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Cowardly Lion

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Vivian POV

I ran to my room trying hard not to let the tears fall. I don't know why I cared or why my chest was caving in. I went straight to the bathroom and collapsed down the door. I slapped my hand over my lips trying to silence the sobs erupting out of my body. This was too much! I can't handle this life.

My heart hurt in a way I never felt before and I didn't understand why. I don't want that beast! I don't want his attention or his touch! I was stronger than this. I cried quietly against the door until I heard my guard, Frank, asking where I was.

I wiped my face and cleared my throat. "I'm in the bathroom." I called out, trying to keep my voice steady.

"Ok Ms. V." He responded.

I looked around franticly then turned on the shower. I was a fucking wreck. Black makeup down my face, swollen red eyes, pink nose that was running. A few more tears fell and I internally slapped myself. I was not weak and I was not in love with that coward.

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