Five years later.
Zander Stanton had heard a lot of lies in his life, particularly about his gorgeous, wicked, missing ex-wife, who had left him five years before. But this one took the cake.
"That's impossible!" he exclaimed as he stared at the doctor. "She's lying. She's tricked me yet again with her elaborate scheme. She—"
"I assure you, Mr. Stanton, it's real she really has no memory," said Dr. Bill solemnly. "Your ex-wife has no memory—not of you, not of me, and not even of her accident the day before."
"Because she's a liar!"
"It's real, sir. However, she was wearing a seat belt when her head hit the airbag," Dr. Bill explained further. "There is no concussion, but unfortunately—"
With a frown on his face, Zander looked at the old man. He was known as a doctor of great talent and honesty. He was affluent as a result of a lifetime of servicing wealthy, aristocratic patients, and he couldn't be purchased. He was renowned as a family guy, still in love with his wife of 45 years, a cherished father of two, and a grandpa of ten—he couldn't be bought. So he must honestly believe Elvie, his ex-wife, had amnesia.
Amnesia?
Bullshit!
Zander had been looking for Elvie for years, even after his divorce from Kristal, whom he had trusted too much and had ended up betraying him over his own attorney. Yes, marrying Kristal after Elvie signed their divorce agreement was a mistake. He thought he could finally have his happy ending with Kristal, but boy, was he wrong. Kristal was worse than Elvie; at least Elvie didn't run off with his money, she didn't even ask, and she left with nothing but luggage, whereas Kristal took nearly half of his wealth in the first two years of their marriage.
Then, now. Elvie was back.
Why?
Zander’s lip curled. After all of her devilish cleverness, he would have expected more from her.
Five years after leaving him, Elvie Carlton vanished like a ghost. His men had searched for her all over the world without success until three days ago, when she suddenly resurfaced for her parent's funeral.
Zander ended a million-dollar deal in Los Angeles and ordered his men to follow Elvie until he could fly to London on his private plane. When Elvie left the hospital yesterday afternoon, his men were close behind her. They'd seen her conceal her long, dark, glossy hair behind a silk scarf, put on enormous black sunglasses, and drive away in a rented old car. Straight into a red postbox on the street.
"It was so strange, boss," one of his men had told him when he came from Los Angeles that morning. "She seemed fine at the funeral. But when she left the doctor's office, she drove like a drunk. She didn't even recognise us when we helped her out of the car."
Dr. Bill rubbed the back of his wispy white head, similarly perplexed. "I kept her for observation overnight but couldn't find anything physically wrong with her."
Zander clenched his teeth. "Because she doesn't have amnesia. She’s playing you for a fool!"
The doctor tensed before sighing, "I don't believe Miss Carlton is faking it, Mr. Stanton." He shook his head and thought, "All the tests came back negative. Amnesia appears to be the sole symptom. As a result, I'm wondering if the accident was only a trigger for the mental stress."
"Does that mean she brought it on herself?"
"I wouldn't precisely say that, sir. But this is beyond my expertise. That is why I have suggested a colleague, Dr. Galvin. He can help her."
"A psychiatrist, you say?"
"Yes," the old man said, nodding his head.
Zander clung to one useful piece of knowledge. What happened to her?
What made her—
Was this his fault?
No! Of course not, he thought to himself.
Zander stood before saying, "So, if there's nothing physically wrong with her, she can leave the hospital?"
The doctor paused. "She's definitely strong enough. But, given her lack of memory, possibly a member of her family..."
"She has no family," Zander cut in. "Her parents were her only living relatives, and they died four days ago."
"But I hoped Elvie had an aunt or uncle, or even a brother..."
"She does not have,um," Zander lied calmly, despite the fact that he had no idea. He simply knew that nothing would stop him from taking Elvie with him today. "I am her ex-husband," he stated casually. "I will take care of her."
"So your men told me yesterday, when they said you were on your way." Dr. Bill looked at him, as if he didn't like what he saw. "However, it does not appear that you believe she requires special care."
"If you say she has amnesia, I have no choice but to believe it."
"You called her a fraud earlier."
"I'm merely suggesting what I thought was possible…" Zander frowned at the doctor and gave a crooked grin. "Creative untruths are part of her charm."
