Chapter seven Julie After the shopping marathon, my week was pretty quiet. I rehearsed quite a lot the setlist of the show on the stage of After Dark that we would present on Friday. Daniel hadn't come back from the business trip yet, which reassured me. Rafe said he should only really come back on Saturday and didn't bring up any obstacle for me to rehearse at the bar. As they say, as soon as the cats get out, the rats throw the party! Finally Friday arrived. In the afternoon, Jo and I go to a salon near After Dark to fix the hair and get the nails done. I put on denim shorts and a loose blouse that falls on the shoulder leaving it exposed. On the feet, flat sandals. I let my hair down, even though I can't fix it the way George did. Yet. Learning to groom myself is among one of my goals for the next few weeks. I hold the makeup case and apply mask on the eyelashes and a gloss. When I finish, I look closely in the mirror and feel different. It's not just the
Chapter eight Daniel I widen my eyes and I feel my body boil up. I don't think I've ever felt so angry. I'm going to go up on this fucking stage and get her out of there, even if by force , the thought crosses my mind. Adding on to the anger, I feel a little confused, even angry at myself for being attracted to someone I should protect, that I should never look at with the eyes of desire. However, in the midst of that whirlwind of feelings within me, I push all of it away and continue to focus on the fact that Julie is on stage, singing with the most womanizing guy I know after me, displaying curves that I didn't even know existed. Has she always had these legs? I shake my head, trying to clear my thoughts. Focus, Daniel, keep focused. That's what I tell myself as I start moving towards the stage. I just barely get a chance to take three steps when Rafe approaches me and pulls me by the arm in the backstage. "Man, easy...” "Easy bullshit!” I lose it.
Chapter nine Julie Holy Rafe! I must remember to include him in my prayers. When I think everything is lost and Alan will kiss me in front of this crowd —and worse, in front of Danny, which would make things tenser between us—Rafe shows up to save me like a prince on a white horse. When Alan held me, I panicked for two reasons. First, afraid that someone would see what they shouldn't, as the dress was short and the panties were missing. Second, the expression Danny had on his face when we were both just singing wasn't good already. I didn't even wanna fathom the explosion he'd have with a kiss on the mouth at the end of the show. The moment Alan said I'd be his today, Rafe walks on stage and thanked the band for the show, interrupting my band mate's sudden romantics. Taking the cue, I thanked the audience and left the stage faster than a rocket. I didn't stop to talk to anyone. I pulled George, who was waiting for me backstage, and then we get out throug
Chapter ten Daniel Two weeks go by and I’m still in a bad mood. After all, wherever I look, Julie - who should be mine - is with the “sweetheart”. Alan shows up at our condo almost every day. On the nights that they have a show, he holds her on stage, kisses and hugs her, making the audience sigh, leaving me further confused and in rage. I’ve been spending most of the time locked in the office or home alone. On show nights, I sit at the bar and watch her singing. I don’t feel hungry nor like talking to anybody, in spite of Rafe and Zach’s insistence in trying to make me talk. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so unhappy. I shouldn't feel this way, after all, I've always done everything I could to keep away from her. But every time I see Alan touch her body, I feel my blood boil. I can't stop thinking about what I call the incident . In the intense desire, in the way I made her feel pleasure and how it seemed so wrong and, at the same time, so right. But it wa
Chapter eleven Julie After having lunch with George and Jo, I go straight home. On the way, I think about the songs we selected for the week’s setlist. The boys play in other bars, but, for now, I prefer to sing only on Fridays at After Dark. In spite of being joyful for doing what I really love, I feel that I need to gain experience before I venture onto other stages. In addition, to sing where the closest people to me work provides me with a certain security. It’s good to look around and see that, if I need, Rafe, Zach and, obviously even Daniel, will be close by. Oh, Daniel... I sigh just remembering last night and the way he looked at me. Things should be easier between us. I don’t know why everything must be so complicated. As I enter the condo, I see something strange close to the door of my house. I get closer with swift steps and I’m surprised with a path of rose petals which goes towards my entrance. Did Alan prepare something? I follow the peta
Chapter twelve Daniel I let out a sigh as I look at the view through the office window. I've been sitting here for many hours, locked in the office, unable to work. Anxiety causes my heart to race, my palms to sweat and my stomach to be tied in a knot. There's only a few hours left for tonight's show. I close my eyes and recall the night before. Everything was amazing. More than I've ever allowed myself to imagine. I need to buy tickets for the Lakers' next season to gift Zach as a thank you. The chat we had was essential for me to change my behavior towards Julie. I was very unhappy and didn't know what to do to change my situation. He made me do something I don't usually do: talk about my feelings. I've always been the playful, talkative type, but not about that. My feelings are kept under lock and key in my chest. After an initial resistance, I ended up putting out everything I was feeling and he opened my eyes to the reality of the fact that Julie being with
Chapter thirteen Julie I slowly open my eyes, feeling the first morning sun rays on my skin. I quickly look at the watch on the bedside table and I see that’s not even 6 a.m. — and that the watch is not the one on my bedside table. This is also not my bedroom. But even before I feel alarmed at waking up in a strange place, the weight of Daniel's arm on me and my sore body are good reminders of the fantastic night I had. I remove his arm slowly and get up quietly. Unwilling to wear the tight clothes of the night before, I take a t-shirt of his in the closet and wear it while I go to the bathroom. It's so big it seems like a dress. I look in the mirror and the image I see reflected is different from any I've ever seen before. The messy hair, the swollen lips and the shining eyes make me smile. Is this how we feel when we're loved by that special person? As I leave the bathroom, I walk into the kitchen with a little smile on my face and make coffee for myself. Th
Chapter fourteen Julie Six months later I look away from the window, from where I see the sky full of stars, and I look at the man lying next to me in bed. His chest rises and falls at a slow pace and he seems very relaxed, unlike the agitated businessman I usually see. I smile as I look at Daniel's disheveled hair, the thick lashes against the relaxed face and the lips I love, especially when they cover mine, slightly parted, in a passionate kiss. At times, it feels like I'm living a dream. Sometimes it's even hard to believe that everything I've wanted so much is happening. I close my eyes and let out a long sigh. Being with Daniel... it's even more amazing than I could have imagined. We've been together for almost six months, and since then, our routine has changed completely. We spend most of our free time together, going to the movies, dining out or going to the beach. We sleep together every night, whether at my house or his, including the nights h