She's my life, too, and this life is nothing without her, I will stay colorless, wrecked and pained, but I know that there is nothing to loose anymore and everything will be gain from now on.
"Ang sarap nitong luto nila," sabay ngisi nang may nakita pa akong tira sa plato.
Tumawa siya at ngayo'y sinapo ang tiyan ko, "My baby's really that food lover..."
I swallowed the radish and chewed another one again.
"Sa Davao siguro ang sunod niyong pupuntahan, dahil doon kami uuwi..."
Binaba ko ang kutsara, "I don't know if Dad would allow me to go with him but if you will be there, I'd go for you."
"But your health is a bit in chaos. Baka ma-trigger pa ang puso mo," she said.
Umiling ako, "I missed your cousins, too. Sila Bado at Danilo?"
"Nandoon, may mga pamilya na rin."
Minsan, naiisip ko kung galit din ba sila sa akin? And how's Lolo Andres' health? Is he really okay? Kahit na dalawang araw ko lang naramdama
Ang dami niyang naging inarte sa harap ko at namamangha ang mga maraming manonood. I was still standing and a bit fascinated by her. Kaunti lang."Anong ginawa ko sa 'yo at bakit naman ginawa mo akong saktan nang ganito? You cheated! At ngayon, hihingi ka ng pangalawang pagkakataon para ano?! Ha?!"Lumunok ako nang bahagya niyang itulak ang braso ko. Tinutok ng assistant ang mic sa akin at hindi ko alam ang sasabihin kung hindi sumabay sa eksena."I won't ever get tired of asking for it, asking for your forgiveness means leisurely forgiving myself. Asking for it means that I will always lower my ego. Begging for your forgiveness means wanting you back to renew and this is not about how I lower my pride, though, it's about loving you... I love you! I still love you so much."Her jaw dropped and she's on the verge of smirked but she bowed a bit now as the crowd clapped and cheered, nag-anunsyo ng break ang host na nangingisi sa akin.
Marahang nahahagod ang aking buhok gamit ang kanyang kamay at ang ilong niya'y nakadikit sa aking noo, animo'y inaamoy ang aking amoy. It was like she misses my manly scent. Her forearm was on my neck as it wrapped around me, her palm was near my ear."Kung ayaw nila sa 'yo, pwede bang ako na lang? Kung napapagod ka nang ipaglaban ako, pwede bang ako na lang ang lumaban para sa atin?" she whispered gently and I really felt how it became hard for her... I am bewildered on what she suffered through all these years.I went to the point where I already gave up. That was months before I saw her in my home in Amanpulo, tumigil ako sa kakaisip sa kanya dahil alam kong masaya na siya sa naging buhay niya sa Espanya. She finished her studies and became successful in her feild. I know that she's already far to me. My family even supported her to enter in a prestigious school there as a compensation of 'what I did'. Everyone moved and I was left and mourned lose
Parang hinehele ako sa rahan ng boses ng ama ko. Na kahit ilang beses kong ikaila, iwan at taasan sila ng pride, alam kong uuwi pa rin ako sa kanila. Dahil sa araw na ito, matapos akong saluhin ng mga magulang ko sa loob ng Airport, alam kong hindi ko sila maipagpapalit, sila lang ang pipiliin ko, I won't choose anybody else anymore, hindi ko kailangan ng awa o kung ano man.This time, I will choose those who loves me, not the ones who only pity me. Dahil gano'n na ako kababa, ang mapaniwala sa isang bagay dahil mababaw na ang kaligayahan ko. I only believes those words given to me. At kayang-kaya kong gawin ang lumayo dahil magulang na rin niya ang humiling. They demanded me to leave her and if they are waiting for me to obey them, they are mistakenly expected, they told me once before to leave her, I did it 'cause everyone believed and still believes that I fooled her but I didn't.They saw me in Amanpulo before, I accepted all those painful words the
