My place in the world had always been chosen for me. My father the Alpha, my mother the Luna, and me, the future ruler of Half Moon pack. It had all been mapped out and it was my job to obey and follow his instruction.I’d known from a young age that the weight of responsibility would pass down to me. Despite knowing how that worked out in my previous lives, I clung to it, clung to responsibility, clung to my future title. It was the only thing I would have in this world.So I worked my ass off, slept around, and did as I was told. I did everything to be considered worthy of my pack. I did everything I could to be seen as worthy in my father’s eyes so that our agreement would be considered null. I would sacrifice, I would do anything to keep her safe even if she couldn’t stand me.My parents held no love for me, although I had a soft spot for my mother, I only had room in my heart for my sister. My kindness, my understanding only covered her. There were many things I grew up knowing I
Instinct told me to rip his throat out, slice his belly open, and pull his entrails out. I came to a stop, I stopped myself from making another move. As much as I wanted to kill him I couldn’t. Devin was my best friend. Even though pure hatred flowed through my blood, it isn’t his fault I haven’t told him about my feelings for Adea. The only person who could have suspected how I felt about Adea was too focused on herself. I loved my sister but she was dense. She didn’t notice the obvious, or she didn’t want to.I haven’t told anyone, but I thought I’d make it obvious that she was my play thing. I played with her, I couldn’t help it. I loved seeing the anger that flashed in her eyes when I did. It was the one time she dared look me in the eyes and I loved it when she challenged me. I needed her will to fight over her need to submit for me.I willed Max back and reminded him that this was Devin, our closest friend, our oldest friend, and our Beta. I would show him who Adea belonged to a
Shane4 years agoI didn’t like to listen to anyone, but Mavy could order me around and I’d listen. She demanded that I come with her to the hospital because she didn’t want to go alone. I hated hospitals and she knew it. I hated everything about them. The beeping noises, the smell of medicine, the sound of high heels click-clacking on the floor, and the smell of the dead that stained the walls. Mavy pulled on my arm as she whined about how slow I walked.“Hurry up, Shane! You’re not even trying!” Mavy yelled.“How would you know? You’re rushing like she’s going to leave,” I teased.“Shane,” Mavy warned.“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I’m coming, I’m coming,” I grumbled.“Walk like you want to get there today, not tomorrow,” Mavy whined.“It’s not like she’s going to be awake! We’ve been visiting all week and she hasn’t so much as twitched,” I said.I didn’t care that she hadn’t woken up yet. I didn’t like seeing her like that. I didn’t like knowing that she had been hurt so bad that she couldn’t
Adea has been living with us for two weeks now. She’s nothing like how I remember. It’s hard not to try and put her into the same box as the version of her I know. In this life, she is clumsy and no matter how hard she tries, she keeps making a mess. Her food isn’t too bad, but I try to avoid her as much as possible. Keeping my distance is hard because Mavy drags me along when they hang out. I pretend I don’t want to, but I like it when she makes me go. I’m sitting in my room throwing my basketball up into the air and catching it when Mom knocks on my door. She opens the door and peeks her head in.“Your father needs to speak with you,” she said.My throat constricts and I clench my jaw. Sitting up, I drop the ball to the floor and stand to my feet as it bounces. Mom steps out of the room and I start for the door. As I walk down the hallway, my father links me. Why have my mother come get me if he’s just going to link me?Come to my office, son.Yes, Alpha.Now.Coming.He cuts the li
“It’s not what it looks like. I didn’t mean to use that much force. Before I could help her, she got up and ran away,” I said. It sounded like an excuse. I wasn’t dumb, but I would at least answer truthfully.“We don’t hit females. Ever. Men shouldn’t use their strength against the weaker sex,” Father said. “And if you do, you do it in the privacy of your own home, not in the fucking open where the whole damn fucking pack will hear about it!”His restraint is hanging on by a thread. His wolf is also angry with me. He always give me the bullshit excuse about how we don’t hit females because they are the lesser sex, but look at him now. Today he admitted the truth. My mother doesn’t help me, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel for her. I know that’s not the real reason he’s angry. I’ve embarrassed him. I lower my head and pretend to cower under his gaze, but I smirk.“I wasn’t trying to hurt her—”“You disappoint me,” Father said. My mom sobs.As if I could fucking care.Why is she cryin
