Elle POV.
Another day off in less than three months, that’s a miracle and the other miracle was going on right now, I’m getting ready for my date! For the first time in my very short life, I’m going out on a date, a real one, where someone picks me up, takes me somewhere special, and maybe give me a kiss before bringing me back home. And my first date ever was with the Devil, yes a date with her, she said our first meeting would be a date that a princess like me deserved to be taken out for a night to make me feel special and one of a kind for the night. I was scared at first I had some insanity inside of me, but I’m not that insane, she’s a hitman, a total psycho, she said so herself and I stand witness to her being not too sane in the head, she refused to tell me details to why or how she became the thing she is now. I really wanted to know why and how she ended up as a hitman, it’s a really interesting choice of job, but how do you end up there, maybe she’s just lying and she’s an online liar. Being worried about my own safety, I’m not that naive, I’m an author, and I have the most active imagination ever, I know how to kill someone in twenty different ways without anyone knowing, I’m not paranoid, I know those things don’t happen in real life, and in my brain they happened before in different scenarios. There are stories witnessing those ways to kill some people, even in a very public place, things could go badly, have you ever watched any kind of police shows, they all show you not to believe anyone, you are never safe, and I grew up knowing it’s real, you’re never safe, no matter what. I know what feeling unsafe is, I know the fear, to living in complete fear, the risk of losing everything, the risk of getting killed, or maybe just the risk of being hurt, badly hurt and wishing for death, I’ve been through it all. I still have my own nightmares, the ones that leave me speechless, that have me crying at night, and having accidents, it’s not a nice experience to go through but neither is life and still, we push through and keep going. And now for my first date ever, and it might be my last one, I had to look pretty, I had to dress up, I had to put some make-up on, I’m not that good with make-up, but I know how to do the basics thanks to youtube and the help of the girls in work. I knew how to put a decent base with some eyeliner after a lot of trials and errors, I could finally manage one decent line, and some mascara, I loved playing with colours, but the eyeshadows are too hard for me, I don’t have the stable hands for that, nor the judgment of when to stop. I decided to go with a dress, you could never go wrong with a dress everyone online wear a dress when they go on dates, it’s not too short to make me feel unsafe or unable to walk on the streets, my usual go-to is a jeans and a tee. But this is a special night, I wore my one and only dress, it’s not even an evening dress, just one that could be dressed up with some heels, in my case sandals, I don’t have the balance for heels either, I never had enough training in wearing heels, so I better avoid those. I looked at myself in the mirror and although I tried, I didn’t feel like I was good enough, I was just filled with disappointment after another disappointment, I’m anything but a princess, I’m more of a loser, someone who likes to pretend a broken soul that’s not completed. I sighed and decided to leave, there’s no use in trying to change my clothes or try to make myself look better, this is the best I’m going to get. I left my house and walked toward the bus stop, I always preferred the bus over the trains or subways, it makes me feel the safest, easier access and easier to leave and run whenever it’s needed. Devil wanted to meet over at an Italian restaurant, she tried to tell me she has some Italian blood in her, I joked and said she’s in the Italian mafia. She got really mad at that, she works for no one, she has no loyalty, and refuses to have any, she’s a free spirit, I respected that, but calling her a part of the Italian mafia was very funny and fitting, I enjoyed it, it’s like an inside joke. I called bull, she was hurt, no one refuses to have any loyalties unless they lost theirs before, she was hurt once upon a day, just ask me, I know the feeling, I like to call myself a free spirit but the truth is I was hurt and abused by my own family. And she refused to tell me why or how it happened, which meant something did happen, and I’ll get to the end of it. Or maybe just make a story up, she loves it when I do that, she said I’m really good at making stories and backgrounds, even the ones stolen from stories or movies, I’m a big police/mafia action movie fan. The ride to the restaurant was long and slow the bus isn’t the fastest, I had to walk the rest of the way too, good thing I went with my sandals instead of heels, I own one pair of heels for special occasions only very special occasions, I wanted to be like the cool kids and wear heels all the time, but it was really hard to walk in them, after almost breaking my ankle I gave up on my dream and put them in the back of my closet, I didn’t have the heart to throw them away. I made it to the restaurant shaking, I couldn’t breathe, the walk was too damn long, my bones were freezing, and the night was starting to get chilly, but the dress and sandals were my best option but they didn’t help with the colder weather. I couldn’t skip the good looks, not that they worked that well but I tried, and if the Devil is going to kill me, at least I want to look cute