~Myla~Again I wait at the house for Deacon to get off work, right along with Travis and Nova. They're even acting weird too. They won't sit near each other and they've hardly spoken since I brought Nova back to the house after my interview with Commander Luca, who happens to be Deacon's boss. I asked Deacon if it would be too weird for him but he assured me it wouldn't and that I should accept the job, so I did. I start tutoring his child next week, so I'm excited for the new student. Ivy is supposed to be coming over to pick me up tomorrow so we can have a girls' day while Deacon works a double, and Travis goes to his friend's house for the day. But right now, right now I need to figure out how to get these kids talking to each other so we can deal with the whole pregnancy issue. They're not making it easy on me by any means, though. "Alright, I'll bite... What's going on between you two?""She wo...""He wo..."Both of them try to talk at once, trying to defend their point of thin
~Deacon~I'm a fucking mess. A goddamn train wreck that's already derailed more than fucking once. I can't eat. I can't fucking sleep. I can't even take a shit without thinking about Myla. Jesus, my fucking Myla. She's in the fucking hospital in a fucking coma, and the doctors say they don't know when or if she'll wake up. By the time they got her out of the fucking pool, she'd stopped breathing, and now it's a fucking struggle to get her ass to wake the fuck up. I don't even know what the fuck to do. I'm so fucking lost it's ridiculous. I don't even know what the fuck to do with myself. I wasn't this affected when my ex-wife left my ass. There's something about Myla, though, something I fell in love with the second I saw her fucking picture on my phone screen. This can't be the way it fucking ends for us. We didn't even get to do half the shit I wanted to. I find myself praying to a fucking God that I don't even believe in constantly, but I'll do anything to have Myla back with me. A
~Deacon~After spending the entire night with Myla at the hospital and having no fucking change in her condition, with a heavy heart I leave her room as dawn threatens to rise. I haven't given Mr. Nobody's request much thought since I left work, there's too much other shït on my fucking mind. I know there are only a few days until the weekend when I'm supposed to have the job completed, but Myla being in the fucking hospital trumps everything. Although, one mother fucker keeps taunting me. Leaving the hospital, I get into my car and speed off, trying to get to the safe house before the sun fully rises. The sky is still dark but light peaks through the horizon as the sun begins to slowly wake up. Myla loves sunrises, so of course watching this one as I drive down the street brings all kinds of feelings along with it. I try to ignore them, though. I light a cigarette and roll all the windows down, with not even the sound of the radio on in the background. Just. Silence. It's hard not to
TravisI never thought I'd be in this predicament. You know, the one where I'm still in high school with a pregnant girlfriend who still has two years until she graduates. I know my father is upset with me and to be honest, I can't blame him at all. It's not like Nova and I were careless about it, though. We used protection. My dad always has condoms in his room and I steal them all the time. It's not my fault that one broke or just didn't work. I'm not sure what happened. I just know we used one. And yet Nova is fucking pregnant.I wish her being pregnant with my baby was the only thing worrying me right now. But it's not. The fact that Myla is still in a coma and hasn't woken up yet is bothering me more than anything else. My dad's been even more distant and hardly ever home. When he is, he doesn't want to talk about anything. He misses her and is lost without her. I've never seen him like this. Not even when mom left. Myla has impacted all of us and her absence is affecting us grea
| ~Friday, two days until the deadline~ |~Myla~"Are you sure you're okay, little one?""Deacon, I promise you, I'm fine."He still hovers over me with his eyes filled with worry and his brow furrowed. He looks so cute. I reach up and graze his scratchy cheek before I cup it, holding on as I pull his head down so his lips meet mine, and then I kiss him as if my life depends on it. I use my hand with the IV in it to run through his short, soft, salt-and-pepper hair, making his whole body jerk when I rake my nails across his scalp. God, I've missed him so much. "Thank God you woke up. I've been out of my fucking mind, Myla. I thought I'd lost you for good." "You can't get rid of me that easily. Besides, I love you and I told you before I'm gonna fight for you, that includes fighting for this relationship."I can see the internal struggle he's dealing with in his eyes, the torture swirling inside them is extremely evident. But I know he won't tell me what's wrong, especially since I j
|~Saturday- 1 day until the deadline~|~Deacon~Feeling betrayed by Mr. Nobody is a fucking understatement to say the fucking least. Walking into the safe house and finding Tristan practically dead on the floor with my fucking knife sticking out of his neck was a punch to the fucking dick for sure. He was mine to torture and mine to kill but he took that shit away from me just like he's done everything else. He couldn't let me have it. I don't know why I was expecting anything different, though. I should have expected him to pull a dirt move. Hearing Tristan gurgle those words that I was dreading, the fact that Myla can't have kids, just made things even worse. The fact that I couldn't inflict the amount of torture and pain on him that I wanted to, left a gaping wound inside of me that will never be fucking healed. I'll never be able to move on from that now that he's fucking dead. I'll never be able to fucking come clean to Myla about what I fucking did. I know I need to tell her but
