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I looked at him, and all of us could wonder if he was fine. How did he end up here? Does he know he is Michael’s brother? Has he eaten? Does he eat well? Why didn’t he travel? Who was the woman beside him who he clearly brought to show off to my face? Was he happy with her as he was with me? Was he even happy with me? What of Bella? Why didn’t he settle for her instead? Or does she still hate him? I visited his place a month ago; did his mother tell him that I came?And that was not even all; there are more I would love to ask if given the opportunity, but I first need to get to him. With Michael constantly reminding me that I already have rumors in my head that I am having an affair with another due to his neglect, it was best if I didn’t do anything funny as everyone was watching us.Again, I thought of sacrificing my happiness for Michael; his mayoral position does mean a whole lot to him. Just look, we are seated next to his father as a family, not at some other table like other t
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I walked quickly as I lifted my gown to be able to walk freely. I saw Seth enter the elevator, and it was about to close. I hastened up my feet and walked in before it closed the two of us together.The silence, the excitement, the buildup, the anticipation—all in one.Seth had walked closer to where I stood and pressed on the keys that headed for the ground floor. His scent spread against my face. I wanted to just grab him and sniff till I was more than content, but that would come off as a bit weird. Aside from that, I was going wherever he went so I didn’t have to put in any keys. I managed to breathe, as this was my moment and only chance with him.All the questions I thought of earlier suddenly skipped my mind as I tried to speak, as I know silence won’t help. “How have you been?” I asked silently as I turned to him. Seth, who stood farther away from me, didn’t even respond at all.Time was going by as soon as he was going to step out.I made a nervous laugh as I asked again, “Se
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There was my ego being crushed by the one man I expected not to. I felt bruised, tirelessly moving about the house with my phone tapping on my lips as I thought of so many reasons he was doing this, and there were a whole lot that crossed my mind.I didn’t quite get why he would waste my time in the first place unless he loved playing games like this.Michael entered our room while I was going through all that turmoil in my head. He looked at me like I was speaking to myself and suddenly stopped talking. Just as he came in, “Uhm,” he went over to pick up his wrist watch on the dresser before saying, “I need to travel for a couple of days. Do you think you can hold out without me?”I already do things without you, Michael.“Yes,” I replied. “Where are you heading?”Michael sighed as he gave a long pausing. He was possibly thinking if he should let me know or not. Maybe this has to do with his father again; he has been sulking all through the night, and while I battled my own, he added
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~SCARLETT POV~Ambulance sirens blared as lots of body bags were being brought out and taken into the morgue one after the other, my hands shivering. I had already cried in the car. I can't help it now that I have seen Carmela in tears. She would need me to be strong for her, and I can’t help being weak in front of her.“Mum, why do horrible things always happen to us?” Carmela asked as she embraced me, her tears trickling down from her eyes to my shoulder as I stroked her back. “All will be fine, dear; we just have to identify the bodies; we have to hope your brother isn’t a part of it.”I was breaking down so badly; I was so occupied with myself that I never paid attention. God, I only ask for one thing, and that is for my son not to be a part of the dead bodies that drowned at sea.It was hard to pray because it was confirmed that Leo and Rocky were indeed on the guest list for the cruise and that they did attend.“Mrs. Thatcher,” The officer called as I turned, my heart beating ex
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Silence, a void only one could hear and feel for themselves.“Scarlett, Sarlett, Scarlett.” They all called my name from different areas, but their voices never got to me.Could this be true? Could it be?My son is gone, and I am supposed to feel okay about it.I failed as a mother; I failed as his friend; and I failed as his world.When Leo needed me the most, I was never there for him. I don’t deserve happiness at all.My eyes closed as I allowed darkness to seep into me.*** **** ********* ********** ******* ****** ******* ****** ******* My eyes finally opened to see all of my loved ones gathered around my bed, with the beeping sound disturbing my hearing. I looked around, not saying anything. Where would I find the words?“Mum has woken up,” Carmela’s voice said out loud as everyone who was around the doctor soon came to me.“Darling,” Michael touched my face as he kissed my forehead. At first, I wondered why he was getting so affectionate until I saw who came as well.
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I visited the hospital frequently as if it were my home; I had to because Leo was yet to wake up and none of us knew exactly how he wound up at shore for that good man who was fishing to find him.Weeks after weeks, and though the doctors said he was responding to treatment and would probably wake up, there was still no sign of that happening, and now I am starting to become worried.For the first week, Leo’s health had been unstable. We received a lot of visitors at the hospital, but as the days pushed into weeks and then a whole month, everyone who we thought cared had soon forgotten and gone back to their own business.I hardly saw any of my friends around either; they were mostly focused on Laura for now, except for Melissa, and that is solely because she is Leo’s godmother; of course she has to be here along with her son.Even Rocky, whom I thought would be here every day, was also occupied, and I understand he has school and his mother to worry about, so maybe he can be excused
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Seth was shocked as to where I had gotten such courage from. I mean, I was drunk in his scent and clearly wasn’t thinking properly, but his saying I should go ahead was where I understood he wanted it too."Seth, look at where we are. Do you think God will want to see that from two fornicators?” I asked, and Seth burst out laughing.“Fornicators? So that is who we are now. I have never felt sin be this good before. You think maybe he will forgive us so easily?” Seth asked as he looked around the chapel.“No, God doesn’t work that way, dear; you have to be remorseful and actually pay the price for the sin before he forgives, I think, but though he is merciful, his forgiveness doesn’t come cheap,” I said, smiling. “I also don’t think we should be this close.” I tried to push him further away while pulling him back at the same time.“Since we are fornicators?" Seth laughed, and the room fell into silence as he gazed at me ever so lovingly. “I know this is wrong, but I miss you,” he said
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A heavy downpour of rain washed over Leo’s grave, and while everyone sought shelter from it, I stood there wondering how lonely it would be over there—no one to talk to, no food to eat—at least you wouldn’t have to study any more.My lips thinned as I exhaled deeply.There is no mother to tell you what you can and cannnot, how to live your life, or who you should be with.I kneeled down as I allowed the dirt to stain all over me, losing my mind at the thought that Leo was actually gone, like I would never get to see him again."Leo, I am sorry.” I cried out as all my pain weakened me. A snort came out of my nose as I continued to cry. It will take the intervention of everyone to leave my son’s at this point.I didn’t give him what he wanted and always found a way to make his life about Michael. I used him as a pawn to achieve Michael’s success, and I only started to feel sorry for it when he outgrew me.I never got to amend my relationship with my son; I never got to do that, and now
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