during it. I didn’t have a name to give the hostess, what should I say the Devil is my date, I was too shy to say that, instead Devil said I’ll have to give them another code name. “A reservation under the name of Cinderella,” I say blushing red, it’s weird to give them my favourite princess name as my reservation. The hostess didn’t even bat an eye at my strange name, she just nodded and walked me to a table, it was meant for two, but only I was there. Maybe the Devil was running late? In my stories, the hitman is always there on time but I guess this one is an exception, I really should stop comparing real-life events to stories but that’s easier said than done, after everything that I’ve been through, hiding in the world of dreams and imagination makes life a bit easier, make it passable. I took my seat and waited, then waited, and finally waited some more. I ate the whole bread plate on the table, I was hungry and had been promised a nice dinner, I’d take what I could get, better than going home hungry, plus the carbs would keep me warm for the night. After some self-debating, I got up and ready to leave, she’s not coming, she just ditched me, it hurt just a little bit but add it to the list of things that were ruining my soul. I walked toward the door ready to leave, and that’s when a woman walked toward me, a big smile on her face, her skin was perfectly tanned, make-up on fleek, high heels, and a fancy dress. I looked like a kid, poor kid compared to her, I avoided the eye contact and got ready to leave, I could catch the bus back home hopefully, this is the kind of people that belong to a restaurant like this one, not me. I should just go get some MacDonalds, I’m dressed fancy enough for it, my shoulder hit with the fancy woman, great I couldn’t even walk. “I’m sorry” I mumble walking away, but her hands stayed on my shoulders making me turn and meet her eyes, the gorgeous black eyes, they held the whole galaxy in them, the smile on her face, it could lit up a whole building, the short black hair, styled in perfect waves, she was beautiful. “Sorry for making you wait for me Love” she says in a voice that I knew, the melodic voice of my friend, my hitman friend, the one who ditched me! My smile fell quickly, I just shrugged, trying to get away from her, I wanted to leave, she didn’t want to meet me, and she didn’t want to see me, this was all just a way to embarrass me and I felt for it. It’s high school bullies but on a higher level and more resources. “I got to leave,” I say ready to cry my misery into my pillow tonight, I would not cry in front of her, even if I did count her as my friend, I would not embarrass myself anyway than I already have or much more than needed. “Elle, I’m sorry for making you wait, love,” she says again, in a perfect British accent, I had a thing for the sexy accent, it made my heart melt. “No it’s okay, enjoy your dinner” I say making up my mind about leaving. “Oh no, Elle, we going to sit down and eat” she says holding my hand and dragging me back inside the restaurant. To avoid any commotion in the restaurant I went with her willingly, if I screamed, it’ll always end up badly for the poor kid.Elle POV. “Sit down Love,” again the Devil asks in her melodic voice, she’s been ordering me around the whole time, calling me love instead of my real name, she probably forgot what it was, a women like her, she must go out with a different girl every single night. I obey and sit down, the waitress came by and dropped the menus for us, I could hardly understand half the word written, there was no pictures for me to choose from either, you’d think a high end restaurant would at least provide pictures, but non! I tried to read and pick something but I understood nothing from this menu, all I knew was everything was too fancy for me. “We ready to order,” Devil says calling to our waitress, when I wasn’t ready to order at all, I was anything but that, I still had no idea what I want to eat, and this happens to be the best meal I’ll have in some long long time! When the waitress came, she ordered some dishes that were too hard for me to pronounce, with the accent that I’m finding way to
Elle POV. “Tell me a story” I whisper over the phone, tonight was one of the worst nights ever, I had several nightmares back to back, I woke more than once but I managed to get back to sleep, but the last one was very bad. I couldn’t go back to sleep, I was scared of my own mind, having an overactive imagination turned to be a curse in lonely nights, every sound, every murmur my brain translated and turned into a monster hiding in the darkness. “A story, but you are the writer between the two of us,” she says in a reply with a chuckle, she’s right usually I’m the one who makes up the stories, I’m the author, and I’m really proud about it. “I know, but tonight, I need you to do it,” I say in a sad voice, it was more of a whisper, I can’t tell her a story, not with how scared I’m feeling right now, my story would be one about ghosts, fear, demons that lurk outside your home and not the one under the bed ready to snatch you and take you to hell, the real hell. I was never scared of t
