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2024-10-29 19:42:56After binge watching reruns of Keeping up with the Kardashians for days now, I have finally come to the conclusion that I'm depressed. Either that or I'm going through a phase where I don't leave my room to go to the bathroom, to eat or to even shower.
Thanks to Mckayla and her dad I wasn't expelled but I was suspended for two weeks. And while I'm grateful to my friend for working her magic and getting me a lesser punishment, I'm starting to feel like this is the longest two weeks of my life and it's not going to come to an end anytime soon.
And speaking of Mckayla's dad, he's been offline recently and scarce on the discreet dating app. I pretty much haven't spoken to him since I kissed him but one has nothing to do with the other because he doesn't know I'm the young girl he's been basically having an online affair with.
I guess he's busy with work and other things, after all he is a married dad and he has an empi
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