VIKTOR.
There are various points in life, when you know who and what it can be?
But don't believe it.
Because you don't want to believe it.
And I come to think of it, I think I knew from the very beginning, that it can be mom.
I can be mom.
Or I knew it was mom, because Hayl told me, before leaving.
But as I said, maybe I just didn't want to see and belive it.
But this isn't her fault or mom's falut. It's mine. If I wouldn't have cheated thrice at them. They must have believed me in one go.
But desperation are blindfolds for brain.
And I was desperate. And I am doing the same thing right now too.
But unwantedly the anger in me was denying to accept my fault. And wants me to break every single thing in this room.
How can mom hurt her family?!?
I ran out of her room, storming towards the staircase
VIKTOR.What is the most embarrassing thing in your life?When you just feel humiliated at a point that you want to hide your face, break everything around, and run away on mountains and never be seen again?For me. I have never been so embarrassed in my life.I am Viktor Raven,Making me humiliated is the last thing anyone can think of.But,Right now, I was so embarrassed!! So so embarrassed on myself, on my family and especially Rebecca.Looking at her at the ground, feels like she was meant to be there,I couldn't control myselas and I laughed, looking at the floor sweeper. But now everyone else were looking at me. After I witnessed the silence, I looked at my mother and grandmaa. Who were looking at me with the intention that I will walk there, and help that woman up.But no!!I started to take a step towards them, and wanted to
VIKTOR."Be grateful that I threw money on your face. Not my shoes." My grip got tighter on her. How can a women like her throw money on my face. As my hands nerve get tighter and tighter I suddenly realised there was a a foot on my shoes and it was her heels.The long 3 inch heels of her were on my feet!!It was on the edge on my shoes, kept very well in a position where my finger will scream pain in seconds. And as I expected it she was now pressuring it under my shoes. As she was using all her force on my shoes, my fingers were now aching with pain as my face was flushed red.For a minute I thought my fingers got numb but the pain was too much for them to not be able to feel. She still didn't take her legs off from me, and kept it till I could help but scream in pain. Grabbing my legs I yelled when she finally spared my legs.I grabbed my feets as I touched them wondering if they are still attached with my fingers,
VIKTORThere is this theory. I believe in.You need to learn things, by doing them.You saw it from distance, you like it, in you mind you draw the outline of how can it be done, easily.But when you walk towards the way, to actually do it, everything messes up.Because while thinking, you never measure the struggle from a far, you never measured the pressure on your head from a far, you never measure the numbness of your mind.You never do,I guess this is why, sayinv things is more easier than doing them.If you think, just by thinking you can achieve something, so nor that you can fool the person or yourself.This is my theory, and this is what I believe in.And I always judges, apologies. But now that it's time, I can see that how hard it is.Your self respect, your self esteem and your selfishness gets the best of you to keep you
VIKTOR.If just it was not Hayl, I would have never come this far.Hayl has this power, I can't name.But her presence has become so important in my life. That I can't even spend a minute without thinking about her.If she there, something in relieved inside me.But, she doesn't understands this. She doesn't gets this. And she keeps stirring troubles between me and her. Keeps us getting in fights.When I want her, to not. Her words makes me crazy always, makes me go mad.But her dad's words right now, are more of a problem.I don't like the way he talks to me, he knows who I am, and yet has guts to pull such shit with me.Hayl, is the one stopping me. Or if it was for another woman, I would have never tolerate this shits."Get lost!! A man like you should be in jail!! Because you have got that height, you are at, because of crimes. And eating poor people." He a
CHAPTER 32: All the worst reason are at the door.VIKTOR."Why does this makes you loose your interest in me now? Does this makes you feel that I'm dirty and corrupted? Now maybe you are even feeling disgusted by my sight? Aren't you? "She asked me, as I couldn't believe on my ears. Was what I was hearing actually the truth? Did she really underwent all those things?"Why are you telling me, this now?" I asked her, when she was waiting for me to reply to her. "You could have just kept it hidden. Must telling me, was important?" I asked her, my eye on the ground. I was not hating on her, but I was rather, shocked."You are disgusted?" She asked me, and laughed at me."It's not because I am disgusted or something, I just can't understand. Must telling me was important." I tried to be reasonable, but I was not sounding even to myself."I thought, you were here again, even after what happen
VIKTOR.Sometimes I don't get what I am doing, I just do things without thinking.I regret them, and get mad at those things later. But at the very moment all I care about is what is said.And I am hundred percent sure, that I will not regret what I said to her right now.Never.Because, whenever I look at her, I want to take her in my arms, and protect her from all the arrows the world left on her. Ever since, I have met her, I have only seen people against, and not once with her.Everytime.From office colleagues to Samuel, my brothers to my parents and grandparents. All I have seen is, everyone treating her. As worst as possible.And not am I much helpful.But at the very moment, I want to embrace her, and tell her. That Hayl, don't worry. I am there.But she is Hayl. She isn't this type of person. She is strong and independent.
VIKTOR.What is family and interrections?As for me I have never had any idea, what these things were.Yes, I have 6 brothers, 2 aunts and 2 a uncle, my own parents and grandparents.Sounds so fulfilled.But not everything is as they say it is. Just as my family.The more perfect it sounds, the more complicated it is.Brothers, who talk and laugh together everytime they meet, are hoping or planing for the other ones death.The grandparents, who are concerned and happy about there childrens and grandchildren are people who takes side in different things, the parents and aunts who show concerns are actually having many hatred inside of them.So even after having everything, my family are the most incomplete people.And, here when I look at Hayl's family. Just three of them are way too full for each other. That they think they can't have someon
VIKTOR.Every coin shows two sides. The more concerned he was for her, here he is hurting her that much. And isn't ever getting bothered.Someone have said it right, there is always the other side of a page.And this was there.In between the number of many peoeple, her brother yelled at her loudly, "She abandoned you. NOT. ME" The little kid revolted back to his sister. From behind the only thing I can feel was her shoulders shrunking, her head down and her body was fumbling little.In the next minute, she was about to collapse and down on the ground, running towards her, I grabbed her first before she can fall. She was looking hurt and dissapointed, her eyes dropped a single tear, while she pressed them tightly. "She threw you away not.me!" He again yelled, as she raised her hands to slap him, but couldn't do it. She took her hands back down, and started to get in her posture, leaving my arms.&nbs