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Bohag

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Bohag

 

I should have put on the windcheater jacket before coming out of our apartment in Guwahati. A full-sleeve tee shirt wouldn’t have been bad either. The morning breeze in the terrace felt a little unsettling after the comfort under the blanket. It had been more than a month since winter was officially over. For those who wore sweaters in March were taunted as kaso – tortoise. Cold-blooded animal. Among my acquaintances in Guwahati, only Birinchi, the fast bowler in the local cricket team I had started playing for that year, wore sweaters in March. He would always be shivering while fielding.

Now, it was April. It had rained the previous night – the first showers of the year – and the breeze carried with it the scent of petrichor. For the first time in a while, I wasn’t startled awake from sleep. It was a gradual waking-up. Someone was playing the Pepa – the buffalo hornpipe – and the tune was gleefully calling everyone around to join the merriment. As the drum-beats joined in – a familiar gu-ru-gu-ru beat, the first rogor of the season – I felt a familiar twitch within, the same that I felt every year around that time. To seek something new. It was Bohag, the season of the New.

I’d almost jumped out of my bed, freshened up in a jiffy and climbed up the stairs to the terrace of our apartment, ignoring Ma’s call to have a glass of water and some biscuits. She wasn’t angry at my haste though. I could tell that from her smile. She knew how much I loved that moment of the year.

The temperature had dipped due to the overnight drizzle. The more I was drawn by the scent of petrichor and the sound of the Bihu Dhol, the traditional Assamese drum and Pepa, the greater I was growing uncomfortable due to the icy morning breeze. I could just cross the road and go to the playground where the sound was coming from. But then, it was only from the terrace I could get the full view. I loved full views.

From the terrace of our apartment, I could see how our cricket ground had transformed into a full-fledged Bihutoli. The stage, a permanent concrete structure to the right end of the field, which until a week ago was the Pavilion for all who played in the ground, was now decked up with orange and white drapes, side-wings, phulam gamosa, zapi and streamers made of kopou flower. A huge marquee facing the stage was raised and at least fifty rows of chairs were set up for people to sit and enjoy the cultural programme that would go on for three consecutive days. An array of food-counters set up across the road boasted of mouth-watering delectable – rolls, noodles, fries, aerated drinks, ice-creams etcetera – in flashy hoardings and boards placed in front of the stalls. The backyard of the stage had the look of a green-room, with restrictive entry points, almost fully covered and separated from public reach. Only the committee members, artistes, volunteers and guests would be allowed inside the green-room. The only irritating bit of the entire arrangement were the horn-speakers tied up in a series connection at every lamp-post around the field. The horn-speakers turned music into cacophony.

The congregation of people watching the performance in the open field, were mostly dressed up in traditional wear – women and teenage girls in various hues of Mekhela-saador and men in dhuti-kurta. They had formed a circle around the performers and were tapping their feet, clapping their hands or singing along. They looked completely taken in by the Mukoli Bihu performance.

It was the inaugural programme of the first Bihu I had witnessed in Guwahati since I moved from our hometown Tezpur to this city with Ma and my elder brother, Nisim a fortnight ago.

Nisim was there, right in the middle, playing the Pepa. He was playing well, much better than when he used to play at our Tezpur home. And Birinchi, our new friend in the locality, there he was – one of the drummers! The others in the troupe were also known faces from the vicinity, although I was yet to interact with them. They looked happy, as if they weren’t able to contain a sudden overwhelming spurt of joy! The usually ageing morning dullness of the playground had transformed overnight into a testimonial of undying youthfulness!

The horn-speakers, however, marred the thrill of the moment with its ear-splitting sound. On the terrace, its shrillness felt like someone was scratching my eardrums with sharp needles. There were four sound-boxes, each one the size of a large bedroom-window, placed in four corners where the Mukoli Bihu performance was going on. I felt that the sound-boxes might have a better quality of sound. I had to go downstairs. Be there. There, in the middle of all the revelry. The sound from the sound-boxes, I was certain would be all-engrossing, like those in cinema halls. I had to listen to that sound, sip it in deep, hold it in for all time to come.

By the time the next Bihu comes, I will have learnt how to play the Dhol, flickered within, as I climbed down the stairs.

 

O mur senai oi,

Enekoi nesabi

bor morom logakoi

O mur senai oi, enekoi nesabi

bor morom logakoi

 

O my Sweetheart,

Don’t you give me those love-drenched glances

O my Sweetheart,

Don’t you give me those love-drenched glances...

 

A soft, buttery, albeit childlike female voice came floating into my ears while I came out of the building, crossed the road and entered the playground.

The guests – the who’s who of the vicinity and elsewhere – were seated around in a circle, while common folks were watching the performance forming a circle around the performers. The circle comprising people of all shapes, sizes, aroma and odour, barred my view of the vocalist as she went on with her crooning.

I went closer and tried to look through the gap between people standing by each other. All I could manage to see was a pair of wheatish arms with golden Gamkharus adorning the wrists, placed outwards above the hips, forming an inverted triangular shape, making mild twirling moves, perfectly to the slow rhythm of the beat of the Dhol. It was the view of the back of the vocalist.