"Okay, do you really want her back?" The doctor's eyes narrowed as he gazed up at him. "Do you intend to remarry her?"
Zander understood the response the old man desired—the only answer that would free Elvie from his control. As a result, he told the doctor what he wanted to hear. "She means the world to me. Everything," he exaggerated.
The doctor examined Zander's facial features, brushed his beard with delight, then nodded in quick decision. "Okay, then, that's excellent. Mr. Stanton, I'll hand her over to you. Take good care of her. You can bring her home now."
Take her to Ireland. Zander would die before he polluted his home that way. But Scotland…yes. He’d lock her up and make her thoroughly regret living after tricking him five years ago.
"Nice to hear that, doctor. You will release her to me today, right?"
The old man nodded. "Yes. Make her feel loved," he warned. "Make her feel wanted and secure."
"Wanted and secure," he repeated, barely able to keep the sneer from his face.
Dr. Bill frowned. "Surely, Mr. Stanton, you can appreciate what these last twenty-four hours have meant to Elvie. She’s had nothing to cling to. No memory of family or friends to sustain her. No sense of home or memory of belonging. She didn’t even know her name until I told her."
"Don’t worry," Zander said grimly. "I’ll take good care of her."
But as he started to turn away, the doctor stopped him. "There is something else you should know."
"What?"
"Normally I would never disclose this information. But in this unique case, I feel the need for informed care far exceeds the concern for privacy."
With a muttered curse, Zander tapped his foot impatiently. "What is it?"
"Elviehas a record from London’s hospital; I mean, she gave birth four years ago."
"What?"
"She had a daughter."
At that word, Zander’s head shot up. His heart literally stopped in his chest.
"A daughter?" he choked. "When?"
"When I called her doctor, she estimated conception in mid-December five years ago."
December.
The time she left him, the time when they made love?
Was it possible? He’d thought—God help him—that he could trust her. Because lust had seized his mind and will that night. But could it be his?
Zander stared at the doctor, hardly able to breathe.
The old man suddenly gave a half-fake smile, patting him on the back. "But I'm sorry, Elvie doesn't remember the child either or where she left her four-year-old daughter."
Elvie was vaguely aware of a murmur of voices and the faint hum of the heating system around her. Someone—was it the nurse? or the old doctor? She inhaled the sweet aroma of rain, ocean, and silky fabric. But she refused to open her eyes. Her head ached so badly that all she wanted to do was close her eyes and cry. She didn't want to get out of bed. She didn't want to leave the darkness and tranquility of sleep, the warmth of scarcely remembered dreams that still held her like a tight embrace. She didn't want to return to existence's void, where she had no memories. No identity. Nothing to hold on to. It was nothingness, far greater than any suffering. And then the doctor told her a few hours ago that she had a four-year-old daughter. She couldn’t remember conceiving the child. Couldn’t even remember the face of her baby’s father. But she will meet him today. He would be here in a minute. She thought to herself. Elvie clenched her eyes tight, covering her head with the pillow. She
Zander hesitated with a little scowl on his brow. He appeared to choose his words carefully when he talked. "I was in Los Angeles acquiring a new company, believe me," he continued, "I never wanted to be so far away from you." "Okay." Elvie had the impression that he was keeping something from her. Was it her own bewilderment playing games with her? In this foggy, empty world, she couldn't trust anything, not even her own thinking! "I miss you, dear. And yes, you are so beautiful," he remarked as he cupped her face. He breathed quickly. "I almost feared I'd never see your face again." What the hell was wrong with him? She thought. "You mean when you heard about the accident? Were you concerned about me?" she said quietly. She licked her lips when he didn't respond. She took a deep breath and voiced the question that had been bothering her. "Because we love and care about each other? " He took a big breath, and his jaw clenched. "Yes. My late grandma arranged for us to marry five
