I sat in my office reading through the documents for tonight. Paging through the pages and the targets, I once again read the specifications for the umpteenth time, something didn't make sense and it was bugging me.
'I called out your name, but it wasn't you that came, THEO IT WASN'T YOU!'
I groaned, closing my eyes, slamming my fists against the desk, is this why I can't focus? Threading my fingers in my hair, I pressed my face against the desk and released a huge sigh.
It hurts. Why does it hurt?
I pulled out my phone and I scrolled through my gallery, littered with Xania's pictures and videos. I scrolled through the pictures I had taken of her when she was painting, she was on her knees with one paintbrush pushed against her middle ear,
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Cassandra... pregnant? I stared at them both confused and irritated but mostly hurt. So was he... "Xania," Theo began and I shook my head smiling. "I came to tell you that it's almost time to go to the auction," I said, dismissing whatever explanation he wanted to give me. "Congratulations Cassandra," I said softly with a smile and she nodded smiling. I walked back into the house and it was kind of hard to ignore the igniting pain in my heart. But I'm not supposed to care anymore, I promised Zada that much. That I won't care. I took a huge breath in and carried on my way to the room that had my clothes. I couldn't possibly say it's mine, especially seeing that today was my last day here.
I came out of my room changed into my dress, having retouched my makeup, I still couldn't find the courage to look up. Once I got to the end of the hallway, I took a deep breath in and smiled, fake it till you make it! As soon as I stepped into the living room I heard whistles and claps and I smiled at Leo. "And the most gorgeous woman we've ever met walks into the room, the crowd erupts in cheers!" He said and clapped his hands harder. "You look beautiful, Nia!" He winked at me and I chuckled, shaking my head. "You don't look so bad either, but your bow tie is crooked, " I said, fixing his tie. "That's better, are you going to be charming all the girls tonight?" I asked him and he gave me a knowing smile. "You know the vibes baby!" I high fived him and we laughed about it.
Theo and I entered the dealership with our arms hooked around each other, the moment had passed and had made the tension feel lighter. In the lobby, there was a woman in a red dress and her brunette hair was bundled up at the top of her head making a neat bun. She kept a professional smile as Theo logged in his details, and I also had to do the same. Something about it being necessary precautions."Hope you enjoy the event," she said as we walked away into the venue. I was in awe! The cars around us were definitely not like the ones you would see on a normal day of walking down the street.These were classy, luxurious, posh and expensive! I'm probably repeating the same thing using different words but anyone with eyes, even a blind man, could see what fortune was around me right now!"How are you so calm
"How about the lady next to Theo Walder?" Andrew said and I looked to Theo’s left and noticed that was the end of the aisle. "The one in the black shiny dress," he said pointing to me and I looked at Theo and he cocked his head slightly giving me the go-ahead."I- uh, I didn't volunteer though," I said with a giggle as I accepted Andrew's hand that helped me climb up the stairs."Your beauty charmed me," he said flirting and I had the urge to roll my eyes and gag but instead I giggled touching his shoulder slightly."Ahahaha, you're so sweet, aha," I giggled, this is exhausting. I'd rather be in bed watching some drama about people falling in love without one of them being married or anything so bizarre, I'm just saying.Andrew chuckled and
I drove into Theo's driveway in Michaels car and I found Leo and Adam already waiting for me."Xania Evans! That was so badass!" Leo screamed as he ran towards me and threw me over his shoulder as he spun around. I screamed along with him while I begged him to put me down. "The way you reversed out of that building and winked at Mike as he pissed his pants, don't get me started on the stunt you did with 'testing' out those positions, you even got Adam here hard as rocks," he said jokingly and I laughed shaking my head. I passed him the keys as Adam walked over to us."That was hot! Who would've thought our Xania would go out with a literal bang," Adam said and I laughed, shaking my head."You guys are all talking about me, can we please appreciate Luke's act as Andrew!" I said as Luke pulled
"U-ugh," I groaned as I opened my eyes. Why does my body hurt so much? I brought my hands to rub- wait, why can't I move my hands? I pulled at them once more and felt restraints on them. In a panic, I finally assessed where I was. The room is dark and I can see little light pouring in through the cracks in the walls. Wait a minute, I've been here before... "Hello?" I called out and heard no response. "Adam? Leo, Luke?" No response again. "If you guys are playing tricks on me, this isn't funny!" I yelled and still, there was no response. I shift in the chair feeling uncomfortable and felt that something was wrong. "Did you guys take off my bra! I'm going to kill you once I'm out of these bonds!" Once again, the response I received was silence.
