A few weeks have gone by since Matteo and I have started working on our relationship. It’s harder than I thought it would be, for me at least. Matteo is all about trying and is doing his best to communicate with me. He’s also trying to help our newly formed family get on the right track. This is not how I pictured anything. I love Lana and I know in time once I get past my resentment for Matteo I will love him too, but right now my resentment is making it hard to want to try. I can’t help feeling doomed as a second chance mate.
Matteo is used to a mateship, none of this is new to him, but for me it’s all new. I was a virgin and while I enjoy Matteo’s sexual taste, I secretctly panic every time he finishes inside of my vigina and not my ass. I’m still getting used to anal. It’s not bad, I actually enjoy it, but I get sore quickly. Matteo is freaking huge and the fact that he fits in any of my holes i
I’m not big on being in the city, but the other alphas wanted to meet at some hotel to go over our alliance. It seems war is a very possibility. The rogue packs seem to be up to something. Our guess is they either want to be established as their own packs with rights which is something we might consider if it avoids war. My pack is the biggest of the alliance and the one with the most warriors. My pack will shoulder a lot of the fighting so I’m for avoiding a war if we can work something out with them. Maybe give them some land they can claim their own and they run things their way, but in exchange they wouldn't be allowed in our alliance. It’s political cluster fuck and this are the moments where I hate being in postion of leadership and power. I’ve worked hard to make my pack a great pack, a pack with power and money, but it comes at a price. As Alpha of the pack I often pay the price. It’s a heav
The drive to the city is quiet so far. It’s an hour drive from our pack territory to the main city. Werewolves don’t really like being in the city, we like the freedom the woods offer us. I never minded the city though. The tall buildings, the hustle and bustle, the nice shops and restaurants, museums, and so many other activities. The city is a playground of it’s own and I also enjoy visiting it. I don’t think I’d ever want to live in the city as my wolf yearns for the forest and the fresh mountain air. Jasper has entered the city. “How much longer?” I ask, unsure if I’m ready to have such an intimate evening with Matteo. This is a very real date we are about to go on and I’m not sure I’m ready for it. “About twenty minutes by the time we navigate this traffic.” Jasper grumbles. He clearly hates the city.
After a lovely dinner followed by yummy desert and slow dancing Matteo and I head up to our room. Our hotel suit is the stuff dreams are made of. There is a king size bed, a dresser with a huge TV on it, nightstands on either side of the bed, there is a small kitchenette area and a couch near the window. The bathroom is big and just as impressive. There is a huge soaking tub for two people, a decent sized shower stall, a counter with a sink and large mirror over it, and of course a toilet. Matteo really is going all out and I appreciate it. It was sweet of him to buy a baby book for me to make for our pup. I’m also thrilled to have my dad’s baby book back! Tonight was nice. It’s nice to see Matteo trying. I was touched by his gestures and words. Tonight I’m going to let it go of my anger and hurt towards him. Tonight is about feeling pleasure and enjoying sexual fun with my mate. I'm definitely look
Lana is finally going back to school today. I’m very grateful to Amara for her helping Lana through this difficult time. Lana’s tantrums are under control and she seems to be doing well with her grief. I’m not sure she has totally worked past the grief of losing her mother and she might not fully understand or accept the loss till she is older. For now Lana is in a much better spot than she was four months ago. Hard to believe it’s been over a month since Amara and I have been mates. Last week our little date in the city was nice. Letting Amara mark me was a big move and I know how much she appreciated the meaning of the gesture. I’m going to need to make big and important moves with Alana if I’m ever going to fully earn her forgiveness. I know I fucked up so bad in the begining. I’m pretty pissed at myself for how shitty I was to Amara. She must be a damn angel or something to put up with my asshol
Shadowing Matteo is turning out to be a little more fun than I anticipated. Things have been better between us, but we are still figuring out the right way to communicate with each other. We tend to say stupid stuff to the other one that ends up causing a little tiff between us. Luckly, the tiffs don’t last long. It’s a balance and we are still finding ours. It’s hard for us because it’s not just us we have to think about. Lana is our daughter now.Lana asked if I would adopt her and both Matteo and I agreed to it. The paperwork has been started and the pack lawyer is helping us with everything. I was shocked that Lana asked for me to adopt her. I know her and I have a mother daughter relationship for awhile now, I guess I just never realized how much Lana saw me that way.Ironically, I’m shocked by not only Lana’
