Chapter five : Forbidden love

I'm currently standing near the window, looking out while drinking red wine. I took a deep breath and turned to the bed where the woman was sleeping soundly. Furthermore, I drank from the wine glass I was holding while watching Bridgette.

Even if you succeeded tonight in taking my body, but you still can't take my heart. You are the woman I will never love, even to the last stage of my life. I whispered in my mind as I looked at her intently. But at that moment she suddenly woke up and got up from the bed, so I immediately changed the expression on my face. I forced a smile at her and raised the wine glass I was holding. She smiled and stood up at the same time she came to me without wearing any clothes on her body. Maybe she is too comfortable with me just because we are married now, but for me, she is still a different person in my life.

I just looked away from her while she hugged me tightly. I was wearing a white bathrobe, but I could still feel the warmth of her body.

“I had a bad dream.” She said in a voice like a small child. I just drank wine, so she wouldn't notice that I was avoiding her. She looked up at me and repeated what she was saying as if she were waiting for my response to her.

“What did you dream about?” I asked, which seemed to satisfy her.

“You said you will leave me.” She quickly replied that I looked down at her. “Why did you look at me like that? Did I surprise you? I know that won't happen, but why does everything I see in my dream seem real? No. I can't allow the two of us to be separated. I don't want that to happen. No, I can live without you in my life, Anton.” She added as she hugged me tightly like a child crying and hugging her mother.

I frowned and wanted to push her, but I had to hold back my anger. So, I lowered the wine glass from the window for a while, and then I hugged her while I gently caressed her back.

“Don't worry because what you saw in your dream will never happen.” I whispered to her, which made her smile, and then she kissed me on my cheek. My facial expression remained straight, and I was certain that those were the words she wanted to hear from me. I can do everything and sacrifice my body for her in exchange for success in everything I plan to happen. I am no longer the old Anton who was weak and cowardly. Furthermore, I am no longer the young man who used to cry and sit in a dark corner. The old me is dead. That's why I don't feel any pity from her, as if not only my heart was numb but also my whole body and my brain. That whatever she wants me to do, I will follow. Whatever she asks of me, I will buy it for her. But that doesn't mean I will be a doll for her forever. Because even toys have a limit as far as how useful they are, and then they will just be thrown away like a useless piece of trash.

At that time, while I was hugging her, I imagined that I was stabbing her with a knife from behind. She was lying on the floor and bathed in her own blood, while her eyes were staring at me pleadingly as if she were asking me for help. But I just ignored her, turned my back on her, and left as if nothing had happened. I looked at her so deeply, that every time I saw her face, I imagined killing her over and over again.

“I love you so much, Anton.” She said in a sweet voice. I gently pushed her away from me at the same time I cupped her cheek with my two hands, then I kissed her lips. I noticed that she closed her eyes immediately, and then she put her two arms on my shoulders. Furthermore, I know what she wants. I know her every move and breath she took. Likewise, I also know what is going through her mind and what her heart saying.

While I was kissing her, I was staring at her intently and watching her face. I put out a short smile at the end of my lips where I saw directly on her face how deep her love for me was.

I hold your life now, Bridgette. Because I know what your weakness is, and it's me.

I put my hand behind her waist and suddenly pulled her closer to me, causing her to be surprised. We stared at each other and felt each of our heavy breaths. She raised one of her hands towards my left cheek, where I could feel the warmth of her embrace. She hugged me tightly, and then I picked her up and laid her on the bed while I was on top of her. Our eyes met each other again while her right hand was on the belt of my bathrobe where she was untying it. Until she managed to take off the rest of my clothes. We are both naked now, but we are still staring at each other and I see the reflection in her eyes where she thinks I am her whole world.

I could see how hard she fell for me. That's why I'm certain that after this night, her life will be mine.

“Make me happy tonight, Anton. I want to be the happiest woman in the world. Give me your warmest love.” She whispered in my ear, where my entire body warmed to the softness of her voice. I just grinned and then held her wrist tightly. I raised her hands and put them on the top of her head. Furthermore, I used one of my hand to handcuff her and hold her tightly, so she couldn't move. Then she put her leg on my back, and then I started to fill her lips with a sweet smile. She almost looked up as her mouth fell open. There are tears falling in her eyes but with pleasure. She bit her thin lower lip several times, closed her eyes, moaned, screamed my name and cursed repeatedly. Until I fell on her shoulder, panting and sweating. I felt that she was still full of energy as she hugged me tightly while her body moved spontaneously.

“Make it harder, ugh. Anton, I love you so much, baby. You are so f*cking hot, ughh.” The words I hear from her while I'm just leaning on her. After that, she fell asleep while I remained awake, sitting on the bed with my head down.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I felt my body heat up, but I didn't even feel satisfied with what happened between the two of us. Furthermore, I didn't even feel excitement for her, and it was like I hated myself. I can hardly sleep thinking about it. But I can't do anything else because I've already entered this path. I can't back out now because everything I've been planning is slowly starting to happen. I just have to endure everything, I just have to swallow my difficulties because all of that has a good return.

Furthermore, I stood up for a while and put on my underwear and my bathrobe. I left the house, and then I jumped into the swimming pool where the temperature was icy but it was as if I were woken and the itching that I felt in my body disappeared. The water was so cold, it was as if ice had been poured over it. However, I stayed there for a few minutes because I suddenly felt a sense of relief and relaxation. I was floating as I looked at the clouds. The stars in the sky are beautiful, including the moon. At that moment, I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep there because of the silence surrounding me as well as the fresh breeze. Until I heard a scream from a woman's voice. I opened my eyes when she suddenly jumped into the swimming pool. I got up immediately and my eyes widened when I saw her drowning.

Who is that girl, and what is she doing here? I whispered in my mind in shock. I didn't expect there to be any other people there besides Bridgette and me. But why did she jump there? Don't tell me that she's thinking of rescuing me?