They continued the topic as I remained calmed and just busied myself typing and getting some news on those colleagues on my company, pangalawa kong tinext si Shane Cardinal. He also confirmed it, that Zuri was fired and she was on her condo base on Victoria at ang punyeta, she blamed me again.A man was talking to Dad, matikas iyon at hindi maipagkakailang matikas pa rin. The talks even lowered than how rowdy it was awhile ago dahil napansin na nilang ako ang tinutukoy ng mga salita nilang tungkol sa lalaking gumalaw kay Zuri. I was still waiting for the negative comments when they topiced the cheating of the ex-fiancee of the Altavas heir but it stopped like a flowing after on the nozzle.I even noticed the gazes but I disregarded it. I was observing them like a cat so that I could jump into the foods when they leave it."Are you okay?" Vanessa went to my back and slightly rubbed my shoulders.&
Binaba niya ang cheap niyang cellphone na kulay phantom purple at taas noo niya akong hinarap."Anong ginagawa mo rito?" tanong ko.She mocked and crossed her arms on her chest, "I resigned in my own company kaya wala kang pakialam," matapang niyang tugon pero may bahid ng kaba.I barked a laughters and crossed my arms too, "Your company? It's Mr. Altavas company and if that is your own, you don't need to resign. Baka tinanggal?"She marched heading to the door as I blocked her. But what made me furious more was that she could easily touched me and she pushed me shortly to give her a way.Sinundan ko siya sa labas kahit hinihingal ako. Kinuha niya ang tuwalya na nakasampay at pumunta sa outdoor bathroom. She slammed the door as she opened the faucet there."Open the fucking door and let's talk, or I'll drag you out of that bathroom? I don't care if you're naked."I've waited for how many
I was panting and felt our warm bodies as I remained hugging her a bit. Nakapikit ang mga mata ko at nakalapat ang aking labi sa balikat niya at marahan pa ring hinahalikan. She was hiding behind my chest. Her hand was on my abdomen, while I was leaning on the cushion headboard."I took your virginity," napapaos kong sabi.Her hand went to my abdomen at played the carpet of hair in it, her lips were still kissing my chest a bit."Hindi na rin ako lugi." Zuri answered shamelessly.I groaned and she chuckled. She wore back her short and shirt dahil hindi naman iyon nalagyan."Magluluto pa pala ako, it's five forty eight," aniya at pinusod ang buhok.I sat up with my half naked and only covered by the blanket."Let's just cuddle for a moment, I saw it, you are sore," tinuro ko siya at ngumisi.Parang okay lang sa kanya kaya hindi na ako nangulit, she only fixed herself and readied to go ou
Tumingin ako sa loob at nakita siyang nagulat sa nakita at hinila ni Cloe at Victoria."Mga Manong, ayun siya," Justin said.Humarang ako at pumalibot sa buong store ang mga armado kong kasama na kahit nakadamit sibilyan ang mga militar na kasama ni Justin, agad silang umatras."Let me get my girlfriend..." mariin niyang sabi.Natawa ako, "Your girlfriend? As far as I remember, there was no legal break up we've done, Zuri haven't broken up with me, suot pa nga niya ang dalawang singsing na binigay ko, e," nagtaas ako ng kilaysa mga dinala niyang militar."It is akidnapping, Engineer, just let me be with Zuri so that I could take her home," aniya at pinilit na pumasok pero tinulak ko."You don't know who you are bumping, hijo, he can throw you out of this mall whenever he wants so stop invading his own territory," the owner of the
They served a creme brulee, lamingtons, and some foreign deserts as I was balancing the Manansalas' stares and glances. They are hesitating to start a conversation after the long talks and jokes."Kumusta, apo?" Donya Martina started.I stiffened and felt my love's hand pressing my thigh under the table, it was like she's telling me to calm."Ayos naman po, Donya," I answered politely.She stared at me with a hint of disappointment. "Lola, hijo, don't treat me like others," she smiled awkwardly.I nodded and turned my eyes on my plate. Nawalan ako ng gana na kumain at tinutusok-tusopk ko na lang ang mata ng bangus sa plato ko."We are sorry for trying to communicate with your girlfriend, we just wanted to see you... and to... give... our deepest..."Sa paghihirap niyang magsalita, na ipagpatuloy ko na, "Condolences?" I asked with a fucking conviction in my voice.Zuri grippe
