Saph POV
Soft kisses trail from my jaw down to my neck. I turn away from him, giving better access. He pauses his gentle assault on my skin to breathe me in.
“You smell divine, my Jewel. Always divine.”
He resumes placing soft kisses on my neck, my shoulder, and my collarbone.
“Mmm…don’t stop…” I whisper, arching my back, pushing my breasts even closer to his body. My nipples are hardened and begging for his kisses.
“I’ll never stop. I’ll never leave you,” he promises as his warm hands, the color of brown sugar, caress my every curve.
“But you did. You’re gone,” I whimper as I run my hands through his soft curls, looking into his deep chocolatey eyes.
“I’m right here, my Jewel. I’m right here Saph…” His deep, soothing voice slowly begins to fade.
“Saph…Saph…Saph! SAPH!”
I shoot up, glaring daggers at whoever is shaking me.
“What? Fucking, what do you want?!” I yell, feeling disoriented. I frantically check the space in the bed next to me, searching through the mound of blankets for his form, only to confirm it's empty and cold. How familiar that sensation has become for me these last few months.
“Sorry, Saph. You weren’t at training this morning…again. Daya wanted me to check on you and remind you about your shift at the medical clinic,” Pearl says meekly, holding her hands up in surrender. Her light skin is flushed and covered in a layer of sweat, showing she just came from training.
“Ugh. Have I missed a shift at the clinic yet?” I ask curtly, as I throw the blankets off me and throw my legs over the side of the bed abruptly. I tie my hair up into a messy bun as I stand up and stalk across the room towards the bathroom.
“Well, no. I just wanted to check on you,” she says softly. I can see in the reflection in my mirror that she is fidgeting with the hem of her tank top. I feel bad for snapping at her, but I don’t have the energy to apologize. I feel suffocated.
I stomp into my bathroom and flinch as the bright light burns my eyes. I’ve gotten used to keeping the blinds closed all summer. I have no interest in waking up with the sun like I used to. As werewolves, we grow up loving the moon and living our lives based on its cycles, but I’ve always loved the sun; I had such fondness for sunsets and sunrises. But now, who cares?
I spin around, checking the bathroom for a towel only to find none. I let out an exhausted sigh and turn around back into my bedroom. My head begins to throb, a reminder of one too many vodkas last night.
Pearl sits on the edge of my bed, trying to look busy on her phone- she’s not fooling anyone. I know she’s on ‘keep an eye on Saph’ duty. Yesterday it was Amy’s turn, and I’m sure Daya will invite me over to her house tonight, like always.
“You don’t have to watch me, Pearl. I’m totally capable of taking a shower,” I grumble while fishing through a pile of laundry on the floor, tossing weeks’ worth of clothes into the air in my search. I just need a towel.
“I’m not watching you, Saph. I’m hanging out with you,” she corrects me, her head tilting to the side and a sly smirk tugs up at the corner of her mouth.
“Same difference,” I shrug. “Ah! Here!” I exclaim as I snatch up a faded blue towel, giving it a quick sniff. It smells a little musty, but it will do. I see Pearl cringe out of the corner of my eye. Whatever.
“I just thought we could hang out before I leave, you know?” she sulks. I can hear the love in her voice, but I don’t have it in me to respond. Instead, I make my way into the bathroom and take a quick shower.
After I finish, I dry myself with my less-than-clean towel and I scan all the products that have begun collecting dust on my shelves. I used to love using aromatherapy when I took hot showers, or I’d make myself a soothing bath with oils. What’s the point, now?
“It’s not like you’re going to be gone forever, Pearl. You and Amy are just leaving for a couple of days,” I say, returning to the previous point she made.
“But what if we find our mates? More and more people have been finding their mates since Darius, Vincenzo, and Alpha Ash…”
“Don’t say that name around me!” I snap at her before she can finish her sentence. I clutch my towel tight to my body, fisting the fabric roughly. She tucks her lips together tightly and her cheeks become a deep red.
“Sorry. I just mean that since the three packs have started taking turns hosting the full moon events, more people have been finding their fated mates. It must be a sign that our packs have always been meant to work together.”
She’s always seen the world through rose-colored glasses. I used to appreciate her innocence and faith in the Moon Goddess. Hell, I used to share it at times. We all lost our mother so young to the Fated Plague. I was six, making Pearl only three. I remember our mother telling the most beautiful stories about her and our father. I grew up believing in true love, because of our parents’ love for each other. Pearl doesn’t even remember anything about our mother.
