CHAPTER 1
—Cleavira’s POV—
“Ma!” I called my mom with full of excitement.
I balanced myself and watched my every step not to slide because if that’s happened, I would surely swim on the muddy rice field. I just arrived from my Junior High Moving up. Sadly, my mother did not attend on my graduation because she had a lot of things to do in the farm. We are poor that is why she need to work hard for our living and to support my education.
“Wow Avi! You have medals again. You are real genius.” Our neighbor greeted me.
“Thank you, Mang Kasyo.” I smiled and excused myself.
“How’s the Moving up ceremony?” My Mom asked, sweats are running down on the side of her face.
I know she's tired in planting grains especially in this hot weather. But she did not give up because she's doing it for me. She wants to give me a better future. And as my exchange to all of her sacrifices, I'm doing my best in school.
“I got the Valedictorian title!” I screamed in happiness that makes her very proud to me.
"Congratulations, my dear daughter. I'm so proud of you," she said in teary eyes.
We decided to go home for us to eat. My mom prepared a small celebration for me. There were pancit and biko on our table. I know that my mother worked hard to provide these foods. These efforts melted my heart in happiness. My father died when I was only three years old. I don't have any memories with him. But even though I am the only child, I'm still happy because my mom never made me feel incomplete.
"Mom, I want to continue my study in Manila." I opened the floor for this topic.
"I'm sorry hija, but you know our situation, right? We have no money for your---"
"It's okay, mom. I got a scholarship in Manila for my Senior High School."
"Really, wow! It's good for the both of us. Someone even offered me a job in Manila."
"But do we have a house where we can live when we are in the city?"
"We will look for a rent room. Don't worry my dear I will work hard for that." She gave me an assuring smile.
"Thank you, Mom." I hugged her to show my appreciation for all the efforts she made for me.
We spent the summer vacation here in Sta. Villaduca. I helped my mom in the work in the rice field because I want to save money for my Senior High school. Life is not easy for a poor person like me. If I did not work, I would not be able to eat. I enjoyed my remaining days in this province because on the day after tomorrow, we are going to leave this place.
THE horn of different vehicles woke me up. I rubbed my eyes and looked on the window of this bus. My eyes rounded in amusement when I saw a lot of high buildings and different establishments that I have only seen on television before. Is this what they called "city"?
"Avi, let's go." My Mom goes down on the bus so I followed her.
I cannot prevent myself from looking in every corner that my eyes can reach. This place is so big. Wow! It is an amazing place.
"Mom, look!" I pointed my finger on the big screen on the building.
"Stop doing that, Avi. People will find out that we are new in this place if you continue doing that," She reminded
"And what if they know?" I asked clueless.
"There are snatchers here so you have to be wise and attentive." She carried our bags and leaded the way.
We looked first for a small eatery where we can eat lunch. The long ride made me feel hungry. We stopped in a Lugawan Eatery to fulfill our aching stomach. After we ate, we headed to the apartment that my auntie Cecil recommended. We almost got lost in the road since Manila is a very big city and this is the first time that we go here. I spent my whole life in the province. Good thing that we found the place.
My first month on the city was not easy. I made a big adjustment in living in this kind of environment. I grew up in an environment with fresh air, green surrounding and peaceful place unlike here in Manila that there are so many vehicles, noisy, and too many people living here. Our teacher gave our grades for the first semester and I got a high grades that made my day.
After our class, I decided to go home early because I am excited to tell it to my mom. I know that her sacrifices and effort to sell fruits and vegetables in the Market would be paid off. She's my inspiration and I'm doing my best in school because I have a dream for the both of us. I don't want to stay in this kind of life. I want a change. And I know education is the only key for that.
"Mom, I'm ho—" I did not finish my words when I saw my mother on our small dining table with someone.
He is a guy whom I think has a same age with my mom. But who is he?
"Avi, come here." I walked towards her confused of what's happening right now. She look at me and the man on her side, "My dear daughter, I want you to meet Dante," She smiled, "Dante, my daughter, Avi."
"Nice to meet you hija," He extended his arms and I accepted that for having no choice.
I don't want to embarrass my mom in front of this man. And most of all I don't want him to think that I am rude because I am definitely not.
"Mom, would you mind if I asked you what does this man doing in our house?" There are lots of questions playing on my mind. But I know that I have to digest everything slowly.
"Avi, Dante is my boyfriend. He would be your new fa---"
"Mom, wait! Can we talk first?" I pulled her to the living room, "What is this mom?" I'm trying my best not to shout or raise my voice because she's my mother.