Elvie Carlton was a deadly habit he'd finally broken—and he planned to keep it that way. "Very well," he grumbled, turning to face her. "We'll come back next time with our daughter, okay?" Her gorgeous face lit up. She looked fresh without makeup and with her hair pulled back into a casual ponytail. She looked to be significantly younger than his own age, just old enough for college. "Thank you," she responded cheerfully. Thank you. Another term from her that he'd never heard before Yes, in a year while they were married, they seldom communicated with each other, and it would often take a week for a single Yes or No to come from the two of them, even after she had done everything she could to win him. But now? Was she always this polite? So innocent? So...pure? So sweet? Was he really this bad? He sighed as his chauffeur drove effortlessly through the city, turning right to the airport, Zander looked away, resting back in the dark leather seat. They landed in Scotland two hou
Marry me? Again? Why? Yes, Elvie thought dazedly as she gazed up at his beautiful face. His heat burned her, tracing down her neck to her breasts and lower still, his powerful, rough hands against the tenderness of her skin. How could a man be so macho, so beautiful, and so powerful all at once? Zander was everything her ripped, hollow, terrified soul had desired. He would stand up for her. He love her and he would complete her life. Yes! She would make him hers. But even as the words rose to her lips, something stopped her. Something she couldn’t understand made her pull her face away from his touch. "Marry you again, why?" she whispered. She searched his dark eyes, her heartbeat quickening in her chest. "I don’t even know you." He blinked. Elvie saw that he was surprised. Then his eyebrows lowered into a frown. "Dear, you knew me well enough to conceive my child." She swallowed. "But I can’t remember you. It wouldn’t be fair to take you as my husband. It wouldn’t be right."
"I'm so cruel! I'm so—so bad. I can’t remember. I can't—" Crossing the bedroom in four long strides, Zander took her by the shoulders. "Elvie, listen to me, okay? Don't blame yourself. You will get your memory back eventually." "It’s not just the past; it's me. It's what happened. Why did I marry you? Why did we fight? Why did I bring our child with me then totally forget her? I'm cruel, I'm so—" she whispered. "Why would you want to be with a person like me? Without substance, without heart? A bad mother?" Zander remained silent. "And now it’s all too late," she said over the lump in her throat. "I’ve lost her. I have no home. I'm a bad mother. Oh God!" "Your home is with me, and trust me, you are a good mother, okay?" he said in a low voice. She looked up at him. The sunlight from the tall windows gently caressed his face, illuminating floating dust motes like tiny stars all around them in the bedroom. "Let me show you." He touched her bare arms carefully, his fingertips glidi
The next few hours were shared with hearty meals, but as Elvie knew, it was all for show because there were still unknown borders between them. And though Zander mentioned having an online meeting in his own private office, her heart began to beat faster than anticipated when he appeared in her room. "Is your meeting done?" Elvie asked, forcing a smile. Zander sighed. "Yeah, the meeting went well." "Okay, but I wasn’t talking about that meeting." Elvie frowned. "Is anything wrong?""Nothing," he said, then realising what she’d seen from his face, he relented. "I’ve got a bit of a headache, that’s all." She raised a brow and said, "Have some medicine and coffee, okay?" "Yeah. Thanks, sweetheart. By the way, Elvie, my butler is not well." "Oh! Um, so you need something?" Elvie blinked, reaching for the phone. "Do you want me to ring the agency and arrange a replacement?" He frowned and thought the Elvie he knew before would do the same. "I’ll survive for a day without Juan," Zand
The driver buzzed, and he picked up his briefcase. "Don’t bother doing something here, okay? Sleep, rest, and enjoy the garden, and don't worry about the wedding," he said. "If you need to do something, do it from here in my room or in your room, and then finish up for the day." He frowned at her pale face. "Actually, go shopping." "I’ve got a full schedule tomorrow with the doctor. I mean, an online meeting with a psychiatrist, Zander." "Cancel it—my orders." Zander shrugged. "Go shopping and buy whatever you like and catch up on some sleep. I’ll see you on Monday." And as always, he left his room as easily as he left a hotel room—just turned and walked out of the door without a second thought. From the balcony, Elvie saw him frown as he handed his driver his bag. Elvie’s voice reached him. "Have a safe trip, Zander." He looked up over his shoulder and saw a throwaway comment, a rushed farewell, on the tip of his tongue, and in that moment he tasted it. Take care, Elvie! But he