The sound coming from the sound-boxes now felt like music. The resonating bass and the crafty trifles of the other instruments created a halo of symphony. It enticed me to go round the circle of people to a spot from where I might have a better view of the owner of the voice.

Through the small gap between two elderly men standing in front of me, I could now see the microphone which the vocalist was using. It was a great difficulty for me at five feet five inches to see someone shorter than me standing on the other side of a human wall of an average height of five feet seven! I tried everything I could – stood on my toes, craned my neck through the gap between people’s torsos, folded arms and shoulders.

For a jiffy, I caught a glimpse of her eyes. Light-brown eyes. Like hazelnuts. Cat-like, beautiful, smiling eyes. I had never seen such beautiful eyes.

The other performers who were so far positioned at specific spots, had now started revolving in various dance postures around the vocalist, making it more difficult for me to have another glimpse until she took a couple of swift twirls like a yarn-swift.

The two elderly men, perhaps, out of pity for my height or perhaps irritated by intermittent shoves they got from me, allowed me to sneak in front.

I saw the first glimpse of the female vocalist’s face!

Squarish and fair. Red bindi on forehead, matte red lipstick on pouty lips. Peacock studs on the earlobes. Floral Golpota necklace around neckline. Kopou garland around hair bun. Curled tresses fluttering on the sides. Hazel eyes stealing playful glimpses of her co-performers and the spectators. And then the intermittent spells of full and wide smile drawing everything around to her. Draped in a muga-silk mekhela-saador and a tastefully contrasting red blouse, adorned in traditional Assamese jewellery, when she tapped her feet in brisk movements, bent on her side from the waist, thrust forward her breasts and pelvis, swayed her hips and flung and flipped her arms, she looked immersed in the morning symphony. She was singing the arrival of Bihu.

The crafty, playful swirls in the vocalist's voice allured every crumb of a tattered universe into a jolly communion: the grass in the field, the people, the blue sky and the buildings in our adopted hometown. Everything. It was a moment which could set things right.

 

***

 

The performance came to an end in a while. Then followed one after another, a series of welcome speeches by the Chief Guest, the Guest of Honour, the President of the organizing committee and a few other eminent locals for almost an hour, until the Master of Ceremonies finally read out the list of events for the day from a bunch of papers.

The hazel-eyed vocalist (in my mind, a name had formed by then – Bohagi) and her fellow performers, including Birinchi and Nisim, sat in chairs forming a small circle a few yards away from the crowd during this time. They were complimenting each other for the great show that they had put up. It was embarrassing to realize amid the crowd that my eyes followed Bohagi involuntarily. Elderly people walked up to her and complimented her for her rendition. Didn’t they notice her eyes? They might have seen her for a long time, perhaps since her birth. But then, if they could notice her voice and walk up to her to compliment on her rendition, why not her eyes? She spoke to everyone looking into their eyes, tilting her head slightly on her left and with the full and wide, all-welcoming smile. I wondered how everyone else spoke to her so casually, so naturally! It wouldn’t be easy looking into her eyes. If she looked back into mine, she might be able to see deep beneath my clothes, scan through my skin, my tissues and bones, my blood, through the air that filled up my lungs. She might simply make her way into the deepest depths of my existence. I might feel naked in front of her despite the tee-shirt and the pair of bedtime pyjamas I was wearing. Deeper within, however, I was gradually getting conscious of a yearning growing stronger with every passing moment: if only she looked into my eyes. Just once.

The setting is different from your mainstream Bollywood cinema, right? The location isn’t the swashbuckling suburbs of Mumbai or your elitist Delhi or the filthy lanes of Benaras or the high-rises of New York. It is the city at the eastern corner of the country, which despite being overfed by concrete buildings, protest marches and red-soil hillocks, and shamelessly growing bulkier, bigger and uglier every passing day, due to the unhygienic diet of victim-narratives and a drooping camel-hump of bloodstained tales of insurgency, holds a special place in the hearts of thousands of people like me, who had left it decades ago for other cities with the hope of better opportunities, but still secretly harbour the yearning to return to it someday. I bet you don’t have a single mainstream movie with these settings. Think of it. You’ll know why on earth I feel compelled to tell you the story.

Oh the story! Where were we? At the Bihutoli. And I had just had the first full view of love. Birinchi had seen me during the performance, and so when the troupe was all settling down forming a circle at a distance, he gestured to me to join him. But how could I? I wasn’t dressed for the occasion. I gestured that I would join him in a moment, and then hurried back to our apartment.

I put on a pair of blue jeans and a kurta, combed my hair, sprayed Nisim’s Park Avenue on my armpits, chest, around my neck and shoulders, drank a glass of water, put on a pair of leather sandals and Deuta’s black dial HMT wrist watch, told Ma that I would be with Nisim and returned to the ground. In a jiffy.

I also wanted to wear a phulam gamosa around my neck, like people wore mufflers during winter, but then, I would need to find one from the heap of clothes and other stuff in the wardrobe. Things were in a mess in the wardrobe Nisim and I shared. We hadn’t organized it since we moved in to Guwahati, despite Ma reminding us repeatedly.