"I know this is something hard for you. But dear, I love him. And he loves me too."
"Are you sure about him mom? What if that guy will just make you cry and leave you in the end?"
"Dante is not that kind of person. He loves me hija. And I am happy with him. Please give him a chance, Avi. I love your tito Dante." Begging is written on her pale face.
I took a breath, "Okay fine," And besides, I have nothing to do with it. I'm just a daughter who needs to obey my parents.
Our lives changed in an instant when Tito Dante came. He invited us to live with him on his house in Antipolo, Rizal. Since we were just renting an apartment, it is a blessing for us to live in a house where in we will not force to pay rent bill every month. At the first few months, we look like a happy family. I can see and feel his love for my mother and I am happy for the both of them. My mom deserves it.
We are on the middle of the semester and I was taking a bath for my afternoon class when I felt something strange. It feels like someone is watching me. This strange feeling happened a lot of times but I ignored it. I rubbed the soap on my arms and I almost shout in fear when I saw an eye on the space between the wood of this bathroom. Those pair of eyes, I have seen that before.
I finished my bath immediately and wrapped my body with a clean towel. My chest is pounding fast. I can feel my hands shaking not in coldness of water but in anxiety. Memories of my dark past flashed on my mind. When I walked inside the living room, I saw those pair of eyes again. Yes, the monster is here. But why from all the people, why is he? Why the person I already trusted?
Am I going to live with a demon again?
—Azureriel
CHAPTER 2I headed to my room and wear my clothes. My body is trembling in fear as I am doing my things. I don't know why Tito Dante was watching me while I was taking a bath. But I know there is something wrong. I have to be careful all the time especially when he is around. I ran out of the house and jumped on a jeepney that would bring me to school.I want to confront him but there is something that hinders me, a fear maybe. I will tell this to my mom later. She needs to know this. I have to warn her. After my class I go home hoping that my mom is already in the house. The time I have been waiting for came. It's near twilight and Tito Dante is not around. I think this is a good opportunity to tell this to my mother."Ma, can we talk?" I asked my mom who is busy putting out from the eco-bag some vegetables from the Market."Sure, about what?" She held the knife and started cutting the onions.I took a deep
CHAPTER 3THE sun rises and I immediately ran to the bathroom. I poured myself with the cold water. I am trying to clean myself because I feel so dirty because of what he did to me. This is something really disgusting! I rubbed my body trying to remove the dirt that I know would never be removed."AAAHHHHHHH!" I shouted in anger as my tears burst out in hatred.I covered my mouth to prevent my mouth to cry loud. My body is trembling in fear and grief. But my fear arises more when the door opened forcedly by the man who raped me."Don't come close! Stay away from me!" There it is again, his devilish smile that gives me goose bumps."Ssshh! Do you enjoy the last night?" He laughed like a demon."Fvck you! I hate you! Go to hell!" I can't prevent myself to say bad words. I want to curse him to death."Yes! Yes! Oh! Fuck me yeah! Do you want me to fvck you huh?""I hate you! You're
CHAPTER 4It was Thursday and the twilight made me feel empty. It's near evening again, the time when people deserve a rest from a tiring day. I hope I can rest as them too without demons playing inside my head. How I wish I could live a normal life like I used before. Every night, I have a fear to remain awake at the middle of the darkness. The silence pushes me to overthink more and more.I stared on myself in front of full length mirror. Tears started to run on my face as the rape scene appeared in my mind. I punched my head trying to forget it. I feel pity for myself as I am looking at my reflection. My visions travel around the room. This room seems like a room of Barbie doll. But sadly, the doll here is not a Princess but a slave, a slave of her own fear and horrific past.My life before wasn't comfortable as this. But at least I was not living in fear. I can eat and enjoyed my foods. I can sleep at night in peace and not as this.
