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[NADIA]I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat, couldn’t study.What the hell was wrong with me? For the past two hours, I had been staring at the pages of my textbook but none of the words were registering in my brain. And the more I stared at the book, the more I started to hate the sight of it.I threw the book aside and pushed myself off the bed, pacing the length of the room. I was so restless that it physically pained me to stay still. My heart was pounding so loudly against my chest that I could feel it in my ears, and my hands were shaking. There was something bubbling in the pit of my stomach, something that felt a lot like anger.I didn’t understand why I was feeling like this. Why was I so bothered?Dimitri fucked me last night. Big deal. He was a man, I was a woman. It wasn’t the first time I had slept with someone, and it sure as hell wouldn’t be the last. So why the fuck was I acting like a hormonal teenager whose crush didn’t notice her existence?I was being pathetic.I paced t
[DIMITRI]“Boss, we’ve got a hit!” Alexei exclaimed as soon as I answered the call.I narrowed my eyes at the road ahead. “What?”He nodded, breathing heavily. “Yeah. They found them. Tatiana and Lena. You should get back fast.”I gripped the steering wheel tightly and pressed the pedal, accelerating the car.Nadia, who sat on the passenger seat, all buckled up, let out a short squeal of surprise at the sudden jolt of speed. I glanced at her briefly, noticing how her hands flew to the side to grip the handle.She was quiet the whole ride.After I had made her pack her bags and forced her to come with me, she didn’t utter another word. She didn’t argue, didn’t cry, didn’t even look at me.Fine by me. I didn’t need her drama anyway.I focused back on the road and sped past a few cars, ignoring Nadia’s deathly grip on the handle.“I’m at least twenty minutes away. Send me the location. I’ll be there as soon as possible.”Alexei ended the call without replying.I put the phone back on the
[NADIA]Hours go by, and I do nothing but sit in his car and glower at the roof. This is so unfair, uncomfortable, and unnecessary. Why do I have to stay with this mean man? I was barely able to stay sane when they forced me to live in that apartment until they made sure it was safe for me to be on the streets.The problem with this whole situation is, I don’t even know why my life is in danger in the first place. Even if my brother did something stupid and died because of it, what does that have to do with me? Why would they come after me when they have already taken care of my brother?I just… I just don’t understand any of this. I just… I just don’t know what the hell is going on. I sigh—for the hundredth time, perhaps—and shift in my seat, trying to get more comfortable. But it doesn’t help. I have been sitting here for more than an hour now, and the man who left me to my own devices is nowhere to be found.I desperately want to get out of this damn car and get some fresh air into
[DIMITRI]She’s a firecracker.I should hate it, should find her annoying as fuck, should hate her guts for thinking she’s smarter than me, should kick her out of my home instead of imagining her on my bed, in all kinds of positions, with my hard-as-rock cock shoved deep into her ass, but I do none of that.Why? Because every time a thought like that crosses my mind, I find myself frowning and growling under my breath. I hate the idea of hating her. I hate that I can’t just sweep her into my arms, strip her naked, and fuck her like there’s no tomorrow.I’m probably losing my mind because every time she opens her mouth and some smart-ass remark comes out, instead of focusing on the words, all I do is stare at her mouth, wanting nothing more than to kiss it, suck it, and engage in all sorts of sinful acts that I would undoubtedly enjoy.This is so damn weird. Never in my life have I had so many sexual thoughts in a day, let alone about the same woman. This is apparently new territory fo
[NADIA]When I wake up the next time, it’s not to the early morning sun but to someone wailing at the top of their lungs.I toss and turn to the other side, trying to find a spot or a position where I don’t have to hear it, where I can slip back into the peaceful slumber that’s so hard to come by these days. But to my utter dismay, the more I try to disconnect myself from the chaos of reality, telling myself it can’t be my chaos to worry about, the louder the wail becomes.There’s even a point when the person wailing coughs and coughs and wails again.It’s then that my eyes snap open and my sleep-deprived brain realizes something.“Oh, shit!”I scramble out of bed in record time, but not before feeling my head spin and legs wobble with how fast I do that. But I don’t take even a moment’s break. I throw the door of the room open and rush out as if the house is on fire.My assumption is proven right when I stumble upon the little girl Dimitri brought with him, standing in the middle of t
[DIMITRI]“I can’t wait any longer,” I say to Nikolai, and he nods, understanding. “I have to go and see for myself.”He runs his hand through his hair, taking a long drag from the cigarette between his lips before flicking it away. We watch as it sizzles and crackles, then submits to the thick layer of snow covering the entire land.The stars are out for the first time in forever, and it’s as if even the sky can see clearly after a long time, no clouds of doubt blurring its vision anymore. To some extent, I feel the same. I just don’t know what that means for me.“I can come with you if you want,” he offers, but I shake my head.“No. You stay here,” I say, because no matter how much he wants to be part of this mess, the hard truth is that it’s not his mess to worry about. He’s not one of us, and if I’m being honest, he never will be. Not if Ivan didn’t survive this incident. It’s only a matter of time before news of the attack spreads like wildfire, and the war to take over begins. T
