CHARLENE'S POVI thought that the idea made me feel less guilty about lying to him in the first place, but that wasn't quite right either. It was just that I felt better knowing that someone understood me so well, and wanted the same thing for me. I guess you could call that love, though it felt too strong for that. He smiled reassuringly at me. "That won't happen this time. Not as long as you stay honest with me. Even if I have to drag out a confession every step of the way, I promise you, you'll tell me what you feel comfortable telling me. If you keep secrets from me for too long, I'm not sure how much more I can take." I nodded reluctantly. Of course, I trusted his word. He wouldn't lie about something like that. But I didn't think it fair to give him false hope now that he was finally opening up to me about something, especially since I still hadn't shared everything about myself yet. "So," he began after another short silence, "should we go meet the other pack?" I shook my h
CHARLENE'S POVI thought back to all of the times Xavier had told me about nightmares and how helpful it had been to know how to wake him up in case I ever woke up screaming in the middle of the night. I was beginning to wonder if he'd lied to me about all of that. The realization scared me. I never imagined that the only thing I'd ever need from Xavier was a reason to stay alive, because I thought that it would probably kill me to get rid of him. And yet... I felt relieved. I didn't think about him anymore, I didn't imagine how my life would be without him, and even the fact that he might eventually leave me hurt less than it should've. Now all I could feel was… relief? Wasn't that what he wanted anyway? Wasn't that why he'd asked me to marry him? Maybe I didn't need to pretend that all that we had was fake. For the first time in forever, the thought of losing him felt almost pleasant. Not as painful and suffocating as it had once did, thankfully, but still unpleasant nonetheless.
CHARLENE'S POVI heard that Alpha Jaxton's wolf kept on bothering him, that his true mate was actually reincarnated, that he shouldn't waste his precious time to someone undeserving of his love. Although he kept on being stubborn–he began to be intimate with Chandler even though there was no heat in between them. While these events happened every night, I received an invitation for the grand celebration of Vicious Shadow Pack's first luna. I teared up, realizing that it might be over for me. Beta Xavier comforted me and said that he'll accompany me to the ceremony. They thought that this was the chance that I was waiting for–I'll give Chandler a taste of her own medicine.I am initially planning to have the Scarlet Edge Pack's rogues take Chandler as a hostage. Though, my mind changed. I let the rogues have a feast on her, which made Chandler pregnant with some stranger. The child had no relation with Alpha Jaxton at all, which is why she wasn't actually chosen as the pack's luna, Ch
CHARLENE'S POVAfter the ceremony, Selena witnessed how I wanted the Vicious Shadow Pack to suffer in great despair, so she sided with me. She formerly belonged to the Vicious Shadow Pack as one of the common wolves. Not until her entire family was casted away by Alpha Jordan, which led to the death of her parents as they had no source for their basic necessities. So we planned to team up, which gradually removed my curse. She also wants to seek vengeance for the death of her parents, which explains why she bestowed a curse upon her former pack. She can manipulate magic as well, other than creating curses and lifting them. But we have never worked together before this point, because I always keep things from her. I’m afraid that if our bond gets any stronger, I might not be able to control myself when she tries to take over my mind. After all, she is just as much as I am. And since we have no choice but to work together to find out more about the prophecy that will soon fall upon u
CHARLENE'S POV"I want to focus on my plan and forget everything she did to us." Mom nods. Her expression was unreadable. She closed the book she was holding and set it aside. Then she moved over to wrap her arms around me. "I'm glad you had an interesting encounter, then. Maybe you two can come back next week." I smile. "Maybe. Or maybe not. We'll see." Mom just hums noncommittally in response and I turn away. "Thanks for letting me talk it out with you tonight, though. And thank you for trying." She doesn't respond, and I sigh. I don't know why I bother, anyway. It's just not worth the fight. Sometimes, I just hope she'll give up on me soon and let me be alone. I leave to go to bed early after dinner. I don't bother telling mom goodbye before I close the door behind me. It's too early for goodbyes. It's almost 11 o'clock when I lay down and try to sleep. The thoughts racing through my head won't let me rest and I toss and turn until 2:45 am. Then there are the dreams–the nightm
CHARLENE'S POVAfter a long pause. I hear Xavier sigh audibly over the phone. "Okay, then where is she?" I freeze. I thought that I've hidden all traces of our interaction from everyone, who doesn't seem like the type to pry. "Who are you talking about?" I ask. "The girl you were hanging around with yesterday. The one you brought home after the ceremony. The one you told me she pretends that she's the moon goddess." "What are you talking about?" I whisper, suddenly extremely paranoid. Xavier lets out a heavy sigh. "Well, I was wondering how long it's gonna take you to figure it out. I saw her yesterday." "W–wait. What?" I squeak out nervously. Xavier lets out another heavy sigh. "I already told you, I didn't like her." I don't know what's worse; the fact that he didn't like her, or the fact that he still likes her. I take a deep breath. "Why are you telling me all of this anyway? It's not like you care about the outcome. Why don't you just forget about this and move on." "Be
