After Levi typed the last figures into his spreadsheet and emailed it to his assistant, he spun around in his chair to look at the view. The setting sun glinting off the neighboring metal and glass towers was dramatic, but nothing beat a sunset on the farm. Watching that large red-orange ball dip behind the barn and then the trees, the whole sky turning red then purple as a bruise until everything was left in a blue gray shadow with the moon rising above it. It made your heart swell. Despite how badly he had wanted to escape it when he was eighteen, he could now admit he did miss some aspects of the farm.
He was the youngest broker at the firm and had basically given his last eight years to the company. He worked long hours and had almost completely forgone a social life. His coworkers never gave up trying to get him to go out, however. At least once a week, Mike showed up at his door at the end of their workday. Apparently, today was his lucky day.
“Levi, come on. It’s Lydia’s birthday. You’ve got time for one drink,” Mike said, rapping his knuckles on Levi’s mahogany desk. “You’ve made it. Now enjoy it a little!”
Levi had to smile at his friend’s persistence. “I’d love to but I’ve got these final figures due for the McMillian file. We’re presenting in the morning. Tell Lydia happy birthday and buy her a drink for me.”
Mike looked over his shoulder to make sure they were alone. “You need to get out more, my friend. You’re almost thirty and I’ve never seen you dating anyone.” He lowered his voice again. “Are you, you know, gay? Not that I care, of course, but…”
Levi laughed at his friend’s discomfort but appreciated his obvious concern about his welfare. “No, man, I like the ladies just fine. I’m just very focused. No time for the bullshit, you know?”
Mike nodded his head like he did but Levi knew he didn’t get it. Mike was married to a perky, former cheerleader who worshiped the ground he walked on and he returned the sentiment. They were the couple Levi had imagined he and Dani would be someday back in high school.
Damn, every time I think I’ve put her away for good, she pops back up.
He didn’t have the time or the inclination to have a relationship. Oh, he hit a club occasionally and went home with a girl here or there but he never stayed the night. Even back in college, he rarely dated. No one piqued his interest. No one since Dani.
After Mike gave up and drifted away, Levi steepled his fingers and contemplated the drastic change in his life that was about to take place and what it meant for him. He was doing something he vowed he’d never do - moving back to the farm in Gladewater.
“Levi, honey, we need to talk,” his mother, Wanda, had started the conversation when she had called a couple of months ago. Levi had never known any good to come out of a conversation that started “we need to talk”.
He had leaned back in his chair and rubbed his forehead in anticipation of the headache he could imagine starting there. “What’s up, Mom?”
“I’ve been thinking.” Another phrase he knew guaranteed he wouldn’t like where this was going. “I’m getting older, you know, and running the cows and keeping up with the property is getting to be a lot for me.”
“You’re in better shape than women half your age,” Levi rebutted. “And what are the hands doing? I thought once we hired Tim and Ronnie, they would do most of the work for you. Are they slacking?”
“Well, no, they’re fine,” Wanda admitted, “but you know it’s still a lot to keep them supervised and make sure they do things right. Those new breeding bulls are a job just on their own. I swear, they try to injure themselves on purpose!”
Levi knew his mom felt she had to run everything even though he had hired very experienced men to take care of the cows when he had decided to start the breeding program. Until then, she’d been running the farm by herself since Levi had left for college.
“Do I need to hire some more hands? Just let me know and I’ll be glad to take care of it.” Levi looked at his Rolex, judging the time before his next meeting.
“Honestly, honey, I’m just tired of it all,” Wanda admitted with a sigh. “And, well, they just built this darling little community on the edge of town.” Wanda’s voice perked up. “The places are all one story and just gorgeous. They even take care of the yard for you! Can you believe it?”
Now Levi’s attention was caught again. New community? Take care of the lawn?
“So, Mom, are you saying you want to sell the farm and move to this new place?” Levi said, trying to keep the incredulity out of his voice. They couldn’t sell the farm and she knew that fine.
“Well, no, Levi. Obviously, we can’t sell it but….” Wanda paused and resumed with a forced cheerfulness to her voice, ”…you could come on home and run it. You’ve got all those new expensive breeders out there. Seems like you might have been thinking about it already.”
Levi raked his hands through his wavy, black hair, a sure sign of agitation he’d had since childhood. Move back to Gladewater?