I walked back to the ground with hasty steps, but as soon as Nisim, Birinchi and their gang came into view I slowed down, as if I wasn’t too inclined to join them. Actually, I wanted to be noticed by them before I dropped in to be a part of their group. I mean, wouldn’t it be a bit odd to show up in a gathering of strangers without any introduction? Fortunately, Nisim saw me and smiled. I smiled back.

“Come Puali, sit here,” Nisim waved at me as I reached closer and offered me a chair to sit. For a moment, the troupe took a pause in their conversation. They looked at me at once, perhaps to take a glimpse of an unwanted intruder into their closed-group chat. Urban formality was as much alien to the boys and girls of the troupe, as it was to me then. ‘Hi’ and ‘Hello’ were yet to find comfortable tongues to rest on in our part of the world. ‘Thank you’ as well. I didn’t feel inclined to thank any of them when they shifted their chairs a bit to accommodate mine in the small space after Nisim and Birinchi’s. In fact, I felt that I needed to match up to their show of indifference. So much so that I even half-turned myself towards Nisim, as if we were going to talk about something very important. So my back was almost facing the other six members of the troupe. By the standards of social etiquettes I have cultivated over the last eight years, that gesture was nothing less than insolence. But in the troupe, nobody really bothered. I wanted at least one of them to be bothered. I wanted Bohagi to tell me to sit properly. I wished her to smile at me while I complimented her on her performance. And to keep looking into my eyes, when I looked into hers.

“Finally, you woke up, huh? I thought you’ll miss out all the fun.” Nisim said, as the introductory line of our all-important conversation. Didn’t he have anything else to say? He could give a compliment on the way I was dressed or introduce me to all others with something like “Meet my brother Neelim, a great batsmen and a great storyteller.” But then, why would he? He still considered me a puali – the little one – of our house. In age, personality and stature! And then he did the thing I hated the most when I was decked up. He ran his fingers through my hair, almost dishevelling my hair-do. He did this almost every morning when I would get ready for school, or at times, when I would get ready for some important occasion. He knew how every time it took me so long and so much effort to flatten a few arrogant streaks around the crown on my scalp, otherwise standing straight like devil’s grass. Instinctively, my left hand reached out for those streaks and I kept pressing them until I was satisfied. I could never find out what sadistic pleasure Nisim derived out of that act.

Anyways, now I had to save myself from two significantly high-stake defamatory accusations. I was neither a late-riser nor a little one at fifteen. I didn’t want Bohagi to form a bad impression about me, even before we had spoken once. But before I could say anything, Birinchi shot the next one: “Hobo de! No one’s looking at you, okay. You don’t have to show off your style.” And he said it quite loudly too!

What were these guys up to? I had to defend myself or leave the place at once. But I couldn’t get into an altercation as well. Everybody perceived those as silly banters. Pulling-one’s-leg sort of. Everybody did those. Especially to their siblings and close friends. But in most cases, the victim would instantly come up with something wittier, more lethal as a response. Opinions mostly. I hunted for one while taking my eyes off theirs, and then a panning glimpse of Bohagi and others to gauge their reactions. They were too engrossed in their own banter to pay any heed to ours.

“No way. Never. He is good, but not the best. Just because he has height and long curly hair, doesn’t make him better than Saarook, okay?” said one of the other two boys in the troupe. I knew this boy. His name was Kexob. He was Birinchi’s room-mate. He had fairly long middle partitioned hair that fell upon his forehead, much after the hair style of Shahrukh Khan. He was shorter than I, somewhere between four feet eleven and five feet two. I thought he had some strange obsession with light blue denims. In the three or four times I had seen him before, he was wearing the same shade of jeans. Also perhaps, it was only a pair of high-heeled, thick-soled, brown boots that he had for shoes. It was well-maintained and the cream of its polish always shone against the backdrop of the green grass of the ground. He didn’t play cricket with us, but sometimes, he would come to the playground to collect the keys to their room. Sometimes, he also asked for money from Birinchi to buy groceries, vegetables and fish. Most of the time Birinchi would tell him what to buy. Rohu fish, as it appeared, was their common favourite. I was yet to explore the market, but what I had gathered from Birinchi and Kexob’s brief interactions, was that someone called Bihari Rakesh sold the best local Rohu and Katol fish at the market. There were probably a few more fish sellers by the name Rakesh in the market and perhaps they spoke other languages – Assamese, Bengali, Nepali, Boro etcetera, but then it was Bihari Rakesh, who sold the best fish. My eyes instantly fell on Kexob’s feet. No, he also owned a pair of Kolhapuri chappals.