| ~Sunday- 0 days left. It's the deadline!~ |~Deacon~I wasn't able to sleep all fucking night, but given what today is, I wasn't expecting to. After last night, getting into that fight with Carter, we went back to his house and talked about shit, even though I still don't know if I can fully trust him, I had to let him in on my plan if I'm gonna try and pull this shit off without Annie getting hurt. He still doesn't know where my safe house is, though, and he won't fucking know either. Nobody will ever know where that is. I keep looking at him, grinning at every mark on his face, his split, swollen lips, both black eyes, the bruises around his throat from when I choked him, and all the other brutal, noticeable marks I left all over him, great reminders of how badly I fucked him up for fucking with my boy and betraying me in the worst way possible. With Myla, Travis, and Nova there now, Carter and I are at my house, fully aware that Mr. Nobody is keeping watch on the outside. I can f
~Deacon~It feels like we've been on the fucking run for a while. And it feels like I've kidnapped a whole bunch of fucking people and am holding them all,, hostage as you see in the movies, or like something I'd deal with at fücking work. But this isn't a fucking job, this is my goddamn life and it's a fucking mess all because of one evil mother fucker who I can't wait to find. If Mr. Nobody thought what I did to Tristan was bad, just wait until he sees what I have planned for his ass. It ain't pretty. I couldn't stand sitting bitch anymore, so once we passed all the cops speeding to the commander's house, I had Carter pull over so I could drive, which eased some of the panic and anxiety ripping through my muscles but there was still a fire burning through my veins that won't ever seem to fucking quit. It's like I was born with the devil's blood inside of me, born to hurt- born to feel pain no matter what. And I've been fine with it for all these years. But now I just want it to fuck
~Deacon~In the hospital, a million things keep running through my mind, and Carter is the only one who can answer them. His ass is snoring in the chair near the window, so to get his attention, I take the water pitcher with ice-cold water in it, and chuck it his way, wanting to get this shit off my mind so I can rest for a while. I know it's not gonna come easy even with my questions answered, but something needs to happen, and soon. With my perfect fucking aim, it hits him right in the head, making him bolt up and look frantically around, water dripping all down his head, soaking the shit out of him. "What the fuck was that for, Deac?""Wake up, man. I have some things I can't figure out yet.""Like what?"He growls, tired as fuck and apparently mad that this shit couldn't wait."How did you know it was Luca behind all this shit?""I didn't at first, but the tail I told you about, I recognized it as one of his buddies, so when I managed to lose him, I got on his ass and followed him
~Deacon~Suddenly everything comes rushing back to me, and everything that I was confused about begins to make sense. The phone call yesterday when he called me soldier makes more sense than ever... Now, as I stand here and stare at the man behind Myla, holding a knife to her throat, I grit my teeth and ball my fists, shocked beyond all belief that I trusted this man and let him into my fücking life. This is how he fucking repays me? He fucks my ex-wife and tortures my goddamn life?"I knew there was something about you that I didn't like…""Surprised to see me here, Devil?""So it's been you this whole fucking time? Or has it been the fucking cunt that's got a gun pointed at her own son's head?""Dad, this is my mom?"Travis squeaks in a shaky voice, trying to hold in his tears and stay as strong as he can, but I know it's hard. He's got Street blood running in his veins so I know he's got this. He just needs to believe in himself. We share a look and I speak to my son with my eyes,
~Myla~Still in disbelief that Travis and Nova want Deacon and me to adopt their baby, I sit here on his lap and stare at the young couple with my mouth open, my heart racing, and my palms sweaty as Deacon tries to hold my hands as tight as he can. Having a child has always been a dream of mine, but a dream I always thought would never happen because of what Tristan did to me those many years ago. The fire poker he used did more damage than I thought, ruining my life and body in more ways than one. I don't know if Deacon knows that I can't have kids, but I know that talk has to happen soon, especially if we're going to be talking about possibly adopting Travis and Nova's baby, which is a huge deal. What worries me the most, and it has nothing to do with the baby, is the fact that this Mr. Nobody guy is still after Deacon and his torment is only getting worse, which is making Deacon even more enraged and paranoid, I'd even go as far as to say scary to be around. "How do you guys feel
