chapter 4

SASHA VAHEMIR

I wake up to an intensified headache and the light coming from the windows are not helping matters and yes, I don't get affected by the sun. The three powerful families don't get affected by the son, that is one of the perks of been their descendants. And I know Davil intentionally left the curtain open to punish me.

I manage to sit up and the headache increases, my eyes meet a livid Davil who stands by the door and in the next minutes he is at my bedstand holding a cup. fill with blood. I nod as a sign of gratitude and the closer his hands are to mine I sense a different aura to the one I am used to, it is one of anger. He swirl the cup over and the blood pours to the ground. Davil's face is expressionless and emotionless.

"You used to be the cool brother -"

"Cool brother? Have you seen the news Vahemir?", his voice grows and I know he is really livid because he used my middle name.

"What news?"

"Vahemir?", my angry mum growl from the living room and I feel my spirit leave me for a while as my heart pound with every footsteps of hers.The door sprung open and immediately hide inside the blanket and cover myself with it.

"What is all this rubbish I am seeing on the news?", my mum asks and the duvet is removed showing my curved up body.

"I just went clubbing -"

"Clubbing you say? Hundreds of people died and they are pinning everything on you and thanks to you, we are finally out of hiding. Fucking Vahemir ", she curses and I slowly sit up and as I glance at her, I can tell she is livid from the way she is panting heavily.

"Ma I just went -"

"Went where? Didn't I tell you not to go there? Why are you bent on killing me before my time-"

"Ma-"

"Not now, Davil. Do you know the amount of calls I am getting? We all know the Darc have been trying for centuries to take over the throne and she just gave them a chance to-"

"They won't ma. I assure you that and plus we haven't seen them in years, they only show up during important ceremonies. He didn't even show up for our wedding -"

"And honestly I don't blame him. With this attitude of yours no man will ever marry you. All you will do is become a damn liability ", she whispers that last part as she leaves my room.

"I hope you are satisfied ", he rolls his eyes in disgust and goes after mum.

I sigh and sink into the bed as I feel a sharp pain on my chest. I would be a liar if I said her statement didn't cut right through my chest.

****

I walk down the curved stairs and the helps are waiting at the end of the stairs. When I am at the end of the stairs, they hit their chest hard and make a curt bow and then raise they heads moment later.

"Where is my mum?"

"At the backyard, Miss Vahemir", she bows as she speaks.

I walk to the backyard and I see her sitting at the backyard garden with Davil, the warriors are not to far from them. There are flowers serving as a mini gate surrounding them, in their middle is a wine bottle filled with blood and two glass cups.

I take a deep long breath and walk to them. At the sight of me, my mum rolls her eyes and looks away. Davil signals for me to sit down and I nod and oblige.

"Ma"

"Let us enter inside -", my mum stands up and fall on my knee and bow my head. I place my hand on her legs, I don't need to sit up straight to know they are staring at me ridiculously.

"I am sorry ma. I really am. I just handle stress a little differently. I find comfort in partying and away from the constant reminder of the sort of failure I am. I didn't mean to put our kind in harm's way. I promise mum", I beg and a arm pull me up and I tint my head to the side to see it is Davil.

"Please"

"Not this time, Sasha. I don't think you know the havoc you have caused. You never know. I am tired of you putting our lives in harm's way. I know you never mean it, yet you do it. I don't want you to take this from me, not again Sasha", she walks past me and nudge my shoulder.

I can sense her pain from where I stand. I can feel the chest pain and the little hatred she is feeling instantly. Why do I feel like she blames me for something I am not fully aware of? Why do I feel like a stranger in my house?

"She blames me for something -"

"Yes, she warns you against going clubbing knowing you are the evil premonition -"

"You all consider me that?", I look up at him and he looks away, just realizing what he said.

"Wooow", I walk away not caring to look back at him and he didn't bother to call out to me either.

Family huh?

****

"We need to get her married off -"

"Ma that is not the solution to everything -"

"Yes, it is. You have seen how the death of those people have eyes on us-"

"It is not her fault -"

"Stop siding her, Davil", mum lashes out and her room is silent, I can feel Davil's heartbeat really fast and I can tell his intentions are pure.

He is livid but he still cares for me and trying to make sure I am not married off again or maybe he feels guilty for earlier, so he is trying to make up for it.

Davil and mum are currently in her room. Since the news was on TV she has avoided me like some plague and I am honestly tired of it. I am tired of this silent treatment. It's not my fault I was born with these curse.

"She is the cause of everything happening now. Haven't you heard of the prophesy -"

"Villians ain't born, they are made-"

"In this case Sasha is born a villian not made one", she spits out and I push the door open and I can see the shock in Davil's eyes.

"Sasha leave -"

"I want to talk to mum-"

"I am talking to you-"

"Not today, Davil", I look him dead in the eyes and I hope he could hear the finality in my voice because I don't want to disrespect him.

"How long will you blame me, mum? How long would you talk to me like I am not a member of the family -"

"Because you don't act like a Vahemir -"

"MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO BE ONE", I yell at the top of my lungs and they all gasp like it is a sacrilege to utter such word but honestly it is the truth.

"Have you ever asked how I felt? I had to go to that school where ill things are thought of about me. They stared like they could kill me if they had the chance but I did a good job hiding it from you but somehow I became the monster. I am always going to be seen as one. I am fine with outsiders thinking of me as such but not my family. Not you, mum", I confess hoping she can hear the pain in my voice.

"You can't blame them, can you? Evil premonition -", I chuckle as a tear drop from my cheeks and they look at me like I am some psychopath.

"Not that again. It is not my fault I am born that way-"

"But you can shut it down-"

"FUCK NO I CAN'T. ITS NOT SOME SWITCH I CAN TURN OFF", I gesture with my hand and a hard hand lands on my cheeks and the sting burns my cheek, I glance at her dead in the eyes and I don't see any remorse, but I see relieve.

"I am your mother. Never you use the F- word on me or yell at me."

"Mum -"

"Shut up, Davil. Now I understand why Darc left you at the altar. I wouldn't even want to spend the rest of my life with you either", she blurts out.

"Fucking Vahemir ", she curses and leaves her room, leaving just I and Davil.

I bite my lips and fight the urge to scream back at her. I am done with all this bullshit. I am done trying to make her understand me from my perspective.

Let her think what she wants.

"She didn't mean any of it"

"She did. I am not marrying anyone", I walk away leaving Davil alone in mother's room.

Davil is tired of mum and I going back and forth. We never seem to agree to anything. We never seem understand eachother. Sometimes I wonder if it is just my mum and I or it happens with all mum's and their daughters.

She should do all she wants but I am not marrying any body. I am not going to be some consolation prize.

Never again.