MondayElvie turned her face up towards the bright Scottish sun from the windows of the boat, leaning back against Zander’s strong, powerful body as the boat bounced across the waves. The leather seat hummed beneath her thighs from the vibrations of the engine.She took a deep breath of the sharp, salty air. Her skin felt warm. Her body felt hot all over as she leaned against Zander’s hard chest. Even through his black shirt, she could feel the heat on his skin.Then he smiled down at her. His smile did all kinds of strange things to her, making her heart pound after he left for LA. Her days of darkness and emptiness in rainy London now seemed like a lonely dream. She was in Scotland with Zander. And their child, a cute, four year old angel. Could she ask for more? No. It was enough to see how happy her daughter's face was when she saw her.Thea. She was a beautiful little girl who bounced and laughed a lot.She couldn't ask for more. Elvie smiled as she placed her hand on Thea's slee
“I need you to turn my maybe into a definitely." Zander crawled into Elvie’s bed at the end of that gruelling Monday in the office. “Yeah, right. What are you doing here? Thea will—” “Come on, can a man get some time alone with his wife?” Elvie rolled her eyes, but she didn’t kick him out, even though a small, vindictive part of her wanted to. Life was too short to deprive yourself of spending time with those you love—something I’d learned the hard way. She thought to herself. His body seemed to mould into her massive mattress. Somehow, he fit. If there was one thing she’d realised this year, it was that sometimes they belong in the last place they thought they’d ever be. “Wife, let’s turn maybe into definitely.” “How can I do that?” she put her thriller in her lap and let his arm loop around her waist, dragging her into the crook of his shoulder. His lips fluttered along her neck. “Stay at SBC, stay with me no matter how this sh*t turns out. I can’t make it without you.” “Make
They went home to his mansion. To his cock’s disappointment, he slept in the master bedroom alone because Thea was sick and Elvie slept in her room. But it was still better than sleeping in a million-star hotel or at the Stanton Towers, which he couldn’t even look at after he’d learned what he had about his father not being his real father. He wasn’t the one who’d cheated on him. Yet Zander was the one who’d taken most of Matheo’s wrath. In the morning, Elvie gave her brother a shake from what looked like sewer water, green puke, and misery and slid a bowl of cereal his way. It wasn’t even a brand. It was poured right out of a six-pound industrial box with a Costco logo. “Where is the chef?” “Vacation…half of the staff too.” Elvie smiled. “Cavities and diabetes. Breakfast of champions,” Zander muttered into the bowl as he took a spoonful. “My apologies. Our room service doesn’t work on Mondays. Butler is sick. No chef, yeah so, stick with me!” Elvie took a seat next to her dad a
Zander set the papers down, sitting on the edge of her desk and lacing his fingers nonchalantly. So Matheo had planned it all along. The old cow killed his parents. His meeting Elvie, his falling in love with her, giving up on the Davis family—every single thing And he’d walked right into his trap. Well, almost. He would pay! Dearly. Zander thought to himself. He didn’t make the mistake of asking Elvie if she’d known about it. Of course she hadn’t. Instead, he focused on how to deal with this shit. “We’ve both been set up,” he said. “And he—the bastard—killed my parents!” His voice shuddered with enough hatred to melt the antarctic. And though he had his doubts before, he disregarded his instinct and thought that Matheo wasn't capable of doing such nineious things. “He—will pay! I will make sure he—” "Zander." She put a hand on his shoulder, and he resisted the urge to pull her into him and bury his face in her hair. “I'm sorry." Elvie had this touch that made sh*t go away. Bad shi
The word “music” comes from the Muses, goddesses of the arts in Greek mythology.I never said it before, because I thought it was tacky, but you’re my goddess (especially your ass).—ZanderJohn Lennon started his music career as a choir boy.I never said it before, because it terrified me to admit it, but you’re my church (although I plan to be inside you way more than just on Sundays).—ZanderYour heart mimics the beat of the music you’re listening to.I didn’t know I even had one before you came along, and now I do, and it hurts like a motherfucker (thanks for that).—ZanderRemember in university? I stole your iPod before you stole my wallet. It was tucked inside my jacket before I even removed your panties. I wanted to know what you were listening to. (And I was sorely disappointed there were no Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake songs in sight, because it made not falling for you so much fucking harder.)—ZanderI tried to tell myself I broke up my contract with Kristal and her f