“Mom, I…” Levi started, but Wanda cut him off.
“Don’t decide now. Just think about it. I’ll send you some info about the community to look at too.”
“Honey,” she said, her voice becoming serious. “It’s time, don’t you think?”
Levi wasn’t sure it would ever be time for him but he could hear the longing in his mother’s voice. She had overcome years of abuse and remade herself into the strong, fearless woman she was today. She had always been Levi’s rock and he knew he would do just about anything to make her happy. But could he do this?
He blew out a breath. “I’ll think about it, Mom. I’ll think about it.”
And he had. A lot. He had lost sleep over the thought of giving up his hard-earned corner office and the salary that went with it. He also thought about what he was actually spending his money on. While most of his colleagues drove the latest sports cars and wore designer suits, Levi drove a five year old Toyota Tundra and nice, but off the rack, suits. His only real indulgence being his watch, a Rolex, he had bought for himself when he had made partner. Instead, he had started buying stock to start a new breeding program for the farm. He had researched the ins and outs of breeding versus raising beef cattle and decided breeding was the way to go. He remembered the look on his coworker’s face when he first mentioned it.
“Cows.” Mike stared at him in confusion, slowly putting down the barbell he had been using in the company gym. “You’re going to spend that much money on cows.”
“They’re not just cows,” Levi had tried to explain, picking up a set of weights for biceps curls. It always annoyed him just a little that he had to spend time in the gym to stay in shape since he had left the farm. He’d rather be doing good productive work for his muscles. “They’re high-end breeding stock. If we can start breeding champion bloodlines with AI straws, we can count on a 60% insemination rate and those cows will go for far more money with fewer animals than we need to keep for beef.”
“Straws?” Mike asked. Obviously, Levi’s plan was totally out of his wheelhouse.
“Semen. They store it in large straws in nitro to freeze it until it’s needed.” Levi explained. “And fewer cows on the land will help it last longer as we can rotate pastures more frequently.”
His buddy sat looking at him blankly then finally shook his head. “I don’t know a thing about cows but for that much money, I’d be looking at real estate. Get yourself a home in Lakewood or Preston Hollow. Meg and I just closed on a place in Lakewood. It’s an original craftsman but all upgraded. We could be neighbors!”
Levi realized he had been thinking more and more about a future back on the farm long before his mother had asked him to come back. Though he had gotten a degree in business, his minor had been in agricultural management. In his heart, he must have known he wanted to go back someday but his head continued to fight him. There were so many bad memories associated with his childhood that still haunted him but maybe it was time to confront them.
“LEVI, where the hell are you, boy? You get out here right now!” Levi quickly ducked into the empty art room, gripping his hall pass tight enough to make his fingers turn white. Peeking through the small window in the classroom door, he saw his dad take another long swig from the almost empty bottle of rye he carried. Roger Cooper was in his work clothes- a faded denim shirt, only half tucked into his old blue jeans which were stiff with dirt, manure and unidentifiable smears. He added to the cacophony of stains by spilling whiskey down his gray, stubbled chin and onto his clothes as he lurched down the hall, banging his shoulders into walls, tearing down children’s brightly colored artwork haphazardly as he went.
As he got closer to the fourth-grade classroom, Levi could hear Miss Gano and his classmates fall silent. Then, to his horror, he heard the lock on the classroom door engage and Miss Gano’s voice resume in a more subdued tone. He was trapped. He was trying to make himself as small as possible when Officer Gonzales, the school resource officer, caught up to his dad. Levi peeked around the door jamb cautiously when she heard Officer Gonzales asking the drunk man what he was doing there. He saw him grab his dad’s upper arm, steadying him when he swayed so hard he threatened to fall over. His dad lost it then, jerking his arm away and yelling.
“You get your goddamn hands off me, you wetback!” He tried to push the officer, nearly falling again. Levi cringed at the slur. “My son’s in school here, I have every right to get him and take him wherever the hell I want!”
He couldn’t hear what Officer Gonzales said when he took hold of Roger again and spoke directly into his ear but his dad’s eyes widened and he dropped his almost empty whiskey bottle to the floor. The crash echoed around the empty hallway and Levi jumped. While Officer Gonzales frog marched him to the front doors, he continued to cuss and holler about his rights. Levi couldn’t see if he was put in a police car or not. He hoped so. Maybe they could keep him overnight. Levi let out the breath he had been holding and went to knock on Miss Gano’s door.
