ROSE Fighting him was the last thing i wanted to do, it was more or less like a lost battle and morever I still had alot that I was trying to fix at that moment, and it had alot to deal with finding out his true intentions.I hadn't been given so much leverage as I was that moment, the look he gave he was better than I had in a while. It was past ten when I turned to look at the clock but still I wasnt bothered by that, instead it was by someone …something deeper..I didn’t know how to react to him yet my fears were what would happen if he leaves, so I played the game in my head swifly.Like the start of my new life with him, I had thought about what possibly I could do, I decided it was best I acted like I didn't care of he was there or not whereby deep in my soul it was all I wanted.I’d spent yesterday going over what he was up to even as I watched him and pretended he wasn’t here. I ’d assumed that all this was over , because I hadn’t once heard the unmistakable creak of the
ROSECall it my feelings or whatever still it was at that moment I had thought it was it out away from the thoughts that were in my heart even as I could feel it echoing every second.In way I thought he was right it to me that I had been doing this for quite too long I had been playing this game with him in whichever, had left me trying to find myself as well, still it gave away nothing as i was still here and I had nothing to show.It took the chugging sound of his vehicle to make me realize at that moment that he was gone, I didn't know what to expect or how to relate to that moment, and it left me thinking about the situation all over again.Still I thought it was best to just stay quiet, at times like this silence seemed to be more pivotal and it looked like it was the way forward at that moment while all this thoughts filled my mind, it left in it place doubts-I was alone again in the room with nothing surrounding me than eerily silence,was I pushing this too far It's summed
ROSE Staring at the document that was littering the room all I could feel at that moment bwa as Sense if regret, it didn't occur to me to that all of this would happen to start but slowly, as I read through coursing through the entire details it entailed I was left startled. My stomach dipped, at that moment I could have sworn that like my mood at that moment, my friend Anna shared the same state of mind as I did—It all started with that heavy weight of animosity, as I could feel it drifting through me at that moment all I felt in my soul was that sense to fix this .It left an unfamiliar wave of anxiety, I coulf feel as it traveled down my veins at that moment leaving nothing in it wake,at thr aftermath of everything, all I felt was that bit of confusion that made my mind vulnerable . Vulnerable to whatever I was thinking at that point in time.“I knew that son of a bitch was up to something." I stated not hiding the fact that I felt totally disrupted.She took one look at me and
DANIELSOMETHINGS were hard to get your mind off and one out of it was the fact that all of this was becoming deeply engrossed In whatever this was the minute knew annoyed that she didn't believe me no matter what It looked like I had said, instead she was getting more serious about wanting to know what i thought wasn't necessary. Darkness covered the room like a canvas, and I was left in it wake thinking of what to do about the entire situation—When I had walked away from her , I had opened the window blinds letting the rays of the moonlight into the room, I seemed a bit unsettled as I was trying to decide on If it would be best I just let out the secrets. If anything was fact it was the fact that I hadn't been expecting to be … well welcomed by her, most definitely had because I ahd an altercation with her just before I walked out.All I wanted at that moment was the silence that seemed to envelope me and In way slowly i was becoming a part of it as well.A feeling of anxiety ro
ROSEWHEN he had walked up to meet me earlier that day all I could feel was that sense of anxiety, as I didn't know what he wanted or had the sense to answer all the questions he was asking that moment still it felt strange that all of this were happening and if I was going to give anything away it definately had to be the fact he was doing all he could to keep his lies secret. My heartbeats slowed . .. At first I had thought he wouldn't get me to this point but that moment he had said the word and lied to my face again I lost it.My pulse leapt in my throat quickly as my hands came toward my hair, I tugged at it from the frustration as I flinched at him“You are still lying right, wait here I'd be back!"Immediately I said those Words I stormer away, I didn't want to have anything to with having to drag the entire situation but as it was , It was starting too seem like I had no i choice.All thoughts of the past came rushing through my mind even as I walked through the door that sec
DANIEL I WAS confused of what to say call it being caught with your fingers in a cooking jar but at that minute I' was faced with a whole different fate, it had to do with me trying to fix all what was happening -It was written in the stars that all of this would happen, meeting her , and then breaking nher heart ….What I hadn't thought was that life would give me a second chance and I would throw it all away.So as she turned to walk away for the second time in my life it was fate pulling on a big twist, I couldn't figure out the clear details but entails but if I had thought life would pull this at me twice in a life time it was definitely lie as the moment was unexpected and at this it was just about giving up. When Rose had told Me everything, it was shocking, I could never have been more disdainful about how I made this all about myself and it madee all quiet, still there was something else I won't deny at this period in time, this time when for once in the race we had an u
