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Chapter Four: Dream a Little Dream of…
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2021-09-04 19:15:28There I am in the white room again. Why the fuck do I keep dreaming with this? I walk towards the mirror again. My other version is there, but she is not alone. She is on someone’s bed, undressed, asleep. I try to call her, me, and I slap the mirror a few times, as hard as I can, but she does not listen to me. She looks… happy.
Someone else approaches the mirror, a tall, blonde figure, not more than forty years old, with only a towel around his waist. I watched every single detail on that handsome fella my other self seems to have slept with. His eyes are a really light brown, almost yellow, even, his skin is slightly tanned, he has a discreet pointy nose, and a gorgeous mouth, even though he has a scar from his left eyebrow that barely skips his eye and goes over his nose and disappears under his right jaw. He looks right at me, making me as red as a tomato. I let my shame go, and knock on the mirror, calling my own name, but he does not listen to me nor hears my calls.
As I gave up trying to get their attention, the man combed his hair back, which is short, but long enough to reach the back of his neck when completely combed back, and shaved on its sides. I have always said that is a perfect male haircut. He smiles, and I realize he is watching my other self through the mirror while she sleeps. She wakes up, smiling from ear to ear, while she stretches her body, that I could clearly see it was fitter than my body, because while she stretched, the thin sheets that covered her slid down as she was shamelessly naked underneath them.
When she looks at the mirror with a huge grin on her face, waiting to see her beau’s eyes, she looks straight at me and her satisfied face turns into a really terrified one. She sighs, looks at the blonde god (that’s what I’m calling him now), and says ‘She’s there, Leon. She needs to find me.’ Leon turns his eyes back to the mirror, seemingly trying to see me, when I realize only the other version of me can see me. She looks back at me, with a sad smile ‘Accept who you really are, and what you are looking at right now will be, Ky. Find me. Find us. Please, let it be true.’
I couldn’t answer, as I was pulled back to reality, drenched in my own sweat. I sit up and look around, finding myself alone in my bedroom. After what I’d dreamt, being alone right now seems just perfect. Never thought about being with another person. But that Leon guy seems fine. ‘More than fine… My hands on that six pack would be gladly lost in sin. Damn towel. I was naked, for fuck’s sake. Why wasn’t he?’ Lost in my naughty thoughts, I got depressed by the realization that it was only a dream.
I changed my bed linens and put the worn ones on a basket to wash them later, and chose my clothes for the day. It was eight a.m. and the weather was warm enough for a summer dress and a light cashmere, I was happy the weather was chaotic again, and I stared out the window for straight thirty minutes before undressing and hopping into the shower. I was in bed rest, not dead, and even though Sister Ophelia gave me thousands of life lessons on how much water I was spending by taking four really long showers a day, my showers and the fresh smell of clean body and hair were totally worth it.
As the water drenched my body and hair, I put my head back, trying to picture back the dream I just had. Focusing on Leon’s image, I dared my hand to go down on myself, with two fingers sliding back and forth on my clit, grinning as I felt myself entirely wet, not only by water. The thought of having such a man touching and kissing me everywhere was very strong, and as I let my imagination flow, I could actually feel Leon’s lips on my nipples, sucking and playfully biting them, his lips on my stomach, his eyes on me while he took his lips between my legs. I pushed myself to the limit by stroking my clit faster and felt the need to moan, but Theo could walk in at any minute, so I struggled to catch my breath and kept quiet, until I felt a release I have never felt before, as my legs shook, and as I could feel my entire vagina pumping and very sensitive, I felt the urge to stop and take my fingers out and realized they were entirely drenched from my own release, and for the first time in weeks I smiled, I was utterly satisfied with myself for the very first time. ‘Thank you, Leon…’ I grinned as I was proud of my newfound femininity.
That was new to me, I had never felt the desire to please myself, because this miserable place has beautiful boys, do not feel sorry for me, but they are as twisted and fucked up as they are beautiful. So, boys were never on my thoughts. My thoughts, especially after what Shane has done to me after the make out session in the broom closet, were to stay away from other people’s saliva or hormones, because shit gets messy.
As I tried to open the shampoo bottle, I cut my finger and flinched. ‘OUCH! You son of a…’
Realization came to me. I felt. I felt pain. I literally felt things. WHAT THE FUCK?
