Share

Cowardly Lion

last update Last Updated: 2023-04-14 19:55:24
Vivian POV

I ran to my room trying hard not to let the tears fall. I don't know why I cared or why my chest was caving in. I went straight to the bathroom and collapsed down the door. I slapped my hand over my lips trying to silence the sobs erupting out of my body. This was too much! I can't handle this life.

My heart hurt in a way I never felt before and I didn't understand why. I don't want that beast! I don't want his attention or his touch! I was stronger than this. I cried quietly against the door until I heard my guard, Frank, asking where I was.

I wiped my face and cleared my throat. "I'm in the bathroom." I called out, trying to keep my voice steady.

"Ok Ms. V." He responded.

I looked around franticly then turned on the shower. I was a fucking wreck. Black makeup down my face, swollen red eyes, pink nose that was running. A few more tears fell and I internally slapped myself. I was not weak and I was not in love with that coward.

Niko never treated me like anything but a se
Locked Chapter
Continue to read this book on the APP

Related chapters

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Vengeance

    Niko POVThe second those words left her mouth I understood we were done. I walked away closing my bathroom door to catch a fucking breath. She was squeezing my insides painfully and she didn't even care.I can't take her as mine forever so there was no point in this stupid battle with her. I fucked Vanessa and it sucked. I knew that everyone woman I had in the future would suck because they would never be Vivian. I closed my eyes to steady my heart beat. It felt like it could burst out my chest any minute. I didn't understand why it fucking hurt so much. She was good pussy but annoying as fuck and never listened.She was right, we were done. I'm in my bathroom trying to control my breathing when we leave to avenge my cousin's death in one hour. I was Capo and my family was my life, my duty. I left the bathroom, stoning my face and removing my emotions. I was the same Niko I had been since I was eight years old. Nothing bothered me and no one crossed me.———We arrived at the club an

    Last Updated : 2023-04-14
  • Consumed by the Mafia   I Need Help

    Vivian POVMy mind was in overdrive right now. I couldn't think about anything other than saving these men. I just lost Tony, a man I never met before, but it was still hard. Watching someone in so much pain then his life just leaves his body. My stomach was queasy as I stitched some other men I never met. I gave him a shot of Novocain so the needle itself shouldn't be hurting him, but he had other injuries. I quickly finished then tied the last knot when Dominick turned and threw up in the corner. "Shit! This place is fucking dirty enough." I rolled my eyes at him. I walked to the next man on the table bleeding out from his stomach with a deep cut when the smell hit me. "Fuck Dominick!" I yelled, running to the sink and threw up myself. I had a thick stomach, but this shit was too much. "I got it, go help them." Sophia said as she turned on the faucet. "Thanks!" I grabbed a needle and gave the men a shot of Novocain in his stomach. Then I prep seven other needles with a pain kill

    Last Updated : 2023-04-15
  • Consumed by the Mafia   On the Mend

    Niko POVThe second I saw Randy half dead my anger took over. My mind went straight to Viv. She stitched him up and said he was fine. I should have had my doctor check him out. I don't know why I trusted she could do anything right.The doctor cut Randy open and there was a piece of a bullet in him. He removed it and patched him back up. He said he needed rest and would be ok. He better fucking pray he would be ok. I wasn't losing anyone else. Randy married his high school sweetheart and had two kids. There was no way I was telling Shelly her husband was dead. I wouldn't be able to handle that.I stomped up the stairs on a mission to fucking destroy something. The night was calming down and reality was coming back to me. Grasso fucking ambushed us, took another one of my men, and left us a fucking mess. His entire family was burning alive for this shit! I was done with politics and rules. I was the Capo and we would have no more enemies because they would all be dead. As I walked into