CHARLENE'S POVI don't know why it was so hard to let go of the hug we shared earlier. He really does have an effect on me. Maybe he just needs a little more attention. If only people didn't give me such mixed signals all the damn time. I shake my head mentally, not wanting to get distracted right now. I look around the station, wondering where we are going. It's late afternoon now, the sun is starting to set through the huge windows above us, giving off a warm light which mixes with the cool autumn breeze blowing through here and there. The station is pretty empty. It looks like most people went home hours ago or just came from work early. I can't see anyone else here. He notices me staring and gives me an apologetic look. "Sorry. I guess we got caught up talking." I shrug. "No problem. We're always busy talking anyway." "You're right. So, what did you want to talk about?" I ask him. "We've been talking for weeks now. What do you think you can add today?" My curiosity gets the
CHARLENE'S POVBut he won't. If only he'd let me do that for once. "It's not safe," he says. That catches my attention. It makes me stop dead in my tracks. He takes a deep breath before continuing. "Charlene, there's something I have to show you." "You've shown me plenty of things already," I responded coldly. The last time I saw him he was looking like a kicked puppy. The time before that he was making love to me while he looked on. But when did that change? And why doesn't he seem concerned now? What could I possibly do that would make him act like this? "You can't be serious," he says. "We haven't slept together in nearly a month now. Don't you want to take the risk?" He looks so scared and hurt. I feel a little guilty. After all, it's not like we agreed to never sleep together again. "You know what? F*ck it!" I yell angrily as I start to walk away. I hear the door slam shut behind me and sigh. It really wasn't worth it to come back up. What was I thinking? Maybe I should t
CHARLENE'S POVA few years later...I am now the Luna of the Vicious Shadow Pack, who destroyed the curse of their pack."So," Jaxton grinned beside me. "Why are you looking at me like that, huh?""Nothing. It's been a year since we met again, Charlene," Jaxton drawled, tracing the line of my jaw with his fingertips. "Can we be like–""Like what, Jaxton?""Like... official now?"I laughed at Jaxton's question and hugged him tightly. People pass around us and they can't stop glancing at us. I let my gaze wander over the rugged lines of his face, his sculpted lips, his eyes which had gone silver when he started talking about our relationship. I smiled widely and pressed a kiss on him. He groaned and kissed me back hard, his tongue tangling with mine. I tasted like mint from the chocolate mousse he had insisted I try today, and it made him smirk. We break the kiss after a while, both panting for breath, but neither of us has said anything. The people walking around us have stopped to w
CHARLENE'S POVSoon after the war finished, Selena declared her defeat in front of Alpha Jaxton, along with a genuine apology of what she did as she merely got blinded by the idea of revenge. She wished to be killed in the hands of the alpha. He didn't know that his parents were the cause of Selena's misery, so he took her in. She had to serve Alpha Jaxton for the rest of her life in exchange for being forgiven. So far, they haven't found the right way to kill her yet. But it won't be long before that changes. The war is still going on and Alpha Jaxton will take advantage if he sees any opportunity to get rid of her once and for all. She was still alive, but Selena has seen what kind of a man Alpha Jaxton truly is. There were no other words to describe him than brutal. In fact, I believe that he's only human. A person capable of loving someone so much, yet having such little care and patience for the same person. I wouldn't expect more from an alpha than that. It would never last fo
CHARLENE'S POVA few months later, Alpha Jaxton couldn't possibly leave me. During the commencement of the war, I was already on the verge of giving birth. My life would be at risk if Jaxton joined the battle. He was left with no choice other than to rely on Beta Xavier when he heard that my parents were about to get killed. Alpha Jaxton and Beta Xavier have been on good terms ever since the alpha knew that Xavier did nothing wrong. Jaxton owes a lot to him, considering how he was the only one who stayed by my side, protected, defended, and fought for my sake. Jaxton and Xavier had become close allies in order to survive. Beta Xavier has completely surrendered, he accepted the fact that no matter how many times the person he loves gets reborn, his love would never be reciprocated. ***"Hey, Charlene, are you okay? What's bothering you?" Jaxton asked. As he held onto my hand, he rubbed small circles into it to soothe away any pain I might've been feeling from my labor. The pain was
