There are many things I want to do with my life. I want to go to China. I want to go to Bora Bora. I want to go scuba diving in the beautiful crystal-clear waters of the Caribbean. I want to go on a hot air balloon ride over the awe-inspiring planes of Africa. I want to start an ape farm for those poor misunderstood babies. However, right now, I want to comfort Alex, whose stony face and tense muscles shout wonders as to how upset and angry he is. He will not look me in the eye, but I cannot stop staring at him, noticing the darkness swirling around in his usually vibrant orbs, that only gets incessantly murkier as his eyes rake over my different injuries. It almost feels like he cares about me in some odd, unspoken way.I woke up five minutes ago with my hand, legs and head all bandaged up, and Alex watching me tenderly, almost fully on my bed in a protective stance, as if he is shielding me from danger. Tammy is also here, and envelopes me into a warm hug."I was so worried about yo
"I'll go easy on you." Alex smirks infuriatingly."That won't be necessary." I huff. "I'm not some delicate china doll; I am a strong independent woman." I sass him."I'm sure you are, but I have repressed my Lycan so I won't hurt you too badly. Go ahead then, make the first move." He taunts me.First Alex made me run for twenty minutes uphill at the maximum level on the running machine, which I did so without complaining. He didn't say anything, but he looked impressed, which was a big enough award for me. Then he made me lift some weights, do some squats (he was blatantly checking me out during this), and now is tempting me to attack him. Raising my eyebrows, I charge at him, fists ready to pound. Unfortunately, he is a LOT faster then me, and halts me with a jolt just using one hand."First lesson of self defence; untuck your thumb when throwing a punch unless you want to break it. Tilt your wrist slightly down, so that your knuckles are above your fingers, this will give you more
You know that awkward moment when you irrationally kiss someone and wonder if they are going to kiss you back? Yep, going through that right now. I placed my lips on Alex's a maximum of six seconds ago, and he is still frozen. Frozen in what though? Shock? Fear? Disgust? Sweet baby Jesus, did I just make our work out sessions incredibly awkward?And that's when I feel it.The slight movement of his lips on my own, as if he is just readjusting. Well, is he going to take over or not? I know I look like someone who has experience in the area, but I really do not know how to take charge of a kiss! Ah, does my breath smell? What did I last eat? Hesitantly I pull back, feeling cold as our lips detach, in order to gage his reaction. He looks... shocked... Damn I must have been misreading the signs! Maybe he was going for the overprotective brother act, rather then the jealous friend-but-not-really-a-friend act?Whilst all these thoughts sizzle through my brain, I suddenly hear him groan at m
"So, did you have fun Wednesday night?" Celestrina asks, wiggling her ridiculous looking thick eyebrows at me."What do you mean?" I groan. My whole life has been positively ruined by the revelations I found out on Wednesday. I seriously had to take a whole day off school yesterday just to try to sleep some of the confusion off. And the hangover."Well, there was a rumour going round that you left the party with Alex Wield! Also you didn't come in yesterday, so I'm guessing you were up late having a lot of fun?" Celestrina giggles, winking at me."Is there something going on between you two?" Minnie asks excitedly."Oh please say there is, it would be a crime for you two perfect looking people not to get together!" Celestrina exclaims, bounding up and down excitedly.Where does she get her energy from? I know that it's Friday, but I feel positively drained, as though some blood sucking microbe sucked all of my energy out."There's nothing between us." I mutter, unable to deal with thi
Do you ever wish life would just give you a break? I mean, come on, can life go for one hour without being a bitch? Sheesh, you would think I was a serial killer who stays up late at night thinking of different ways to pull peoples brains out with the luck I have! Overall, it has been quite a shitty day. A shitty week really. I am stressed for my exams coming up, I was attacked by rogues, I found out at lunch I may be being targeted (which is just fantastic) by the same pack of ravenous wolves, and Alex... well, the boys more hot and cold then a copious, solid ice block on a sizzling summers day! Seriously, I think he has a screw loose. Didn't his mum ever explain to him that you can't just kiss a girl, play with her already confuzzled feelings, and then ignore her for two days straight? Too top it all off he volunteers to be my freaking bodyguard! He'd better be careful, or I might start assuming that he wants to spend time with me!It is safe to say that if I had a jerk list, he is
As we pull up to the house, I am sure Alex can sense my inner turmoil. I am barely keeping it together. I want to cry and scream, but I force myself to remain stiff like a Barbie doll. As soon as the engine powers off, I fling the car door open, which is miraculously unlocked now and leg it up to my room, leaving Alex and his worried gaze behind. The worse part is I am sure he does not realise what is wrong. Why would he? He basically told me implicitly that the kiss we shared... was a mistake. I am the distraction Lord Archer was warning him against, and he took the advice. Well, well done him! Now that I am out the way, he will probably be out touring the globe for his precious erasthai, or he will be paired with a beautiful, powerful lycan, who will satisfy him in every way. The truth should not be hurting me so much, but it is. 'There's other fish in the ocean' they say, but none the same as the perfect one that captured my heart.As I reach my sickly sweet room, too light and air