[NADIA] For a long time, I’m not sure if I’m dreaming or having a nightmare. Why? Because I slept with a five-year-old girl in my arms and woke up to an adult snuggling into me as if I was the best teddy he had hugged in a while. What the fuck is even going on here? I shake my head, but even that feels like a task, what’s with my face stuffed into someone’s crook of their neck? I groan, or at least I try to, pushing the man with my hands on his chest. I know I should be in full-on panic mode. I should be screaming at the top of my lungs because there’s a stranger in my bed and I’m yet to see who it is. But strangely, I’m not—panicked, that is. It’s as if, without even seeing his face, I know who he is. Maybe it’s because I recognize this unique masculine scent. Maybe it’s because the way I’m being held feels familiar in more ways than I can admit. Or maybe it’s because who else could it be? “Why are you…ugh…glued to me like this? Get off me!” I pretend not to like this sudden
[NADIA]“Where are you going?” I ask, probably an hour after the breakfast.And yes, I don’t know why I even try—or care.I don’t, of course.I can’t. I shouldn’t.But the words are out of my mouth before I can do anything to stop them and now they are out in the open, standing out like a sore thumb. I instantly feel my face grow hot. Because the way he’s looking at me—with those pouted lips, raised eyebrow and gaze that always makes me want to clench something, hard—it’s obvious that we both are just as surprised by the amount of care that question alone holds.And because I would hate him to interpret my curiosity with anything other than what it is, I open my mouth again.“Just curious how long you will be out.” I shrug and bring my gaze back to the book spread open on my lap, pretending to look as if I couldn’t care less if he never returned. But that’s a lie, of course. Because for some stupid reason that I can’t understand, the thought of his absence carves a hole in my chest th
[NIKOLAI]Once we finally get to his office, Konstantin takes his seat behind the desk and raises an eyebrow. He looks kind of pissed, but not enough to end me right here and now.He might have the power to do that and carry on with his day as if nothing happened, but I know in my gut he won’t. He made a promise to our parents that no harm would come to me. And if there’s anyone I know who keeps their word, no matter the circumstances, it’s him. My very own, very infuriating brother.“So,” he drawls, leaning back in his chair and propping his legs up on the desk, crossing them at the ankles. “What do you want to talk about?”I don’t sit in the chair in front of me; instead, I start pacing the room. I glance around and find it exactly how our father designed it. Not a single thing has been changed or moved. It’s like walking into a museum of old memories.“I want to challenge Madam Volkova,” I say, almost expecting him to scoff.But he doesn’t. Instead, he tips his head to the side. “Wh
[NIKOLAI]I hang up the phone and stare hard at the ground.“Fuck you, Dimitri!” I growl, clenching the phone tighter and huffing out a heavy breath.The bastard has the audacity to make me responsible for everything that happened to Ana and Ivan. But is it? Am I really the one to blame?I look away, peeling my back off the car and slipping inside.I put my hand on the steering wheel, unable to shake his words from my mind.Shit. If only I had known the consequences of my actions, maybe this day would have never come. Maybe Ana would still be safe, and Ivan would still be breathing on his own, not with the help of some fucking machine.“Fuck!” I punch the steering wheel, growling louder.I turn the key in the ignition and drive away from the motel. I’m not sure if what I’m about to do next is the right choice, but it seems like the only option I have left. I can’t go back to Madam Volkova after my fallout with her, and Dimitri doesn’t seem interested in having me by his side either.I
[DIMITRI]I storm out of the building and light a cigarette, unable to think of anything else.I breathe in the smoke and then blow it out, hoping it will take away the stress pressing on my chest, making my lungs incapable of doing their job.I don’t know what to do anymore. Ana is finally awake, which is good news, of course.But what the hell do I tell her when she wakes up next time and asks the same questions all over again? How do I give her the answers that are sure to crush her?Maybe I’ve developed a new weakness these days—maybe falling in love makes you a fucking weak asshole—but I can’t seem to bear seeing that woman cry. I just can’t.It fucking stabs me right in the throat to see those tears streaming down her face, to see that fear in her eyes that seems to linger around her whenever she asks about Ivan.I take another big breath of smoke and then drop it, crushing it under the tip of my boot.“Fuck!”My phone rings just then. I thank God for the fucking distraction and
[ANASTASIA]“Mommy!”One word, and my heart shatters into a million pieces.Before I even turn my gaze to the door, warmth floods through me, and tears well up in my eyes.My little girl comes running into the room, her dark hair pulled back in a ponytail bouncing with every step. Her eyes are sharp, excited, and filled with so much love. Her face is a canvas of every emotion I’ve ever seen her wear in my entire life.I don’t even realize it, but my arms open on their own, my chest aching to feel her little heart against mine.But just when I think she’s about to jump onto the bed and throw herself into my arms, she stops and stands there with her hands behind her back, her little legs fidgeting as she looks up at the doctor, her small eyes seeking some kind of permission.I suppose the last two months have changed a lot. My daughter, who used to storm in and out of any place she wanted, now suddenly looks afraid of hurting me.Tears race down my face. I wipe them as quickly as I can,
[ANASTASIA]“How long was I out?” I whisper, lips trembling. “How long was I unconscious?”Lena, now standing in front of me, looks like the words are stuck in her throat. She swallows thickly and squeezes my hand, a sad smile playing on her lips.“Two months,” she says, but it feels like she’s talking about someone else. “You’ve been in a coma for two months.”This can’t be true. It can’t be.Tears burn my eyes. My heart feels like it’s on fire. “What the hell do you mean by that? How can I be… how is that even… I can’t… I mean… this can’t be…”I don’t even know what I’m trying to say, but I know I don’t believe her.Frustration grates beneath my skin. “Just call Ivan. If he says the same as what you’re all saying, then I’ll believe you. Just call him, Lena. Where is he anyway? Shouldn’t he be here? Sitting next to me, taking care of me? He promised he’d never leave my side again. He promised, Lena. He fucking promised.”“I know,” she sobs, wiping her face with the back of her hand.