“At least he’s better than your Jotin da, okay?” said the girl next to him. I was kind of eavesdropping into their chat, which was mostly subdued by the sound of loud blabbering coming from the sound box placed just behind us. The guests were still delivering their words of wisdom on Bihu as a festival and its importance on our society. One of the guests hailed Bihu as the most beautiful of all regional dance and musical forms across the sub-continent and that only Punjab’s Bhangra could match up to its grandeur. Another guest stressed on the fact that the true spirit of the Bihu festivities can be felt only in the lush green paddy fields of our villages, where people celebrate it out in the open, without all the technical gadgetry, pomp and glamour of the stage-Bihu. He also lauded the organizers for their effort to replicate the village-style, open Bihu and encouraging the participation of local talents rather than inviting big stars to perform on the inaugural programme. Another guest, the last one, in an emotional speech, rued about the commercial aspect of the present-day celebrations as against those he had witnessed and used to be part of as a ten year old. I think this man, just like me, was too overwhelmed with feelings for the voice of Bohagi. He was all praise for her, so much so that he went on to sprinkle a few snippets of her biography throughout his speech. From his speech, I gathered that Bohagi’s name was Maina, and that he had known Maina since the moment she was born; that he was her father’s childhood friend and they rose in business together; that Maina would someday grow up to become one of our best singers; and that he would make sure that talents like Maina’s were always promoted in the right platform. His was the longest speech, and as it appeared, the emcee, the other guests and the general audience had become impatient by the time he finished. People had already started dispersing, with only the guests and the emcee looking at him with an unblinking gaze, waiting for him to say the last word. The emcee didn’t spend a minute to thank the guest, except for a smiling “thank you, Khogen Tamuli dangoria for your kind and encouraging words”, before offering a quick two-minute Vote of Thanks to the others and the audience. He concluded that the next round of activities, the sports events, are already underway in the Railway Police Force grounds, and that the Fancy Dress competition would start here in the Bihutoli stage sharp at four in the afternoon.

Meanwhile, the friendly banter within the gang had now turned more intriguing. It was obvious that the girl’s comment didn’t go down well with Kexob. Like his light blue denims and brown boots, he seemed to be obsessed with the acting skills of Jatin Bora, Assam’s version of Bombay’s Shahrukh Khan!

“No bad words against Jotin da, okay? Did I say anything about Solomaan Khan? No, na? Then why are you dragging Jotin da here?” retorted Kexob and I could see his ears turning red.

“It’s Salman Khan, by the way,” I couldn’t help looking around. It was Bohagi, well, Maina’s voice. Soft, buttery. Gohain! Every sound she uttered, kind of, melted as they made their way to my ears. She spoke in English.

She noticed that I’d turned to see her following her words. For a moment, our eyes met, and she gave a smile. Full and wide. All-welcoming. I couldn’t hold back mine.

That was perhaps the moment. I didn’t know before, it was that easy to make new friends. Smiles made friends of strangers.

“Itsh da shame, bai da vay,” Kexob shot back, and well, in English. He meant, as I perceived, “It’s the same, by the way.” Like most of the people from our region, Kexob also mixed up his ‘sh’, ‘s’ and ‘ch’ sounds while speaking in English or Hindi. And his voiced ‘th’ sound was more akin to the hard ‘d’ sound!

“You tell me, bhaiti, Solomaan or Solmaan, aren’t they same?” Kexob turned towards me and put me on the spot.

I had to make an opinion. Oh God! Smiling was the key. Smile now led me to my weakest link: opinion making! I wanted to look at Nisim. But it would look so odd. Like I was really a puali. I was already under the pressure to prove that I wasn’t and that I wasn’t a late-riser either (I was yet to figure out, contrary to all others in my clan, what made early-risers wiser than those who woke up a little late, say around eight o’clock in the morning). Anyways, I stole a quick glimpse of my all-knowing elder brother, just to see if he was paying any heed to the conversation. He was indeed. His furrowed glance was fixed on me, his lips slightly gaped, smiling. I had to say something. Something that would overwhelm Kexob’s opinion. But his frown had the simplicity of a five year old. He actually couldn’t listen to the difference of the two sounds: Solomaan and Salman. So I couldn’t hurt him either.

“Both are same…but…it sounds a bit funny…I mean when you say it,” I could see this forming in front of me, but before I could give it out, the girl next to Maina, scooped in:

“Bhaiti, first of all, you tell me, who’s better? Bobby Deol or Shahrukh Khan?”

Why the hell was she calling me bhaiti – small brother? I was neither small, nor brother. Not at least to that girl. She looked the same age as me. Or may be a little younger! Just that her breasts were oozing out of the red blouse she was wearing, and her cleavage was the biggest distraction then. She had beautiful, round brown eyes. And when she smiled, dimples formed on her cheeks. She was as fair as Maina – wheatish to be precise – but then, Maina’s eyes – nothing matched up to the beauty of those. Heavenly! Well, let me get a better word for them: celestial.

“Obviously Shahrukh,” I didn’t have to think twice on this. Shahrukh was the best. Nobody could beat him in romance. Since the day I had seen the trailers of Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge on TV, I longed to watch it. That was almost six months ago. Deewana was the first of Shahrukh’s films that I had watched. I had liked it so much that for about a month I would get into a singing trance whenever I went out on the roads riding my bi-cycle. My bi-cycle, a Hero Ranger All Terrrain Bike, transformed into Shahrukh’s dart bike in my imagination, whenever I hummed:

 

Koi na koi chahiye, pyar karne wala

Koi na koi chahiye, humpe marne wala…

 

Someone I need to love me

Someone I need to die for me…

 

And then came one super-hit after another – Baazigar, Darr, Anjaam. My friend Biswa and I would skip playing cricket and go watch all of them. Our love for Shahrukh cemented the utilitarian camaraderie we had developed since we were toddlers.

