’s eyes and forehead wrinkled in frustration. I saw them fist bump while I listen silently to their conversation. It’s hard to be in this situation, where I left behind when others started talking such. I feel my phone vibrated saw text message from Camila. I haven’t informed her properly about my leaving. I licked my lower lip after I wiped off the napkin to every corner of my mouth. “She was my schoolmate,” said Istanio and saw him in my peripheral vision how he glimpse at me. “How is staying here, Calden?” he asked as this Calden moved his shoulders and flexed it as he put on the earphone . We started to get back on our apartment. I happened to cross path wit
I go back to school and meet the usual classmates who wanted to get rid of me, so bad. I sighed when I sat on my chair and didn’t turned looking at their direction. I realized that Rua already changed her seat and sat with the well-known council of her college. I was frowning the whole day even good thing happened to me last night. “For today, I’d like you to choose your own partners for reporting next week,” said the veteran professor as she carefully settling her eyeglasses on her nose. She looked at the left side and saw her grinned at Rua as she added, “I want you Ms. Rua to pick someone from your row to be your group member.” I noticed how the others wry and didn’t look at her in the eye. We were girls aligned in the row and noticed them glancing at me as I waited for her to choose me to be in her group. I feel uneasy and having a hot seat. I shiver when I looked around, then saw Carx was there, he was busy scrolling on his phone and didn’t care of anything
I was surprised of what he said. And I can’t even digest the words he have told me. My brows automatically furrowed when I saw him grinning already. This stranger must be idiot! “Do you know each other?” Istanio asked as he joyfully approached us —now with his curious expressions. I looked away and packed my food instead. I quickly went to my things and carry them all at once. I feel my pocket vibrated and read the message which Camila had sent. Camila:Are you still mad at me?I pressed keys on my dial pad and it took three rings before she could answer. I heard him heaved a sigh and utter a small voice. “Sorry.” “No. You don’t have to be sorry. I’m the one at fault. I’ll be visiting you every Sunday. If it’s okay with you,” I said in a calm voice. I can’t avoid sometimes of being worried whenever she’s like this. She always apologize, though in the first place I understand everything and it made me feel guilty cause she made covered my mistakes from any circumstances. I heard
“Really huh?” I pushed him away from me and angrily pointed him my fingers. I was furious when he mentioned the word that trigger me again. I step towards his direction and knitted my brows as I cursed and blurted out, “You don’t own me anymore. I’ll leave and make sure you can’t find me!” I went to the staff room and didn’t turn back to their direction when everyone witnessed what happened. I walked pass by Trexon and saw his worried eyes as he grabbed my arm gently and looked to Carx’ direction. I pulled my arm from him and he followed as I started to pick my folded clothes and went to the restroom. “Stop following me,” I insisted as he stared into my direction and about to held my wrist that I quickly lifted and started to get shiver when his eyes look into me without knowing it weakens me after what happened between us. “What happened?” He asked softly and held me to both of my shoulders to steady in my position, looking to his eyes in cur
Since that night, Kendrick keep visiting Camila’s house. He always offering us for a ride. While I was not trying to talk with Camila since the thing she have told me about my parents knowing that I work. The car was silent while we’re heading to school. I can’t stop him from insisting and even made Camila to just agree about it. She keep glancing me through rear view mirror. Her eyes met mine and show a small smile from her face. Kendrick and Camila are both schoolmates in that university. But he dropped Camila and before me. It was late for me to notice that they seem close with each other because of it. Kendrick didn’t wear the uniform as Camila thus I assume he is not studying there. “Who are you dating?” he suddenly asked and glanced to me. I bit my lower lip when I remember the last kiss we had. We never talk with each other after that incident happen. We merely exchange stares and Marisa is the one only visits Mrs. Rovis’ home. I wonder why Trexon always
I froze when he reached my hand and squeezed it tightly as he motioned his other hand to the ceiling and said, “You’ll surely like this place once you transfer. I can visit you anytime when I’m free.”“Jeez, Tanio! Why are you saying that to her? You’re creeping her out,” said the landlady. She then looked at me and nodded as her head lean to the side as she asked, “You can stay here so someone can at least maintain the room if you worried paying down payment.”I automatically smiled and jump in surprise. She was too kind that I can’t help but reach her for an embrace. She hugged me back and slowly rubbed her hands to my back. “If it’s okay. Can I move here by tomorrow? I’ll make sure to do my best cleaning the entire area of your apartment, madame.”“Are you sure?” Istanio asked with his wrinkled forehead because of what I just said. “You can just promise her to pay after a week. She can consider…”“That’s the kindest offer I can do for her.