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Lana’s POV
Winter has been welcomed and all of the aurae is jammed with snowflakes. As I walked back to my home from work, I inhaled deeply. I was tired yet motivated but don’t know for how long. Right now, passing by beautiful houses dressed with lights and decors made me purse my lips where my inner self accosted me about my poverty but I blurred out before it gave me a fit.
Today, I was late home because of workload. It’s been so long I haven’t slept peacefully. I just wish to sleep a whole day without worrying about our financial crisis. It’s depressing to wake up with the thought of no longer supplies left. I’m no longer born yesterday kiddo, Our hurdles made me older than my age. I have a school in the morning and work in the evening. My routine left me no fun. I’m working hard to meet our expenses with my parents. I can’t buy whatever I like, I lame excuse to myself; I lie, I avoid buying unnecessary stuff and save it for my future because only if I’m working passionately it’s for my dream to change into reality.
I reached my home with a war of words in mind, I ignorantly unlocked the door and stepped in. It was pin-drop silence in here like every time, everyone must be asleep by now. I carefully removed my shoes and pitapatted towards my bedroom. I don’t wanna wake them up at 1.
Closing my room’s door; I rested behind it for a while and sighed loudly. I placed my bag on the study table. My eyes catch a glance of itself in the desk mirror.
Oh hell! What the heck is this!? dark circles around my eyes like they own land, skin looked so paled and… and I look at a bag of bones. My brows tightened with vexation. Why am I being so hard on myself?
“I better need a break.” Heard a voice in me
I sighed loudly with my head tilted back and went to the bathroom. I splashed water on my face for continuous 10 seconds but it didn’t help my frustration, “ahh” I groaned and faced the mirror but my anxiety was still the same
I did my business and jumped into my PJs. I strolled out and fall back to my bed. I was facing the ceiling and staring at it for a long time. I was again lost in my deep mind, I kept myself locked in my brain-cage till It started shouting my failures on me. I didn’t notice that a tear left my eye without my permission. I wiped it off, took a deep breath where I defeated it back and tamed my devils down. My eyes were closed. Overthinking was giving me a hard time. I shook my head and forced myself to fall into darkness of eternity.
It took me a few minutes but I managed to dive in
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Next Morning
6:15 AM
*alarm buzzing*
My visions blurred out and a screechy voice took over, it was wake up dead call,
“Ahh!” I whined under my pillow “not now!,” my voice came out as groggy as I soliloquy in frustration. Grant me a break! Why can’t I have a day off from everything and live like normal kids? My life is so boring, I never had picnic day with my family or… or night-overs with my friends. All of them are so lucky, They have nothing to worry about, so why not me? All they worry about is what to wear, what to eat and I, getting ready for my school then billing people’s groceries.
I grumbled in a low voice. My head was still spinning, I wanna sleep more. I closed my eyes and let my slumber destroy 10 mins of my future but as I said, I’m not allowed to live like normals; my alarm buzzed again and I knee-jerked my hand to it.
With an immense amount of courage, I gingerly opened my eyes; to avoid headache but not a chance, that pinching sunlight caught my eyes and made me squint, It will blind me off someday.
I got up with a puff out and sat on my bed for a minute. I rubbed my eyes then cupped my face with my hands. I stood up like a dead-zombie and poodled to the bathroom, attended my nature call and did my morning routine, “Morning again” I parroted to myself,
Just in my same dead-zombie style, I went to the closet, quickly scanned it whole, and took a simple black tee with blue skinny jeans and white sneakers. Even these simple clothes look classy on me I thought to myself while eyeing in the mirror. I observed some requirements on my face need to be done. I unzipped my mini-makeup box and put some balm on my lips, cream on my face and here I’m ready to go.
I went downstairs and saw my parents in the kitchen, laughing and helping each other. This is so sweet, I always dream to have the love of my life like my dad, he’s so caring and loving to his wife; my mum. Watching them together always optimizes me to keep my standards high, I'm surely not a person who'd settle for less. Even if my house faced poverty didn't mean that we were poor in everything, we had love as our strength and hope. And to change my family's circumstances, I decided to work in such a small age, despite repeatedly I debated with my dad regarding this but he never wanted me to work and extremely objected it though, but I being the other side of the coin was stubborn enough to work hard and save money for the future. Also, to be responsible in the terms of finances for any tomorrow. How long will I remain dependant on my parents?