ShanePresent DayAfter that day on the stairs, I couldn’t stay away from her. Even though I couldn’t have her the way that I wanted to have her, I needed her in my life. I needed to see her, touch her, hear her voice. So I did what every other boy did to girls they liked, I bullied her. She wouldn’t look at me if I didn’t piss her off. She wouldn’t give me the time of day if I didn’t say something that irritated her and I loved it. I loved seeing that familiar fire burning in her eyes. It reminded me of the girl I knew, the girl I knew she was deep deep down.Just the memory of her scent drove me crazy, it sent Max into a frenzy, so unless I could be in the same room with her the rest of my day was complete shit. I woke up early and made sure not to miss a single breakfast just so I could get that time with her.This morning I couldn’t help but touch her. Having her sitting so close to me, I moved before my brain could stop it. I made her uncomfortable, I made her nervous, and it mea
My bag was heavy as I walked down the hallway with Devin and Liam. They realized where we were going when we took a different turn. I made a habit out of going to seeing my sister at her first class. When I picked the guys up this morning, the first thing that Liam had asked was if Mavy needed a ride to school.My sister thought that Trent was her mate. I let her do her thing, but kept a close eye on them. Liam's infatuation with my sister was weird, but fine. I knew how he felt about her, but I also knew he would never act on it. If I’m being honest, I would prefer Mavy with Liam than her “Goddess-chosen” mate. Not only do I know care for the Moon Goddess, I don’t give one fuck about who she chooses us.My mate is someone I chose.Then and now.I wanted him to know where she was, keep tabs on her, and protect her if she needed. Mavy was an extension of myself. What the guys did for me, I expected them to do for her as well. I told them Mavy drove over with Trent and I wanted to make
AdeaI’ve been thinking about Shane all day. His reaction at breakfast caught me off guard. I don’t know what his problem is. What is he thinking? I know what he’s thinking. He thinks I’m fun to play around with and I hate that he thinks he can push me around. It’s only gotten worse since his text came in. I almost spat up my food when I received his message. He enjoyed taunting me even here, midst a table full of our friends.What would he have to talk to me about?What if I didn’t go?What would happen if I didn’t show up?Why did he touch me?The fact that we were sitting at a table full of people didn’t stop him from touching me. He did what he wanted without care. I ignored the way my heart pounded, but I couldn’t hide the goosebumps that had spread up my back and along my arms. I shouldn’t be able to lie to myself, but still, I did.Mavy spent the entirety of lunch talking about the ball with Nikki. She was the third in our group. I preferred to keep to myself at school, but Nik
Odis takes a step to the side, and the crowd’s attention turns to me and my mate. As my gaze travels over them, their cheeks stained, their eyes are shocked, and blood splattered at their feet. A lot has happened and everything is moving so quickly now. I don’t know what I was expecting to happen after Shane killed Ethan. I thought everything would go back to the way it always should have been. Becoming Luna and taking over a pack wasn’t what I had in mind. My mate turns to leave, but Odis block him. “Move,” Shane growled. Odis tucked his chin, but held eye contact. “While I am not your chosen Beta, I will hold this position until you choose your own,” Odis growled. “I’ve already got a lineup. Your services are no longer needed,” Shane said coldly. “Until it’s official then,” Odis replied firmly. “Please allow me to have my-to have the remains moved.” My mate went still. He didn’t look back at the body, and I didn’t either. His gaze remained on Odis. “Permission granted,” Shane sa
I love you.I love you.I love you.The words repeat in my mind and I struggle with not linking him. Shane’s eyes widen as he takes in the words that are on repeat in my mind. It’s utter chaos up there, and I don’t want him to hear any of it. His head tilts to the side in question, as if he can’t believe what I just said, and his brows furrow. Shane’s fingers dig into my side as he pulls me flush against his chest. My heart is beating so loud I’d be surprised if he couldn’t hear it. The curse’s broken, the true villain defeated and dead at our feet. It restored the way things always should have been. There’s nothing in our way, and we can finally be together. I have my mate’s full attention as screams of despair ensue behind him.
