AUGUST
“What are you doing?” I asked even though I already know the clearest answer to that stupid query. He just got naked and there’s a river flowing right in front of us.
Perhaps, this is just my crappy attempt at starting this agreed upon conversation with him. I know the incoming conversation that we are about to have will be interesting but I just want to warm things up. Ambrose appeared to be calm here and he even said that himself, but I still have the feeling that he might just pop off at any given time. I don’t know him that much and I’m sure as hell that I’m taking a few precautions to prevent something that I don’t want to happen. I want to make sure that I make him feel that it’s okay to have a conversation with me even though he doesn’t know how to talk.
Ambrose doesn’t seem to have the slightest problem getting naked
AUGUST“Is that the bridge?” My eyes began to look at the serene scenery the moment we reached the top plateau of the boulder. I can see the curves of the river flowing quietly down to which I saw the top of the Mary Heights bridge. I can’t see the whole bridge because it’s covered by the lush branches and leaves but I recognized the top steel bars that completes it.“Yeah,” Ambrose nodded and sat down while I stayed standing as I laid my sight observing the vicinity.I looked down the river and noticed that the water current is strictly controlled by a barrier of rocks equally resembling a dam. This is why the water in this part doesn’t have that rapid current that could potentially pull you and restrict you from actually swimming. The water was clear as crystal given the bright afternoon sunlight. It’s almost as if I’m looking down at a huge magnifying glass or something. I can see all
AMBROSEI don’t know what went through my mind that I dragged August here to my secret spot. I have never brought anyone here before even Phil and the gang doesn’t know about the existence of this beautiful place. I don’t really have a plan to have a conversation with August but hearing him asking me sounded very much inviting. I also have some questions that I want to be answered and this is probably the only time that I’ll get this chance.“Why did you kiss me?” August asked out of the blue and somehow it threw me off the grid. I knew he wanted to talk to me and I haven’t had the time to ask myself why did I even said yes to him in the first place. His words echoed inside my head as I felt my chest pump faster.“I don’t know.” I uttered in response. I did expect this specific question to pop sometime but I was a bit surprised that it came sooner that I thought. Despite of that, I
AMBROSEIt is honestly hard to pretend not to know the way towards August’s house. I’ve already followed him all the way to his house once and my good sense of direction still remembered the way unsurprisingly. My elaborate act of innocence seemed to be playing out well with August.“Just drive straight this road then turn to Marianna Street,” August pointed forward right after we passed the bridge.“Okay,” I nodded.He was riding behind me and although he’s confident enough not to grab on my torso to support his balance, it’s quite enough for me that I can still feel his body right next to mine. This might be gay, whatever they might call it, but I’m starting to like this set up. The wind whipped right straight to my face as I stepped on the gas even harder. August must be lucky that he was the one wearing my helmet instead of me but I am not complaining at all.I felt my c
AUGUSTThey say the universe is full of wonderful things that are hard to explain. There’s this famous question of what lies across the universe? There’s also this question of what lies beneath the unexplored vastness of the ocean? There are even these mad spirits and paranormal occurrences all across the world that science have much difficulties of explaining. And then there’s me. I can’t explain what I’m currently feeling right now.I am standing stiff like a lonely scarecrow at the outer layer of the cornfields as I watched Ambrose slowly disappear out of sight. Ambrose just drove away without leaving me something to look forward to. Why am I even thinking that?I might have to put the blame all on me for that certain action. I don’t really want to invite him inside our house purely based of the fact that we are still technically strangers in so
AUGUST I was gradually growing nervous to meet Rachel and her clique during our lunch break. But more than that, I was starting to grow mad about the shocking things that I have learned today. It has come to my attention that apparently we are a couple now. I don’t know if the whole school have already heard about this theatric but Alyssa’s group have caught it. That’s probably enough for me to come up to this conclusion that a lot people have heard of this bullshit. Me and Rachel, a couple? That is extremely wild to believe considering that fact that there’s really nothing going on. I know I have been talking with Rachel and we have been public about our flirting and all those couple stuff but this is a surprising turn of events. Things are moving faster and faster that I am not able to keep up with everything that’s going on around me. I have a feeling that this is not a simple rumor that was spr