Elle POV. I fell asleep after a while the hug did help, and you’d think my nightmares would be afraid of Devil, that they’d go away for the night, instead, they were there, as bad as ever. I saw him, hurting me and laughing, the laugh, the cold laugh, the one that he’s extremely happy at what he just did, hurt me. The dream kept going, but it didn’t end there, I saw myself running away from him, I made it to the door, I left the house, but it wasn’t our usual home, there was an elevator waiting there. I clicked and waited for it to come, while he followed me, I made it inside the elevator, I clicked on the ground floor, but then the elevator went quickly, it went down, but then up again, I almost fell a few times, but then it stopped. I wasn’t in the base level like I expected, I was somewhere in the upper floors, I walked out of the elevator, but the thing was all mixed up, I saw hand prints, bloody hand prints. Too afraid of that I ran back to the elevator but it wouldn’t come, I
Elle POV. After she left, I went back to my coffee it was not that hot anymore but warm enough to be very enjoyable, and you can’t waste a good cup of life, I drank it, I had work, and I had to go to the diner, but not until later. I should do some work at home, even if I’m poor I can’t be dirty, my sheets need to be cleaned, I sweat too much last night, I hate nightmares, they ruin my night, day, and the next morning I’m always feeling all weird and off. I went first to my bedroom and stripped the bed, I didn’t own a washing machine, but the building offers a shared laundry facility one of the good parts of this building, I also got my clothes, I don’t mind mixing everything, it’s much cheaper than doing multiple washes, although not preferable. I took everything down, placed them all together and started washing, I only do washing once every week, I don’t have enough clothes to go for more than one week, so I always have to wash them up to have enough clean clothes to get me going
Elle POV. I cried myself to sleep, and I woke up starving, as I always do after a good cry, I could kiss the boots and jacket goodbye, I’ll freeze for another year, and after I pay Devil up, the money I’d save up would go to me. For now, I woke up groggy, I skipped brushing my face or tear from how mad I am, but after second thought, I did need the bathroom, I ran inside needing to pee, I always forget to pee until the last second, I talked myself into brushing my teeth, and even washing my face. My eyes were filled with icky things from crying during the night, I washed my face and moved back to the kitchen, I made myself a giant cup of coffee to help with my headache. I moved back to the living room, took a seat on the sofa and got my laptop, I always take my anger out in my stories, I check my notifications, and read the messages from the readers, those are the best parts of my day. I opened a new document and started typing my newest story is all about how mad I am at being robb
Elle POV. Get my things ready, okay, what do I own really, just my clothes, laptop, and phone, that’s all I got under my name. For my clothes they all fit into one bag, and my laptop and phone fit in the laptop bag, I finished packing all of those and went back outside, what now, I still have to pay rent, and I want to have a place to be able to come back to in case everything goes not the right way. I know I live in my own dream world, but even I know that this isn’t one of my stories, Devil won’t take me away with her, Devil won’t be my mommy, Devil would lose interest in the end. “I’m ready,” I tell her with both my bags in hand, she smiles and leads me outside toward her car, the red Camaro, the car stood out in my neighbour it didn’t belong there none of the cars were fancy enough to be even compared to hers, and even the flashy ones aren’t that flashy, but still there stood the red sports car. Devil opened the trunk for my things, I could see other bags there, some plastic, so
Elle POV. I need to work, although I’d love to stay in the house, in my PJ, drinking coffee, messy hair and typing (Side note, that’s how I always work). Instead, I had to beg Devil to let me go to my work, my other work, the diner, where I meet bad-smelling people, that work, but I had no idea how to get there really, we were on a side of the town that I didn’t know. “Devil, I need to get to work” I beg with her to no use, she’s not listening, I guess she’s ignoring me on purpose, I’ve already told her twice I need to get going. “Forget about it” was her only reply, forget about what! I just look at her all confused, she needs to do better than this, I’m not getting her. “You’re not going back to that work Elle, forget that” she says, wait! I haven’t been here a full day and she’s already forbidding me of going to my own job, I made a mistake. “I can’t do that Devil, I need to work,” I say back to her, first I won’t be able to work, then I’ll become completely dependent on her.
Elle POV. “Devil, let me go please” I whisper to her, who’d think a hitman was this cuddly, she had me in her arms, hugging the breath out of me, she wasn’t letting me go no matter how hard I tried to get out of her arms. She just grumbled and hugged me even closer to her, I sighed and wait for her to let me go, but she didn’t let me go, she kept her hold on me until she finally was ready to let go. “Morning princess,” she says her hand going toward my hair and messing with it, it helped calm me down except for one thing, I needed to pee! I need her to let me go, like right now. “Devil…” I mumble trying to get out of her arms but she didn’t let me go. « Yes princess? » she answered still holding me tight, I tried to wiggle my way out but she’s one strong woman.“I need to pee,” I say finally, I couldn’t wait anymore, I really need to pee. “Go pee” she says with a laugh giving me a push out of the bed, I was about to go back to my room and use the bathroom there when she called ou