"M-Ma." My tears escaped from my eyes like an open faucet. Fears runs on my veins when I heard the word pregnant. My mind is loaded with random thoughts about the possible pregnancy. She walked towards me with a frown face. "Who's the father?" she asked in anger. Her voice almost echoed in the kitchen. "T-Tito Dante, mom," I answered as my tears burst out. I am anxious right now! "Liar! Will you please stop creating stories, Avi? Stop destroying this family. Why would you not just admit that you have a secret boyfriend and you flirt? Then you got pregnant!" "Ma, I don't have a boyfriend. You know that." I cried. "I was not always around. I can't see your actions. Maybe you are doing something behind my back. My goodness, Avi! You are just sixteen years old. Too young to be a mother." Frustration is visible on her face. "I never wanted this." Never! "That is definitely a shame for our fami
Chapter 6"Ma, please don't do this," I begged kneeling in her front."Avi, you're too young. You cannot be a mother at that age. This is for you, okay?" She smiled out of herself.This is not my mom. She's definitely other person possessed by a demon."Mom, look at me! I'm your daughter. Please wake up! You're loving a monster. He should be throw in jail.""No, Avi. We will not do that, okay? You will not do that!" She yelled and looked on the sorroundings like a crazy woman.I tried to escape but I was caught by the demon and took me back to the stock room. They locked me there... hopeless. Sometimes love is not good for a person specially if you become obsess. And that is what my mother experienci
Chapter 7"Drink this, hija." She handed me the sinful drink."I don't want that!" I yelled and averted my gaze."I did not raise a rude daughter, Avi!" Her big hand landed on my left cheek.I looked at her with bravery. "You want to kill me? Okay fine, then do it!""Stop being hard-headed, Avi. That child will only ruin our lives." She looked on the Abortionist emotionless and nodded as sign to continue her job.I shouted and even beg for them to stop. I tried to run away but my strength was not enough against the three people here. Dante was holding both of my hands above my head that preventing me to do any actions. This position is reminding me the rape scene I experienced with the same person. It tortures my mind
Chapter 8 I stared on the City Police Headquarters. Thinking if I will confess or not. My grip on the sling of my shoulder bag tightened when I remembered the rape. I shut my eyes tightly trying to forget that. If I will confess now, I know they will help me. But are they going to believe my testimony? The jeep started to move that made me stop from doing it. I want to confess but fear is hindering me. Wherever I am I always thinks that someone is watching me. One wrong move is equal to death. I arrived late in the first period of my class because of the traffic that I usually experienced every trip. I sat on my chair and put out my pen and notebook. I draw a cyclone repeatedly. I did not stop until the first page broke. The teacher came but I did not mind her. They started to roll call for the attendance but my attention wasn't there. "Ms. Zarme
Chapter 9I’m ready to face my death but someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I just found myself seating on the floor. Someone asked me what happened but I did not answer her question, instead I cried not minding the people circling around me. Due to emotional and mental torture I am going through, I passed out. When I woke up, I found myself lying on the bed of our School Clinic.“Avi, how’s your feeling? Do you need something? Tell me,” Ma’am Dela Cruz asked, worriedly.I looked around and I saw two teachers here, my adviser, Ma’am Dela Cruz and Nurse Sheena, the School nurse of our school.“We tried to call your parents but they are not answering our call. Do you want me to call them a---”“N-No, please, don’t call them.” I cried begging with my trembling lips.
Chapter 14My mind was occupied when I took a step out of the elevator. I shook my head while walking, trying to forget what he said earlier. He knows nothing about me so who is he to meddle in my life. The dark and empty unit of mine greeted me. Ten years ago, I was really scared of dark places. But now it became my comfort. Since I don't have work today, I decided to clean my unit. I can't do this during weekdays because of my busy schedule. I changed the curtains and the pillow suitcase. I just spent the whole day cleaning and making my house more organize and aesthetic. I demolished those things I don't need because that's only taking up space. THE next day, I went to Mall to buy some groceries. I need to restock again because my fridge and food pantries are nearly empty. This is my favorite part of being independent. Buying everything I want from my own money. This is indeed satisfying. I pushed my cart as I am walking to the toiletries section. "Ugh! Why did
Chapter 13"Have you met before?""Yes, Inspector Finn. He was that pervert guy in the coffee shop.""Woah! Careful with your accusation, Miss.""I'm just telling the truth.""I was just trying to save you.""I think you better talk about that later." The Inspector laughed awkwardly. "We need to talk about the case of Celina here."I sighed and go back to my seat. My brow rose up when he sat in my front. What the fvck! Why is he smiling? I rolled my eyes and averted my gaze, feeling annoyed.We just talked about the current update of the case. Good thing it lasted for less than thirty minutes, I guess. The fvck! We waited for this asshole longer than the discussion. I shook Inspector Finn's hand after the meeting. I looked at the hand in front of me for a moment.My head tilted u