    Last Updated : 2023-04-15
  • Consumed by the Mafia   I'm Fine

    Vivian POVThe second that idiot left the doctor sat next to me and started checking my vitals. He didn't say a word and it was getting a little uncomfortable."Everything seems to be ok. Capo mentioned you haven't been eating. Have you been feeling nauseous or dizzy the past few days?""I've eaten some, just not a lot. I have been getting little dizzy spells but my emotions are all haywire. I'm fine though. I'll be sure to eat some more fruits and protein."He scratched his chin thinking. "Do you think maybe, you could be pregnant?" My mouth dropped open. "Absolutely not! You gave me pills the other week, remember.""I do. I also recall Capo stating he hasn't been wearing a condom at his last checkup. Birth control isn't 100% effective.""Ew! Why would he tell you that? And no, I'm not pregnant. Life can't be that fucking cruel.""I actually didn't need to know. He wrote it proudly on his form. I won't repeat what it said though. Capo is a... complicated man. I know he shows little l

    Last Updated : 2023-04-16
  • Consumed by the Mafia   Conflicted

    Niko POVMy mind was racked with worry all day over that woman. I sensed her anger at the table and I knew it was for me. She was the one that denied me. She was the one that never fucking listened. She was the one that told me she would never touch me and to have a fucking orgy for all she cared. Now she is pissed at me. I knew this all stemmed from trading Michael and a part of me wanted to just kidnap the kid again so she would stop pouting. On top of that the little girl gave me nothing but sadness and fear when she looked at me. She wasn't my responsibility. Amy was some other asshole's child. I'm letting her stay and providing for her yet I'm still the bastard in Viv's eyes. She needed to get off her high horse already.After we ate Viv quickly retreated to her room. I told her guards they weren't allowed to leave unless for food and no one was to break that order for any reason. I didn't need Vanessa trying to cause more shit either. Fuck, this is going to be a mess with both

    Last Updated : 2023-04-16
  • Consumed by the Mafia   Back Home

    Vivian POVFinally, we boarded that damn flight and I let out a long sigh of relief. My life wasn't any better in New York though. Why did Niko even bother bringing me to Chicago? I would have lost my shit if he took the kids and left me, but why did he care? He took Michael from me anyways. Was it just to have me at his beck and call when he had an itch? Probably! I hope his dick falls off one day. It was a large beautiful dick, but it was attached to a fucking monster.Amy was uncomfortable around all the large men yelling out war stories and drinking. She knew she was a Grasso and they all spoke often how they hated every one of them. I was worried about her safety. I had to try and talk to Niko about it but that meant I needed to not bite his head off the second he was near me. Something I was finding impossible not to do. My hatred for him grew more every second of the day.He had Vanessa seated next to him, which irritated me. Every time I saw them close to each other my mind pic

    Last Updated : 2023-04-17
  • Consumed by the Mafia   Satisfaction

    Niko POVI was hoping to get Viv alone in my office but then she invited Paul to walk in. It was probably for the best since I knew she was still pissed at me. She asked her demands and I didn't mind giving her any of them. She was learning the rules and her limitations which made me happy. I was fucking tired of fighting with her about not doing stupid things that would get herself killed.Her body language was tired and her tone fed up. She was losing that wild spirit in her and it made me cringe inside. She wanted things she could no longer have, but I still liked how she fought for what she wanted. Now she was being polite and actually asking me. I didn't know how to feel about it.In two days, we go after Joseph and I really didn't have the time to worry about her. I wish she could just get her shit straight already. Maybe mothering the little girl will make her happier. She'll find a purpose beyond her old desires to be a doctor. I had to admit she would have been one hell of a

    Last Updated : 2023-04-17
  • Consumed by the Mafia   Not My Life

    Vivian POVNiko just walked out like nothing happened. Why did I completely melt to him like that? He caught me off guard and I caved to him. The entire time I showered I thought of him and even considered pleasuring myself. Now I was thoroughly satisfied by the real monster and unsure how to feel about it. There was no denying I wanted to feel his hard body take mine as his again, but emotionally I couldn't handle it. I wasn't a weak woman that allowed a man to hurt me the many ways he did, then just give into him. I gathered myself then washed quickly and headed to bed. My body felt like blissful jelly and my mind was complete mush. I could internally smack myself tomorrow for letting him make me feel this good. The next morning Niko was grinning at breakfast. He told Vanessa to handle the business affairs for the next few days because he had more important matters to deal with. I didn't know what he meant by that, but I did hate that he relied on her so much. She was a clear remi