ROSEHOW easy was it for him to say sorry and hoped that it healed my deepest scars, I felt very much broken especially after the previous night and all all he could say was sorry?He had to be the most self centered man so full of himself in everything that he had done yet I could not bring myself to hate or despise him completely.Still if there was anything that made me more irritated by this man it was how he claimed to want to know everything, right from the moment I had found the paper to how I did. Looking at how pissed he was the previous night it was making it more and more obvious that I can't be with him.In the past there was a part of my feeling that loved holding anything back thinking not would make him angrier, it was good to know that part was dead.Still I didn't want to get myself involved in all of what was happening, I was right there Still seeking a way out and it looked most certainly like it would be difficult. As I walked into the room I was heaving deepl
ROSE If there was anything that I wanted at that moment it was to call all of this off. At that moment I was struggling to keep up with the fact that he was ever going to change.Much as I tried putting it out of my mind the entire situation was getting more crucial and I was at the edge of calling things off with him yet again, this time it was going to be for good..My thoughts had been to wake up and just leave, like I had thought to myself if there was going to be anyone that needed empathy at that moment it was definitely not him, as it was I couldn't help but feel a certain kind of disgust for the Man as he was nothing but manipulativeStill as always with that feeling of anxiety and Anger that was in me, there was also this part of me that hated the entire situation so much and would do anything to get away from him.It was this particular side of me that was disdainful that had full control of my soul enough that I was doing all I could to ensure that I did keep my sanity whi
170.ROSEWatching him with his son painted the most beautiful picture for any woman, and he looked so perfect regardless of whatever I had thought. Being with him meant I had to deal with a lot, now the man was not one perfect… You know, no one ever is, but still the past they say is the past.So when he had popped the question right there with the nurses watching, when he had asked that I be his wife again… My answer has been Yes. I didn't just go all the way to make the decision for nothing, as I had said it came with a lot of benefits, what I didn't say was that I had to deal with a lot of his mess, that was what loving someone is all about anyways … Dealing with the lapses and all.He looked to be quite aware of his attitude and didn't look to make a big fuss about it , perhaps he could sense that I was putting a lot into dealing with him as well and was doing what could be done to make it more accommodating for me.Regardless, I was living in this strange new world at the ba
ROSELooking past this man a long trail of air trickled in through the open door, drifting through the room for a minute or two before settling with that restless haste, at that moment my mind was drifting through different things at that moment with most having to do with a way to get over the situation that was pending at the moment, the more I tried to understand all that was going on that moment, the more my soul was filled with that feeling of uncertainty.At first, it was starting to look like he could be right, it had been three days since I walked Anna out of my house and at the moment, I was standing in her living room, with sounds of moans filling the air amidst the heavy scent of sex .It was obvious what was going on and I didn't have the need to be informed what it was all about, it was easy to tell because I had just watched her go in with Marcus of all people twenty minutes ago… I thought to myself if that was what he wanted to tell me all along. I blinked my eyes, m
ROSEThere were many things I couldn't get myself to do at that moment and the most definite one was finding answers to all that was going through the situation at that moment. I was still angry about the entire situation as it seemed blank at the back of my mind. Much as I tried not to think about it, it still felt crazy that I couldn't do anything or scream out in frustration.Still deep down in my soul, I could feel that regrettable feeling. In a way I didn't know where all the feelings from me were sprouting from but if there was anything I wanted it was to leave as fast as I could.Well all that happened yesterday, the wind blew throughout the room as it left me rather confused -Thought if him crept through my mind again, still beneath all of this was that question that remained yet unansweredMy mind went back tinted by the entire event yet again, I had lain in bed for a long minute, what was happening through all of this. In a way I found myself asking over and over again
