It’s been several weeks since I found Davina. She’s healing well and should be fully healed in a few days. I know her and Jasper are eager to mark and claim one another. I’m glad they are doing well. They are a strong couple, and while they might have obstacles in their way. I don’t think that will stop them.
I’ve spent as much time as I can getting to know Davina. She is eager to become a part of our pack and help me as my beta. Most packs don’t give their Luna a beta because most packs aren’t as big as ours. Since our pack is the largest and we just introduced a second Beta, I get my own Beta. Honestly, that’s a relief to me because being Luna comes with more responsibilities than I know what to do with.
Being Luna has vastly grown on me. I honestly didn’t think I’d like it. Perhaps I was just scared of failing. I was also intimidated by living
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It’s almost time for to head to tea with Sally. My nerves are bouncing around as I head to the tea shop in town. I have a guard following me around as per Matteo’s orders. Matteo has become extra protective since he found out I’m pregnant. We are going to tell everyone at dinner tonight. I have everything all planned and I’m excited for it.There is a part of me that is disappointed that my mom and sisters won’t be celebrating the good news with us. I know I can’t help how they behave, but that doesn’t mean it doesnt’ hurt any less. Their words and actions have wounded my heart. I’m working on forgiving them, but it’s hard.Pushing the thoughts away. I focus on tea with Sally. I’ve heard that Sally is a sweet woman and Jasper has done nothing other than praise his mother. Jasper has a lot o
The stress of war weighs down on me. I hate feeling like a sitting duck waiting for fucking Crieg to strike. Alpha Jack, along with several other Alpha’s and my pack as well have set several scouts to see where the asshole could be hiding. Crieg is smart and always on the move. He never stays in one spot for long, so tracking him is hard. So, we are just waiting for him to make a move.I hate waiting. I don’t have patience. I even lose it with Lana sometimes, and many others. I’m not known to be patient and my anger issues have gotten the better of me more than I count. Losing it on Amara and wrongly imprisoning her was a mix of anger and guilt. That’s only one example of my anger getting the better of me and when it’s mixed with other emotions, I can be toxic as Jasper has said many times.I always hoped Cheryl would h
Dinner is lively with the talk of the Alpha and Luna’s pup. I’m happy for them. They are good people. However, it makes me think about Jasper and me. Does Jasper want pups? Before I was taken I always wanted pups. My dream was to find my mate and have a family. Then everything went to hell.Now, I don’t know what I want. I know capable of having pups. Crieg got me pregnant once, but I lost the pup due to him beating me one night. I was devastated. I’ve talked this all over with the pack doc and he’s done tests and assures me I can still have a healthy pup. I lost my first one due to trauma from the beating. The pack doc saw no reason why I couldn’t get pregnant and have a healthy pup.After Crieg knocked me up and then killed the pup on accident, he started using protection like condoms and even had me on birth co
Thankfully, my morning sickness has resolved thanks to the meds that the doc prescribed me. Today is my first day out of bed and I‘m ready to move around and do some Luna work. Matteo’s parents have been helping with Lana and pack stuff. Thank the goddess they are here to help. Lana is currently at school while Matteo is off doing Alpha stuff. That wolf is on the hunt for the Crieg. Everyday that Matteo doesn’t find his enemy the more on edge he becomes. I know he’s doing his best to keep calm for my sake and the pups sake, but he’s struggling. Matteo being on edge puts us all on edge, but he is good at hiding it. So, only those of us who know him well, know he’s hiding it. I guess it’s part of the role of Alpha is to hide your feelings so the pack doesn’t freak out. If they saw him freaked out, on edge, or really any negative emotion they would react and mimic his negative emotions.