His teacher let him in with a sorrowful look. As he returned to his seat, he tried not to look at his classmates but Dani caught his eye. She tried to give him a little smile of support but when her green eyes watered, he quickly looked away. He wanted to melt right into the floor.
Later that afternoon, Levi saw his father come out of the barn when the school bus dropped him off at the end of the driveway. His fervent wish that his dad was kept in jail had apparently not come true. The good old boys’ network was still alive and well in Gladewater. Roger and Sheriff Grant had grown up together and the sheriff still gave his dad special treatment. Anyone else would be sitting in a cell. It made Levi so angry to know that nothing would happen to his dad despite the horrible things he did. This time the police had either brought him home or let his mom go pick him up. He ran for the house as fast as he could to try and escape the wrath that he knew would be coming his way after his dad had been hauled out of the school earlier. Even though he hadn’t done anything wrong, he knew it would somehow be his fault that his father had been embarrassed by Officer Gonzalez.
As he ran in the front door, his wild eyes met his mother’s. Without a word, she quickly opened the coat closet door and motioned him in, placing a finger to her lips to silence him and shutting the door.
“Boy! Where are you?” Mr. Cooper roared just a few seconds later, slamming the front door behind him. Levi tried to make his little body even smaller, cramming himself behind boxes and coats in the hall closet. He heard the sound of a leather belt quickly sliding out of belt loops as his father prepared to launch into his favorite punishment for transgressions, real or imagined.
He closed his eyes and put his arms over his head trying to prepare for the moment his father found him. But then he heard his mother’s sweet voice. “Oh good, Roger, you’re home!” he saw his mother’s sandaled feet going to meet his father’s muddy boots through the louvers on the doors. “I was just coming to get you! I’ve got your drink and snacks all ready for you next to your chair.”
Levi saw his mother put her arms lovingly, and strategically, around his father’s arm that held the belt. “I know you had a hard day working on the fences and you got such a late start,” she said pleasantly, in commiseration, as she led his father to his chair in the living room. She nodded her chin to Levi over her shoulder as she led his father further into the house, “Come on in here and relax, you deserve it.”
Levi slumped and felt his heart rate decrease as his mother led his father away. His mom almost always knew exactly what to do to save Levi from a beating. How she knew he was in for one even when he hadn’t done anything wrong, he didn’t know, but she always tried to save him from his father’s outbursts. Sometimes, he was ashamed to admit, she just took the beating instead of him, sparing him the need to explain away the bruises that she often had to.
Today had been an especially bad day but still his mother had saved him again. Two hours later, he was drifting off to sleep on top of a coat he had pulled down to rest his head on, when the closet door opened. He started, instantly alert but it was just his mother. She reached down and drew him to her.
“He’s napping now, honey.” Napping was code for passed out drunk, Levi knew. “Go on and get on your homework and I’ll bring you your dinner in your room.”
He hugged his mother fiercely. He didn’t see the tears that she always fought to hide from him.
After conferring with the doctors and therapy team, Dani stayed at her aunt’s bedside the rest of the day talking to her constantly and doing range of motion exercises on her arms and legs. Her uncle sat through it all in the uncomfortable hospital chair, silently holding and stroking his wife’s hand. After trying unsuccessfully to lovingly convince her uncle to go home and get some rest, she finally resorted to using her best Nurse Ratchet voice to convince her uncle to unglue his backside from the horrible chair next to his wife’s hospital bed. “You’re not going to do her any good if you fall over too,” She put both hands on her hips and tried to glare at him. “I’m not going anywhere, and you know I know what I’m doing. Nurse’s orders! Go home, eat, take a shower and close your eyes for a few hours. I will call you if there is any change at all.” As he looked up, her voice and demeanor softened. “Please, Uncle E. She’s going to need you to be strong. Take a break now while you can.”