CHAPTER 167ROSE“What are you doing? “That had been the first question that I had on my lips-He merely looked at me with his gaze saying a thousand things at that moment, I couldn't say what was happening but still with his heart racing wildly it was easy to say that he was definitely up to something." I looked at him blankly again.” My attention was drawn to where he had touched me earlier and I could swear that it still burned.Everything about the moment did, while expecting that he did speak , he didn't instead he merely looked at me while still locking his gaze in."I just need to tell you that there is a need for you to be careful.” He muttered. “Be careful about your friend Anna. “I was so confused about everything that was going on that I couldn't decipher all that was going on at that moment.What could this be about?Why did he want me to be careful about her? Much as all this was going through my mind enough that all I did was roll my eyes.“Fine I had listened to you
Rose All that was happening made it hard for me to comprehend at that moment, still all this while It was still hard to comprehend why I am still not able to get him to understand that it would be hard to forget all that had happened.The past left a bitter feeling at the back of my mind, while still trying to comprehend all that was going my phone buzzed and I Picked it up immediately.“Where are you at?" I asked immediately.Anna seemed to be hiding something as she seemed usually quiet -“Is there something you want to tell me?" Anna muttered and I found myself thinking of why she had asked.For me it most definitely had to be for a subtle reason, one that left me in a daze still pondering about the situation.“No, I am just here … why did you ask?”While still running through all the entirety of what to say at that moment, I tried again to play through the entire situation at the back of my mind."What are you doing throughout the rest of tomorrow.”I was still trying to get thro
DANIELLife pulls some strings and you are just left at times behind trying to figure out what to do, such is that that I had found myself, I was left in the past leaving Right there amidst the damages I had brought upon myself.Perhaps this same reason was why she would never trust me again, when they say good things they say come in little packages at the moment that was the case of something I had taken for granted.I wasn't shocked seeing him walk into the pub,matter of fact my spilling my drink had nothing to do with Marcus at that moment, i was shocked about the woman he was with -It was funny in a way how I chose to perceive how intellectual she had to be all this whole while for being the last person we'd suspect all this while, for the first time that evening I wouldn't deny having that smile on my face.Only this time it wasn't because I was happy, rather I was damn shocked! The smile was there when the bartender had walked to where I was , while still thinking of what t
DANIELAn Intruder of my heart, that was the best way of phrase to qualify this woman that looked so radiating at that my moment, I couldn't tell what she was talking about at that moment.One moment we were having the best moment of our life and in the next she was all angry over a reason I didn't even know -“Are you fine." I asked again when she had Stepped out .She looked at me like she didn’t expect that I would ask her that question, she seemed most definately shocked at that moment, while still trying to get the thought of everything out of my mind.The atmosphere had completely changed since that past moment, here I was still trying all I could to play through the incident again, wondering how I could play through the incident again at the back of my mind -“I am fine, I just want some time to myself." She muttered through the entire incident at that moment.In a way, her scent had filled my nostrils and they got me fascinated about her. Her scent troubled my heart enough tha
ROSEIn the heat of the moment , I could feel my heart bleeding, here I was with a bleeding hand yet nothing was at the back of my mind, rather than how it felt to have him so close to me,was I getting Crazier!I stopped and pulled myself away. At that moment it made no sense doing this to anyone as I felt unreasonably cheap, or wasn't I.He stares at me trying to read the situation but then I was from it, while all I seeked was sanity it didn't help that all of this were happening -All of a sudden I could feel everything coming back to the my head, it was that moment that I had to pick between being cheap or just-“Step away from me." I pushed back at him, forcing out a grunt as I didI couldn't even look into his eyes to say those Words, I could feel the pain though … That bot of pain from my hands but there and then.When I did look up at him he appeared rather flushed at my actions with a smirk coming to his face as he blinked his eyes looking at me. " I can't understand what is
ROSEWill these good things last forever, it was definitely the last thought that had filled my mind as I tossed and turned on the bed, somehow my mind was still left heavy after all that had happened the previous day and I was still seeking a way out of it at that moment.While I couldn't make out how the night had gone especially after those few last moment after dinner, one thing was obvious and that was the fact that we were together, in other words I was at his apartment -I could feel it from how the room felt so warm and the fact that his scent filled the room, to make this more certain, I had turned and right there he was. That morning all I got while looking at him was this continuous round of disturbing taps at the back of my mind, it was surprising.in a way that after all this while, he still made my heart race, at the same time the feeling was welcome.At first after those first few minutes after I had woken up with a vision was still blurry, it was hard to make out the