“Do you know how many times I’ve killed you? You won in the first life, but I made it my mission, to end every one of yours after. I’ve become the villain so many times, I don’t know if I can be the hero. I don’t know if I can be the man she deserves. What I do know is that I’m the man she’s got…,” Shane trailed off. His shoulders shook and I wondered if he was crying, when he started laughing.“I should not atone for sins I know nothing of. This is not the way an alpha should run a pack. There was no trial, and I wasn’t given the opportunity to defend myself,” Ethan grunted.“Defend?” Shane asked incredulously. “Defend?! At what point did you give my mate the opportunity to defend herself? Was there a single moment in the time she spent shackled to you that you gave her a reprieve? On the nights she begged you to stop, did you?&rdq
As the unwanted feeling began welling up inside of me, I wanted to slap myself across the face. I needed to do something to snap out of it, anything to shake this feeling. Ethan’s face started to grow pale and my hands trembled as I stared at the man I’d spent lifetimes with. I wanted him gone, I didn’t want to see his face any longer. The sooner the better, before this disgusting feeling could grow any larger than it already had. I had asked Shane to take his time and make Ethan’s blood run, but now I just wanted him gone, erased from my memory, erased from this life.I wanted him to suffer as I had, but no amount of torturing would make him feel what I had felt. Nothing Shane did could make him feel what I was going through now that I had all of my memories back. Nothing could make the wrongs he’s done right and I hate that I know this. My throat dries as Shane grabs a handful of hair and the largest part of me that loves him a
“Watch as I kill the man that cursed us,” Shane murmured.Everything clicks into place and my mate’s glowing eyes stare back at me. I lean up and press a kiss to his chin. Shane’s breathing shutters and he devours my lips as I cry. His hand slides up my neck and cups my cheek. I nuzzle into it, but he releases me too soon. My knees are weak and I sway on my feet without him. Turning to look down at Ethan, I follow Shane’s gaze and take in the man on his knees. His hair is in his face, blood drips down the side of his face, and oozes down his body. He’s losing a lot of it and fast.“The two of you need help,” Ethan spat.“I don’t think you’ve got much time left,” I said to Shane.I should sick at the sight of what Shane has done to him, but all I can think about is how fate still brought us together. Even as Shane fought for me, it was as if this was all a fairy tale story with a shitty ending. And somewhere out there, an author was getting off on our pain. That, or the Moon Goddess pu
My mate’s shoulders shake and he rolls his head back until he’s looking up at the sky. He closes his eyes and a tear breaks free and rolls down his cheek. He laughs hysterically before his head drops forward. The muscles in his jaw twitched before he lifts his chin and he looks at me with haunted eyes.“Now I know I’m dreaming, but I pray I never wake,” Shane murmured.How is it that even after I tell him I’ve remembered, he still can’t believe me? My soul bled for him as more tears blurred my vision. Would I ever be able to make it up to him? He turns from me as people poured from the halls and into the courtyard. A crowd was forming around us and worry filled me as I feared for my mate. We were on Ethan’s territory, surrounded by his pack, and soon his ranked members would be here. I could only hope the law in place for alpha fights kept them back.“Shane,&
Hate. I hate myself. Self-loathing filled me and threatened to explode. I felt like I was going to combust. How? How has he done it? How can he still stand to touch me, to be near me? Just the thought of what I’ve done is enough to make me sick. I’m disgusted with myself. This world is getting blurry and I focus on the moon above. I’m out of air, out of the will to live, out of time. I don’t deserve it, I shouldn’t want it, I shouldn’t dare, but I do. I wish to see him. I want… I want to see those obsidian eyes one last time. My hands fall to my side as my head lolls to the side.There’s a roar that cuts through my thoughts and fills the garden. The hand around my throat loosens as green eyes turn from me and for the first time oxygen fills my lungs. Little breaths of air as I suck in more and more air. I follow his gaze, my eyes locking on the open door. Light spills out from the party and a dark shadow fills the doorway. My body convulses as my eyes lock on obsidian eyes. Betrayal s
I’m ripped away from him, my chest flush against a table, fingers prodding me. I shake my head and claw at the table. Tears fill my eyes and the feel of his body against mine makes me want to vomit. I hate him. The world spins and I’m begging my best friend to take me. He does what I need. Helps me erase the vile touch from my body. He takes what’s promised to another.I want him. I choose him. They know. They’re going after him. They already have him. Obey or he dies. That’s what father said. My heart screams for me to run and find him, but my mind controls my feet. I’ll do whatever I have to. He comes for me. I beg him to take me away, beg him to run away together. He can’t, no, he won’t. My heart shatters as he walks away.Hell. I’m in hell. My feet land on the ground as the monster drives into me from behind. I scream and wail. I want to wake up now. Let me out. I don’t want to be here. A firm had wraps around my neck and squeezes as I’m torn apart from the inside out. I don’t lik
“What have you done?” Ethan whispered. Green eyes were wide with shock and his brows arched high, as he shook his head. The claws that had dug into my shoulder were now scratching at his chest. They were sharper than any blade and ripped at his shirt. Blood gushed as he tore at his chest. I took a step away from him, completely confused. We were fated to be mates but there had been no pain. Why? I’d heard rejecting your mate was the most painful thing that a wolf could go through. Ethan’s eyes flashed and he was on me, his blood soaked shirt squelched against my chin. I shoved my hands against his abdomen to try and push him off.“I cannot lose you,” he breathed.“You never had me,” I said honestly.“Who you were seeing before me doesn’t concern me,” he growled. “What matters is that today you became mine.”