At the Bihutoli I recalled the single point of concord Biswa and I had about Bollywood actors:

 

There are heroes – actors – who do a lot of stuff while they think they are acting. Like doing abominable copies of western dance steps or beating up a gang of thousand rogues single-handedly or taking ten minutes to die on the lap of their mother, brother or wives, after thoroughly describing how he is feeling at death or even singing gloomy-faced songs while drinking on the road. Shahrukh can do all these. That too, much better than all his peers, but then he can also act. He can get himself beaten up by others in his films and even die pitiful, bloody, swift deaths. And all these make him, well obviously, a better actor. And then, womenfolk are gaga about his acting with eyes. The entire world tries to emulate his signature arm-spreading, backward stooping move, so common in most of his song-scenes.

 

God! I could have said all these! I could actually. But then I realised, the moment you take a pause in your line, was when someone else quipped in. And if you still had to continue with your point, you had to raise your voice, louder than all others to be heard. I was learning it, but again, it was my first time. You are not always perfect at things the first time.

“See I told you, even he agrees. Saarukh is better. The best,” quipped in Kexob.

I think my words brought him all the support he was lacking to fight to establish who was a better actor, Bobby Deol or Shahrukh Khan.

“What’s your name, bhaiti?” he asked me, putting his arm around my shoulder, “Definitely, you must have a better name than what your dada just called you.”

“Neelim,” I said, kind of meekly. With a smile. I saw Nisim and Birinchi getting up and walking towards the back of the stage. They were going for a smoke.

Then followed the most embarrassing question: “Which class do you read in?”

Asking about class or grade you read, is the easiest way of finding out the age of school-going folks. When you tell someone, which class you were studying, they would do their mental math and conclude whether to consider you one among them or to label you as a kid. And this was one question you couldn’t tell a lie to.

“Class Ten,” I said.

“Which school?” came the next one from the girl just next to Kexob. She had almond eyes. Like all of our tribes-people have. Smiling almond eyes. She was munching Uncle Chips.

“One that has navy blue pants. I don’t know the name though, as I’m new to this place. But I think that’s where I’m going to go.” I said.

“Are you Bengali? By the way, my name is Nazreen. I’m in HS First year,” this time it was the girl with dimples. She needn’t have to flaunt her seniority by mentioning the class she studied in. Her seniority anyways oozed out through her cleavage.

“My father is Assamese and mother, Bengali. So I’m both,” I said. I thought it was smart to put it that way. The navy blue trousers in the school uniform symbolised my mother’s mother tongue, and the burnt orange one, my father’s. I wanted to study my father’s mother tongue, because it would guarantee permanent Assamese-ness to my existence, but then I didn’t like the burnt orange trousers. Also I loved reading and writing in English more than either of my parents’ mother tongues. So I chose the school which had navy blue trousers as their uniform, that is, the Bengali medium school, and studied Alternative English for the board exams. It was too complicated to explain. And I thought, nobody would even understand.

“Aami tumake bhalobaashay – that’s what you call I love you in Bengali, right?” Nazreen said again, “I have so many Bengali friends in college. But they never teach me the language. They always keep talking to me in Assamese, jana? Sometimes, I feel they are trying desperately to become Assamese, you know,” she said with some weird enthusiasm. And with her enthusiasm, she stooped forward so much so that I could now see her cleavage deep down. I took my eyes off to save myself from the embarrassment of getting noticed and misconstrued in the first meeting with these people as a pervert, but I felt Kexob was ogling at it, because Maina, who sat next to Nazreen, pulled her back after she had a quick eye contact with him.

“Ekou nohoy de. He’s just like my small brother,” Nazreen half-turned towards Maina and said pointing at me.

“And you, son-of-a-sow! How much do you have to see these two,” she now turned back towards Kexob, taking him by surprise, “It’s all your making! Don’t you know this? And still? Now every day when I go home after college, all that my Dadi does is point at these two and tell Ammi that I was getting out of hand. I am actually getting out of hand! Literally. And I am just in HS First year!” said Nazreen, almost cupping her breasts with her palms and giving mock-furtive glances at Kexob.

Kexob was visibly embarrassed.

“Anyways, tell me na, is that how you say I love you in Bengali? Ami tumake bhalobaashay?” Nazreen assumed her usual self and asked me.

“It’s aami tomake bhalobaashi. It’s toh maa kay and not tumake.” I tried correcting her.

“Toh…Tomakay, like this, right?” she circled her red lips with her finger, to show them forming the letter O.

“Yes, and then Bhalobaashi…it’s ee at the end,” I said, further correcting her with the last syllable. Teaching language to beautiful, red-lipped, cleavage-showing, dimple-cheeked, slightly-older girls was fun!