The next morning, Dani found herself waking up worried that she had overslept for school before her brain righted itself. Living in her old bedroom in the house in Gladewater was like being in a time capsule. Her aunt hadn’t changed a thing. Pink painted walls, Luke Perry and John Stamos posters, and her purple beaded curtains on the big windows were just as they had been when she left. She supposed she hadn’t been back enough to worry about trying to modernize it and make it more grown up. She lazily wondered if she should try to do a little updating now. After grabbing a quick shower, she pulled her red curls out of her face with a headband and put on her hospital ‘uniform’ of yoga pants, a T-shirt and Toms. She grabbed her small wristlet and headed to the hospital to meet Zane. At 11 o’clock on the dot, Zane came breezing into the hospital lobby. He managed to look casual and professional at the same time. Today he wore a tan blazer over dark jeans and a navy T-shirt. His sun-kiss
Levi sat sweating in his Tundra in the middle of the gravel road about a mile from his childhood home. The sweat wasn’t from the sweltering Texas sun, however. It was a cold sweat at being so close to the place he had escaped from when he went to college. The day he had left, his teenage self had vowed to never set foot on the place again, but here he was, a grown man come home. C’mon Levi, you can do this. Mom’s waiting. It’s just a set of buildings.He took a deep breath and put the truck back in gear, driving slowly until he arrived at the driveway. His mother must have been watching for him from the front windows because she burst out of the front door, screen door slamming behind her as he pulled up. She grabbed him in a hug before he could get completely out of the truck.“Come here, you!” She kept his neck in a vice grip and kissed him repeatedly on the cheek.Levi laughed and picked his mother up off the ground in a bear hug. “I’d have come home sooner if I knew I was going to
It was a joyful and proud day when her Aunt Lu was released from the hospital to go home, well enough to start outpatient rehab. She and Maggie had tied balloon bouquets to the carport and made a WELCOME HOME sign for the front of the house. Maggie, JT and their neighbors had gathered to welcome her home. Her aunt and uncle both teared up when they saw the display. “Oh, yyyou! Yyyou shouldn’t have gone to so much trouble,” her aunt said, wiping her eyes. Dani leaned down to the wheelchair and gave her aunt a big hug. “Everyone wanted to be here. You deserve a few balloons for all the hard work you’ve done!”“C’mon Lu,” her uncle said, pushing her toward the door. “Time for you to start making me some dinner!”Everyone laughed. She reached back and patted his hand, looking up at him lovingly. “Dddon’t you think I wwwon’t be soon! You’ve wwwasted awwway on that hospital ffood!”Dani looked at her aunt and uncle longingly. They had been together for so long and were so happy together. T
An hour later, Dani and Maggie were in Pearl trying to navigate the old gravel road out to the homestead. She had remembered the route but had forgotten the giant potholes in the road. Out that way there was just the old Cooper spread and theirs and apparently no one had even been trying to maintain the road. Poor Pearl was not a happy camper with the constant scraping of her undercarriage. “Gee, Dani,” Maggie said as they bounced through yet another pothole, hitting their heads on the soft top of the convertible, “if you had told me we were going out here we could have taken my Explorer. Your expensive car is going to be ruined.”Note to self, if I did move out here, Pearl and I were going to have to have a difficult chat about replacing her with a 4-wheel drive.“Yeah, well, it’s been a minute and I kinda forgot how bad this road can get,” Dani said, gritting her teeth as gravel flew up to hit the windshield despite creeping along like a turtle. “It’ll be ok. We’re almost there.”A
Levi couldn’t remember being so tired in his life. Even when his dad had him working long hours as a teenager, he hadn’t felt this exhausted. It was a good kind of tired, though. One earned with accomplishment. After he had fired the farm hands, he had been happy to discover that they had at least kept up with his cattle. The prize breeding stock was well taken care of and his pastures looked good. He spent hours studying bloodlines and creating his own specialized feed that would be mixed by Johnson’s Feed & Seed as soon as he could make time to get into town. He also updated the spreadsheets for the farm’s finances and did maintenance on equipment that had seen better days. It was also up to him to make sure the stock were fed and watered and check all the fences were up to par. He’d also made a first pass at the gravel road trying to fill in some of the holes and smooth out the ruts. He couldn’t believe his mom had been traversing this road on a regular basis and never got anyone