“Sweetheart, I see you’re awake!” My dad exclaimed happily.
“Yes dad, just leaving soon, I have an important class” I politely replied him with a fake smile and hands rubbing each other to counterbalance with the cold temperature
“Hey hey hey, slow down my little munchkin. Actually mommy and I have something to share with you, can we?” he asked unnecessarily asked my permission which he already knew the answer. The suspense only heightened my nervousness
“um yeah sure,” I gulped
“We know baby how tired you’re and you have been for a quite long time actually, trust us, mommy and I see it all and we deeply care for you as you're our first daughter, you are my ray of hope" He assured me their love with his motivational pitch including his hand reaching to my opposing shoulder and lightly pushing me to interlock in his embrace. When I to completely got into his reach, he continued, "My little darling, We understand your craze for Spain and truly respect it. Even your mommy pleaded me to fulfil your wish. So, we decided to give you guys a trip of Spain on your birthday which is happening this coming winter vacations. I absolutely believe you will love it. ” He delivered those doubtful words to my ears which could certainly give me a critical heart attack, this shouldn't be a prank or a joke because I can't keep up if this is, they know how serious I'm about it. I arched my brows on their statement, knowing that I couldn't believe; they both smiled widely, slightly opposing a grin equally.
Dad tightened his hand around my shoulders and lightly chuckled, I gasped in suspicion “I'm not joking darling, don't give me that look." he kept assuring me but I needed proof to stable my rapid beater, "Since it’s almost a month away, I want you to know to keep focusing on your exams because this is your last year and you have to perform well in order to get the treat,” he informed me, slightly giving me a chance to doubt his previous words.
This time when he saw my horrific face which was out of colours, he laughed wholeheartedly making mum shook her head in disbelief or was she equally participated in teasing me. I frowned on their behaviours - taking an audible breath frequently. "I'm kidding girl, we will go there no matter what, don't take it on your weak heart!" my mum cleared my confusion and I sighed in relief.
When I gave mind a time to process, it jumped in happiness, my body acted the same as my feelings. “wait wait wait! Let me process this all, whoa (chuckle), this all is too much to disgust at once, I mean are you serious? Are we going? REALLY!?” I cluttered,
“Yes, we are, silly head?” Mum made sure that I heard it and when I did, I threw my hands in the air like a maniac getting freedom from an asylum,
“Thank you so much mom, dad, I mean… I don’t have words to say how happy and excited I’m already! it’s gonna be the best for sure. You guys are the best thing that happened to me” I screamed,
I embraced both of them once and kissed on their cheeks, making them giggle “YES YES YES, the best day of my life, we are going, we are coming, I’m coming Spain, woohoo,” I chanted and jumped, I saw dad shook him head with a chuckle where I gave mom a wink. I bounded; making my way to the door because I don’t wanna be late, “Goodbye fellas, see you tonight!” I waved at them with bright teeth, they replied back. With that, I walked to school.
All-day, I was smiling to myself, my thoughts were unstoppable. I was too happy that finally, FINALLY. my dream is coming true. I being in Spain, I can’t wait for next weekend. IT’S ALL IS SO GOOD TO BE TRUEEEE!
My 18th birthday in the middle week of June. how am I gonna spend these weeks when I know how badass my coming Mondays are but wait! I need to apply an application for leave. Alright, I’ll do it today so they don’t refuse me later, or I still don’t care if they refuse me, it won't stop me going there. Naah, nothing is precious to me in front of my thing.
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A month passed
Time was my greatest enemy during this whole month which clearly felt like a century to live. I remember how I had spent every second of it in impatience; studied hard to win dad's assurance that I'm actually way much concerned in going Spain, I had counted days for this day, and finally, the arrived!
