Harlow
I stare across the counter at Pierce as he eats a sandwich and looks out the window, wondering what the hell to think about this guy.
I mean, he's obviously gorgeous. I remember when he was a patient on my floor all of the nurses argued about who got to take care of him each shift. Thinking back on it now, I remember that he specifically requested me. I didn't think much of it at the time. It happens pretty often that a patient will get comfortable with the same staff and request them whenever they can, but now I wonder if his obsession had started even then.
But honestly, why would he do this? He's rich, beautiful, clearly intelligent. Why would he go to these lengths for a woman when he could do something so much more logical?
Like ask me out on a date.
I'm pretty sure I would have said yes, but I would have been as confused as I am now on why he would even want me. My life is a mess. I work too much, live paycheck to paycheck and have the emotional intelligence of a houseplant. The only other living thing in this world that I love is my cat.
"Oh my God, Goose!" I scream, causing Pierce to look at me with a panicked expression. "My cat! I don't have anyone to feed him, or clean his litter, or give him those little treats that he loves! Please, Pierce! Please don't let my cat die." I beg him, my eyes filling with tears again. He puts his sandwich down and rounds the counter towards me, but I'm too panicked to worry about his close proximity. He holds his hands out and grabs my shoulders, rubbing up and down in a soothing motion.
"Relax, sweetheart. Everything's fine." he murmurs quietly.
"Easy for you to say. You're not a starving, helpless, lonely animal." I growl. His eyes go wide as he looks down at me in surprise, a smile flashing across his face and I fight the urge to smack him.
Sure, he says he'll never hurt me, but it's probably best not to test that theory.
"Harlow, come with me." he says, grabbing my hand again like he did earlier. I want to wrench it away, to wash it with burning water and acid to get his touch off of me, but my concern is for my cat so I let him lead me up the staircase to the door right next to the room I woke up in. We stop in front of it and he looks at me expectantly.
"Go ahead. Open it." he says, motioning towards the door.
I push it open to find what looks like a jungle. A huge tree in one corner of the room, it's branches extending against three walls with varying levels of platforms reaching all the way down to the ground. There's what looks like a chandelier in the corner of the room, but it has ropes that reach halfway to the ground with felt fish, crabs, sharks and a pirate ship dangling from the end. It looks to be attached to a motor as it spins slowly on it's own. The other side of the room has what looks like an umbrella holder, but instead there are what appear to be dozens of string toys with feathers, furry tail looking things and crinkling toys on the end. My eyes can't move fast enough to take in all of the details and I don't even notice Goose until he meows from high up on a perch in the tree. I look over at Pierce, but he's watching me.
"I read that cats are like jungle predators. They like to be up high." he explains as he motions towards the tree. "And according to the vet he's a little overweight. But I didn't tell Goose that. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. But that's what the wheel is for." He says, pointing towards what looks like an oversized hamster wheel in one corner. "You can clip a treat in there. To give him motivation. He loves it." Pierce says excitedly, heading over to the contraption and hooking one of Goose's favorite treats inside. Goose mewls from up high and works his way down the branch of the tree before climbing into the wheel. Pierce gives it a little shove to get it started, but Goose takes over easily and soon he's running, trying to get the treat. Pierce laughs as he looks over at me and I don't know what to think.
"I put couches in here. So you can hang out with him. Obviously, he can sleep in your room if you want and roam the house freely. I just thought it'd be nice for him to have his own space." he shrugs, pointing towards two plush couches in the center of the room.
"What's with the tables?" I ask, the ones on the ends of the couches seem to have a weird lip on the edges.
"I know how he likes to knock over cups." Pierce says easily and that creeping sensation trickles down my spine again and I once again wonder how he knows these intimate details about my life.
"What's that?" I ask, pointing towards a weird chair in the corner.
"It's his litter box. Get it? It's a throne." he says chuckling again and I eye the strange piece of furniture. It does look like something a king would sit on. "I know it's a bit much, but when I saw it I couldn't help myself." he adds, looking at me again and I am once again stunned into silence.
I sit on one of the couches and he sits across from me on the other. Goose is finally able to snatch his treat and hops off the wheel, making his way lazily towards us. He visits Pierce first, rubbing against his leg and purring when Pierce reaches down to rub him behind the ear. Then he jumps up next to me, curling onto my lap and looking up at me without a care in the world. I run my fingers through his fur methodically as I think. Pierce did say he would answer my questions.
And I have a lot of them.
"So... You'll give me anything I want?" I ask and he nods. "Except letting me leave?" I clarify. He sighs a little and looks away before looking back towards me.