But I thought, nobody understood the gravity of that moment more than Kexob. Raising his head, with a furrowed gaze, hair dropping on his forehead, he came forward, lifted Nazreen’s chin with the tip of his finger and said, “Aami tomakay bhalobaashi.” His ‘sh’ sound didn’t get mixed up with his ‘s’ sound now. He was such a true fan of Shahrukh!

And then the other girl with almond eyes and whose breasts were not that great to look at, well, if I have to put it that way, for those were still shaping up, burst out, “Wow! Nice! Aami tomake bhalobaashi! I’ll have to find someone to tell it to. Sounds nice, right?” she turned towards Maina and said, as if trying to get an agreement from her.

“Whutzit…umm…aami tomakay bhalobaashi?” Bohagi repeated after her, rolling her beautiful hazel eyes, trying to tell the sounds from her memory. By the time she said bhalobaashi her eyes were fixed on mine.

 

“Yes, yes that’s right. Aami tomakay bhalobaashi,” I repeated after Maina, hardly able to contain my excitement. In a slightly accented voice, in the Season of New, Maina spoke love! And then she smiled. Full and wide. Warm. I felt beads of sweat forming on my forehead. Hope was at work: If Spring comes, can Summer be far behind?

 

 

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    A Lot Can Happen Over CoffeeIn the airport smoking-room, the monochromatic images evaporated into the spiralling clouds of smoke just as Junali’s voice struck my eardrums, “Where are you lost? Hullo!”Her hazel eyes, almost popping out in wonder, her lips gaped like O.“Disbelief.” came out impromptu, after a long, deep breath. I didn’t have to care for my English pronunciation anymore. Courage had killed the inhibitions with my spoken English, long ago. From struggling with my sha and cha sounds to being a Voice and Accent Trainer before being promoted as a Training Manager in an international Business Process Outsourcing (BPO) company, for me, it’s been a worthwhile journey so far in terms of spoken English. “Disbelief?” she repeated after me.“Yes…a…world…of…disbelief.” I couldn’t resist the insane spurt of thoughts, uttering every word with a deliberate slow pace. Looking straight into her eyes! Without a blink! With a half-smile!“Hmm.” She said with a sigh and too

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  • Cycle of Cliches   If a Writer Falls in Love with You, You Will Never Die

    If a Writer Falls in Love with You, You Will Never DieWe walked into the smoking room, lit our cigarettes and settled down beside each other, leaning against the wall. Conscious of the presence of other people in the room. Conscious that time was running away fast. The large display in the lounge in front of us shows the time: 04:12. She said she would leave for the departure gate in five minutes. She hated last moment boarding.“Next week I will head back home.” She said, taking a long drag from the cigarette she had lit up.“Next week? But you’ll reach today itself.” I assumed that Delhi is her new home.“Oh no, no. I don’t live in Delhi anymore. Just dropping in there to catch up with old friends.”“Oh ok. Then where do you…?”“On the other side of Luit,” she cut me off. I didn’t quite get her.“Just kidding…that line just popped up.”On the other side of Luit – it was the opening line of a poem I’d written thinking about her. It was a sad poem. Of hopelessness and

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Rushdie in a Nightgown

    Rushdie in a NightgownI call out Biswa and a few others in the playground at the top of my voice, but it seems that they can’t hear what I’m saying.I’m saying that I don’t want to bat at number three anymore, and I don’t wish to play for the club too. I have made it to the national team, I have got the blue jersey with Number 4 and my first name embossed on it. I’m going to open the batting with Sachin. It’s, kind of, I want to say goodbye to all of my teammates before boarding the bus to the airport in the big city…but all of them vanish in thin air, leaving me with a trace of fear! I wonder if I have just seen ghosts. How can real people vanish?And then I run towards the bus stop. There’s a big tourist bus with huge glass windows and navy blue curtains waiting there – a video coach that’s going to play ‘Jigar’ once the bus starts moving. Halfway through our journey, the bus stops at a restaurant for refreshments, and I feel I can’t keep going all the way waking up other

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Insights

    InsightsThat night Nisim left me sleepless with a couple of insights. In his Bermuda-shorts and white vest, he lay by my side curled up like a cashew-nut under the quilt, snoring through the night. The first one was this:The greater your intelligence is, the louder you snore.In the other bedroom, there was our father, who snored louder than Nisim. And our father, as you might have guessed it by now, had far greater intelligence than Nisim. In fact, his intelligence soared so high that Ma had to make a makeshift bed in the kitchen every night to spare herself of his torturous, unconscious existence. Biswa also snored and I have experienced his torturous unconscious self, whenever he stayed over at our place in Tezpur. Although he always denied it, until recently when his childhood-sweetheart-turned-wife, Nitumoni busted it.Now see, I have three of the most intelligent people I have ever met in my life proving the universality of the first insight.But then, that night i