Today’s gonna be the best and most beautiful day of my life, the most awaited moment has arrived and I wish it never goes away, stays like this forever but even the quality time has to fade away, time stops for no one. *sigh* a sad reality of it,
Just packed all of my stuff, some sexy bikinis (it’s gonna be hot, right), some amazing dresses I bought for this trip and my necessaries. My entire family was going and there’s nothing better than this. I stepped towards the lounge where my sight met my kinsfolks. My kiddos fighting over uno and I know as always, Ethan might be cheating again just the way he does every time.
“Mom! It’s not fair, he always cheats and now, he won’t let me touch the cards,” Miley crying her eyes out
“Ethan, again you made your sister cry, apologize to her now! why do you do this to your little sister, my wise one? You know, bad boys misbehave and you are not a bad boy, right?” Mom rebuked him
“But mom, she always makes a fuss, why can’t she be decent,” he counter-questioned,
“What you’ll do is what she will learn. So, it’s up to you whether you mend it or end it. No questioning now. say sorry,” she said authoritatively,
“I’m sorry Mil, but you make a fuss and it’s clear,” mum shushed,
“Hey hey guys, take a chill pill, you both know, how important this day is for me,” I looked down inquiring their eyes,
“Yes Ana, we know, sorry for spoiling,” they both said in unison which made me laugh,
“Oh, cuties it’s alright. Now, we better start putting luggage in the car, guess who doesn’t wanna miss flight?” I made sure, and they both answered.
Our uncle agreed on dropping us to the airport. We inquired about the lock system of our house. Making sure the safety was safe, we headed to the airport. My inner self was on cloud nine. I left my worries behind and took a deep breath on my journey of pursuit of passion.
We reached the airport in 30 mins. We finally stepped. We headed towards the boarding gates, yay! We got checked-in and guided towards our plane. We arranged our bag-packs in the space bins and settling in our seats before the flight start,
Oh, I’m so excited, I can’t believe I’m already living my dream. Is it true? Am I being in this plane for real? Going to the dream place, why can’t my mind process it, maybe it is so good to be true.
“Ladies and gentlemen, welcome onboard Flight AA3421 with service from Houston to Madrid. We are currently third in line for take-off and are expected to be in the air in approximately seven minutes’ time. We ask that you please fasten your seatbelts at this time and secure all baggage underneath your seat or in the overhead compartments. We also ask that your seats and table trays are in the upright position for take-off. Please turn off all personal electronic devices, including laptops and cell phones. Smoking is prohibited for the duration of the flight. Thank you for choosing Mountain Airlines. Enjoy your flight.”
The plane took off. This entire flight is going to 12 hrs and 45 mins. I took the window seat; I wanted to see how a beautiful world looks from above. It was all cloudy and several times I saw water downland. We are leaving the water behind and nearing paradise; I checked the time; it was 9:18 AM. 12 Hours is a hell of a time, I mental-pictured
I better take a nap. I closed my eyes and let dreams of sugar overtake me.
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Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Adolfo Suárez Madrid–Barajas Airport. Local time is 4:42 AM. For your safety and comfort, please remain seated with your seat belt fastened until the Captain turns off the Fasten Seat Belt sign...
On behalf of American Airlines and the entire crew, I’d like to thank you for joining us on this trip and we are looking forward to seeing you onboard again in the near future. Have a marvelous day!"
The announcement brought me back to life. My sight was still blurry but I processed our arrival. I peeped down, Spain welcomed me with luminosity.
“Whoaaa…” I felt drugged for a second,
“And FINALLY! WE ARE HERE IN THE GREAT MADRID!” My mind is out of control.
I can’t wait to jump out of the seat and inhale the fresh air of Spain. It must be different here. We collected our bags and exited out. It took a few while to get out. As first as my nose inhales the scent of Spain; my whole body responds to the sensation. My hand turned into fists like I want to hold this right here. My parents saw me living in it. I turned back to see where faces were radiating my intensity.