Even after the Fated Plague took away the possibility of finding a fated mate, I still believed in true love, and I found mine. We barely had time to experience our own love story, but now, the Moon Goddess is granting werewolves fated mates again. Sure, I was ecstatic for Daya, our oldest sister, when she found Darius. The five of us worked so hard to ensure that they fought for their bond instead of running from it. Daya was so scared to accept Darius for fear that they would lose each other to the plague. She overcame that fear and I have never seen her happier.
Just a few months ago, Emmy, our second-oldest sister, met her fated mate, too. Vincenzo has certainly taken our quiet Emmy and made her bolder and more confident. She definitely needed that. She truly just wanted to be loved and Vincenzo worships her every step. At least, that’s what my sisters tell me. I haven’t seen Emmy and Vincenzo in almost three months, since their pack hosted the first full moon event for the three packs: Running River, Forza, and Red Mountain. Every day I stare at my phone, trying to work up the nerve to call Emmy and apologize, but I can’t seem to do it.
“Amy is excited to go with me. She hasn’t shown any interest until now to go to one of these full moon runs,” Pearl perks up, effectively pulling me out of my thoughts.
“She’s probably just interested in hooking up with that mullet-haired asshole. I swear, that girl has the weirdest taste in men,” I laugh briefly. Pearl chuckles as well while she rummages through my dresser, most likely trying to find something clean for me to wear. I guess watching me dig through dirty laundry for a towel didn’t sit well with my baby sister.
“You’re not wrong. Who knows, Amy and Archie could be mates! They seemed to have chemistry that night at the show at Emmy's pack. She hasn’t seen him since, but they would make a cute couple,” Pearl says as she pulls out a pair of black leggings and a white t-shirt, managing to find my last set of clean clothes. I take them from her and get dressed.
“Whatever floats her boat. I don’t even try to understand what goes on in Amy’s head anymore. She’s such an enigma,” I say as I start to search for my left shoe. I kick the massive pile of laundry off to the side, searching for my missing tennis shoe. I used to be so organized, everything had a place.
“I think she wants to find her mate just as much as anyone else, but she won’t admit it. You know how she always tries to put on a tough girl act,” Pearl states as she quietly helps me look for my shoe.
I appreciate that Pearl hasn’t openly scolded me for my life choices over the last few months. I’m more than aware that I’m not the same Sapphire I once was. I’m reminded by all my sisters daily about this fact, but Pearl just gives me space and doesn’t judge me openly. I’m sure, in her head, she’s thinking I’ve gone off the deep end, but she’ll never voice that to me.
“You may be right about Amy. You’re both still young and don’t need to be so focused on finding mates. How’s the tracker job treating you?” I ask as I crawl halfway under the bed in search of my shoe. I’m desperate to change the subject to anything else but mates. It hurts too much.
“Age has nothing to do with being ready for love, Saph. Mama wasn’t much older than I am when she found Father,” Pearl reminds me, checking behind a stack of books and magazines but doesn’t find my shoe.
“Like you remember anything about Mama.”
Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! I bit my tongue a second too late. I stand up from the floor just in time to see Pearl stiffen like a board, her soft features scrunching up as she fights back tears.
“Shit, Pearl…I didn’t…I shouldn’t have…I’m sorry…”
I really am. Pearl doesn’t deserve my anger. She’s the kindest of the five of us and I’ve never been so caustic to her.
“It’s fine. You were just being honest,” she says softly, but her voice cracks, telling me that she’s choking back the urge to cry. I never meant to hurt her feelings. She moves towards the door and I think this is where she walks out and leaves me too- like Emmy did. Instead, she pulls the door away from the wall, revealing my missing shoe. “Here, now you can go to work,” she says in a more controlled voice, handing me my shoe.
I take it from her hesitantly, wondering how it got there.
“Thanks. You’ve always had a knack for finding things. Mama was the same way,” I say in a feeble attempt to cheer her up. The corners of her mouth twitch ever-so slightly. Please smile.
“So I’m told.”
We don’t say another word as we exit my cottage. I take in the flower beds, overgrown with weeds and grass. The hummingbird feeders are bone dry, and the wind chimes I used to love are flat on the ground, forgotten after a strong rainstorm knocked them down.