"I will do anything I can to make you happy." he says. I realize he's redirecting, but I let it slide for now.
"What if I want another cat?" I ask.
"We'll name him Maverick. To go with Goose." he says with a grin.
"What if I want a dog?"
"Just tell me what kind. I'll have it here by tomorrow."
"A newfoundland." I say easily.
"We can name him Stanley."
"What if I want a girl?"
"Then we can name her Stella and yell her name dramatically through the house every time she does something bad." he says with an easy grin.
"How did you know Streetcar is my favorite play?" I ask, but he just shrugs.
"You said something about it. When you were my nurse." he says, but he does a weird fidget thing with his leg so I don't believe him.
"You said you'd be honest with me." I say firmly and he nods, catching Goose when he jumps up into his arms and I'm a little annoyed with my cat.
Doesn't he realize the man is crazy?
"I am being honest. It was one of the first things you said to me, because my sister's last name is Blanche and you saw her name on my emergency contacts list." he says and the memory floats back to me. I nod and look away, not sure what else to say.
"What else do you want, Harlow? What dreams do you have?" he asks, his voice so gentle it feels like he really just wants to know. The thought touches somewhere deep inside me and I look away, not willing to explore that emotion further right now.
"I don't know." I say simply, but it's honestly true.
I never had the luxury of dreaming.
"Well, you think about it. I'd love to hear what you come up with." he says warmly, his voice so genuine it makes my chest ache. A strange noise from the corner has me jumping and I turn to see a weird contraption sitting on the floor. Goose's ears perk up and he makes a mad dash for it.
"What the hell is that?" I ask, placing my hand over my chest to stop my frantically beating heart.
"That's his food dispenser. The vet gave me some new food suggestions so we're slowly transitioning him to the new food to avoid any stomach issues. That dispenses the precise amount of food he should eat, twice a day. He's not very happy with it." Pierce says as Goose gobbles down the food like he hasn't eaten in days.
"Why?" I ask.
"It's quite a bit less than what he's used to. But the vet says this is the best way to make sure he has a long, healthy life." Pierce says just as Goose finishes his food and looks up at us almost like he's scowling at Pierce. "He has the confidence of a farm cat with the skills of a sloth." Pierce murmurs, chuckling to himself as Goose climbs back up into his loft, circling a few times before laying down on one of the beds. Pierce looks down at his watch briefly and sighs before standing.
"Can I show you one other thing?" he asks. I stand and go to follow him, looking up at my spoiled cat one more time to see if he'll follow us, but he's already asleep.
He leads me down the staircase and I'm grateful he's not touching me this time. We wind through a couple of hallways that I hadn't seen yet until he pulls open another door. He flips on the light and it looks like it leads towards the basement.
"What the fuck is down there?" I ask, backing away from him as my heart starts to pound. He looks back at me, clearly confused.
"What do you think it is? A torture dungeon?" he asks sarcastically.
"How should I know! It could be for all I know!" I shoot back. He shakes his head and chuckles a little under his breath.
"It's probably going to be your favorite room in the whole house." he says, starting back down the stairs.
I wait until he's a reasonable distance ahead of me before following slowly. I notice the smell of fresh paint and new carpet. The further down I get I see the walls are painted a dark blue, not quite navy, but close. The carpet is a luxuriously plush tan that feels soft and squishy under my toes. Once I get all the way down, I turn into the room and see a large screen on one wall, a projector hanging from the ceiling, and a circular couch in the middle of the room. There's a ladder type thing on the wall with large, fluffy blankets stacked high and pillows in the corner. I nearly gasp at how incredible this room is.
"I know how much you like your shows." Pierce says, using a remote to turn on the projector. "You can watch anything you can ever imagine on here." he says, clicking through the options. "If you hit the heart up here at the top of the remote, it will bring up your favorites." he says, hitting the button and I watch in fascination as all of my comfort shows flash onto the screen.
"Pierce..." I murmur, not really sure what to say.
"If you get hungry, the fridge is fully stocked with your favorite snacks and drinks. I can show you how to use the popcorn maker later. I have some work to do so I'll leave you be. If you need anything, there's an intercom system through the whole house." he says, pointing to a box on the wall with multiple buttons. "Just hit the one that says office and I'll come running." he says, handing me the remote. His eyes turn affectionate as he looks down at me and I stand frozen, not sure what to do.
"You don't have to stay down here, if you don't want to. You can go anywhere in the house you'd like." he says before he turns and walks back up the stairs. I watch him go, turning back towards the screen as his words echo through my mind.
Anywhere in the house.
I'm still trapped.