Chapter 12 "HEY, love. What's wrong?" my friend, Venus, asked when I walked inside her condo. "I met a pervert guy." Her brows furrowed and put down her cup on the coffee table. "What do you mean by pervert? Did he touch you or said something you know?" "He fvcking touched my boobs!" I answered really upset of what happened. "Oh my god. What happened? Why did he do that?" "I was in the coffee shop earlier to buy my coffee then suddenly I tripped. I almost hit my face on the floor but that asshole near me tried to catch me by holding my boobies!" Her lips parted after hearing what I had said. My brows furrowed as I am staring at her when I saw a smile that formed on her lips. "Sorry for this reaction but... What if he was just tr
THIS DAY is the day I have been waiting for. I didn't had a good sleep last night thinking about this day. Because today I'm going to meet the family of my client, the Complaints of Dante Solomon Cartiño. I ready myself for this. And I would not let that rapist to have his freedom again. Not this time. After all, this is the reason why I chose to be a lawyer. I invested a lot for this. I studied so hard just to be in this position. Even though some people are telling me that justice is impossible in this country, I didn't listen to them because I do believe that I can get that in my own. I continue to believe on the beauty of my life goals. There is nothing impossible in this world, and no one can pull you down on the ladder if you are doing things with purpose. Especially if you put God in the center of everything. I looked at myself in front of the full length mirror and managed my white collar. Growing up being a lawyer is not on my drea
It was passed nine in the evening when I decided to pack my things to go home. Most of the time I spent dinner here in my office. I would rather choose to stay here and study cases. My friend Venus often told me that I am so workaholic. I cannot deny that since my actions are screaming the fact.Well, I just really love my job and I dedicated my whole self for this. I did not study more than ten years in law school just to sit there and wait for the opponent to win the case. I'm competitive in everything. Justice must only serve the truth. And as a lawyer, I will make sure that justice would punish those who deserve.I carried my Louis Vuitton bag and turned off the switch near the doorway before I leave the office. There are only few employees in this firm building during this hours. I entered on the elevator and click the button that would bring me to the first floor. When I stepped outside the building, I can fee
Chapter 9I’m ready to face my death but someone grabbed my arm and pulled me back. I just found myself seating on the floor. Someone asked me what happened but I did not answer her question, instead I cried not minding the people circling around me. Due to emotional and mental torture I am going through, I passed out. When I woke up, I found myself lying on the bed of our School Clinic.“Avi, how’s your feeling? Do you need something? Tell me,” Ma’am Dela Cruz asked, worriedly.I looked around and I saw two teachers here, my adviser, Ma’am Dela Cruz and Nurse Sheena, the School nurse of our school.“We tried to call your parents but they are not answering our call. Do you want me to call them a---”“N-No, please, don’t call them.” I cried begging with my trembling lips.
Chapter 8 I stared on the City Police Headquarters. Thinking if I will confess or not. My grip on the sling of my shoulder bag tightened when I remembered the rape. I shut my eyes tightly trying to forget that. If I will confess now, I know they will help me. But are they going to believe my testimony? The jeep started to move that made me stop from doing it. I want to confess but fear is hindering me. Wherever I am I always thinks that someone is watching me. One wrong move is equal to death. I arrived late in the first period of my class because of the traffic that I usually experienced every trip. I sat on my chair and put out my pen and notebook. I draw a cyclone repeatedly. I did not stop until the first page broke. The teacher came but I did not mind her. They started to roll call for the attendance but my attention wasn't there. "Ms. Zarme
Chapter 7"Drink this, hija." She handed me the sinful drink."I don't want that!" I yelled and averted my gaze."I did not raise a rude daughter, Avi!" Her big hand landed on my left cheek.I looked at her with bravery. "You want to kill me? Okay fine, then do it!""Stop being hard-headed, Avi. That child will only ruin our lives." She looked on the Abortionist emotionless and nodded as sign to continue her job.I shouted and even beg for them to stop. I tried to run away but my strength was not enough against the three people here. Dante was holding both of my hands above my head that preventing me to do any actions. This position is reminding me the rape scene I experienced with the same person. It tortures my mind
Chapter 6"Ma, please don't do this," I begged kneeling in her front."Avi, you're too young. You cannot be a mother at that age. This is for you, okay?" She smiled out of herself.This is not my mom. She's definitely other person possessed by a demon."Mom, look at me! I'm your daughter. Please wake up! You're loving a monster. He should be throw in jail.""No, Avi. We will not do that, okay? You will not do that!" She yelled and looked on the sorroundings like a crazy woman.I tried to escape but I was caught by the demon and took me back to the stock room. They locked me there... hopeless. Sometimes love is not good for a person specially if you become obsess. And that is what my mother experienci