~Deacon~It feels like we've been on the fucking run for a while. And it feels like I've kidnapped a whole bunch of fucking people and am holding them all,, hostage as you see in the movies, or like something I'd deal with at fücking work. But this isn't a fucking job, this is my goddamn life and it's a fucking mess all because of one evil mother fucker who I can't wait to find. If Mr. Nobody thought what I did to Tristan was bad, just wait until he sees what I have planned for his ass. It ain't pretty. I couldn't stand sitting bitch anymore, so once we passed all the cops speeding to the commander's house, I had Carter pull over so I could drive, which eased some of the panic and anxiety ripping through my muscles but there was still a fire burning through my veins that won't ever seem to fucking quit. It's like I was born with the devil's blood inside of me, born to hurt- born to feel pain no matter what. And I've been fine with it for all these years. But now I just want it to fuck
| ~Sunday- 0 days left. It's the deadline!~ |~Deacon~I wasn't able to sleep all fucking night, but given what today is, I wasn't expecting to. After last night, getting into that fight with Carter, we went back to his house and talked about shit, even though I still don't know if I can fully trust him, I had to let him in on my plan if I'm gonna try and pull this shit off without Annie getting hurt. He still doesn't know where my safe house is, though, and he won't fucking know either. Nobody will ever know where that is. I keep looking at him, grinning at every mark on his face, his split, swollen lips, both black eyes, the bruises around his throat from when I choked him, and all the other brutal, noticeable marks I left all over him, great reminders of how badly I fucked him up for fucking with my boy and betraying me in the worst way possible. With Myla, Travis, and Nova there now, Carter and I are at my house, fully aware that Mr. Nobody is keeping watch on the outside. I can f
|~Saturday- 1 day until the deadline~|~Deacon~Feeling betrayed by Mr. Nobody is a fucking understatement to say the fucking least. Walking into the safe house and finding Tristan practically dead on the floor with my fucking knife sticking out of his neck was a punch to the fucking dick for sure. He was mine to torture and mine to kill but he took that shit away from me just like he's done everything else. He couldn't let me have it. I don't know why I was expecting anything different, though. I should have expected him to pull a dirt move. Hearing Tristan gurgle those words that I was dreading, the fact that Myla can't have kids, just made things even worse. The fact that I couldn't inflict the amount of torture and pain on him that I wanted to, left a gaping wound inside of me that will never be fucking healed. I'll never be able to move on from that now that he's fucking dead. I'll never be able to fucking come clean to Myla about what I fucking did. I know I need to tell her but
| ~Friday, two days until the deadline~ |~Myla~"Are you sure you're okay, little one?""Deacon, I promise you, I'm fine."He still hovers over me with his eyes filled with worry and his brow furrowed. He looks so cute. I reach up and graze his scratchy cheek before I cup it, holding on as I pull his head down so his lips meet mine, and then I kiss him as if my life depends on it. I use my hand with the IV in it to run through his short, soft, salt-and-pepper hair, making his whole body jerk when I rake my nails across his scalp. God, I've missed him so much. "Thank God you woke up. I've been out of my fucking mind, Myla. I thought I'd lost you for good." "You can't get rid of me that easily. Besides, I love you and I told you before I'm gonna fight for you, that includes fighting for this relationship."I can see the internal struggle he's dealing with in his eyes, the torture swirling inside them is extremely evident. But I know he won't tell me what's wrong, especially since I j
TravisI never thought I'd be in this predicament. You know, the one where I'm still in high school with a pregnant girlfriend who still has two years until she graduates. I know my father is upset with me and to be honest, I can't blame him at all. It's not like Nova and I were careless about it, though. We used protection. My dad always has condoms in his room and I steal them all the time. It's not my fault that one broke or just didn't work. I'm not sure what happened. I just know we used one. And yet Nova is fucking pregnant.I wish her being pregnant with my baby was the only thing worrying me right now. But it's not. The fact that Myla is still in a coma and hasn't woken up yet is bothering me more than anything else. My dad's been even more distant and hardly ever home. When he is, he doesn't want to talk about anything. He misses her and is lost without her. I've never seen him like this. Not even when mom left. Myla has impacted all of us and her absence is affecting us grea
~Deacon~After spending the entire night with Myla at the hospital and having no fucking change in her condition, with a heavy heart I leave her room as dawn threatens to rise. I haven't given Mr. Nobody's request much thought since I left work, there's too much other shït on my fucking mind. I know there are only a few days until the weekend when I'm supposed to have the job completed, but Myla being in the fucking hospital trumps everything. Although, one mother fucker keeps taunting me. Leaving the hospital, I get into my car and speed off, trying to get to the safe house before the sun fully rises. The sky is still dark but light peaks through the horizon as the sun begins to slowly wake up. Myla loves sunrises, so of course watching this one as I drive down the street brings all kinds of feelings along with it. I try to ignore them, though. I light a cigarette and roll all the windows down, with not even the sound of the radio on in the background. Just. Silence. It's hard not to