The twins and I sat quietly in the waiting room, anxiously waiting for the doctors operating on Xania to tell us something. I looked at my hands dried up with her blood, my shirt was no different. I stared at my hands and all I could think about was how this was my fault.A lot of ‘What-if’ thoughts had passed through my mind and the result still all came down to one thing, it’s my fault.“Where’s my sister!” My head turned to where the screaming came from. She looked hysterical and her hands were balled up into fists on the counter as she questioned her sister's whereabouts.“Zada,” I croaked out and cleared my throat. “Zada!” I said with a deeper voice, she looked over to us and I could see her bloodshot eyes. She released a breath befor
FIVE YEARS LATER I started at the three canvases hung on the wall with as little as three-centimetre space between them. The first canvas was painted in black and white. The gardenias populated the canvas and the contrast in the painting was compelling. The second canvas that followed a light palette of colour, the sky blue that met the black and white colour that flowed onto the other canvases, aiding as a surface to the floating white gardenia’s gave me a calm feeling. The bold red colour on the third canvas that filled the clouds stood as its own story, staining the black and white water with a bit of its red, the painting stood complete. “What are you going to name it?” Joshua, my lecturer, asked me as he passed me my coffee and I smiled gratefully at him. “Seasons,” I answered and took a sip of my coff
"I'll be leaving tomorrow," he said and I should up straight. "What why?" "I've overstayed my welcome, I don't want to stress you guys out even more with my health, so I'll be going back home," he said. And that brings us back to today, Theo and I stood in front of Tyrese as he had just finished making breakfast. "It's pretty good," Jameson said as he took a sip of his juice. His voice was starting to break and it was kind of interesting to watch him slowly turn into a man, would I even ever be able to see him like that? "What you two waiting for, come on and eat!" Tyrese said, Theo and I sat down in our seats and Theo dished up for me since I had Thea. We started eating and Thea was also in the stage where her hands were grabby, she grabbed the bacon off my plate and I quickly took it back. "Uh uh, you don't eat this," I said to her and she giggled closing her eyes. "Ble hbgh blllllh," she said as she blew spit on my f
"Is everything okay, Xania?" Tyres asked as I fed Thea in the kitchen. Theo and I hadn't been on talking terms for the past three days. "Yes, everything is fine," I said with a smile. "Things seem to be tense with you and your husband," he said and I shrugged still smiling. "Don't worry about it, we will be alright," I said as I burped Thea. Theo entered the kitchen in his suit and I knew that he was going to work. "I thought you weren't supposed to be in today?" I asked and he looked at me from the side of his eye as he opened the fridge. "Last minute changes," he said as he grabbed an apple. "Bye." "Will you be coming back late today as well?" I asked him and he glared at me before mumbling. "Don't wait up for me," he kissed Thea's head and when I leaned in for a kiss and he moved away. "Now son, this isn't the way you should be treating your wife," Tyres said and Theo looked at him with a smirk playing on his face. "
"Oh really?" I asked crossing my arms over my chest and he nodded."I really wanted you, I wanted to be your father but your mom ran away with you and I couldn't find her," he said softening his eyes. However, I still couldn't believe him."Is that so?""Yes! You have to believe me Xania, I came from a well above average pay grade family, I told my parents about her pregnancy and they were willing to support us but she ran away from me. Her mother said she woke up one morning and Iris was gone, I was heartbroken.""My grandmother?" I asked and he nodded."Yes, she was hurting too and couldn't believe her daughter ran away from her, your aunt too wasn't happy about that, but we couldn't find her no matter how high and low we searched for you guys. She even changed her surname from Johnson to Evans!""I didn't know that," I whispered and he nodded holding my hands."I was miserable, not knowing where you were, what you were eating, if s
I walked into Thea's room and she was just waking up and stared at me with a pout before she smiled."Good morning Bubba," I whispered as I picked her up and helped her stretch making her giggle. "Did you have good dream?" I asked as I kissed her cheek."Mama," she said and I pressed my nose against hers."Yes, it's mama," I whispered as I say down on the chair in her room, lifting my shirt, she found my nipple like the experts she is and sucked hungrily. "Ow, don't bite me," I said softly pinching her cheek. "That hurts," I said and she smiled.She was just entering her teething phase and she was six months old. There's nothing that hurt me as much as seeing her in pain over something that naturally had to happen to her, but of course we tried to reduce the pain as much as we could."You full," I asked as she let go of my nipple and pressed her lips together. I pressed her against my chest and rubbed her back and waited for her to burp. "There we