Davina has given us amazing details on Crieg. I am determined to find that bastard and kill him. I want to erase everything that has to do with him and Cheryl. I can’t even begin to deal with the anger I feel towards Cheryl. Her betrayal is worse than ever imagined. She’s lucky she’s dead because I’d kill her myself for betraying me, Lana, and my pack. There is no doubt in anyone’s mind that she wasn't sneaking off to visit Crieg. It all makes sense and it all adds up. I can’t believe I actually mourned her death and blamed poor Amara for it. Goddess Amara, I don’t deserve her, but I will sure as hell try to be worthy of her. I may be a good Alpha, but I’m not always the best father or mate. I know that and now that I recognize it, I’m working hard as hell to be the best father and mate I can be. I’ve always wanted a family and now that I have it
I’m sick of everyone thinking I’m the bad guy. I’ve been the bad guy ever since people found out I was cheating on my mate. I know cheating on mates is a bad thing, but I have a high libido. Sally could never keep up and honestly, I don’t find her that attractive. I know she is seen as a saint with her wonderful and forgiving personality. I’m seen as the bad guy, the cheater, the unfaithful one. Sally is always praised for dealing with my cheating ways. Jasper has always been on his mother's side. Now, he is on his mate’s side. A mate who is not worthy to be his mate. I don’t care that Davina comes from an Alpha bloodline. She is tainted, damaged, and ruined. Jasper is better off with a chosen mate, or not a mate at all. He could have a surrogate to have a pup like the humans used to do. She-wolves would be lined up to have the pup of the Beta of one of the most respected packs. He doesn’t need Davi
After lunch’s little disaster which was cleaned up thanks to Matteo. Poor Matteo, the man is under so much stress. The last thing he needs is my father acting like a fool because he can’t seem to get over himself. I’m still shocked and upset with Felix’s behavior towards Davina. Davina is devastated and upset. She feels like she is causing a rift in our family. Sally and I have spent the last few hours talking with her and trying to comfort her. Jasper is off helping Matteo and Klaus with pack business. Matteo hasn’t been pushing Jasper to do his Beta responsibilities as hard knowing that he and Davina need time together. Plus, with Klaus as a second Beta, Jasper can finally have the time he needs. Jasper hasn’t had a break in years. He works hard for our pack and he deserves some time off to help his mate.
Amara rushes into my office with Davina at her side. Jasper is already here with my father. I’m furious. I can’t believe Felix kidnapped my daughter. I will murder him when I find him. I don’t know what his insane ass was thinking, but he’s dead. “Any news?” Amara asks, desperation written on her. “Felix took Lana, straight-up kidnapped her. No one has seen him in hours. We have warriors searching pack grounds and grounds around the pack. We will find him.” Jasper informs Amara. “How could he take her? What was he thinking?” Amara’s tears hitch in her throat. I go over to her and put my arm around her as the sobs take over. “It’s alright, we will find her. This stress isn’t good for the pup. Davina, take her to the doc, see if there is something he
Davina, Jasper, Lana, Matteo, our pups and I are at the camp ground enjoying much needed time away. It was a bit crazy when they returned home. There was much to be done and the alliance was happy that Creig was defeated. The alliance declared Matteo the Alpha King of all werewolves.We had his ceremony and induction as Alpha King. We spent months as a family prepping for our new pups. Matteo and I had twins. Boys named Henry and James. They are a handful, but we love them. Lana is happy to be a big sister.Lana is playing with her brothers by outside on the swings that Matteo built boys. He also built a big girl swing for Lana. We’ve been spending more time at the log cabin on the camp ground for the summer time to enjoy some much needed relaxation.Jasper and Davina have announced they are
I see Jasper’s wolf charge at Felix’s wolf as I hear a nasty growl come from Jasper. Jasper will take care of Felix. I leave my Beta and best friend to do the task he’s waited a long time to complete. Meanwhile I focus on getting to the entrance of the mines. I need to get to Lana. I don’t want Creig to try and slip past us with her. I have all my warriors on alert and they know to mind link me if they see her or Creig. Tearing through the rogues like they are nothing because to me they are nothing. I don’t know why they are rogues, but the fact that choose to fight for a monster like Creig means they most likely deserve to die. Besides, they aren’t my prioity, my daughter is. After what feels like forever, I finally make it to the entrance of the mines with several of my warriors. Most of the rogues are outside fighting, but that doesn’t me