Entering the restaurant with Amara following behind me. Frustration eats at me as the hostess shows us to our table. Of course they give me the best table on the outside patio overlooking the river. Amara sits down and offers an awkward smile as the hostess calls her Luna. She isn’t used to being called Luna, but she will get used to it. I was always used to being called Alpha. Even before I was officially Alpha and took over for my father, I was addressed as Alpha since I was the next one. Being Alpha was always so important to me. I saw it as a chance to prove myself to my parents and pack. While my parents are wonderful and they never forced me to be Alpha, I still felt this need to prove to them I could be just as good at leading the pack as they are. So I focused on bettering the pack. Making better trades and treaties. Formed alliances with other packs which is now coming in handy and soon the
Thankfully, lunch took a positive turn. I feel horrible for how I made Matteo feel. I hate that I hurt him. Of course, there is the part of me that is slightly satisfied that I hurt him after all the shit he’s done to me. I know I can’t think like that anymore. Matteo is truly trying to make our mate bond stronger. He’s changed his attitude vastly towards me. He has his moments, but then again we all do because I just had one that’s for sure. We spent most of lunch talking about our camping trip with Lana. I’m so excited. I haven’t been camping in ages. Actually, I don’t think I’ve been camping since my family left the pack. We used to go all the time. It was the one time that I didn’t feel totally left out. Camping was the one time I could feel like I really belonged with my family. Most of the time I felt like I was a burden. The extremely young
I’m in my new office. I have an official office as Luna in the pack house. It’s next to Matteo’s office. I was able to set up the way I wanted and even redecorate it. A little over a week has gone by since I started my official Luna duties. It’s going better than I thought and I’m doing things that match what I originally wanted to do with my life. When we had our meeting with Lana’s teachers they expressed concerns with the education system currently in place. Apparently, they had asked Cheryl many times in the past to help them revamp the education system. Cheryl kept declining them claiming she didn’t have time. This angered Matteo as he is now wondering what else Cheryl neglected as Luna. He hasn’t been thrilled with what he’s finding out. As I take over more and more Luna duties we are discovering that Cheryl wasn’t doing much to help the pack when they asked. No wonder they are thrilled she is
Davina, Jasper, Lana, Matteo, our pups and I are at the camp ground enjoying much needed time away. It was a bit crazy when they returned home. There was much to be done and the alliance was happy that Creig was defeated. The alliance declared Matteo the Alpha King of all werewolves.We had his ceremony and induction as Alpha King. We spent months as a family prepping for our new pups. Matteo and I had twins. Boys named Henry and James. They are a handful, but we love them. Lana is happy to be a big sister.Lana is playing with her brothers by outside on the swings that Matteo built boys. He also built a big girl swing for Lana. We’ve been spending more time at the log cabin on the camp ground for the summer time to enjoy some much needed relaxation.Jasper and Davina have announced they are
I see Jasper’s wolf charge at Felix’s wolf as I hear a nasty growl come from Jasper. Jasper will take care of Felix. I leave my Beta and best friend to do the task he’s waited a long time to complete. Meanwhile I focus on getting to the entrance of the mines. I need to get to Lana. I don’t want Creig to try and slip past us with her. I have all my warriors on alert and they know to mind link me if they see her or Creig. Tearing through the rogues like they are nothing because to me they are nothing. I don’t know why they are rogues, but the fact that choose to fight for a monster like Creig means they most likely deserve to die. Besides, they aren’t my prioity, my daughter is. After what feels like forever, I finally make it to the entrance of the mines with several of my warriors. Most of the rogues are outside fighting, but that doesn’t me
Gene and our reinforcements show up just in the nic of time. My father was becoming aggressive with his attacks against us and was starting to gain ground. We’ve lost a few more warriors which is unfortunate. None of us like when we lose a warrior in battle. Matteo and I are the one that have to break the news to their families and it’s always heartbreaking.With our reinforcements we are now gaining control forcing my father to have to come out his hiding spot of giving orders. Now, he has to fight with his unorginzed bunch of rogues. I notice my father is avoiding coming to the area I’m fighting in. I know he knows I’m going to kill his ass. I won’t stop until he’s dead. It pains me to admit this, but I’ve waited for this for far too long.I’ve wanted to kill my father for a long time now. I’m