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Chrysalism Chapter Five: Painful
I got out of the shower, staring at my finger, as it gradually stopped bleeding, unable to stop thinking about the feeling of an actual cut. My finger burned, even though it was a really small cut, but it had a beating, as if my heart was pumping right there on that tiny opening on my hand. I had my finals beginning in two days, and I'd see my classmates for the first time after Sister Ophelia put me in quarantine, as if I had a deadly virus no one could ever get in touch with, only Theo and her.I spent the last two days of lockdown studying. By the next day, the cut in my finger was done, just the scar was left behind, as all other cuts I suffered throughout my life. I couldn’t pay enough attention to the goddamn books, because the pain I felt was unusual. Have I been misdiagnosed? Was CIP curable? Did that mean that I was going to actually suffer when Clarissa beat me up?
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-04Chrysalism Chapter Six: Sacrifice
+++ Trigger alert! Remember, this book contains serious subjects who might be disturbing for some. This chapter is a tough one. You have been warned. +++ ‘What the fuck are you doing in the dark, Shawn? And what the fuck are you doing in my room?’ Trying to calm myself and heavily breathing, I turned the lights on and took four, maybe five steps back away from him. I crossed my arms, waiting for his response. But he just stared at me, he didn’t say anything. Then I noticed his swollen eyes and red nose. He had been crying. He had both of his arms down, covered on his long sleeves as they always were, but blood was dripping from his fingers. ‘WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?’ I screamed. I ran towards him, while he was sliding his back down against the wall, sitting down. ‘She is going to kill you, Ky. I won’t let you go alone.’ ‘No one is doing nothing to anyone. Why the fuck are you with that bitch if you are so worried a
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-10Chrysalism Chapter Seven: Brutta Sensazione
Week was hell. We were done with finals, Shawn’s suicide attempt was the only thing people could talk about and even though everyone that is in here had a sob story, I was the sob story of the week. But I didn’t cry, I couldn’t, even. I felt… numb. Clarissa and Jessica were nowhere to be seen. I didn’t know what to think about it, if it was good I was still alive of if she was researching ways of killing me without leaving traces on the internet. The night before the trip, with my things already packed, Theo and I went to our favorite place: the hill on the back of the castle. It had nothing, but a huge empty field, and grass was mowed that morning, it was perfect to sit there, as we usually did every other day, to stare at the ocean and the beautiful endless horizon, talking about things we’d do once we got out of that place. Graduation party was happening after we got home from Italy. Breathing the summer air and the fresh grass, we sat there in silence for a long time.
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-11Chrysalism Chapter Eight: Sour
There are moments in life where you should embrace whatever is happening, good or bad, and appreciate the lesson it is giving you. I wish there weren’t as many bad things for me to learn from, but everything that has happened has lead me here. I know I’m not making any sense right now, but I promise I will tell you all about it as we go. As my feet touched Italian grounds, and I could breathe the fresh summer air, I felt at ease. As if I were home. That good feeling has lasted ten steps, until I tripped in front of my whole class, thanks to Jessica’s foot purposely on my way. Trying to hold on to something, I scraped my hands on the floor and took a while to stand up, as I was still getting used to the pain. I murmured a curse as I realized that several of my things that were inside my purse, now were scattered on the floor, and Theo helped me up, looking at Jessica with murder eyes. ‘Watch it, big foot.’ She pushed the tiny posh girl on her shoulder. She looked at F
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-25Chrysalism Chapter Nine: Origins
Composure, discipline, politeness. Everything the Orphanage has taught me went down the drain as I screamed bloody murder to both women standing in front of me. My body shook, my eyes did not produce tears anymore as hatred consumed every bone in my body. I have dreamt about knowing where I came from for so long, I gave up dreaming about it. My life was empty and pointless, and I embraced the feeling of having being abandoned. That was who I was, for the past seventeen years, a nobody. So, when someone knocks on my door claiming the only adult I trusted was a relative and the fact someone abandoned me ‘had an explanation’ it should be a good one. Or I would be capable of murder. ‘Kyla, you will not talk to her like that! You know better than to curse, than to use those fowl words in front of me! I have kept things from you but that is no excuse...’ Sister Ophelia rose from her seat while giving me a lecture, but I interrupted her, and her face was terrified, as I rising from
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Both women looked at me, expecting some kind of response. Who would have things to say after all of that information being thrown at you like a hot potato? ‘Why now? You could have left me there to keep being human. To carry on as a normal person. I have a future planned out for me. I was unhappy for seventeen years, and after almost finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel you show up? You tell me all of those things as if I was supposed to throw my arms around you and all would be forgiven? What is wrong with you people? Why did you give birth to me if I was to be a burden on your lives? You left me to get punched, kicked, slapped, cut, verbally abused. You left me in hell. WHY DID YOU GIVE ME LIFE IF I WASN’T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE?’ There went all the rage at once. The feelings I never allowed to have come to surface as a tsunami. I shook, my face was red out of hatred but I couldn’t cry. I was mad at all of this. Elsbeth reached out for a string of my hair th