“Let’s go munchkins, I’m already jet-lagged” dad announced,
We need a taxi for the hotel. We ordered an Uber and it arrived in minutes. Our destination was the NYX Hotel Madrid. My eyes were glued to the window all the ride. The beauty of Spain was emitting from people till nature, it was just breathtakingly satisfying. no such words that can define my feelings.
As we reached, my eyes were dumbfounded at the sight of a luxurious tall grey-textured building embedded in glass, whoah!It must be lush from within, I told myself as the exterior was portraying the feel. I can sense chills going down on my body. My gosh, this hotel is exquisite, every single detail was worth-noting,; just like heaven to eyes.
The sliding doors opened and we entered the lobby. We booked 2 rooms one for dad/mom and the other one for us. I slept enough in the plane so I wasn’t very sleepy at all. I wanted to explore more but I know it won't. I could get lost in here, so I decided to wander in this enormous building.
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Unkown’s POV
“Jefe, hay una chica en mi ojo, quedándose en una de nuestras habitaciones, se ve sexy. mejor la conseguimos (Boss, there 's a chick piece in my eye, staying in one of our rooms, she looks sexy. we better get her)” I said to Jackson, the asshole.
“¿Tienes alguna foto de comida?? (Do you have any pictures of the meal)?” He asked me,
“Por qué no, mira su escote, me las arreglé para tomarlo mientras ella estaba ocupada (Why not, take a look at her cleavage, I took it while she was busy)” I excitedly handed him the phone,
“Umm se ve sabroso, bueno, mírala y el trato está hecho, ella tiene que estar aquí en 2 semanas (Umm looks tasty, well, eye her and the deal is done, she has to be here in 2 weeks)” he said demandingly
“Considera tu trabajo hecho jefe (consider your work done, boss)”
3A Few Weeks PassedLana‘s POVI wonder if there could be any possible way to stop the time and cherish the moment forever but again, this is the world of real facts, not my fantasyland. I exhaled a deep breath and kept ambling on the poolside with the ocean of memories in my brain. As I looked up in the gloomy sky with full of starry stars, and yet I tried to count each of them specifically but at the same time, wondered that dynamics of light can’t be numbered. I lifted my head all little more up in the blamy breeze and closed my eyes along with the flow of wind. It’s so calm yet so peaceful in here. I wanted to sway slowly to the beat of air but here my mind was busy in recalling my treasured memories.I just couldn't get over this nirvana. I opened my eyes with the thought of beach in Ibiza where he spent our 5 glorious days and then the great Barcelona was in line, we stayed there for 2 weeks.I could proudly say that time has been written in my dear diary forever. I celebrated
4Eyes all closed, shoved to the death room, all I can think about is my life before Spain, my parents whom I spent every breath with but they don’t know I’m living my last ones. My two little babies who I wanted to secure and their future but I failed securing my own.Some of my friends who I thought were not worth it but right now, I’m missing them too, I wanna be with them. For one last time.Never in my life, I thought I’d miss that time too but look today, I’m recalling my memories and admitting them the best time I ever had because there won’t be me anymore. Life will not stop for me, if my story ever gets on screen, people will awe for me for a while, and then it will be where every tragedy belongs; in the trash.I’ll be nothing but a temporary instance, what a bit of luck. I wanted to be an on-screen with a major accomplishment, but here I guess I’m gonna play a victim role. The universe never wanted me to win.My blood and his hands covered in it will be my last viewpoint.Go
5Warning: This chapter contains heavy-violence. Please read it at your riskArmando’s POV “Jefe, las prostitutas intentaron escapar, pero le disparamos a una, pero otras siguen respirando. (Boss, prostitutes tried to escape but we shot one dead and others are still breathing)” Leane explained,“Tráeme estos, cortaré sus partes privadas yo mismo, luego lentamente sus vidas. Querían escapar por la libertad, no les perdonaré un minuto libre(Bring these ones to me, I will cut off their private parts myself, then slowly their lives. They wanted to escape for freedom, I will not spare them a free minute)” it was enough talk for me; I ended the call,They should’ve known that no one leaves once captured, escaping is not a way out, instead, it means throwing yourself in the hellfire.Hookers like them only want money and just sex. Then why run? Work for me, I’ll shower you in dollars.Disobey, then better bear effects of the invasion.Minding back to my killing expertise,I was getting rea