“Good Lord. Jesus take the wheel!” Dani said, her eyes widening. “What did I miss?” asked Maggie, her lively brown eyes darted around, looking for the action, as she set their lunches down on the table at Common Grounds. She was well-aware of her friend’s new favorite sport of people watching and was always ready to add to her ever-growing pot of fertilizer for the Gladewater grapevine. “That.” Dani pointed with her chin, trying to be discreet but failing miserably. Her eyes ogled the man who just climbed out of an old, faded red Chevy pickup, a truck that somehow looked familiar.The man himself looked like he was hot off some cowboy romance novel cover. He was at least six foot four, his dusty, faded Wranglers were tight in all the right places and sported holes that she bet were put there from hard work and not by a designer. His white t-shirt was so tight it left little to the imagination. No wondering if there was a six pack under there, you could count every ab muscle. His bice
Dani managed to mostly avoid town for the next couple of weeks, meeting with contractors at the farm and talking Maggie into bringing her things under the guise of desperately needing her design expertise. At the end of the day, she would haul herself back to her aunt and uncle’s house, grab a bite and fall into bed. Slowly but surely the house was taking shape and she had avoided accidentally running into Levi. “I know what you’re doing,” Maggie told her one evening when Dani had begged her to come out to the farm to help her pick out paint colors and bring wine.“I’m kicking ass and taking names getting this house together,” was her cheeky reply, trying to pretend she didn’t know what her friend was getting at.Maggie completed an Olympic-worthy eye roll. “Sweet baby carrots! You know what I’m talking about, Daniella Lynn. You haven’t been to town in 2 whole weeks! You’ve been dragging me out here every couple of days for some imaginary design emergency. Tonight is an intervention.
Three months later, Maggie was back in Dani and Levi’s barn, standing under the million twinkle lights. This time, however, it was for her own wedding. It wasn’t the large Texas wedding she’d had in her little girl dreams with the fairy princess dress, a crystal tiara holding a chapel length train to her head that would billow for a mile behind her, the minimum six bridesmaids – all in blush pink, of course, the ride to the chapel in a horse drawn carriage, and the sit down dinner afterwards for at least 300, but it was so much more. Maggie’s dress was a simple, Empire waist gown à la Pride and Prejudice, with lace panels in front and back and a few sparkling crystals surrounding the low-scooped n
Maggie reclined on her chaise in her room looking out her window at the hummingbirds flying around their feeder, zooming in for quick sips and zooming back out, their tiny wings nothing but a blur. She felt like her life had been like that for the last week, blurry around the edges. She resented the headaches that were her constant companions and would not allow her to sleep through the pain in her heart. Per doctor’s orders, she had not been allowed to come into the cafe even for a little while this week. She’d tried to read but that made the pain in her head worse. There wasn’t one TV program she could find that held her interest. She didn’t know how she was going to live through another week of this enforced rest. A quiet knock came from her bedroom door. “Come in,” she replied. She hoped desperately someone needed her for something. With nothing to distract her, she was slowly losing her mind. Her attention had nowhere to go except back to Zane and the events of last weekend.“He
Maggie came back to herself in pieces. She smelled bleach and some other antiseptic and wrinkled her nose. Sun was beating onto her closed eyelids and her head was throbbing. She moaned and reached a hand up to her head finding a bandage at her forehead. It slowly came back to her. She was in the hospital. Someone had attacked her at the Mama Tried. “Zane?” she asked without opening her eyes yet. “Can we shut the blinds? My head is pounding.”He didn’t answer her, but she felt a shadow fall over her face and the brightness dimmed. She carefully cracked open her eyes. She blinked a few times to bring everything into focus and saw Dani and Levi standing over her bed.“Hey, Mags, how’re you feeling? Do you need some water?” Dani said softly to her.She started to nod but then stopped abruptly when pain shot through her skull with the movement. She raised her hand to her head again. “Ow. Yes please.”Levi poured her water from a plastic pitcher next to her bed and handed a cup to Dani. S
Zane sat for a long time, holding Maggie’s hand and watching her sleep. He wanted to memorize every detail of her, her beautiful rosy skin, those plush pink lips that drove him to distraction, the way her silky chestnut locks spread out across the pillow. Her eyes were closed but he could visualize the chocolate brown orbs that changed to dark expresso when she wanted him. The unfathomable look in them when she told him she loved him. And her hands, the wonderfully small hands that were so soft but competent and graceful. Those hands that had the power to drive all his worries away and make him feel whole. He wished he could see her smile at him one more time. His eyes shone with unshed tears. He wondered if you could truly die from a broken heart. When he was sure she was sleeping soundly, he let go of her hand carefully placing it under the starched white blanket on her bed. He leaned over and let his lips brush her cheek, careful not to wake her. He took a deep breath filling his