Power is intoxicating. There is no doubt about it. Just the feeling of a vast amount of power encompassing you is so empowering and hallucinogenic, it is no wonder that some people start to crave the feeling, becoming more and more greedy and corruptive with each passing moment. You just have to be strong enough to say enough is enough.Almost instantaneously after I cried out for help from my mother in my mind, the moon began to glow blindingly, like a white version of the sun, then it's silvery, shimmering rays shot out like a beam, and penetrated into my body. I daren't breathe, as I feel the power swirl into me, gushing with the force of a tidal wave. It does not hurt, but it is safe to say it is a really peculiar feeling! Looking down I almost freak out at the way my entire body is glowing a ghostly white, but I know that my mother would not do anything to hurt me. In fact, I feel stronger and more powerful then before. All of a sudden the rays stop, like a light switch was turne
Slowly, like a butterfly opening its wings, I expose my eyes to the dimly lit room. Streaks of golden sunlight pour in from a gap between the curtains, penetrating the window and highlighting gentle features surrounding me. There is an ebbing ache in my skull, and it flows like a cold tide, but the pain is always right there, pounding like heavy metal music in my brain. I begin to recollect the memories of the previous night from the carousel of jumbled thoughts, images of the dead and Jacinda's betrayal racing through my mind causing me to gasp in horror. This draws the attention of the nine other people in my bedroom..."Phoebe! Oh my god, I was so worried! Are you ok?" Tammy cries, streaks of unhappiness trailing down my face."I... I... water..." I rasp as my throat feels like sandpaper when I try to talk.Tammy hurriedly gives me a glass of water, which is fortunately already on my bedside table. Greedily I gulp the water down, extremely dehydrated and weak. I do not bother to dr
Well it is Thursday again which means I've got a date with the devil, and no I don't mean Ajax, I mean his sisters, both of them. They love me as much as I love them, making Thursday night my favourite of the week.Apparently Giri's brother requires their garage tonight meaning the boys are practicing in Ajax's room. This has created a new problem as Nessie and Miya want to watch their brother, giggling at his very explicit instructions to keep out. I have to keep catching them and taking them back downstairs, which means the girls now view it as a game to try and breach Ajax's room, which is leading to a very tiring night for me. I can't be too firm with them as they aren't my kids, yet they are taking my calm instructions to stay downstairs as a joke. Can you tell I'm stressed? Up and down and up and down and up and down the stairs we have been, chasing the little rascals around and throwing them over my shoulder as they try to make a run for it.I didn't know having kids could be s
I am riding to school with Ajax this morning. Tiger sent me a gloomy message after I got home from Maisie's last night saying she has to go in early, and I didn't want to get up any earlier then I have to. I told Ajax about my little problem and he insisted I ride with him. He finally has a new phone and keeps bugging me with messages. Well, it's not really an annoyance when I'm literally counting the seconds until he messages again. My stomach twists up in knots and a nervous blush coats my cheeks whenever I'm around him. It's like my body just cannot handle his hotness. I've always been quiet, but never shy, especially not around my friends, and I guess Ajax is my friend. Although some part of me doesn't like the idea of that.I hurry out of my house right on time to find him leaning against his insanely cool car, waiting for me with a teasing smirk. His 1970s Chevy Camaro is a smooth inky black in colour with a thick white stripe reaching towards the windscreen on the bonnet. A pic
SEVEN AND A BIT YEARS LATER..."Ah fvck!" I curse, tears beading in my eyes as another wave of pain washes through my stomach.Dammit, that's another pound in the swear jar. Yes, that's right, we officially have a swear jar that travels everywhere with us, trying to curve our bad language habits. It's been going ok, well, ok for me, but Vincent swears like a sailor so I've been making millions off him. Since he met his mate Clarity, he's been much happier and turned into a better man, which is lovely to witness. She is a tiny thing, actually smaller then me so she is the butt of many jokes, but she has an amazing sense of humour, and finds the good in everything, so she doesn't take offence."Ow, ow, ow, ow! When will this be over?" I moan, squeezing Alex's hand so tightly I swear I can feel the bones shift."Its ok baby, just breathe, just breathe." Alex murmurs supportively."Don't tell me what to do! This is all your fault!" I yell, the pain unexplainable."Ok I'm sorry, its fine,