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-27Chrysalism Chapter Eleven: In Charge
I was out for many hours, talking to Asten, that I lost track of time. I got back to the room about three a.m. and had only four hours to sleep to be able to join everyone on the city tour. I was going to bail on it anyway, there was no way I was going sightseeing with my entire future at stake. Pun intended. Vampires, wooden stakes… got it? Asten left me on my doorstep and kissed my forehead to bid me farewell. He explained he had to go back to the clan headquarters because duty was calling. Thanks to him I was able to find out who Ophelia really was as a person, and it turned out she was just the same as she had always been with me. Stubborn, but open minded, strong, but aware of her age and her limits. She lied to me, in order to protect me. I felt a sudden guilt as Asten bragged about his mum on our night walk, she was just doing what she thought it was right. I couldn’t sleep that night, as I had plenty of sleep during the day, so I read a copy of It I bought in Italian
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2021-09-28Chrysalism Chapter Twelve: Dilectus
We sat on that balcony for hours. Elsbeth has told me her life as a seer, how hard it was for her to keep her distance from Rikkard and why she was able to conceive me. Apparently, vampires have something they call Dilectus. A soulmate, their beloved... Someone made to complete them. Only one, for the rest of the eternity. A lover to make eternal life less unbearable. They could only conceive with their Dilectus, and that is the only reason our kind has so little members. Many vampires were to be discovered throughout the world. It was only 50 years from now that technology was able to help our kind to find one another, and luckily, our community was growing by the minute. Asten’s job was no game, he was in charge of seeking news all over the world about people with our abilities. Since I was a hybrid, being born from a seer and a normal vampire, there were many things I could be, or do. I could inherit my mother’s power, or not at all. By telling her about the dreams I had
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Chrysalism Chapter Thirteen: Famous Last Words
Kyla had many reasons to run out the door: She’d have to endure a ritual that would hurt the shit out of her for seven whole days, there was an ancient (although very handsome) fella telling her she was the love of his life, her entire life was shit because she was abandoned and now, she had a shit ton of people who came out of thin air calling her family and the last, but not least… There were vampires in the world and she was one of them, who was never meant to be born. Mayhem was numbing her thoughts as she was staring at the beach from her bedroom windows. She didn’t know what to think anymore. Her entire life was planned out and she had no saying in it other than going to college. She’d live practically forever and she hadn’t planned on living that long. She hadn’t planned living as a creature she only read about in books, who were incredibly wrong about their species, by the way. The only thing she could do at that moment was to open the balcony door and put her feet o
Chrysalism Chapter Twelve: Dilectus
We sat on that balcony for hours. Elsbeth has told me her life as a seer, how hard it was for her to keep her distance from Rikkard and why she was able to conceive me. Apparently, vampires have something they call Dilectus. A soulmate, their beloved... Someone made to complete them. Only one, for the rest of the eternity. A lover to make eternal life less unbearable. They could only conceive with their Dilectus, and that is the only reason our kind has so little members. Many vampires were to be discovered throughout the world. It was only 50 years from now that technology was able to help our kind to find one another, and luckily, our community was growing by the minute. Asten’s job was no game, he was in charge of seeking news all over the world about people with our abilities. Since I was a hybrid, being born from a seer and a normal vampire, there were many things I could be, or do. I could inherit my mother’s power, or not at all. By telling her about the dreams I had
Chrysalism Chapter Eleven: In Charge
I was out for many hours, talking to Asten, that I lost track of time. I got back to the room about three a.m. and had only four hours to sleep to be able to join everyone on the city tour. I was going to bail on it anyway, there was no way I was going sightseeing with my entire future at stake. Pun intended. Vampires, wooden stakes… got it? Asten left me on my doorstep and kissed my forehead to bid me farewell. He explained he had to go back to the clan headquarters because duty was calling. Thanks to him I was able to find out who Ophelia really was as a person, and it turned out she was just the same as she had always been with me. Stubborn, but open minded, strong, but aware of her age and her limits. She lied to me, in order to protect me. I felt a sudden guilt as Asten bragged about his mum on our night walk, she was just doing what she thought it was right. I couldn’t sleep that night, as I had plenty of sleep during the day, so I read a copy of It I bought in Italian
Chrysalism Chapter Ten: Gelato
