Chapter 0004

#Chapter3

Have you ever fallen for someone you never thought you would fall for? Like someone was playing with your emotions and you didn't know what to do anymore? That's how I felt in this situation.

I watched as a smile crept onto his face. I was relieved that he would accept me but I was wrong. His face immediately fell into a frown and deep into anger. I felt as though I was going to cry. I pushed my way through the crowd to get far away from him as tears rimmed my eyes. I walked into the hallway and held onto the wall as I took deep breaths, trying to recap what just happened.

I found my mate but he was my dead boyfriend's twin brother: the future Alpha who hates me for something I didn't do.

I heard a growl behind me as I was pushed against the wall roughly.

I was face to face with Xavier.

His eyes were black and I couldn't tell if it was because he was angry or excited.

"Anaïs," He growled my face.

Our faces were inches apart as his hands rested on either side of my face. I could feel his breath against my eyebrows and lashes as he spoke to me. I could feel something stirring in me, making me excited by the short distance between us.

"Alpha Xavier," I whispered to him.

He growled in satisfaction as one of his hands trailed down my side, gripping my waist.

"Mate," He growled hungrily as he leaned closer and closer.

My breath was hitched in the back of my throat. I wasn't sure what his intentions were or what I should do.

"Mine," He muttered before he crashed his lips into mine. It felt as though sparks erupted all around us as we kissed. I wrapped my arms around his neck, enjoying our lips moving in sync, pieced perfectly together like a jigsaw puzzle. He gripped my waist firmly, as though making sure I stay in place.

I felt his tongue brush against my bottom lip and I opened wide enough for him to enter. Our tongues dances together while my fingers toyed with his hair, getting lost in it. It felt as though I was on cloud nine while I enjoyed every second of us touching.

I wanted to run away with him. Just us against the world. I wanted to start over somewhere different and forget everything that ever happened. Forget about all the death and pain in the world. But I couldn't forget about Daniel.

I opened my eyes, I never realized I had closed them and I was scared of what I saw before me. I was so lost in thought that for second I thought I was kissing Daniel.

I gasped and pushed him off me as hard as I could. He stumbled back a little and looked at me with an agitated and angry expression.

"What was that for?" He asked in a deep husky voice. It made me want to attack his face again and just please him.

Then I remembered why I did it.

"For a second I thought you were Daniel," I whispered as a single tear slid down my face.

Something must've clicked inside Xavier's mind because for one second his eyes went wide and then dark with fury. He punched the wall dangerously close to my head, putting a hole in it.

"You always loved him more, I don't understand why. I can't be with you Anaïs,"

"I, Xavier Louis Astor reject you, Felicity Anaïs Blackwood as my mate."

It felt as though someone was trying to rip my heart out of my chest physically. I didn't realize he let go of me until I collapsed on the ground crying.

"Now you'll know how I've felt for all of these years," He snarled at me.

I looked up at him with my puffy eyes filled with tears. Was he talking about these past two years without Daniel? He must have been cause he never showed that he liked me more than friends, how could be believe I killed Daniel?

"I didn't kill him! Why would I kill someone I love?!" I screamed.

He was causing me so much pain with the rejection and now with his words again.

He shook his head and turned to walk away.

"You'll never understand my pain," he said.

I sat on the ground, emotional and physical pain spilling from my body. I cried about everything that has happened to me. His rejection was so cruel and heartless, it was like he didn't even care. How could he not believe me? We used to be best friends and he wants nothing to do with me.

I felt something moving around in my mind trying to escape and it was painful.

The way he looked at me with disgust, hurt and dread dancing around in his eyes.

I crawled myself down the steps towards the party. A few people looked at me with sympathy but then their sympathy was replaced with disgust. I picked myself off the ground with my heart in my hands, walking toward the back door. As I felt the chill wind hit my face, I dashed into the forest. A migraine began to burn at my temples.

I collapsed deep within the forest and screamed out in agony. There was a searing heat shooting up through my bones.

I was shifting.

I was without my mate by my side to comfort and help me through the process, without my mate I could possibly die.

The sound of my bones painfully breaking and rearranging rang in my ears.

My sharp cries shot out into the quiet night like a blade through butter.

I tried to stand up but my aching body wouldn't allow it.

I closed my eyes as steaming tears fell.

Suddenly I heard a voice. Unrecognizable and quiet.

"It's a she wolf, she is shifting."

More contortions were followed by the feeling of bullets piercing my skin.

"Where is her mate? They only shift once they find their mate," another voice asked.

"Xavier!" I cried in sorrow and agonizing pain.

Voices were in dialogue.

"She's a pretty she wolf."

"She is the mate of the future Alpha Xavier."

I felt myself grow and my clothes shred apart. My fingernails and hands grew as fur replaced my smooth skin.

I howled up to the moon.

"She's gonna die."

From somewhere in the dark, I heard rustling and movement. I lifted my eyes a little to see a giant dark brown wolf staring down at me.

It whined as if it were ushering me to be calm. I whimpered as the transformation was coming to a completion. Inside my head was a high pitched screeching mixed with the sounds of a lonely wolf.

Xavier.

I cried out into the forestry, wishing that I could go to him.

The wolf next to me licked my face and rubbed up against my neck. It soothed me a little.

‘Just calm down, the pain will be over soon’, was all I heard in my head before I fell into darkness.

I have been abused, I have been tortured, I have been mocked, I have been broken down mentally and physically and now I have been rejected.

I am falling through a dark and endless abyss trying to climb my way out but failing epically.

They say there is always a light at the end of that dark tunnel, well where is my light? Where is my happy ending?

All I have is this cruel rejection.