"Get security!" he yelled, turning to the woman he had pushed past to get into the ladies' room. She started to argue with him but then took in the sight before her. "I'm on it," she said and quickly moved through the crowd. “Maggie!” he yelled, falling to his knees next to her. She was on her hands and knees on the floor near the sink. Blood was pouring down her face and her eyes weren’t focusing. He could tell she was trying to stand but couldn’t get her feet under her.“Don’t try to get up, baby,” Zane told her. He eased her back down to sit on the floor and took her face in his hands trying to see where all the blood was coming from. He knew logically that head wounds bled copiously even from a tiny cut but, his heart stuttered in his chest at the sight of her beautiful face and gentle hands covered in red.“Zane?” she asked in a confused whisper. “How did you get here? Are we in the ladies’ room?”She tried to raise her bloody hands to her head, but he caught them. “It’s ok, swe
Saturday came before she knew it and Maggie found herself rushing to pack for the weekend before she was late. Her thoughts were unusually scattered and she couldn't seem to get her things together. Her current dilemma included her boots taking up too much room in her weekender bag causing her to not be able to get the zipper closed. “Aren’t you coming back tomorrow night?” JT asked, leaning on the door frame to her bedroom and watching her attempt to get her bag closed with amusement.Maggie glared at him over her shoulder. “Yes, I am, but we’re going to Mama Tried to see Morgan Wallen and I have to get.these.boots.to.fit,” she said punctuating her last words with the effort to get the teeth of the zipper close enough to catch.JT chuckled and went to her side, pushing her away from the bag with a hip. “Here let me fix it.” He reached in the bag, removed the boots and easily zipped up the case. “There, fixed.”Maggie stared at him, hands fisted on her hips. “I could have done that,”
The last few months had flown by in a happy haze for Maggie with the wedding planning, her business going great guns and her nightly marathon Facetime sessions with Zane between visits, but with only two weeks left until Dani and Levi’s wedding, she was exhausted. There seemed to be a never-ending list of things to do and not nearly enough hours in the day to get them all done. I’ll just lay my head down for a minute.Sofia started to knock on the door jamb but then stopped abruptly at the sight in front of her. Maggie was at her desk with her head pillowed on her arms, fast asleep. She was really burning the candle at both ends. Sofia was worried about her. She’d never caught her sleeping at her desk before. She rarely even took a coffee break during the day. Maggie could do more things in a day than most people did in a week but even she apparently had her limits.She saw JT coming down the hall and put a finger to her lips. “Shhhh,” she whispered, closing the door softly. “She’s as
Zane sat in his club chair, Jameson in hand, staring at the city lights from his window. He had picked up a book to read but couldn’t focus. He'd hated to have to leave her after her weekend together. The Shawna situation made him want to wrap Maggie in bubble wrap and lock her in his apartment where nothing could get to her, but maybe she was right. He had always been the one Shawna followed and harassed. He'd casually dated a couple of other women after her and nothing had happened. Maybe all these new and intense feelings he had for Maggie were just making all his protective instincts go into overdrive. Hell, he hadn't even really been aware he had protective instincts before Maggie. He sipped the smooth scotch and tried to convince himself that Maggie was right. She would be fine. He had to make himself believe it. It was the only way he could get anything else done. He glanced at his watch and saw he had two hours before Maggie would be done with her catering event and he could
JT was just finishing up cleaning up after his prep work in the Common Grounds' kitchen when Sofia popped her head in. “Hey, boss. I finally got the final numbers from Jim at the bank if you have a few minutes to go over the menu with me,” she said brightly.“Sure, give me five minutes,” JT said. Sofia shot him a grin and nodded. With a flip of her dark, shiny ponytail, she was gone.JT smiled and shook his head as he wiped down his workstation. He’d never seen Sofia in a bad mood. No matter how onery the customer or how crazy the day got, she always had a smile on her face and a bounce in her step. And she was good at everything she did. He’d never tell Maggie, but he thought Sofia could give her a run for her money in the organization and customer service departments. The best decision they’d ever made was recently promoting her to manager of the cafe and assistant event coordinator for Common Grounds Catering.When he met her at the table a few minutes later, he moved over some pa