Gene and our reinforcements show up just in the nic of time. My father was becoming aggressive with his attacks against us and was starting to gain ground. We’ve lost a few more warriors which is unfortunate. None of us like when we lose a warrior in battle. Matteo and I are the one that have to break the news to their families and it’s always heartbreaking.With our reinforcements we are now gaining control forcing my father to have to come out his hiding spot of giving orders. Now, he has to fight with his unorginzed bunch of rogues. I notice my father is avoiding coming to the area I’m fighting in. I know he knows I’m going to kill his ass. I won’t stop until he’s dead. It pains me to admit this, but I’ve waited for this for far too long.I’ve wanted to kill my father for a long time now. I’m
Davina and I sit outside trying to have some fresh air to soothe our nerves. Both of us are a wreck thinking of our mates at war, not to mention we both worry for Lana. Creig is sick and I can’t imagine what he might do to a pup. I hope Matteo gets her away from that monster sooner rather than later. There is no telling what he might do, and I can’t think about the worse thing that could happen. We haven’t heard any updates from anyone, but I doubt we will. They need to focus on the battle and getting Lana safe. As much as I want to mindlink Matteo to find out how things are going, I don’t want to distract him. I don’t know if his fighting or not and the last thing I want is distract him which would cause him to mess up. Sally and Matteo’s mom have been looking after Davina and I like mother hens, making sure we are eating and resting. Davina need
Jasper and I running in wolf form now. One of my men took over our car and is not driving it with the rest of our reinforcements. We should be there soon, and our back up should arrive about an hour behind us. My father will arrive with them.“Alpha, how close are you?” Klaus’s voice filters into my head.“Maybe twenty minutes and the others about about an hour, why?”“Felix is leading the rogues in an attack against us, apparently he’s the rogue Alpha’s new Beta.”“What? Can you hold it till we get there?”“Yes, but if he sends in more men, I can’t make any promises.”
Unfortantly, Creig didn’t move fast enough in get us out of here. Matteo’s men are surrounding us which means Matteo is on his way if not already here. I’m sure Jasper is with him. Matteo has tons of warriors and other Alpha’s in his corner who will more than willingly provide extra warriors.This is a diaster. I thought Creig would be able to counter Matteo, to replace him, but the man is not as wise as he appears. Creig has been to busy trying to get Lana to call him daddy instead of doing his job.Lana keeps asking for Amara and Matteo. She has no idea the gravity of the situation. I wish she would just fucking coperate instead of being a stupid pup. If she has just said with the idiot wanted we would have been out of here hours ago and Matteo’s warriors wouldn’t be surrounding us.
Anger flares in my veins as we head toward our destnation. My father is public enemy number one, next to Creig that is. I can’t believe he would go as far as to kidnap a pup. I knew my father was scum, but I never imagined he would sink so low. I should have figured he would. After all, the man cheat on his mate like it’s a sport. I swear he does it on purpose, or maybe it’s compulsion he can’t control. I’ve tried to figure out why he does it, I’ve even asked him, but he never explains. Instead, he acts like he’s the victim. My mom and I are the victims. I don’t think he knows the drama we have had deal with because of him. The rumors, the whispers, the way pack members look at us with pity because they know what he doing. I’ve spent years doing damage control for our family, so that we would stay in good standing with the pack.
Twenty four hours have passed and I still don’t know where my daughter is. I’m going insane. I have patrols everywhere searching. I’m hoping for someone to find them soon. I want my daughter back. I can’t imagine how scared she must be.Amara is a hot mess. When she isn’t sleeping she’s in tears with fear. I’m trying to keep her calm for the sake of the pup, but even my nerves are frying at the edges. Jasper is on a murder path. Davina is anxiety ridden, blaming herself for this mess. Sally and my parents are trying to keep the four of us from completely losing our minds.The pack doc has been giving Davina meds for anxiety, and giving Amara what he can. Amara is limited because she is pregnant.I’m between anger and wanted to break down and cry
Finding Crieg was surprisingly easy. It was the second hide out that Davina has listed. Of course his rogues were all over us the moment Lana and I arrived. I’ve parked my car far enough away, so that no one will find it and if they do they won’t be able to find the hiding spot right away. Right now, a group of rogues are taking us to their leader. Crieg, the bad guy in everyone’s story, just like me. I never wanted to think myself as the villain, but everyone loves to paint as one, so why not wear the colors that everyone has painted me as. They want me to be a villain, I’ll be a vilian. Crieg is hiding out in old mines about five hours from Matteo’s pack. I can’t believe Matteo wasn’t able to find Crieg. So much for the almighty Alpha Matteo being the super Alpha can’t seem to find his enemy. Let’s see him find his precious daughter.