CHARLENE'S POVHis arms came around me tightly and his tongue swept past my lips. I moaned. We kissed for what felt like hours before he suddenly pulled away, leaving me gasping for breath. I blinked rapidly at him, trying to figure out exactly what happened between us just now. He still looked nervous and uncertain but also happy. My heart thumped heavily and my face felt flushed hot. He chuckled softly, brushing my bangs from my face. "Well?" "Yes, I..." My voice faltered. I had no idea what to say next. It was all very confusing. Finally, I managed to get the words out. "Thank you, Jaxton. Thank you for showing me your dreams." He frowned. "What are you talking about?" "I... I haven't really experienced anything like that before. The butterflies. And everything. You've been giving me a lot of good experiences lately, without telling me where they come from or when they're going to happen. And I'm just… overwhelmed by it," I finally admitted. I wasn't exactly sure how else to
CHARLENE'S POV"I'm sorry…" There were tears running down his face, and there was no mistaking it this time. His eyes showed it clearly. He was trying to hold back tears, but they just kept coming, streaming down his cheeks in tiny rivers. His shoulders started shaking, as if he wanted to break out sobbing but couldn't allow himself to. And just when I thought he wasn't going to say anything else. "I–I love you, Charlene." The words were barely audible, but they sent a wave of warmth through me regardless. And I couldn't suppress a small laugh. I took his hand. "What's funny?" he sniffled. My expression softened. "That is funny. What you said." But he only looked confused. "What do you mean 'what did I say?' "When you asked what happened in the dream last night, you sounded so sad, Jaxton." I continued to tease him with light humor, trying to distract him from the fact that I was crying too. It worked. A small smile appeared on his lips as he wiped away one last tear that ran
CHARLENE'S POVHis right eye was swollen shut and half of his lower lip was cut through, revealing the bone underneath. His whole body felt like it was in shock. Was he okay? Jaxton slowly moved his eyelid upward. A single tear rolled down his cheek. "Char…" He breathed heavily. Relief and joy rushed over me. Thank goodness he's alright. I pulled him into a hug, holding him tightly against me, trying to absorb all of the heat and energy radiating off his body. I buried my nose into the curve of his neck as I inhaled deeply, relishing the scent of him. It was intoxicating! He smelled like fresh rain and pine trees. As my head started to spin, I realized there were other people nearby. They must be watching us or more specifically. And they're probably wondering how we knew each other or if I even remembered him at all. But this didn't matter. All that mattered now was Jaxton. The moment he wrapped his arms around me I felt safe and protected. So safe and happy. It almost made every
CHARLENE'S POVI couldn't force myself to push him off or push him to continue, even though that was what I desperately wanted. I needed him. I needed to be in control. No one else but him had ever made me feel like this. And I never would again if I didn't do something about this mess we were in. The sound of footsteps interrupted our moment just when I was considering whether or not it would be wise to ask him to stop. A voice from above us snapped. "Is this how you treat the lady you claim to love?" We both looked up with matching sheepish grins, my face redder than a tomato, Jaxtonton's cheeks darker than a ripe tomato, and our clothes crumpled and torn beyond repair. "Who are you?" Jaxton asked, trying to pull himself out from underneath me. I tried to sit up as well but it seemed that my arms still belonged to someone else. "Who did you say you were?" Jaxton asked again, ignoring my questions for now. "I don't know who you think you're messing with, but we are going to have
CHARLENE'S POV"You'll come back eventually, Jaxton. It may take years, but eventually you'll find someone who understands, even if she doesn't love you like you deserve. That's what you want, right?" It seemed so simple when I said it out loud, but it would never be simple with him. I know that now. It was a hopeless relationship. Even more hopeless than the one with Xavier. No matter where we went or what we did, there was always something holding us back from really being together. We stared at each other in silence. Finally he gave a half smile and shook his head slightly before pulling himself up off the couch. We stood for a moment gazing at each other before he leaned forward and kissed me lightly on the cheek. I felt my eyes burn suddenly with unshed tears as I turned my head slightly and pressed my mouth against his shoulder. He smelled of the laundry detergent he used. A strong masculine scent that mixed pleasantly with some sweet, flowery scent he liked to wear. I wrappe
CHARLENE'S POVHe thinks we're incompatible. I had thought he wanted me! But the way he said it, it sounded as though he didn't want anything more than friendship and maybe s*x. I felt disappointed, hurt even, and humiliated. "It just occurred to me that your bloodline isn't completely pure," he explained, "or at least, not entirely. There's a chance, if we're compatible enough..." I couldn't help feeling hopeful. "Yes. If we are compatible, then when our souls touch." He trailed off. His eyes were sparkling. I could feel how badly he wanted me. How much he really liked me. I could see how much he was enjoying our time together. So much so that he would willingly change himself for better. I felt tears welling up inside me. I hadn't expected anything more than being friends. Not that I wouldn't be grateful and happy, of course. But still, this was so unexpected for both of us. I nodded in response to his question, not trusting my voice. "That's perfect, Charlene," he grinned. "We