I have never been a fan of air travel, but Alex's private plane does help. I am pretty freaking scared about meeting my Alex's parents, but it is an inevitable event; I am the heir to the throne as I'm mated to their son. According to Alex there is a ball being held in my honour tomorrow night, with some of the most influential and powerful were's and lycans in the world in attendance. I am quite nervous about my debut into society, but Ana who returned to Russia last week has promised me that there is nothing to worry about, and has helped plan the event. I guess if anything, it is pretty flattering having a whole ball dedicated to me. I'm sure I'll be bombarded with introductions and will have to follow royal protocol tomorrow night, but having Alex by my side will give me the strength to persevere through it.As we got off the plane, (Vincent, Lucian and Sapphire travelled with us) a fleet of royal cars and bodyguards were waiting for us, reminding me once again that I'm no longer
*Smut warning - very mature!!*"Woohoo! This party is great!" I yell over the thundering beat to Alex, whom I am currently dancing with, lost in the sea of bodies.It is finally Halloween, and I managed to persuade Alex to come out to Celestrina's party with me. It has been four months since we mated, and everything has been just wonderful. Next week we are leaving to Russia with our pack to meet Alex's parents – aka the freaking King and Queen of all Lycanthropes. I am quite nervous, but I'm sure they'll love me. I will be the sunniest ball of sunshine they have ever met! Celestrina is doing great as a werewolf. It took her a while to adjust, but now she's loving being a part of the superior race. I told her about me being a Lycan, and she was amazed, but really happy when I told her the whole story of my life. She has decided to take a gap year before she heads off to college, to make sure that she has her wolf under control, and has learnt the ways of a were.Her Halloween party is
Seven Years later...Sometimes I wonder how my life would've turned out if I had dug my heels in and never went to Lupine Peak. I don't doubt that I eventually could have changed my dads mind; I can be pretty stubborn at times. It's scary to think about how different my life would be – I wouldn't have met my soulmate, Alex, found loyal friends ready to sacrifice their lives for me, and definitely wouldn't be preparing to be crowned Queen, alongside my Alex, who is also now my husband. We decided on a small ceremony a year after we mated, (mostly just for show for my dad and other human family) at one of Alex's private Islands, this one located in the Maldives. It was absolutely beautiful, and a memory I will never forget. After a few days there, we went to Bora Bora for an Instagram worthy honeymoon, where our backyard was waves of royal blue, soft and gentle, just begging to be swam in. After our few weeks in paradise, we returned to Russia as a united force, ready to begin my Queenl
My eyes are suddenly open though I can't think of why; my heart is pounding, mind empty. It's as if a hypodermic of adrenaline has been emptied into my carotid. I strain into the utter darkness; my breathing rate increased ten fold. There is something inside of me, straining to burst out. Ghostly whispers in my ear urge me to get outside, to be in sight of the moon. At this point, I am panting, and drizzled in sweat. I vaguely hear Alex awake from beside me as I stumble out of the bed and tumble to the floor, my sight blurry. Alex murmurs from behind me as I rush unsteadily to the window, something pulsing, trying to rip out of my chest.Feeling like I can't breathe, I use my remaining strength to smash out of the window, and tumble into the garden below. I feel something snap as I land with a thud on the floor, momentarily stunning me, but I don't register the pain, too preoccupied with whatever is clawing around inside of me. There is a roar before a thud reverberates through the gr
"Oh Phoebe... I'm so happy you guys are together now! So this means you're staying, right?" Tammy asks anxiously as Alex and I part for breath, the group still stood by the door."Hmm... I'll think about it." I wink playfully.In response, Alex's arms tighten possessively around me, and he growls in my ear: "You're mine now kitten. I'm not letting you go."The vibrations from his deep, husky voice throb straight to my core, causing my legs to clench around Alex, and me to bite my bottom lip hard to stop a wanton moan from flying out. Taking a deep breath to control my raging emotions, I turn back to Tammy."I'm joking... of course I'll stay here, where ever Alex goes, I go." I explain whilst sinking my head into Alex's hard chest, comforted by his roaring heartbeat."You've made me the happiest man in the world Phoebe." I hear Alex murmur above me, and then plant a tender kiss on my head."Aww, you two are the cutest! You've made my brother soft." Ana chuckles, interrupting the tender
As we pull up at the mansion, I feel like I'm housing a whole damn zoo in my stomach. I find some relief in the fact that I can't sense Alex here, meaning I have some more time to relax and think about what I'm going to say. A wave of nostalgia washes over me as I take in the beautiful mansion, walking up the white marble steps to the ornate front door. I have lived here, cried here, loved here and almost died here. It most certainly will always be scrapbooked into my memory. As I enter into the grand palace, my dad with his arm wrapped around me, we encounter a shocked Vincent."Phoebe! I thought I could sme... hear you!" He gasps, an easy smile gliding onto his face smooth as butter."Hi Vincent. I've come to see Alex... oh and this is my dad, Ricky." I explain hastily."Oh that's real great Phoebe. He should be back soon. Hi Ricky, would you like me to show you around?" Vincent easily charms my dad."Yea sure, nice to meet you. Take it easy Phoebs, and just call me if you need any