AUGUSTI feel like I’ve just jumped towards the open ocean full of hungry sharks and I don’t even know how to swim. Nicole just announced to the whole world that me and Rachel are a couple and things have just turned crazier. She didn’t asked permission and just ran her mouth without even thinking about the possible ruckus that it will create. Almost everybody who doesn’t know about it gasped like it’s some kind of a big news. Some of the people who have heard it were still gagged but that’s not even a surprise at all. And then my relationship with Ambrose just had a drastic turn. This is going to be one hell of a rollercoaster ride.This isn’t what I meant when I want my high school experience to be exciting and worth remembering. This is a reach but this is the reality that I have to face. I’m just single yesterday and now I already have a freaking girlfriend. T
AUGUSTThe star-crossed lovers. That phrase might sound really superficial and whimsical at the very same time. I would even call it an overstatement but that’s what people call Rachel and me now. Everybody treats us almost as if we were that one couple in almost every romantic movie that has gone through a series of unwanted and terrible circumstances and still being destined to meet in the end. Everyone at school were palpably hyped up about my relationship with Rachel that it has gotten to a point that we are about to have a fan club. This was all, in full honesty, just an over exaggeration purely because of the fact that we are basically a normal couple.A month has already gone and passed and my relationship with Rachel is smoothly sailing across the ocean. We haven’t really had a major fight that’s worthy gossiping for except for our constant bickering about inconsequential stuff. Perhap
AUGUSTSitting right in the middle of everyone, I was watching the screen go idle. Everyone’s busy looking for a certain song to sing and although I would love to help them all out, I remembered I’m acting the straight guy up in here. I should just probably let them pick and choose whichever song they would like. It’s about to get dark anytime soon but the lights in this private karaoke bar is just bright enough. I looked around the entire room and everything doesn’t look that much expensive anymore. They’re really that quite expensive but perhaps the main reason why they all looked normal to me is because I’ve been seeing and checking them every single time that I come here.I sat down quietly on the couch as they flipped the song book. After fifteen minutes of just flipping the pages left and right, they were finally finished listing a short list of songs. Some of these son
AUGUSTI was already growing impatiently excited for Monday to come so I’d have to see Ambrose again and it really came faster than I would’ve even realized. Ambrose and I just shared sweet and thoughtful messages to each other throughout the rest of the weekend and it was giving me everything that I wanted. I can’t stop thinking about him and just everything that happened right between us. I’m pretty much confident that Ambrose can’t stop thinking about me too. He was telling me everything that’s happening inside their house throughout the weekend and I’m not even asking for it. He told me that he had a deep heart to heart conversation with his father about a lot of things and that his dad finally began growing closer to him. I was so happy for him that he’s finally getting what he truly deserves in this timeline and I know he deserves a lot of good things and a classic redemption. I
AUGUST“I didn’t know you brought a friend of yours home?!” The older man wearing this fancy royal blue suit mouthed when I brought myself into the picture basically referring to my sudden appearance. He seemed quite startled to see me emerge from the stairs. Just as the man was startled, I was stunned as well the moment that I heard him speak. The tone of his voice sounded professional and commanding at the very same time and it reminded me of the school’s headmistress.“Oh, yeah.” Ambrose trailed and it was pretty obvious in his tone of voice that he was faltering as he turned his head to look at me. “His name’s August. He’s one of my teammates.” He introduced me and while he said my correct name, I was confused when he said I was one of his teammates.I know he used to play basketball and used to be the captain of the team but this exchange m
AUGUSTThe bright sunlight just pierced right through my eyes when I opened them the next morning. I was facing the window and Ambrose was hugging me from behind and just being the bigger spoon. It took some time for my eyes to adjust from the brightness of daylight but after I got the hang of it, I instantly moved my head and I accidentally hit my head on Ambrose’s chin. The collision was quite hard enough that it woke him up as well.“Hmmmm.” Ambrose groaned from the pain and had to pull one of his hand to adjust from it.“Sorry about that.” I spat out and the words came out pretty hoarsely.“Good morning,” He greeted me with his guttural morning voice as he rubbed both of his eyes to adjust from the brightness of the daylight.“How was your night, Ambrose?” I asked as I stared at his messy just woke up face. He still looked pretty hot