PierceI fall into my chair again, huffing in annoyance at work getting in the way. It's Harlow's first day here and I feel like I should be spending more time with her. But then another part of me thinks it's probably better that she has some time to herself to familiarize herself with the house without me interfering. I pull up the camera for the theater room on the extra monitor I use specifically to keep an eye on her. I see her laying on the couch wrapped up in one of the blankets. I know how much she likes comforting things like big blankets, soft pillows and oversized hoodies so I made sure to have plenty of them throughout the house. I'm glad to see her using the couch. Getting something like that to fit down the narrow hallway of a hundred year old house was a pain in the ass. I tipped the delivery guys a fortune after everything they went through, but seeing her enjoy it now is worth it. I watch as she flips through the options on the screen until she throws down the remo
Harlow After my outburst I take a step away from Pierce, lowering my eyes to the ground as fear ripples through me. My mother always said my sass would be the death of me. I didn't think she meant it literally. I hear Pierce sigh from in front of me and when I look up at him again, I'm surprised to see guilt instead of anger etched across his face. He runs his hands through his hair and spins away from me, looking out through the fence towards the rolling hills before he turns to face me again. "I know, Harlow. I understand this is all kinds of fucked up. I just want you to be safe and happy. Here, I can keep you safe." he says, his voice taking on a pleading tone as he begs me to understand. "That's not your choice to make for me. I have a life." I spit back. "What kind of life was it?" he asks, his voice taking on a hard edge. "Because from what I could tell, all you did was meander from day to day, doing what was expected of you. You never moved forward. You didn't accompl
Harlow I yawn and stretch as I wake from a peaceful sleep, my body still engulfed in the cloud like mattress and blankets. I pop my eyes open and am momentarily confused as I take in my surroundings. Then I groan in frustration. So all that bullshit wasn't just a dream? After dinner last night, Pierce didn't say anything as I came up the stairs and went into my room, locking the door behind me. I was worried he may do something weird, like sneak in during the night and watch me sleep, but I hadn't noticed anything like that. I haven't gotten the vibe that he would do something like touch me against my will, but I'm still wary of him. I get up and shower, since it's what I always do, but once I'm dressed I realize I really have no reason to be. I have no job, no responsibilities, nothing to keep my mind occupied. I'm going to go insane. Just as the thought flashes through my mind, there's a timid knock on the door. I unlock it and pull it open to see Pierce on the other side,
HarlowI spend so much time in what I have now decided is to be called the craft room, I don't realize that the sun has begun to set. Pierce brought me food for lunch and I took a short break to eat it, but he has mostly left me on my own for the afternoon. As much as it feels strange, I almost feel grateful for this break from the real world. It came in a terrifying way, but this is the first time in years I've felt myself totally disconnect from reality. That I let myself not worry about anything other than what is happening right in front of me. I needed a vacation. Not like this, but I needed a vacation.I stretch a little and take a drink of the water Pierce brought me, looking over at Goose who fell asleep in a basket full of yarn. He looks like he's in Heaven. I stand and wander around the house until I find the main staircase as my stomach grumbles. I'm not sure what time it is, but I'm starting to get hungry. Pierce said he had some work to do, and I doubt he would mind me
Pierce"I don't want a puppy, Pierce." she says gently, her eyes going wide as she looks up at me. "I want my freedom." she murmurs. I feel like an ice pick has been speared through my chest at her words. I've done everything I can think of to make it comfortable here for her. I knew it would take some time for her to adjust. I just never considered what to do if she couldn't adjust."You know..." I say quietly. "My mother always told me if you find someone precious in this world, someone that brings nothing but positivity to everything they touch, keep them close. Keep them safe. Take care of them, because it's likely no one else is." I say, looking away from her out the window towards the beauty of the setting sun. I watch it for a long time, considering what I'm going to say next. I know it will likely impact how Harlow views me for the foreseeable future, so I need to be careful. I look back over at her, once again taken aback by her beauty. I know she can't see it, but only aft
HarlowI grin to myself as I walk towards the bathroom to change. I was surprised when I realized that I actually missed Pierce over the last few days. I wasn't really sure why he pulled back from me so hard, if he was trying to let me adjust to living here or if he was just busy, but I found myself wishing he would spend more time with me. At first I thought I was just lonely but, truth be told, I'm not much of a people person. I do well alone. That's why I haven't worked hard to have friendships or relationships since my mom died. I enjoy the quiet of living alone, not having to answer to anyone, not having people rely on me. I enter the small bathroom and open a door on the other side. My mouth drops at the wide variety of bathing suits that Pierce bought for me. I'm happy to see a few more modest options, as well as some that show more skin. I go for a full coverage black option that still looks flattering when I slide it on. I grab a couple of towels and head back out to the poo