Her heart was that of a lonely hunter.Yes and everything hurts.Elvie had always thought she was doomed by not being able to fall in love, but once she did fall, she wished she hadn’t. Now it hurt when she breathed, when she walked the hallways at work, and each time in between, when she caught sight of the person with a sharp suit and even sharper tongue moving past her, firing orders at Bella or bantering with the rest of the newsroom staff.A few weeks had passed. Four weeks after he’d shown up at her doorstep with flowers and chocolate, Zander had invited everyone into the conference room and announced that he’d given up his position and would only be staying for another month.After he made that announcement, he’d shot her a look, searching her face. Whatever he found there made him ask her to stay after the meeting was over so they could talk about it.She’d wanted to badly, but she knew nothing had changed. Though he often talked to Thea and visited her when he wasn't busy, he
Kristal had been a no-show during those terrible days, but he still remembered the flowers and pastry the family had sent every morning, her mother checking in on him, and her grandmother calling him three times a day to make sure he ate, showered, and breathed. Bella turned around, reaching for the door handle. Zander kept his face blasé. “Good luck explaining it to everyone, sir. Because let me tell you something—the moment Elvie walked into the room and into your life again, she changed you. It wasn’t profound. It was even more gradual, but it was there. In the way you started smiling, the way you softened towards your employees—just a little—and started doing the right thing by yourself and Kristal. But standing here?” She shook her head. “I think that man just bailed on us, and it saddens me because I was looking forward to working with and befriending the new Zander.” Fuck! Bella closed the door behind her, and he looked to the glass wall, catching Elvie unpacking her lunch a
Elvie was about to round the corner and turn onto the street when a limo pulled up at the curb and the passenger door flung open. Her eyes widened, and she stopped in an instant. Her brother was no Liam Neeson, and if she was going to get kidnapped, she very much doubted she could be saved. She turned around to look at the person getting out of the vehicle. It was Kristal, dressed to impress in what looked like a cocktail gown. She seemed to be alone.“Can I help you?” Elvie cocked her head. She wanted to be strong, but she was tired, hungry, and annoyed. And pissed at herself—so pissed that she’d let herself get carried away with a man like Zander Stanton. She usually made smart choices. She was a salad girl, and he was a deep-fried chocolate lava cake.“Me? No, though I’m sure you’ll do it at some point once you get fired, divorced, and have to become a waitress to support your slutty ways.” She walked towards her on her high heels. The limo driver looked the other way, like he coul
On the way to work, Gerald told her in her earbuds that they’re spending the treasure that love cannot afford, and Elvie nodded, not only to the rhythm but to the sentiment. Her shoes were blood red, and she’d spent the ride dying their laces black with a Sharpie.She walked into the office, not knowing what to expect. The professional side was going to be evidently extra depressing. But last night, Zander and she showcased their hearts like they were on a window display when they touched—crawling into each other’s mouths and seeping into each other’s souls. Then she’d left, without a message or a phone call. It was not her most mature moment, but she was sure he needed time to think too.Elvie walked the hallway, ignoring the judgy looks and raised eyebrows people tried to pin her with. One of the secretaries passed her and winced. She didn’t say anything, but one look at her face told Elvie she was in for an unpleasant surprise. What the hell was wrong with these people? Why on eart
Her legs were up before she knew it, carrying her to the exit. No explanation. No apologies. Elvie felt his grave steps thumping in her hollow chest as he followed her out. It was raining outside—the kind of dirty, humid rain to break the pulses of summer heat. It reminded her of the day they’d met at the university, of the carnal desperation that ate at her back then, and of the fact that she was still alone.Elvie felt his hand on my shoulder as he swivelled her around sharply. He jerked her into his arms.I didn’t want him to let go.I didn’t want him to keep me there, either. She thought.“I wish I’d never met you.” My fists pounded his chest, and he took it. Maybe because he knew he deserved it. His mouth pressed against my cheek felt like a rusty, hot blade. The world felt like it was ending, even though I knew it couldn’t be.The vane of his breath sliced through my ear. “I wish that, too.”That night, the sex was different.Slow, intense, and angry. Every thrust was a punishme