Davina and I sit outside trying to have some fresh air to soothe our nerves. Both of us are a wreck thinking of our mates at war, not to mention we both worry for Lana. Creig is sick and I can’t imagine what he might do to a pup. I hope Matteo gets her away from that monster sooner rather than later. There is no telling what he might do, and I can’t think about the worse thing that could happen. We haven’t heard any updates from anyone, but I doubt we will. They need to focus on the battle and getting Lana safe. As much as I want to mindlink Matteo to find out how things are going, I don’t want to distract him. I don’t know if his fighting or not and the last thing I want is distract him which would cause him to mess up. Sally and Matteo’s mom have been looking after Davina and I like mother hens, making sure we are eating and resting. Davina need
Jasper and I running in wolf form now. One of my men took over our car and is not driving it with the rest of our reinforcements. We should be there soon, and our back up should arrive about an hour behind us. My father will arrive with them.“Alpha, how close are you?” Klaus’s voice filters into my head.“Maybe twenty minutes and the others about about an hour, why?”“Felix is leading the rogues in an attack against us, apparently he’s the rogue Alpha’s new Beta.”“What? Can you hold it till we get there?”“Yes, but if he sends in more men, I can’t make any promises.”
Unfortantly, Creig didn’t move fast enough in get us out of here. Matteo’s men are surrounding us which means Matteo is on his way if not already here. I’m sure Jasper is with him. Matteo has tons of warriors and other Alpha’s in his corner who will more than willingly provide extra warriors.This is a diaster. I thought Creig would be able to counter Matteo, to replace him, but the man is not as wise as he appears. Creig has been to busy trying to get Lana to call him daddy instead of doing his job.Lana keeps asking for Amara and Matteo. She has no idea the gravity of the situation. I wish she would just fucking coperate instead of being a stupid pup. If she has just said with the idiot wanted we would have been out of here hours ago and Matteo’s warriors wouldn’t be surrounding us.
Anger flares in my veins as we head toward our destnation. My father is public enemy number one, next to Creig that is. I can’t believe he would go as far as to kidnap a pup. I knew my father was scum, but I never imagined he would sink so low. I should have figured he would. After all, the man cheat on his mate like it’s a sport. I swear he does it on purpose, or maybe it’s compulsion he can’t control. I’ve tried to figure out why he does it, I’ve even asked him, but he never explains. Instead, he acts like he’s the victim. My mom and I are the victims. I don’t think he knows the drama we have had deal with because of him. The rumors, the whispers, the way pack members look at us with pity because they know what he doing. I’ve spent years doing damage control for our family, so that we would stay in good standing with the pack.
Twenty four hours have passed and I still don’t know where my daughter is. I’m going insane. I have patrols everywhere searching. I’m hoping for someone to find them soon. I want my daughter back. I can’t imagine how scared she must be.Amara is a hot mess. When she isn’t sleeping she’s in tears with fear. I’m trying to keep her calm for the sake of the pup, but even my nerves are frying at the edges. Jasper is on a murder path. Davina is anxiety ridden, blaming herself for this mess. Sally and my parents are trying to keep the four of us from completely losing our minds.The pack doc has been giving Davina meds for anxiety, and giving Amara what he can. Amara is limited because she is pregnant.I’m between anger and wanted to break down and cry
Finding Crieg was surprisingly easy. It was the second hide out that Davina has listed. Of course his rogues were all over us the moment Lana and I arrived. I’ve parked my car far enough away, so that no one will find it and if they do they won’t be able to find the hiding spot right away. Right now, a group of rogues are taking us to their leader. Crieg, the bad guy in everyone’s story, just like me. I never wanted to think myself as the villain, but everyone loves to paint as one, so why not wear the colors that everyone has painted me as. They want me to be a villain, I’ll be a vilian. Crieg is hiding out in old mines about five hours from Matteo’s pack. I can’t believe Matteo wasn’t able to find Crieg. So much for the almighty Alpha Matteo being the super Alpha can’t seem to find his enemy. Let’s see him find his precious daughter.