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Letting Go
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2024-10-29 19:42:56~Devin~
It’s been sixteen days since I last saw Ren. I’ve been here before, but it’s hard when I know where she is. Unlike before, I looked for her and found nothing. How ironic.
I drown myself in work, lead my body to exhaustion, and drink my expensive wines at night until I go numb. Her scent lingers on my bed, the pillow she laid her head on is the only thing that keeps me sane at night… from going to California and taking her by force.
Love shouldn’t hurt this much, it’s crushing my heart and soul to billions of dirt
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