I was very young when I started hearing thoe name of the young Filipino businessman who's rocking the highest society. As a curious kitten I checked on him. Pumulot ako ng magazine sa rack. He's very good looking man in gray tuxedo. He was smiling but even if he's young, I can sense his ruthlessness and the way he showcase his mysterious smile, it seems like he was the only person what is up and wait..."Hindi ba't ito iyong nahuli ko noong nagpapablowjob, Shane?" napalakas ang tanong ko sa kinakapatid kong Cardinal, he's handsome and he has a very weird name, napalapit ako dahil nakipagkasundo ang kapatid kong babae sa pinsan niya.He turned to me lazily. "Ah, oo. Si Ivo, the one we were with when we went to Iloilo para sa party, limang taon na rin nang hindi kami nagkita."Tumango ako at tiningnan ang litrato niya."Gusto mo siya ano?" Vincenzo teased while giving me a water.Umirap ako at uminom."I'd l
I paid for her wedding gown and they prepared for it. We visited Sto. Domingo Church as we transacted the budget of it."Ang dami mo nang gastos." she said while looking at the aisle.Natawa ako at tumingin sa harapan. "Lord, thank you for blessing her to me," ngumiti ako at lumandas ang luha, "Thank you for allowing me to fight for this woman." I signed of the cross.I won't ever deny my tears to God. He's been guiding me through all these years. Sometimes, I'd like to screw everything but it turns out to tears."Good morning!" my Mom greeted one busy morning came.Nasa opisina si Zuri. She was getting all of her works kaya kahapon ay umuwi ako rito sa Alabang para magpahinga nang bahagya dahil hinayaan ko siyang makasama niya ang mga kaibigan niya."Masyadong maalikabok ngayon ang bahay kaya pwede ka munang sa kwarto at padalhan na lang ng pagkain."Ngumiti ako, "'Wag na, Ma, sige lang, I wi
Tuloy lang ang tradisyong pamamanhikan. Medyo hindi lang ako nasanay sa ganiyong bagay. I witnessed how my brothers supplicate to the Dela Merced and Villareal. Alright, I saw how Dad was set up something sumptuous when he married Mom for the second time.Natapos ang pamamanhikang tradisyon at umuwi rin ng Maynila ang buong pamilya ko dahil sa marami pang gawain doon. Kami na lang din dito sa harap ang natira."Sabihin mo lang kung gusto mong umakyat, sasamahan kita," sabi ni Zuri at binigay ang baso sa akin.Umiling ako at lumipat ng upuan sa ilalim ng santol dahil sinisilipan na ako ng araw sa dati kong inuupuan."Bakit mo ako nilayasan?" naiinis niyang tanong.Kumunot ang noo ko at umupo, "May araw. Naiinitan ako.""That's why I am convincing you to go upstairs para hindi ka mainitan dito.""I want to breathe some fresh air, dito muna ako."Hindi siya sumagot at tinalikuran ako. Lalo pa ak
Umalis ako at dumeretso sa Alabang. Hindi ako tumingin kahit kanino o sumagot man lang sa tanong nilang lahat kung nasaan daw ang mapapangasawa ko."Nasaan siya?" ngumisi si Kuya Achilles at kunwari naglilinis sa pool.Nasa lounge bed ako at pinanonood ang mga nagdi-disenyo para sa nalalapit na kasal. Binaling ko ang mga mata sa binabasa kong libro."Sungit natin ngayon, ah, hindi pinayagan sa kama?" pang-iinis ni Daddy.I flipped the page and heard Mom's steps with her commands."Seb, I want it to be elegant looking even on the backyard. Sabihin mo iyon sa mga tauhan mo...""Yes, Madame," sagot ni Severino at ng team sa likod ni Mommy.I sighed heavily and looked at the trees."Ivo, where's Zuri? Seb was looking for her..."I lazily darted my eyes on the page, "In my condo... packing her things up..."She laughed awkwardly. "Susundan ka rin pala, bakit mo hindi sinabay?" I sensed her panic.