    Last Updated : 2023-04-18

Latest chapter

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Epilogue 2 - Lost but Now Found

    Niko POv“What are you doing?" My kitten asked with venom in her voice. She knew I was up to something, and it drove her crazy."Nothing!" I shrugged my shoulders. Soon she will see him standing over there. Would she recognize him? "Sophia and Dominick are running late. Charlie hasn't been doing well with her teething. They are staying the week though. I have the guest wing prepared for them."I let out an annoyed sigh. I hated it when they came to visit."Niko! Be nice to your cousins." She warned."When that annoying woman stops stealing all my wife's attention, I'll like her more." I grunted out. Every time Sophia came Viv and her were glued to the hip. They even spent the whole night drinking and painting their nails. She was supposed to be mine every night and for some reason I had to share her with that little woman. You would think with them living in Chicago it would be enough distance, but it wasn't. "Stop being a child. Now tell me what you are up to. I don't want any prob

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Epilogue - Seven Years After My Choice

    Niko POV"Paul, kill that fucker before I lose my temper!" I ordered my second as bullets flew past us."No way! She is your wife, you deal with her wrath." He dared talk back to me. I should have put a bullet in his head, but he was right. No one wanted to deal with Viv's anger. Over the years I may have given her too much power in the families. My men practically coward at her feet with one cold glare from her eyes. "Fuck! How do I get through to him?" I shouted to Paul."I don't know. He is fucking pissed and isn't listening.""Niko, come out and play!" The boy's voice taunted me."Will you just listen to me. I'm not here to kill you." I tried reasoning with him again."Oh, but I am here to kill you. You aren't worth anything Niko. I'll gut you for what you did to my sister." Fuck! He had been brainwashed all these years. How the fuck can I calm him down. My phone started vibrating and there was my goddess with a see threw shirt displaying on my phone. She gets on my ass everyda

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Getting Everything I Want

    Niko POVAfter making love to my soon to be wife I watched her until I became hard inside her again. It didn't take long and I planned on owning this body all night.She was fucking perfect and now I had her. She was no longer trapped under me. She willingly laid at my mercy, wanting every part of my soul. Being by her side wasn't enough for her and I wasn't sure what to feel about her proposal. She wanted my devotion to her. She wanted me as her husband. I didn't understand how she could love me, but I also didn't care. I would take everything she offered because I needed her as mine.I leaned down, kissing her lips softly and circling my hips. "I love you. I need you." I said between kisses. "Right now, I need to own your body. Can you handle my beast?" I lightly nibbled on her lips, praying that answer was yes. I began thrusting hard into her as she hummed back to me and I lost my willpower to restrain myself. Then her body popped up like she was in pain. I quickly slid out of her

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Our Life Together or Apart

    Vivian POVI walked Niko to my garden and he looked almost disappointed. I know he really just wanted me naked in his bed, but I needed to know if he would choose me forever, or if this was just a game to get me under him again. I made my choice, now he needed to make his. "Wow! Did you have all my guards working out here? It hasn't even been 48 hours since I left." Niko looked around my garden filled with purple and white flowers for Amy, red roses for me, white lilies for my aunt, and the rest a rainbow of colors mixed with grass covering or ferns. "I did put them to work, but they happily agreed." I smiled at him. He looked at me for a moment and his eyes got big. He was realizing what this meant now."You are staying! This is your home!" For the first time since he walked through the front door, he lowered his walls. His harsh demanding voice faded away and his cold stare warmed to my eyes."I want to stay, but I want it all Niko. I'm a strong, loud mouth, independent woman. I ca

