chapter 4

Amanda's POV.

Nancy spoke to me for a while and I left. I couldn't concentrate at work this whole day. Just after work, Kate called me and told me she was waiting for me downstairs.

Kate was my best friend and the only one who knew that Nathan and I were married by agreement. I hurried downstairs and found her waving at me from her car.

I hurriedly got into the car and had just pulled my seat belt when she pulled a card out of her purse: "Here, take it, it's 600,000 dollars."

My heart tightened, looked at her carefully, and my eyes widened: "You sold the necklace!"

Kate's most precious thing is her ex-boyfriend's necklace, her ex-boyfriend is a top playboy, this is also considered Kate's breakup f*e, but Kate has always insisted that she dumped him. Normally Kate loves the necklace so much I didn't think she would sell it ......

In order to raise this money, my mother has sold the family property, only her small house in the suburb, I have tried many ways to get money, and even went to relatives, companies, both sides have rejected me, but this is not the most embarrassing time for me. I think the most embarrassing thing is that the person who has helped me the most is actually a friend who has no relationship with me, not my husband.

When I thought about Nathan's back last night, my heart was sore beyond words, I blinked my eyes, my eyes were full of uncontrollable tears, Kate shrugged unconcernedly and reassured me: "I told you it was an ex-boyfriend, I was looking at the necklace that night and thinking, fuck it, why should I keep my ex's stuff! This asshole is a shitty person, but he's generous to his girlfriend."

I could see that Kate was trying her best to comfort me, the necklace had been with her for so long, and she would be sad to suddenly sell it. I shoved the card at her, "Go! Now go and redeem it, it's not for sale!"

Kate hugged me: "No! I've sold it! Don't be like this, when you get rich, buy me a better one, right now your dad's business is more important, besides, we've known each other for so many years, isn't my money yours?"

I was very touched, Kate has always been very good to me, she is my best friend, I do not know what to say, I can only keep repeating: "I will buy you one, I will make money to buy you a better one......"

"Okay, don't be melodramatic." Kate pushed me roughly and said seriously, "How much money

do you need now?"

I roughly calculated and got gloomy: "still short of six million two hundred thousand ......"

Kate was speechless, we have worked very hard to get a lot of money, but still we are short of a huge amount of money, it's simply astronomical number, where do we go to put together so much money?

"Well, let's not talk about that, let's go eat first, I booked to get a discount coupon for a very expensive restaurant! It's on me!" Kate patted my shoulder, I knew she was being kind, and now I was really nervous and wanted to relax. So I wiped my tears, adjusted my mood, and nodded at her.

The restaurant Kate took me to was indeed very expensive, a new restaurant with a very nice cliff view seat.

It's just the right time of day to go and see the sunset. At the same time, each table has some light veil as a partition before, but also to ensure privacy.

"Tell me how you've been? Between you and Nathan, is it the same as always?"

I nodded, "Yeah, same as ever."

"Ugh, if it's not possible, hurry up and get a divorce, a man like Nathan, you won't be able to make him change his mind." I know Kate is caring about me, but I've been standing behind Nathan for too long, and the dependence that comes with that kind of time can't just be cut off. Even if Nathan doesn't like me, but my body and heart are conditioned to follow him, and my body is open only for him.

"Actually, he's pretty nice too ......" I racked my brain and started babbling, trying to search for two proofs that Nathan was nice to me. Kate just sat quietly across the table looking at me with a line written in her eyes that read

"I'd like to see how you want to make this up."

I conceded defeat and sighed: "Well, as cold as he is, he's cold to everyone, and it's not like it's just me, so maybe ...... maybe ......"

I was trying to make up nonsense reasons to convince Kate, but suddenly, I noticed that from my angle, some people came over the stairs, they were probably some very distinguished guests, the waiter and the manager were leading the way attentively, I thought this person looked very familiar, and stared closely at him as he came closer and closer.

It was Nathan!

He was dressed in a rather formal suit, even wearing a rose brooch, and smelled very lightly of perfume as he passed by our table, like a snowy mountain or a clear spring. out of here or find a hole to burrow myself into, I was having such a terrible time, and even my husband had brought a strange woman out to dinner, and Kate had seen it!

This realization made me clutch the tablecloth for a moment, Kate stunned and asked me: "Do you know the woman he was with? Was it his partner? Or is it a relative of his, or is it he...?"

I didn't know how to answer, and at this time I realized that I had no idea of the relationship between the young girl and him. I didn't know Nathan's relatives, or his partner, I didn't know anything. I wondered uncontrollably if there were many such moments that I didn't know about.

He never smiled at me like that, and when he was at home, he was always bland with me, as if I didn't appeal to him as much as the financial news did.

I felt embarrassed that I didn't really know Nathan, and that just now I was covering up and saying nice things about him in front of my best friend I looked stupid and ridiculous.

I suddenly realized something, and even though it was very reluctant, I had to face a fact.

Just because I can marry him doesn't mean another woman can't.

The agreement clearly delivered the benefits

but not a word about feelings. He wouldn't fall in love with me simply because he didn't love me, not because he wouldn't consider anyone else.

Kate angrily said to me, "Why are you still sitting here? Go over and ask for clarification!"

I sat in my seat and didn't move, embarrassment made me not want to face her eyes. But she was right, and I wanted to know who she really was ...... suppressing the embarrassment and pain in my heart.

I took out my phone, took a deep breath and pressed the phone number that I had been saving, I watched from right behind him as his phone rang, he took it out and his voice came over along the stream -

"Who is this?"

I took the phone and was silent for a moment. Wanted to speak, but I simply did not have the courage to say anything else.

He actually, didn't even save my phone number.

Almost three years, I called him so many times, and even asked him if he wanted to come home for dinner and I sent him a lot of text messages, although he did not reply even one. But I really did not expect that he actually did not even bother to leave me a note.I'm not sure what I am in his heart.

Probably because I didn't make a sound for too long, I witnessed Nathan frowning and then hanging up the phone. The young girl across from him seemed to say something, and I guess was asking who had called.

I don't know what Nathan said, but then they both stopped talking about the subject.

, and seemed to order up the wine to drink for dinner.

There was a rapport between them, a rapport I had never had with Nathan over dinner, and it turned out that he would be talking with others over dinner as well. What would they be talking about? Would it be about each other's lives?

I feel embarrassing, really embarrassing.

I can't tell if it's a smile, or something else. The relationship between them was cordial, and it turned out that he would also talk with others at dinner. Jealousy and resentment overwhelmed me.

All I knew was that I never had it.

I hung up the phone, disoriented, and, at this point, my phone call was probably not as important as having dinner with the young girl in front of me.

Kate ranted endlessly about Nathan until she drove me home, and I shared my teenage heartbreak with Kate when I fell for Nathan. Kate never liked Nathan, she always thought he was cold and uncaring, and every time I defended Nathan, but this time, I couldn't say anything else.

This time when I returned home, Nathan has also returned, it seems that he and we left about the same time, I did not say a word to him, but also did not have any mood to question him, what position and qualifications I have?

I was sitting on the edge of the bed when Nathan's phone on the nightstand lit up and I froze for a moment as the first few words of the message alert flashed out -

-Thank you so much for today, why don't I buy you dinner next time?

Her name was Charlotte.

I don't have a name in his phone, I'm just a string of meaningless numbers in his phone, and every time he picks up the phone, he asks me, "Who are you?

For the first time, I felt so tired that I never again had a moment as clear to me as this one.

He doesn't love me and he won't fall in love with me. And I can't warm his heart.

Can I really last four years?

I want to get a divorce, this idea came up, press can't press down.

This life, I live every day is very painful.