It was a long drive and tiring. Dumeretso sa kanilang mga bahay ang mga Kuya ko, it was also a long vacation for them.Nakatulog ako nang hapong iyon katabi siya. I was peacefully watching here when a knock from the door awakened her."Engineer, Daddy niyo po, nasa baba," boses iyon ni Roy.I stood up and left Zuri in my room. Bumaba ako mula third floor ng unit ko at nag damit. I was so stunned when I saw those policemen and some Attorneys ."Ivo, anak, calm down," Mom said.I calmed myself and sat down."Eugene filed a case against you and they are here to arrest you..." Dad started.Ito lang ang hinihintay ko para gumalaw na rin nang bahagya."Kidnapping ang sinampa, but we demanded to just house arrest you..." Dad said again.Bumuntong hininga ako at tumango. Nagulat pa ako sa Victoria at Cloe na nasa breakfast nook ko."Kuya ko si Drake Aragon na isa sa family l
Hindi ko na sinagot ang pangungulit niya sa sinabi ko. I only smiled before I closed my eyes and breathed deeply.Hindi ako naging kumportable sa gabing iyon at nanatili akong pa-gising-gising. She must be still sleeping this time, mag-aalas sais na. Naramdaman ko ang pag-alis niya kagabi at mula noon, hindi ko na nakuha ang tamang tyempo upang matulog nang maayos lalo na't kaunting galaw, tumutunog ang kama at umuuga.I went out and the whole sala was still dimmed, the lights from the kitchen were giving an access to my way. Pumunta ako sa kusina nila at nagulat ako sa anino.Zuri was shocked too, hawak niya ang baso ng gatas at nilapag sa bilugang lamesa. Ngumiti ako at niyakap siya."I just couldn't sleep," I said and tightened her in my arms."Titimplahan din kita," anya.Naupo ako at parang kanya ang bahay dahil alam niya ang ginagalawan niya. Umabot ako ng isang tangkay ng prutas sa gitna at pinitas upang kainin."The bed was no
"Your are so formal, we're relatives, so you don't have to show it up," she slapped my shoulders while laughing.Tumikhim ako at ngumiting muli. Kinuha ko ang kamay at nagmano. "Nice to see you again..." nag-angat ako ng tingin, "Lola."Nagulat siya sa sinabi ko at may mga tahimik na tumawa. Si Severino ay malakas na tumawa na agad nanahimik bago pa mapahiya lalo ang matanda. Dad was so stunned about what he witnessed.Tumawa na ang matanda sa pagkagulat at nakihalo ng usapan."Mukhang magkakasundo nga sila ng apo kong si Lambert, pero sayang, hindi siya nakasama, her daughter is sick," the woman said sadly. Napatango ang kakilala, "Mukha ngang magkakasundo, there's the sense of formality na sa unang tingin sa batang ito, you are hesitantly go to him at mukhang abala, Anita, you disturbed him," natawa sila."Hindi naman po, Ma'am," agad kong sagot."But you were watching while your nurses are
Napatayo ako nang halos dumugin ako ng mga media at agad na may humigit sa akin palayo roon. They were my brothers and it was literally shocking for me on the next happenings. I was guided to the wide hotel suite. Binuksan ni Kuya Achilles ang isang laptop at binigay sa akin. I looked at Vanessa and she gave her daughter to Cormac and she went to me."Anong nangyayari?" tanong ko.I was bewildered by those media who mobbed me and this clip, I can't seem to find the urge to play it."Alam ba ni Zuri 'to?" tiningala ko si Vanessa na nakalapit na."Hindi pa, nililibang ni Gracey roon sa hall, her parents are involved here and she might go back to Manila anytime soon if she'll watch it..."Bumuntong hininga ako at bumaling sa screen. I played the video clip and it was published earlier today. Nasa isang interview sila at pinalilibutan ng maraming reporters mula sa iba't-ibang panig ng bansa."Thank you, Madame for b
Naandar na ang bangka kaya hindi na ako makababa. Dinala sa karatig-isla at agad na binato ang lambat. Wala roon ang iniisip ko kundi ang mga tauhan ni Justin.I recieved a text from her and they headed to the city and do I feel relief because of that, though?"Kaunti na lang ang mga isda dahil kakahuli lang ng marami kanina," anunsyo ni Omar.Tumango ako at ngumiti nang kaunti at pinaplano kung paano ko ilalayo si Zuri dito. Amanpulo I not accepting those many guests right at this moment, baka lang pwede kaming umuwi na roon.I also missed my home. It has been two months since we went home here in the Philippines and yet, I am still trying to recognize where is really my home?Dumaong ang bangka dahil mataas na ang sikat ng araw, bumaba ako at hinanap sa buong hotel ang mag-organisa sa surpresa para sa Daddy at mga Kuya ko.