PierceI don't need to wait for my alarm to go off. I'm already wide awake, just waiting until I can roll out of bed to make Harlow breakfast. It had been nearly a week since out first swim in the pool and Harlow had seemed to finally be settling in with me. She didn't look nervous every time I walked into the same room as her and she even started asking me to do things with her. She started to learn how to paint as well and seemed to actually be enjoying it. She had spent a lot of time in the pool, floating around in the warm water on a giant blow up flamingo I ordered for her. She looked relaxed and like she was enjoying this respite instead of constantly being wary of her surroundings. As soon as my alarm beeps, I jump out of bed and hurry to shower and get dressed. I bustle down the stairs, straining my ears for any movement in Harlow's room, but it's quiet. I walk towards the kitchen, confusion rippling through me when I hear the banging of pots and pans. When I walk in the room
HarlowI start to stir from the comforting darkness of my sleep, groaning as I stretch and snuggle closer to the source of warmth next to me. My eyes flicker open and I remember that Pierce was next to me when I fell asleep. I hadn't really planned to cuddle with him, but he looked so comfy and him running his hands through my hair helped to soothe the pain in my head. I blink a few times and look up at him, a lazy grin spreading across his face when he sees I'm awake. "Hey, pretty girl." he murmurs, rubbing his hand up and down my back gently. I smile shyly, looking away as dangerous feelings of affection spread through me. I see Goose curled up on Pierce's belly, tucked up into my chest. I reach out and run my fingers through his fur until he starts to purr, making me giggle. I look up at Pierce and his eyes are so full of warmth, like there's no where in the world he'd rather be. "What are you thinking about?" I ask, my sleepy state making me say things I would probably not norma
Thirteen Years Later...Harlow"Mom! Have you seen my tie?" Beckett calls from down the hallway. I roll my eyes and smile as I walk towards his room. "On your dresser, baby." I say, pointing towards it."Oh. Yeah. Sorry." he says with a sheepish grin that still makes my heart feel warm after all these years. "When's Bella getting here?" I ask. "Everyone's gonna be here at four." he says, tucking his shirt into his dress pants. "Did you get the corsage?" I ask him. "Oh shit!" he exclaims. I groan and give him a firm look, but his face just splits into a grin. "Just kidding. It's in the fridge." he says walking past me. He kisses my cheek on the way before throwing a smile back at me. "Love you, mom!" he yells. "Love you too." I say to his retreating form.A few hours later we're standing outside with Beckett's group of friends as they all take pictures before their senior prom. I still can't believe that he's grown already and all set to go off to college in the fall. He has his
Four Years Later...HarlowThe loud crack of thunder startles me out of sleep. I sit up in bed, breathing hard as a flash of lightning rings through the room. I look over at Pierce, but he's still sleeping soundly. I smile a little at him, reaching over to run my hand down his back. He moves slightly, but resettles quickly. I yawn and go to nestle back into the sheets when my phone rings on the nightstand next to me. I look at the screen and answer it quickly. "Hello?" "Mrs. Arnoult?" Becca asks. "Yes, Becca. What do you have for us?" I ask. We've had nearly sixty placements over the last few years, I know the drill. I hear Becca start crying on the other line and I sit up a little straighter, not used to her show of emotion. "Fuck, Harlow. I don't know if I can do this anymore." she says. We've known her for years, but she rarely breaks the professional boundaries like this. It must be bad. "What happened, sweetie?" I ask. She sighs and sniffles before she continues. "It's a b
HarlowI groan and stretch as I start to reenter the world of the living. I try to hold onto my dream about tasting wine in the French countryside for awhile longer. But then I remember it's not a dream. This time it's a memory and the realization makes warmth flood through me. Pierce actually bought us a chateau in the French countryside. I was pleasantly surprised when we arrived a couple of days before my birthday to see it was really more like a cottage. It's cozy, warm and completely perfect. Just like Pierce. I feel a twinge of something and groan as I start to become more fully awake. I feel it again and pop my eyes open, looking down to see Pierce between my legs, his tongue flicking at my clit in a slow, luxurious pace. Once he realizes I'm awake, he looks up at me with a warm smile. "Happy birthday, love." he says, before tilting his face back into my pussy. I inhale a sharp breath, my legs twitching as he starts to go faster. He's been testing my body for weeks, findi
