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Adrian

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last update Last Updated: 2025-01-14 21:29:12
Adrian

I can't fucking think straight. My mind is in a fucking mess and I feel restless, I feel used. He used me. Nikolai used me. He led me on and allowed me to fall in love with him so much that I don't think I can live without him.

I don't want to imagine a life without Nikolai. I can't. I let out a shaky breath as I just keep walking. I can't go back to that party. I will not go back. There is no way that I'm going to go back to watch him stand with another woman. I just can't. Why did he have to ruin us?

What am I even saying? There was never a us. I was just a fool who went ahead to fall in love with a man and then went ahead to dream that we were going to live happily. Nikolai is a man of the society, the future Pakhan, he's powerful and rich there is no way he will ever settle for a man or even date one. Everything was just for fun. I'm sure he must be satisfied after having fun with me.

And I don't think I'll ever be able to recover from him. I love him. A lot more
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