6Lana’s POVWhat am I gonna do here? I don’t know how long they will keep me here, why are they treating me well? The master,he was gentle when I thought he would be my terminator but I guess he wants to use me before slaughtering, does he lure every girl this way? He must be, I need to run away from here, it won’t be easy; I need to be careful otherwise next time I’d be shot dead just like that girl. Oh God! I’m sorry… how am I gonna live with that guilt? I can’t forget her fresh blood streaming down her head, the bullet… that hit her head without giving her any chance to live, Why are they so cruel? They almost killed me and took her life instantly, God how am I gonna live with this guilt? Please, God… take my life away too, or I’ll come to you, I just can’t live like this. I pray you to forgive me, I wanna come to you, maybe killing myself will be easier than getting slew after mental and physical torture, I never thought of being in this state in Spain but that’s what you
7Armando”s POV“Master she disappeared” my men came in running,I couldn't stand it first but after then I processed it in my mind, I jolted up and lifted him in the air with my hand gripping his neck. “TRY. SAYING. IT. AGAIN,” I barked out with a gnash,“Ma…mas-ter, we’re find-ing h-her” he uttered in suffocation.“How do you let her ESCAPE!?” I punched him. Hard. He fell back on the floor.I was roving in circles, “I want her in front of me in 5 minutes or you all die,” I snapped my fingers and growled on my last words, he wasted no time and ran for his life.I poured myself a whiskey and gulped it in one go, my hands gripped that breakable glass so hard that it cracked and eventually crushed into pieces.WHAT IS SHE THINKING!? OH BABY, THIS WAS NEVER AN OPTION FOR YOU, YOU’LL BE HERE. YOU HAVE TO BE. THERE’S NO WAY OUT FOR YOU MY LITTLE KITTENAHHH, FUCK! I slammed my fists on the worktop again and again like a mad lover who was head over heels crazy for his love and threw every
8Warning: This chapter extremely refers to sexual acts and some readers might find it offensive. Please read it at your own risk!“It’s my turn to play wild,” he said with a cunning sniggerWas he trying to say that he’ll play wild on Xbox with me? I frowned at him with a question written on my face, “I-I don’t get it,” I mumbled softly,He was mute but his body was in functioning. He adjusted me in between his legs and finching me down in the mattress, after examining my position, he stood up from the bed. My conscious mind was studying his intentions and it was suggesting nothing positive,I felt my heart coming out when I saw him with two long ropes, He had them wrapped around in his hands, on which my inner-alarm triggered, “Wh-what a-re these r-ropes for..for? I stuttered badly and tried to move back, He moved forward with a smirk on his face, like he was enjoying my weak form, “You’ll know it soon, naughty one,” he said in his darkest shade of tone, "these ropes are used for
9Lana’s POVChirping of birds was what made me conscious of the world, I was so lifeless that opening my eyes was the hardest I could feel and my body, it was like somebody lacerated my heart and left it for bleeding until it emptied thoroughly. My head was aching so bad, even if I wanted to take a glimpse of my surroundings, my feeble body was too weak to register anyone around me. A little while later, I felt people beside me, I sensed minute activities happening beside me. I also aware of pinning to a fleecy mattress as an expired corpse.A pinky finger moved and, sudden hustle-bustle started around me, I could hear voices,What is this? My mind muffled, For an aeon, I was unable to move and stuck. Shocks of soreness transmitted from my nail of thumb to my skull. My forehead formed a line as I arched my eyebrow in agony. Oh Lord, this will kill meEven if I mistakenly move in my gesture; a line of current ripped me apart in half; leaving me to surrender even before I could start.