  • Consumed by the Mafia   My Choice

    Vivian POVAfter we texted in the afternoon, I couldn't stop thinking about him. He wanted me in a skimpy lingerie and for some reason I wanted to please him. I had hoped he would be home before morning so, I got dressed in a little black night set, that was really just straps holding all my best features in the perfect position. When he began texting me at night, I had no idea it would turn into phone sex. I never let myself go so wild with anyone before, but the need for him was overwhelming. Once everything inside me burst over my fingers I was filled with so many emotions.He practically begged for me to stay, but I couldn't say it. I wanted him, but I couldn't say I would be his again. How could I need his embrace, yet pull away at the same time?I woke to a text from my beast saying good morning, beautiful. I stared at my phone for a long time. I could wake every morning to his husky voice, sometimes his large tongue. Would I really be able to just pack up and leave him? I ate

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Too Far

    Niko POVRandy, Paul, and I arrived in Vegas by the late afternoon and I couldn't wait to get this over with. I had a long plan to cut off every one of his fingers, then peel his skin off his arms, then finally, leave him tied up as he bled out. Now I just wanted to walk in and put a bullet in his head so I could get back to Vivian. That fucking body was calling me every second of the day. I think I have a chance of taking it and I was here with this bullshit. I had to be the one to end him though. The families needed to understand that I was the Capo and I didn't take any orders or demands. Well, unless it was Viv giving them. Then I'll happily fulfill her every request. Especially in bed. Would she want me to take her to bed? "Capo!" Paul spoke my name in anger. My eyes stoned to pure evil as I faced him. "Sorry, boss. You were just standing there. The car is here." Paul coward down to my cold glare."Let's get this over with." Was all I could say as I got in the car. Fuck, I real

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Home

    Vivian POVI walked downstairs with a smile on my face. I was nervous to go to his room last night, but now I was glad I did. He held me all night, spoke honestly, and he was even playful. Niko was my beast yet I've only seen him kneel to my ever demand since I returned. I knew in my heart I wanted to stay. My mind was still at odds with this decision though. I slowly opened my heart to him before and he ripped it wide open then stomped on it. Could he really change this much in such a short time? Could we make a real future together? I wasn't even sure what I wanted in my future anymore. Other than Amy, nothing in my life felt whole.The table was full of life at breakfast this morning. Everyone was chatting and joking around. I found myself tearing a few times watching all my friends laughing as I did too. This felt right. Niko didn't engage in much conversation, but he listened and he wasn't bruting. "Are you ready boss?" Paul asked as we finished eating. We sat there for over an

  • Consumed by the Mafia   All I Want Is You

    Niko POVI woke remembering the best dream where Viv was in my arms to find it was not a dream at all. She was really here. I put her to bed in her room despite wanting to carry her to my bed. Then in the middle of the night she came to me. "Good morning, beautiful." My voice was a bit raspy from sleep. I felt her body squirming awake and couldn't help but watch her body next to mine. "Good morning, beast." Her lips pulled a small smile, making everything inside me erupt in butterflies. "Did something happen or could you not resist me?" I teased. I was actually concerned something bad scared her. I can't imagine her leaving Amy's side if there was a threat though."I was just missing you and decided to crawl in your bed. Do you not want me here?""I always want you here." "I like being here with you." We didn't say anything else. I was afraid she would tell me she was still leaving and I couldn't handle that right now. We stayed in bed for at least an hour just cuddling each other

  • Consumed by the Mafia   Decisions

    Vivian POVHe walked into the dining room in a black suit that was half a mess. Sleeves rolled up, top buttons undone, and hair ruffled. His muscles were throbbing, probably from all the tension in his body and it made my eyes walk over every inch of his skin. I don't know how and I don't know when, but something inside me just snapped into place about Niko. Maybe it was his vow, or how he looked at me like a mystical creature too far above him to even touch, or maybe it was his devotion to give me anything I ask of. All I knew was that somehow a brick wall came crashing down and now everything inside me flooded with emotions. Mostly, I just wanted to curl into his arms and hear his rough voice tell me it was all ok. I hadn't decided what it all meant though. I still wasn't sure if I could live this life or abide by their rules. I saw it all as barbaric and unfair. A few families with all this power. Niko killed Joseph, who was my half-brother, in his basement. He attacked Jonathan a

DMCA.com Protection Status