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Republic Day

    Republic DayThe Republic Day, I believe you are aware, is that auspicious day of the year in which the world’s largest democratic bunch of people come together to commemorate and celebrate their geo-political existence. That year, the occasion altered my geo-political, emotional and relational existences for the rest of my life quite unexpectedly.For the first time in six years, I wouldn’t have to go to school with Deuta for the Republic Day ceremonies early in the morning and could sleep till eight. Thanks to the Bandh that The Organization had called! From all the bandhs that I have experienced, I have developed a definition which the Social Studies teachers may teach their students. This is, by the way, from the perspective of people who are to comply with it. It goes like this:Bandh is an involuntary act of complying with threats/demands/proposals of complete shutdown of businesses, offices, schools, colleges, transport and everything that are, kind of, important for

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Feeling ‘At Home’

    Feeling ‘At Home’I discovered this story in Deuta’s black leather-bound diary.Well, we discovered it: Nisim and I. To be frank, my friend, Biswa, may claim to be a co-discoverer as well, because of his timely presence during the discovery. This story is my personal contribution to the folklore I take pride in – the folklore of Kamarsuburi.Like any other folk-tale, in any part of the world, this has evolved through and enriched by the tradition of oral-storytelling over a number of years. My paternal and maternal grandmothers had their own versions of it, my mother her own, which at times, was quite in conflict with the versions of my grandmothers; there were bits and pieces of it that Nisim had passed over to me, just as people in our vicinity, during casual conversations, had passed on certain controversial parts of it. Those controversial parts, for the ease of your understanding, my dear reader, I will call rumours. This story, by virtue of being in the tradition of a

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Language is Power

    Language is PowerI write from the crematorium, but this definitely doesn’t make my story more readable than the others. It does make me an attention seeker though. That I’m in a flow, which, by the way, is also my desperation, only means that I fear of losing sight of a juicy plotline for my friend’s screenplay, and perhaps a few of your pats on my back. And finally, when I reveal this ebb and flow of thoughts to you, it doesn’t necessarily mean I have fooled you through the hooks and cliff-hangers of a narrative, which apparently doesn’t seem to go anywhere. All I want to assert through these revelations here, is that, language is power. Well, only when it is understood.These revelations are with a purpose: to make you understand a language which you might otherwise care less for, and thereby remain bereft of its unfathomable power. As for my mother, she is still maturing with the smoke wafting to the blue sky overhead as a shroud of air-pollutants. That is how string of m

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  • Cycle of Cliches   Touchdown

    TouchdownWe will have our respective touchdowns today – Jahnobi at 6:30 PM British Standard Time at Gatwick, and I at 6:30PM IST in Pune. Nineteen days have elapsed since I am away from my workplace (you may read Karmabhumi). I have no clue how my team members are performing their daily rituals of chanting “Thank you for calling…”, “I understand your concern, however…”, “the options that I can give you are…”, “I apologize for the inconvenience…” to appease a bunch of unknown, unseen, fatally wronged, over-promised and under-delivered voices and names on the other hemisphere of the world, trying their guts out to get the best possible solutions to their issues. It’s not easy, going through these iterative bouts of supervising all these computer-screen-facing, headsets-clad, wretched souls engaged in those precarious rituals. It sucks the blood out of the brains and when I return to my flat in the morning, all I desire is a sound, undisturbed, dreamless sleep. When I wake up in

  • Cycle of Cliches   Missed Turns

    Missed TurnsNineteen days ago, I was greeted here, in the same airport, with the concerned and impatient voice of Jahnobi over the phone, “Have you reached?” Junali’s full and wide smile and the whiskey-dipped lines written for her transformed into a maze of eerily quiet corridors in in the main building of Gauhati Medical College Hospital. Every minute counted during my hunt for the single occupancy cabin where my mother was admitted. Even after a running-around for about ten minutes, following the directions of the old man sitting at the May I Help You counter, I was, kind of, lost in the maze of alleys, corridors, staircases and closed rooms in that mammoth building. “Yeah, reached, but kind of lost. Where’s the cabin?” I asked her. I wasn’t sure whether Jahnobi expected an assurance of my presence, or if she was just reminding me of the urgency – every moment can be the last moment“Just ask someone which is Ruplekha Baideu’s room. People know that she’s here.” I could

  • Cycle of Cliches   Like a Free Bird

    Like a Free BirdAt the door, there’s this tall, lanky fellow, with a week-old stubble on a pitifully undernourished jawline and a face with unusually white patches of skin standing with a tilt to his right. He has an aluminium forearm clutch in his right hand and he is emitting a strong stench of inflammable oil, a stench which is common among city bus drivers and conductors, diesel engine technicians working with the Railways or in the car-repair workshops. For me, it has really been hard to recognize people in the neighbourhood, because in this colony, people keep moving in and out. In the last eight years, every time I came for my vacations, I met at least one new family in the immediate neighbourhood, or came to know about at least one, who had moved to some other part of the city or to some other part of the country. The biggest bluff that our movies show is that the characters don’t recognize other characters when they wear a disguise. We usually recognize people’s eyes