Both women looked at me, expecting some kind of response. Who would have things to say after all of that information being thrown at you like a hot potato? ‘Why now? You could have left me there to keep being human. To carry on as a normal person. I have a future planned out for me. I was unhappy for seventeen years, and after almost finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel you show up? You tell me all of those things as if I was supposed to throw my arms around you and all would be forgiven? What is wrong with you people? Why did you give birth to me if I was to be a burden on your lives? You left me to get punched, kicked, slapped, cut, verbally abused. You left me in hell. WHY DID YOU GIVE ME LIFE IF I WASN’T EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE HERE?’ There went all the rage at once. The feelings I never allowed to have come to surface as a tsunami. I shook, my face was red out of hatred but I couldn’t cry. I was mad at all of this. Elsbeth reached out for a string of my hair th
Chrysalism Chapter Nine: Origins
Composure, discipline, politeness. Everything the Orphanage has taught me went down the drain as I screamed bloody murder to both women standing in front of me. My body shook, my eyes did not produce tears anymore as hatred consumed every bone in my body. I have dreamt about knowing where I came from for so long, I gave up dreaming about it. My life was empty and pointless, and I embraced the feeling of having being abandoned. That was who I was, for the past seventeen years, a nobody. So, when someone knocks on my door claiming the only adult I trusted was a relative and the fact someone abandoned me ‘had an explanation’ it should be a good one. Or I would be capable of murder. ‘Kyla, you will not talk to her like that! You know better than to curse, than to use those fowl words in front of me! I have kept things from you but that is no excuse...’ Sister Ophelia rose from her seat while giving me a lecture, but I interrupted her, and her face was terrified, as I rising from
Chrysalism Chapter Eight: Sour
There are moments in life where you should embrace whatever is happening, good or bad, and appreciate the lesson it is giving you. I wish there weren’t as many bad things for me to learn from, but everything that has happened has lead me here. I know I’m not making any sense right now, but I promise I will tell you all about it as we go. As my feet touched Italian grounds, and I could breathe the fresh summer air, I felt at ease. As if I were home. That good feeling has lasted ten steps, until I tripped in front of my whole class, thanks to Jessica’s foot purposely on my way. Trying to hold on to something, I scraped my hands on the floor and took a while to stand up, as I was still getting used to the pain. I murmured a curse as I realized that several of my things that were inside my purse, now were scattered on the floor, and Theo helped me up, looking at Jessica with murder eyes. ‘Watch it, big foot.’ She pushed the tiny posh girl on her shoulder. She looked at F
Chrysalism Chapter Seven: Brutta Sensazione
Week was hell. We were done with finals, Shawn’s suicide attempt was the only thing people could talk about and even though everyone that is in here had a sob story, I was the sob story of the week. But I didn’t cry, I couldn’t, even. I felt… numb. Clarissa and Jessica were nowhere to be seen. I didn’t know what to think about it, if it was good I was still alive of if she was researching ways of killing me without leaving traces on the internet. The night before the trip, with my things already packed, Theo and I went to our favorite place: the hill on the back of the castle. It had nothing, but a huge empty field, and grass was mowed that morning, it was perfect to sit there, as we usually did every other day, to stare at the ocean and the beautiful endless horizon, talking about things we’d do once we got out of that place. Graduation party was happening after we got home from Italy. Breathing the summer air and the fresh grass, we sat there in silence for a long time.
Chrysalism Chapter Six: Sacrifice
+++ Trigger alert! Remember, this book contains serious subjects who might be disturbing for some. This chapter is a tough one. You have been warned. +++ ‘What the fuck are you doing in the dark, Shawn? And what the fuck are you doing in my room?’ Trying to calm myself and heavily breathing, I turned the lights on and took four, maybe five steps back away from him. I crossed my arms, waiting for his response. But he just stared at me, he didn’t say anything. Then I noticed his swollen eyes and red nose. He had been crying. He had both of his arms down, covered on his long sleeves as they always were, but blood was dripping from his fingers. ‘WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOURSELF?’ I screamed. I ran towards him, while he was sliding his back down against the wall, sitting down. ‘She is going to kill you, Ky. I won’t let you go alone.’ ‘No one is doing nothing to anyone. Why the fuck are you with that bitch if you are so worried a
Chrysalism Chapter Five: Painful
I got out of the shower, staring at my finger, as it gradually stopped bleeding, unable to stop thinking about the feeling of an actual cut. My finger burned, even though it was a really small cut, but it had a beating, as if my heart was pumping right there on that tiny opening on my hand. I had my finals beginning in two days, and I'd see my classmates for the first time after Sister Ophelia put me in quarantine, as if I had a deadly virus no one could ever get in touch with, only Theo and her.I spent the last two days of lockdown studying. By the next day, the cut in my finger was done, just the scar was left behind, as all other cuts I suffered throughout my life. I couldn’t pay enough attention to the goddamn books, because the pain I felt was unusual. Have I been misdiagnosed? Was CIP curable? Did that mean that I was going to actually suffer when Clarissa beat me up?
