LILY"Tonight's party, we're going all out. We will party still midnight."My eyes grow wide with shock. "My curfew is 10.00pm.""Oh that's on you. You have to convince your daddy to let you stay out till midnight." I hate when Tiffany sends me to do the tough tasks but well, this is my father we are talking about I don't expect her to ask him on my behalf. Tonight, we're looking forward to ticking off summer-to-do-list number two and saving me from going insane. After the accident that took place on our yard and my mom walking in on Luca and I kissing, I've been locked indoors in the name of healing, it was my mom's idea, she never told my dad what she saw, so I knew it was her way of punishing me. Tiffany was not allowed to visit, only nurses and maids attended to me, there was no new book in my library to read and I think my mom intentionally blocked my network connection. I had plenty time to do absolutely nothing but think about Luca, even dream about him sneaking into my bedr
LUCA"This is a public club Lily. I'm not stalking you." I idly glance at my wrist watch. "Come with me. I'm taking you home." "No, you are not. I'm going with Tiffany.""Tiffany is pretty wasted." I point to where Tiffany is laying with a dude. The way Lily waves at him and he signals that he will take care of Tiffany, I can assume that they know each other. Lily folds her arms stubbornly. "I'm still not going with you.""Yes, not like that." I cringe my nose in disgust at her vomit wrenched outfit. Why is she wearing such a tiny skirt? Why did she allow all those men touch her? She is different, she is not like the Lily I know. Why do I care? I don't care. Even if she wants to be a little slut I won't still touch her. She's a jailbait, a forbidden fruit that is trying to destroy me. I'm still mad that Kate caught us kissing and warned me very politely to leave her daughter alone. If I really wanted Lily that badly, I could take her, elope with her to an unknown island and make h
LUCAI look away from the road long enough to stare at her. She is smiling, it's the kind of happy and contagious smile that you can't help but smile back. My lips curve into a frown. "So you doubt it?" I return my gaze to the road and turn into my parking lot. "I don't. I just think that I know your type of guy. I have read about guys like you.""Guys like me?" I turn the key in the ignition. The car dies off. I turn fully so that my back is against the car window and I'm facing her completely. "What's my kind of guy?" I lean forward placing my hands on the space between us. I don't know where this is going. I should probably stop now but I don't want to.She presses her fingers thoughtfully on her lips and I think she is about to answer me but instead she shakes her head and lean forward too. Our arms are touching. Our lips just few inches apart. "No. I won't. Let's have a little suspense in this story shall we?"The car is quiet. Lily house is just a few feets away, that doesn't b
LILYSometimes, late at night, our memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheek. And nights like these are so often these days. I'm curled up in my bed crying over him again. I'm tried of getting over Luca. Everytime we are together it feels like bliss and torment, sometimes the moments begin so pure and romantic, I think it may be pure bliss but suddenly it changes to torment, just like last night. It will always end the same like others, with Luca rejecting, hurting and leaving me. I should take the hint and walk away but I can't. Luca is like a bad addiction, I know he is not good for my emotional health but I keep on going back to him and begging him for one more dose of pain, even when I know he will ruin me.I dap my eyelids as the tears keep falling out involuntarily. I really want this to be my Happily ever after. Why am I not enough? Why can't he take me? The tears continue rolling down. My body shuddering under the nerves wrecking sobs, my nose dripping, my eyes dr
LILY"Who did you hook up with last night?"I ignore her question. "Did you and West finally hit it?""I was really wasted last night. West is a total gentleman, he refused to have sex with me in my drunken state. Don't try to switch things Lily, I'm asking about you.""Did we come out here to talk about boys and sex, or fill college applications?" We're sitting in an open field under a mini pink canopy. There is a small table infront us with assorted snacks, fruits, drinks, and books, that is too much for two girls. There are flowers hanging on the four poles supporting the canopy. We're both sitting side by side on white cushions. I must give Tiffany credit, she outdid herself by setting this up and wearing a matching pink sundress and white sandals."Lily, it's not fair. I tell you everything about my love life but you keep hiding secrets from me." She frowns at me. "I know you hooked up with someone last night, who is it?"I shrug. "I didn't. Luca took me home." That's the truth,
LUCA I've already lost my sanity but my survival is at stake. If I don't end them, they will forever keep controlling my decisions, controlling my self. I must survive. I must save myself even if that's the only thing left. I will go to Italy. I will try to end these torment, I know failure is as fatal as success but I won't let fear of failure stop me. I may loose what's left of my sanity, hell. I may even loose my life but if I continue sitting in New York and letting the pain and voices from my past feast on my vulnerability then I will definitely loose what's left of my sanity. I will die in the end so why don't I make it worth the while. I must go to Italy now. I will find my deadbeat dad. I will find Mr Hyde. I will find his wife. I will punish them. And then there's Lily, saving the best for last. The sweetest girl there is. She has been loved and taught to love, to dream and to live. Me, I have never been loved, I have only been taught to hate, to destroy, to show anger. I
LUCA Take her. Then let her go. "Why are you smiling at me like that?" "How can I look at you and not smile." I tilt my head and stare at her black channel dress that is bare at the shoulder and her blonde hair that falls at perfect curls around her shoulders and the golden lightening of the hall for making her glow the more. "Did I tell you how beautiful you look in that dress." She place her elbows on the table and press her face against her folded palms. "Yes, but I'd love to hear it again." I lean my back against my seat. "You look very..." I pause and stare at all the exposed skin. Fuckable. "... beautiful in that dress." "I never knew somewhere this magnificent exists in this city." Lily eyes flies across the hall to the large chandeliers hanging from the ceiling to the gold table covering and black china, to the gold trimming dangling on the walls to the thousands personalities and dozens of maids serving tables. The dinner is indeed luxurious, it is not what Smith
LILYLast night, I did the most unbelievable thing, making out with Luca in a parking lot, and I absolutely loved it. I didn't cry myself to sleep last night; instead, I relived the entire experience over and over again in my head. It was amazing. This weekend, I'm home alone. My parents traveled for a conference and took Isabella with them because, well, they didn't know I was staying home. The plan was to travel with Tiffany to London for the music and dance festival, but we couldn't get any tickets, and at the very last minute, which was this morning, West bought two tickets and Tiffany chose to go with him over me, so now I'm stuck home watching a scary horror movie, which I hate.I'm sitting on the couch in the living room with my feet on the couch, my knee pressed against my chest, and my arms wrapping around it. My body is shaking, the haunting music from the movie filling the whole house, and to make matters worse, all the bulbs are off, so I'm sitting in the dark living room