I wish I cared.
Saph POV Pearl walks with me to the medical clinic. We aren’t speaking and the silence is starting to make me uncomfortable. I should probably apologize again for what I said to her. She’s only trying to help me. I can tell I’ve become a burden. None of my sisters, or any of our close friends, have said anything, but everyone watches me with pity in their eyes. Everyone tiptoes around me, scared to even mention Nathan’s name. “Do you have a lot of appointments today?” Pearl asks, finally breaking our silence. Thank you, Pearl. “Um, I think just a handful. A couple of check-ups with some children of the pack. I think a couple of warriors are getting their physicals done too. Nothing too stressful,” I reply as we continue through the downtown area of Running River. I do enjoy looking through the windows of the small shops. We walk by an empty storefront that was once a small furniture store owned by an older brother and sister in the pack. They w
Saph POV I shuffle along the moss-covered path leading to Daya and Darius’ cottage. The warm glow from inside begins to illuminate my steps as I get closer. When the chatter and laughter hit my ears, all I want to do is turn around and run. I have nothing to offer to any conversation. I know I’m going to bring the mood down the moment I walk in. My sisters do a good job of pretending they’re happy to see me, but I know they don’t enjoy my company anymore. I take a deep breath as I stare at the large, wooden door before me. I slowly raise my hand, preparing to knock, but before I can make contact with the door, it wooshes open, sending a slight gust of wind towards me. “About time you showed up. You owe me twenty bucks! I knew she’d be at least two hours late!” Amy declares as she tosses her head to the side. “Nice to see you too, Amy,” I grumble, rolling my eyes at her comment, and nudging her out of my way to step inside. “Oh, shut u
Asher POV “Are these the final attendee lists for both your packs for the full moon run in two days?” I ask Dare and Vinny over our video call. The three of us have gotten quite chummy the last few months after everything went down with The Underground. I never thought I’d be inviting people to the Red Mountain Pack, much less for a full moon run, especially not in search of fated mates. As far as I was concerned, fated mates disappeared after the plague killed almost every mated werewolf around the world. Five years ago, my brother, Archie, convinced me to move our pack here to the United States from Australia. I was resistant to the idea for a long time, but things happen, and sometimes, a change of scenery is best for everyone. When we moved to this small corner of upstate New York, I was hellbent on keeping outsiders and threats away from my pack. I appreciated having the mountain range as a natural barrier. We were never a large pack, and after the pl
Asher POV After wrapping up my call with Vinny and Dare, I had to get some air. I just need some room to breathe. I don’t dislike Saph. She was dealt a shitty hand- a hand I am somewhat responsible for. She is coping in her own way. What I don’t understand is why her family isn’t doing more to help her. “Ash! Wait up!” The faint sound of my name being called pulls me out of my thoughts. I spin around and see my brother, Archie, running to catch up to me. “What’s up, Arch?” I ask as I resume my walk. I look around and realize that I’m outside already. Huh, must have really been deep in thought; I don’t often space out like that. “I saw you storming out of the house. You look pissed. What happened on your call with Dare Bare and Italian Stallion?” he nudges me and I can’t help but laugh. My younger brother has always been able to break me out of a bad mood. “How did you come up with those nicknames? I might have to start using them. Vinny wil
Saph POV “Hurry up, Amy! We need to get on the road. I told you to finish packing last night. And we are only going to be gone for three days, how much do you really need to pack?” Pearl paces in the living room of Amy’s one-bedroom apartment- the same one Daya lived in when she first moved here. “Calm your tits, Pearl. I’m packed! I just like making you sweat,” Amy says, strolling out of her bedroom with her small duffle bag over her shoulder. Pearl growls in frustration but bites her tongue. It’s not worth responding to Amy in these moments. Pearl is many things, but snarky is not one of them. “At least she has tits,” I say just loud enough under my breath as I decide to join in and take a jab at Amy. Plus, I can’t help but stick up for Pearl. She’s so sweet and sometimes Amy’s attitude can throw her for a loop. “Whatever, big boobs are overrated. It’s all about having a cute butt nowadays.” Amy sticks her tongue out at me as she leads the way to the fr