[DIMITRI]A week later, we both sit in the car and stare at the huge gates ahead.“This is it, I guess,” she says softly, for the first time not so eager to talk about leaving.It’s strange how the last few days changed everything. They changed me. Who would have thought an asshole like me could ever fall for an angel like her? Nadia is an angel. She’s the most beautiful, pure-hearted, a little fiery, but the best of the angels out there. In fact, if you ask me, she’s the only angel out there.My angel.I let out a sigh. “Yep. This is it.” I turn to look at her and can’t help grabbing the back of her head, pulling her in for a kiss. A long, deep, and passionate kiss. I don’t think I’ll ever get enough of her—her lips, her body, everything about her. “I’m going to miss you like hell.”She grins, her pale blue eyes twinkling, her stubborn blonde curls escaping the trap of her knitted cap. “I’ll miss you like hell too. In fact,” she brushes her nose against mine, “I think I’m going to mi
[NADIA]I’m not sure what to say.And if I look like someone who has been slapped across the face with a hand as cold as ice, then maybe I do look like that person, because apparently, I feel like that person.Every word coming out of Dimitri’s mouth is like slap after slap.But not in a bad way, of course. More like a slap of surprise. Or shock. Or whatever I’m feeling right now that has no name.“What did you say?” I can’t help but ask. There’s still a chance I heard that wrong. Never before has Dimitri talked about my Uni of his own free will. So, to think he not only brought it into the conversation but also seems happy about it is a little hard for me to believe.He gives me a look—of course, he does—but doesn’t try to argue. “I said you’re going back next week. They’re expecting you to continue your semester and sit for the final exams.”“But what about my attendance? I’m way behind—”“It’s been taken care of,” he says, but the smug look on his face is scary as hell.I tilt my h
[DIMITRI]I should’ve known my words would get twisted like that. And of course, it would end up hurting my woman in the worst way possible.But God knows that wasn’t my intention. I just have a crude way of speaking and often forget not everyone can take it. It’s an old habit, one I need to work on changing.I cup Nadia’s face, wiping her tears with my thumb. I should be comforting her after everything she just blurted out, but instead, I can’t help it—I start laughing. I can’t stop until she looks up at me like I’ve completely lost it.Her eyebrows snap and her lips upturn in a deep frown. “You think it’s funny?”“No!” I shake my head, meaning it, but laughter simply bubbles out of me. I turn around to take a breather, and when I think I’m in better control of myself, I turn back around to face her.Only to find her gone.Whatever lingering smile on my face dies right away. “Nadia?”I glance toward the door and see her rushing out of the room.“Shit!” I bolt after her down the hallw
[NADIA]After getting another round of hot sex out of our system, with both stayed sprawled out on the carpeted floor of his office, with me using his arm as a pillow.I sigh. “I can’t believe the kind of stamina I suddenly have.”Dimitri chuckles, the deep sound vibrating through my entire body. “And I can’t believe I get to make love to a woman without her screaming within five minutes how she can’t handle someone like me.”I turn over my stomach, resting my chin on his chest. “Really?”“Yep!” He says, casually, entwining my fingers with his and kissing the tips of each one. “You’re the only one to never have complained about anything. Not even my ugly face.”“Hey,” I shush him, placing my finger on his lips. “Never say that again.”He quirks up a brow. “Why? You want me to say I’m fucking beautiful instead.” He rolls his eyes.“You ARE beautiful,” I say, more stubbornly because he seems to be in the mood to not take me seriously. I can tell. I sure as hell can. “Sure, you have scar