PierceShe follows my command beautifully, stripping out of the rest of her clothing and laying on the bed, tipping her knees apart to give me the perfect view. I groan as I push my boxers down, my cock springing forward as I reach down to stroke myself. She watches with feral hunger, licking her lips. "Come here." I say, motioning for her to come towards the end of the bed. She does without a thought, getting on her knees to face me. I reach out to cup her jaw, letting my thumb run along her bottom lip. I lean down to kiss her, pulling her lip into my mouth and biting on it gently. She groans, the sound sending a straight shot of pleasure through my body. I pull away slowly, letting my hand glide back to grip her hair. Not hard enough to hurt, but enough to give me control over her movements. I move her so she's sitting rather than kneeling, then force her to look up at me. "Open." I say, tapping on her mouth with my free hand. She obliges, opening her mouth and leaning towards m
HarlowIt took a few days for Pierce to get back to normal. He got annoyed with being dizzy and having body aches all over, but with plenty of care from me and some tough love, since he doesn't like to lay around and be lazy, I got him back to where he was before the accident. Today was his first day back at work and I could tell at lunch time he was already over it. He had a backlog from not working while we were apart, plus everything he missed while he was healing so by the end of the day I could tell he was stressed out. His shoulders were tight with tension and he had a bulging vein in his forehead that pretty much guaranteed he was going to be in a pissy mood later.I decided to do something nice for him to help him relax so I found something to make for dinner. We had been doing easy meals since we mostly ate in bed, but tonight I wanted to do something special and eat in the dining room. I spent most of the afternoon cooking and I couldn't wait to see his reaction. By the tim
HarlowIt took awhile, since Pierce is incredibly independent and apparently stubborn as well, but I was finally able to get him home. Pulling up to the mansion, knowing I would be staying here with him left me feeling settled in a way that I hadn't even before he let me go. Now I can say with absolute certainty that I'm here because I want to be. Not because he's forcing me. "Are you sure you don't just want to lay on the couch?" I ask him, eyeing the stairs nervously as he makes his way towards them.The spiral beauty has never looked so dangerous. "No, love. I want to lay in our bed with you." he says, kissing my head before grabbing the banister. I walk next to him, holding him up slightly as we go slowly towards the top. I don't rush him, knowing his pace may be slow for a few days. When we get to his room, I push open the door and the scent that hits me is a little off putting. I look around the room to see it practically in shreds, the sheets barely on the bed, clothes layin
PierceI feel like I'm floating. Like I can't feel my body. It's a strange sensation that reminds me of when I was put to sleep for surgery on my leg. I can't see anything. Or maybe I just can't open my eyes. I wonder where I am or what's happening. Then one singular word floats through my brain. Harlow"I'm right here, baby." I hear her voice float through space. "Harlow?" I ask. "Yes, Pierce. I'm right here." she says, her voice quiet and filled with emotion. I feel something then, a pressure against my hand. I try to move and close my fingers around hers and when I do, a small sob slips from her. "Why are you crying?" I ask, trying to blink my eyes open so I can see her. I just need to see her. "I was so worried." she says, and I can feel her move next to me as she leans down to press a kiss to my cheek. When she pulls away I'm wet with her tears and she wipes them away. "I'm sorry." I murmur, finally able to force my eyes open. I have to blink a few times, but she finally c
PierceAfter Etta left, part of me hoped that Harlow would come home. That my sister would tell her how utterly pathetic I am without her and she would take pity on me. Or at least realize that I meant every word I ever said to her. After a day or so, I manage to get up and do some work. I feel slightly better, but not much. I eat a little and shower again, but don't have the energy to get dressed so I throw on some boxers and collapse back onto my bed. I stare out my window for awhile, watching as fluffy snowflakes trickle towards the ground. I've always loved the snow. It seems like when the Earth is blanketed by snow, everything gets a little softer. Quieter. There's a kind of peace to it. I imagine having a snowball fight with Harlow. Watching her lay on the ground and make angels. I smile at the thought, even through the ache in my chest at the realization that I may never get to experience that. I hear something outside my door, a rustling and then some footsteps. My heart ki
HarlowFive days. It's been five days since Pierce left me in that parking lot and I haven't heard so much as a whisper from him. The shock wore off around the third day. Now I'm just pissed. And honestly, I'm holding on to that anger for dear life because I know when it wears off all that will be left is pain. And I'm not ready to feel the pain yet. Part of my processing has been going over his words again and again in my mind. I understand what he was saying. I don't even fault him for it, but he could have gone about it in a different way. A better way. But then part of me wonders if he even meant what he said. Maybe he just doesn't want me anymore. That's the painful part. Maybe after a few months together he realized I'm not as great as he thought I am. Maybe he got bored or even annoyed with me. Maybe he figured out that there really isn't anything special about me. I sigh and take another bite of ice cream. I went to the store yesterday. I've been eating my feelings so