10Lana’s POV The night I had with that monster has stamped in the brain and gifted me the worst nightmare I could ever think of. I woke up and sat straight with a jolt and outcry. My vacant eyes had no more tears to shed and I sat there on bed blankly; staring at a wall. All those scenarios of that night played back in my mind like a movie, the shriek I uttered played back in my ears. It was fueling my soul to pitch darkness.When he shoved himself in me and a shriek left me; there I lost my mind and screamed like lunatics. My feet were abnormally flying in the air and hands were trying to get his disgusting body off me.A door went open and the same female minder showed up. She was trying to get a hold on me but I was moving to getaway. She used her force and stopped me while I cried for mercy.“Hey... Hey... Calm down, nothing’s happening, aye, cool” she kept chanting and a while later I was stopped by her,I was so lost of mind that I hugged her and cried my all soul out. She was
103Warning: This Chapter Can Be Challenging For Readers To Read. Kindly Pause Reading If You Feel Anxious Or Depressed. You’re Already Warned. LanaIt was a female. It was her. I knew I would be stabbed by Nathan’s cousin who’s jealous of me or who would accuse me of seducing him. Maybe, she would throw me in the river like my intuition tried to tell me but I ignored it lately. I should’ve considered my gut feeling rather than Nathan’s request. Look, where I stood; in the mouth of death. I tried to struggle in her hold but she roared at me, keeping me in the hold. I tried to shout but it wasn’t loud enough to call for help. I thought she would push me any second but the hope of survival arose when the sirens started to buzz, deafening us to death. Within seconds, there was an army steadied to kill this culprit. Their weapons were locked on their target and the voice that soothed me came across my ears. “Leave her alone!” Nathan shouted at the top of his lungs. My breath started to
102LanaI wasn’t ready for this night. My heart was racing horribly in my ribcage. Something was not right, something would go wrong and someone was going to pay for it terribly—maybe this child in my womb. Maybe tonight I would be stabbed by one of Nathan’s bitchy cousins who would accuse me of seducing him, just like Armando’s cousin did back in Spain. I prayed to God for the abortion and yet I tried to convince one of the doctors during the clinic visit but no one agreed without Nathan’s approval. My heart just said this child won’t see this world. It would die. I just didn’t want to go through with the stabbing pain once again. I wasn’t that strong to bear pains anymore. I had enough and if this time, anyone would try to harm me, I would end myself with my sinful hands. This was it, this was the solution to end my problems. Maybe, after all the while God wanted me to end myself. He gave me enough clues yet I delayed realising them. It had been three hours since I was continuou
101Next Week Somewhere In LondonNathanIt’s a beautiful feeling to be a dad again. I waited long enough to feel this moment again, yet I had never known that I had to force the pregnancy on a married woman—but it was written to happen under such circumstances and I should be less guilty about it. All because Lana left me no choice. Moreover, not only I was happy because I would be a dad again but also that it was time to finally eradicate that motherfucking Armando and his two carbon copies from the earth. Lana wouldn’t have to bear much pain once she would give birth to our baby. Those little devils would be gone and my little human will replace their space in my queen’s heart.Everything was going perfect the way I wanted and sure enough, it would end the same way I planned—except the culprit’s escaping part. Armando’s breakout wasn’t on the list yet he successfully flew away, killing four of my men in the process which he will pay really soon as I got the lead about his whereabo
100LanaIf it’s true then I was gone. I was busted to live anymore. If Armando was to hear about this I would be much more than trouble. Pregnant? With some other man’s child? I did everything to avoid it. I even bribed Mary to steal birth-control pills for me, how come I got pregnant. Argh, I wanna vanish my existence. If the pregnant part was real, I would really jump off the cliff. I couldn’t prepare myself for the bloodlust of my children or this foetus. This unborn had to die or Armando would kill him and me. I knew how far he could go. He was a maniac in my case. And as far as he was possessive about me being only his. I could predict I would pay a big price for Nathan’s deed. “Good to see you, Mr. Knightley, how may I help?” Malinda’s voice rang in my ear like a driller screwing my head. Though she had a velvet voice but right now, she was the person I needed to stay away from. Her clicks of heels grew louder as she came closer to me and Nathan who had been playing with my h