  • Cycle of Cliches   Beyond Binaries

    Beyond BinariesThe ninth and the tenth days have been the busiest in terms of visitors. These were mostly repeat-visitors, who were doing a little more than paying just courtesy visits. Relatives, friends, and Ma’s close aides in her office. So, whatever means I tried to keep myself aloof, I had to come out more often than the previous three days. Thankfully, the what-happened-to-her questions had gone down significantly by then. These visitors wanted to help us in whatever way possible. My friend Rajib wanted to take an entire week off from work, but I said it would be fine if he made himself available on the eleventh and the twelfth days. I think he didn’t quite like the idea. What was he up to? Be by my side, like Ranjita was by Jahnobi’s. It would be rude to tell him or for that matter, anybody of those visitor, that they could be of greatest help to me, only if they let me be on my own.I missed Biswa though. He is in a remote village in the bordering areas of Rajasthan

  • Cycle of Cliches   Distant Realities

    Distant RealitiesThere’s nothing uncomfortable about the navy blue suit. It’s tailor-made unlike the other ones purchased earlier from online stores or from ready-made showrooms. The white two-ply twill cotton shirt with a double fused semi cutaway collar, the French cufflinks, the black Oxford shoes, belt, wallet and the wrist-watch strap can’t have complemented the suit better. I like the distinct tapping of my shoe-soles on the spotlessly clean chequerboard floor with every step I take through the corridor.Level 5 Function Room at the Southbank Centre. London. Dream destination!The black bow-tie is a bit of an annoyance though. Never wore a bow-tie before. Never needed to. Never attended an English dinner before either. Never needed to. I can bear the bow-tie though. The company of people will make good for any trivial annoyance.Right on time. Half five it is. It’s a Carrera Calibre 5 Automatic by Tag Heur. The most expensive one from my collection. I was pleasantly

  • Cycle of Cliches   Worldly Wise

    Worldly WiseOne morning, when Nishant was barely three months old, Papa and Mummy came to see him. Jaanvi opened the door to them, but was in a fix whether to let them in. Ma called them in. She not only called them in, but offered them to sit and also brought Nishant to them. Papa held Nishant in his hands for a while and then gave him to Mummy. The next moment, both of them were in tears, crying like children.Jaanvi was sulking within. Those tears didn’t mean anything to her. She was living in a strange, robotic world. A world which looked perfectly normal from outside, but whose insides burnt like hell every moment. She waited for Papa and Mummy’s collective weeping to come to an end and their tears to dry up, while Ma excused herself to the kitchen to make tea for them.When Papa and Mummy’s sobs mellowed down they kept looking at Jaanvi. Perhaps in anticipation that she would say something. She didn’t. Rather, she didn’t want to. Mummy’s curse had muted her.Ma enter

  • Cycle of Cliches   Ode to Scientific Socialism!

    Ode to Scientific Socialism!Bomb blasts make corpses of people. That’s what they exactly make, nothing more, nothing less. Bomb blasts make corpses of the people who live after them. Nothing less, nothing more. Bomb blasts are not committed by any other animals, because other animals suffer, toil and struggle for survival. They don’t care much about who the victor is and who the victim. That’s why they grow without complaint, live full until they die.Bomb blasts are by the dead, of the dead, for the dead. Basically, bomb blasts are democratic – they ensure the right to bring lives to surprising ends suddenly without caring for caste, creed, religion, language, complaints, desires, wishes, dreams, vision and mission. Bomb blasts are the season of Boxonto – they usher in new buds of hope for those who live by them. Bomb blasts are the best odes to Scientific Socialism.The bomb blasts in Guwahati and elsewhere in the state on the bright, sunny day of 30th October 2008 made a

  • Cycle of Cliches   Cursed

    CursedThe doctor’s appointment was at 2:00 PM. Nisim told Jaanvi that he would be home by noon. It was five past one, and he was still not back. Nisim was great, the way he was, except for being late for household needs. Jaanvi had been vocal about it, right from the time she had moved in to the Bhattacharya household. She never wanted Nisim to change because of her. She would never want to. But she definitely wanted him to be a bit more responsible towards their household needs. He managed to be on time on some occasions, but then he would mostly be in a hurry. The doctor’s personal assistant categorically asked them to be on time while confirming the appointment. They were late by ten minutes the previous month, and the doctor had refused to see her outright. It was only after a lot of requests that he had agreed, that too, reminding every two minutes during the check-up that he was getting late for a C-section surgery at City Heart Nursing Home.Now, every passing minute

  • Cycle of Cliches   Being Mother

    Being MotherThe QWERTY keys on the pallid black computer keyboard became a nightmare for Jaanvi ever since Nisim started going out of town for work. She felt that the letters are so nauseatingly jumbled up – the first row had Q in the extreme left and P on the extreme right, X came before Z in the third line, so did M before N. They could have placed at least B and C beside each other, as they were in the same row, but no, C came first and then there is V between C and B – it took long for her to find each of the keys while typing with the right and left index fingers. And then there was this irritating stuff – every time she needed to type something in upper case, she had to first turn the Caps Lock on, type the letter and then turn the Caps Lock off , so that all letters didn’t get typed in upper case. Nisim had shown her an easier way to do this – press the Shift key and letter to be typed in capital letter simultaneously – but she found it more frustrating. Many a time wh

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