AUGUSTMy heart just melted like a butter dropped on a hot steaming pan. Hearing Ambrose spill some of the truth that has been bottled up inside of him was completely heart wrenching in the most pitiful way. I know that his mother hated him because he already told me that a few weeks ago, but the things that came out after that was really a twist that I wasn’t expecting at all. I’m still trying to let the things that I’ve heard from Ambrose sink inside of my head. It was hard to hear him spit the words out and I didn’t think it was this hard to let it settle down too.I have never met anyone from Ambrose’s family before. I only saw the few members on the painting but that painting was a decade old. Still, I was actually looking forward to seeing them in person. I have yet to meet his famous father who have donated a lot of things at this town. I have yet to meet his mother who hate
AMBROSEDid I hear August enunciate the words right? I asked myself. I’m pretty sure I heard him say the words perfectly clear. I’m not going to hide anything. I was truly astonished by this secret even though it’s really nothing to be astonished about. We are both dudes who likes each other and has kissed more times than I could even remember. How gay could that possibly be?I was dead ass correct when I felt like August was about to drop some sort of a bomb. He really did drop the secret bomb and suddenly this telling of secrets while turned against each other’s back felt beneficial for both of us. I have never realized that he was actually gay until now that he has spilled the truth. All this time I thought he was really this straight guy that willing to explore all of the possibilities of things and I was just the gay one who’s afraid to admit the reality of things.It w
AMBROSEAugust doesn’t seem to be quite impressed by my mediocre dancing skills and to be quite honest with myself, if I was watching that shit go down too, I’d be disappointed. With that being said, I felt alright and I’m pretty much certain that he was entertained. And I’m entertained too. The smile on his face was just something that I’m gunning to see and I made him smile. I’m sure he’s feeling some type of way after just breaking up with his girlfriend a while ago.“What are you doing?” I deliberately asked the moment I noticed he was watching something on his phone. I leaned my head a bit towards him to get a sneak peek of what he was watching and it was just a video of some recognizable people from school at a random house party. “Where is that?” I followed up and casually snaked my arms around his shoulder. I’m becoming more and mor
AMBROSEThe night was pretty much moving slowly but it was everything that I wanted. I checked the clock hanging on the wall and it’s just nine pm. For a normal night, nine pm seemed like the right time to head to bed but for a Friday night, nine pm was agreeably too early.I was a bit shocked that the night’s still very much young. I’m not rushing or anything but then I realized maybe fate was making this moment just for me and August. Maybe fate wanted us to have more time to hang out and be with each other to compensate for the time that we had lost. Part of that was because I chose to ignore August for the entire week and if I had chosen to reply or even answer his calls then things would’ve been different. We haven’t seen each other this whole week and I don’t even want to admit it but I really do miss him in so many levels. I missed his smile that seemed to bring tranqu
AMBROSEI was instantly engulfed with the feeling of guilt and regret. I didn’t mean to shove August like that. I swear to whoever’s watching over us above the clouds. I might be the most violent person in this building but I’m pretty much honest that I didn’t want that to happen. I didn’t even think I put force into that. I completely thought I was just trying to keep him at bay from his attempt at preventing me from drinking the full glass of whiskey. It was never in my intention to hurt him. I had already reached the point where I was about to punch the wall brought about by the anger that I have for myself. And then it turns out that August was just playing with me. He was laughing hysterically that I was just confused at first. He was in pain, writhing like I’ve wrestled him hard on the ground. I saw it in his face that he was really feeling the agony from the supposed impact.
AMBROSEI have never imagined the day that I would hang out like this with August ever again. The last time August was here felt so much like a century ago. At least that’s all because I’m too distracted this past week that thinking about him was totally lost in the equation. I was on the verge of believing that I’ll never survive this hell of a week but here I am pouring whiskey on my glass with August sitting at the far corner of the couch.Things just went fast in a matter of hours that I’m still thinking about what happened back at the river. I had an extremely rough week that I just went to find solace at my favorite spot at the river not knowing that someone’s going to show up uninvited. I had never ever expected that August would show up at the river right at the moment where I didn’t know I needed his presence. I may have acted violent a few hours ago and that’s