99LanaPhew. Thank God I successfully got control of the situation before I could finally be thrown to the bed and lost my chance for a dinner outside of this room. It had been fifteen minutes since leaving the house. I was sitting on the passenger seat beside Nathan who was driving his posh Lamborghini. It was the smooth black ride up in the mountains and the view I was having all the while was completely mesmerising. The street lights and the moonlight seemed like having a competition to glorify the route for me tonight. I would’ve enjoyed this moment even more if Nathan would be in his casket like he should’ve rather than driving the car like my man. I sighed at this thought. The pleasant feeling in my chest faded away with realisation of Nathan’s presence. I couldn’t just swallow the thought that I used to die for this man once, I even prayed to see him again when I had affection for him. But the very affection died when Armando started becoming a man of my dreams. He deliberat
98Lana“Speak,” Leone said with the second line connected. My heart palpitated but I overcame my growing anxiety. “Leone, It’s Lana…” I enlightened him. “… They imprisoned us separately for months. I had no connection to Armando even though I tried to encounter him once, Nathan had security at every step. I am not sure if he’s still in his torture cellar or they have done something to him or sent him to God knows where,” I ran my mouth like a bullet train, giving him no chance to speak. “Is everything good on your side?” The second I asked this question had me panicking inwardly. “We are drowning, my lady…” he said in a monotone but the effect his words brought was enough for sinking my heart, “…Our businesses are being sealed by the board for illegal conspiracies. Someone had cracked our shares in the underground sector and we are losing our men count. Our weapons are being stolen from the ports and many more harm’s been done. Everything is out of order. We lost three hundred me
97LanaNathan caught me faking my sleep. I had my eyes closed when he came near and sat beside me on the bed. He didn’t do anything for ten minutes, just quietly sat there and admired me from afar—that’s only what I could get with my eyes closed. But later, I felt his thumb striking with my cheek that ascended inside the blanket and he ended up scooping his hand inside my panties, rubbing my core and wetting me. When he slid a finger in me, I moaned and my eyes wide-opened. I gawked at him with astonished eyes. “What the heck, Nathan, leave me for God’s sake,” I huffed, disapproving his touch in between my moan and got his hand out of my pants, for a fact I hated reacting to his touch so intensely, that makes him full of himself a little more every time. He honestly knew all the perfect spots—but this time his perfection wasn’t my main focus. It was basically the fact that I had a phone and key hidden in my socks that churned my stomach for bad.“I was checking if you were still hot
96Two Months LaterLanaTwo months. A heck of a long time that I spent in a single gigantic room as a hostage. These fucking two months had me crying, screaming, begging for help, pleading for mercy and at last swearing at Nathan for being an asshole with me. I never thought Nathan could be like this. He raped me often. Yes, I would call it rape. He didn’t care what I said to him he only wanted to be inside me thrice a week.He provided me with clothes, food, Netflix and everything any other girl would desire but I was more interested in being able to breathe freely. Moreover, I missed my kids. Not even a single day passed by without me weeping for them. I never left them alone. I didn’t know if Sebastian reached home safe to Nancy or not.I was only stuck here for nothing and I see this situation going to nowhere good. I was hugging my knees, trying to think of a breakout for the thousandth time since two months. This time my escape wasn’t easy because I wasn’t sure if they kept Arm
95Lana“Then, I can even make you have dozens of kids containing your blood just now,” Nathan stated fearlessly. I blinked twice as his words sank in my stomach, each word containing tons of heavy metals that felt like ripping through each ounce of my soul.Making babies appeared to be a joke to him. How could he mock something sacred so efficiently? He wasn’t like this before. I remembered him as someone gentle and considerate yet now, he was portrayed to be cold and selfish. “I don’t want to believe in my ears, speak something real, Nathan,” I replied, foggily. “Do my face tell you I'm joking to you, Lana? If children are the only reason that’s bonding you with that generational motherfucker, then I shall eliminate the root cause and set you free,” I wanted to believe that it was Nathan speaking with such a grudge but somewhere my heart denied. His awful mindset was making him loathe myself for falling for him once. Maybe God saved me from an absolute devil through a qualified de