Tugging at the sleeves of suit, I waited at the altar with my heart beating violently against my chest. Why was I so nervous? I've already married her but this time it's in front of more people than I would've liked. Jameson was undoubtedly my best man of course, Leo, Luke and Travis were the groom's men. Xania had Zada as her maid of honour and Kim, Miranda and Gwen as her bridesmaids. After long hours of debating whether we should have groom's men and bridesmaids, we just fucked it out and decided afterwards. My decisioned reigned. Fixing my sleeves again for the umpteenth, Jameson touched my shoulder and I was marveled at how quickly he was growing. He almost reached my shoulder and was about to become way taller than Xania, just yesterday she was carrying him on his back as they played in my yard. "You nervous?" He asked smiling and I nodded. "Don't worry, you got this dad," he whispered and right then her intro song played and she appeared from b
"Hey Mrs Walder, how was the dress fitting?" He asked as I picked up Thea and she immediately slapped my chest and I giggled."I guess you are like your father huh?" I said as I lifted my sweater and uncovered my breast for her. She instantly attacked my boob not in the most careful way but I was used to her rough ways with it."Can I suck the other one?" Theo asked playfully and I kissed my teeth rolling my eyes."No, they both belong to Thea," I said and he pouted kissing her forehead, she stared at her father for a second as she sucked my breast with her tiny hand holding onto it and pinching occasionally."She doesn't mind sharing," he said and I laughed shaking my head."Go take a shower, you smell like vomit," I said pushing him away and he chuckled getting up."That's because this little girl did vomit on me, but I'm not complaining like your mommy is," he said kissing her forehead before moving over to my lips. "Come join me once she
I stepped onto the platform wearing the satin gown that wrapped itself tightly around my waist and flowed down right to my feet.The cloth extended and covered my breasts as straps with a silver chain combining them at my collar bone and dipping into the valley of my breasts."What do you guys think?" I asked the ladies and gentlemen I was with, namely Zada, Kim, Miranda, Gwen and Joshua. They were enjoying the sweet savoury champagne while I was stuck with juice because I was still breastfeeding.I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and we decided to name her Thea, I know that it runs along the same lines as Theo's name but I thought it was a beautiful name with a beautiful meaning, Gift of God.So, unfortunately for me she got Theo's eyes, I guess he was very strong in those genes and her skin was the perfect shade of caramel.Chubby in size explained why she was so heavy to carry in me but during the last few months when I was pregnant, Theo wo
With my hand on my belly, I walked around my gallery greeting the viewers with a smile. I passed my some of my old classmates featured paintings of the month and felt proud of all I achieved. I came to a stop in front of the painting that took me eight months to finish, a crazy excruciating eight months! The black canvas was filled with strokes of blue and purple. Onlg the outlines of our bodies were painted, all the different positions were depicted and I loved this painting so much because I felt closer to him. I felt the warmth of a body stand next to me but I couldn't turn to stare at the person. The scent was familiar and the gaze was intense. "Has it been six months already?" I asked still staring at my painting. "Were you not waiting for me?" He asked and I turned to look at him shaking my head. "I got tired of waiting," I whispered. "I never stopped thinking of you," he said pushing a lock of my hair away from my face.
Four months in here has been a drag, I was kind of starting to regret my decision in not allowing Xania to come see me but it's for the best.I laid on my bunker staring up at the ceiling, these mattresses were horrible for the back, and of course Conan made sure to have me sent somewhere I particularly wouldn't enjoy, but luckily for me, Adam was my roommate.He was currently standing by the gate with one of his 'friends' that he made here in jail, since I didn't plan on being here that long, I made sure that everybody understood the status of our relationship.No, I wasn't bossy, nor was I a fool, I made sure that I was on okay terms with most of the trouble makers and as long as we stayed away from each other, there were no issues between us."Bro, why's your bro think he better than us?" I heard Amelio ask Adam and he chuckled shrugging his shoulders."That's because he is," Adam said,