Asher POV All my pack members are on edge tonight. Everyone is running around, getting things prepared for the full moon run, to make a good impression on all the visitors we have. Our pack is secluded, we don’t have run-ins with outsiders often; maybe the occasional rogue, but they rarely cross into the main pack lands. That’s a big reason why Archie has been leading search teams for Griz and the former pack members who followed him. I don’t trust that he won’t try something again. Perhaps my paranoia is getting the best of me, but I'm just feeling unsettled about tonight. I look up to the sky and notice the sun is starting its descent towards the western side of the mountain. I still have so much to do before the run starts. “Oi, bro! There you are. Our guests of honor arrived just now. Fuckin’ shit! I thought that Saph was going to shank me with a silver blade,” Archie says to me as he slaps his hand on the back of my shoulder. I roll my eyes at his co
Saph POV “You’re sure you don’t want to join us?” Pearl asks softly, peeking into my bedroom door. She’s wearing a black tank top and shorts, which contrasts with her alabaster skin. I see the hurt and the underlying pity in her eyes as she looks at me. “Yes, Pearl. I have no interest in running tonight. I’m just here for you and Amy,” I try my best not to roll my eyes at her. Pressing up from my bed, I make my way over to her and take her face in my hands as I look her in the eyes. “You go and have fun. I hope your mate is out there tonight.” I mean the words I say, even though I have pretty much given the Moon Goddess the middle finger every day for the last five months. I want nothing more to do with full moons, mates, and true love. I had it once. I still can’t believe how eager werewolves have become to find their fated mates again. It’s like everyone has forgotten about the plague and the devastating losses that almost eradicated our kind. “Are you
Asher POV I stand at the top of Crescent Hill, the highest point in our pack. It overlooks the common areas and offers the most space for hundreds of werewolves to gather for the full moon run. Archie's on my right sporting a similar outfit to me: loose-fitting gym clothes. No point in wearing anything fancy for a full moon run when, in a few minutes, everyone who is of age to shift, will be in wolf form, and clothes will be discarded. As I scan the familiar faces of my pack, who make up the majority of the group, I see the apprehension in their eyes. They are hoping to find their fated mates tonight. I turn my attention to the rest of the group made up of visiting pack members of the Running River and Forza Packs. I spot Tobias standing behind Pearl and Amy. The dude sticks out without trying. He literally looks like Thor, but his focus is on the two Stone princesses. I’ve caught a few single she-wolves in my pack stealing glances at him when he walked through the packhous
Saph POV One Month Later “I’m just sayin’, bro, Archie is a very good name for a boy,” Archie jests as we make our way through the common area of the pack. Winter is in full force and the ground is covered in beautiful, white snow. Today is a mild day, without too much windchill. I wanted to take advantage of that and go for a walk. I’ve been getting stir crazy staying indoors. “Blame me, Archie. I vetoed that name on day one,” I toss back to my new brother-in-law. Archie fakes being offended, holding a hand to his chest and sucking in a gasp. “Oh stop. It’s her babies. She can name them whatever she wants. And let’s face it, the world can’t handle two Archibold Sorrens,” Yaya says as she swats her hand at Archie’s arm. He simply smiles at her and pulls her in close. “Bright Eyes, I don’t know what you’re suggestin’, but if we have a son, he’s gettin’ my name. That’s a done deal,” he retorts. It’s so hard to tell if he’s joking or not.
Chapter 70 Asher POV Fuck, my mate is sexy as fuck. Watching Saph ride my speaker- which is not a euphemism- was the hottest thing she’s done. Watching her shake and rattle from every note I played for her almost had me coming in my pants. I love how uninhibited she is around me and that we can be ourselves around each other. “Fuck me, Daddy,” she demands of me. I was already planning on doing just that. After her performance, my dick refuses to go to sleep until I combust inside of her. My impatient mate continues dominating my mouth with her tongue while undoing my pants. I appreciate the help. She grabs my cock and slowly lowers down on it. “Fuck, Bunny! I’m gonna blow from just havin’ the tip in. Your pussy is fuckin’ heaven!” I throw my head back, maintaining a firm grip on her ass. Saph continues lowering herself, sliding each inch of me into her pussy at a torturous pace. My dick is thumping, demanding I impale her and
Saph POV It’s twilight. Ruby’s birthday was perfect. Pearl did an amazing job helping me to plan it, down to the last detail. I didn’t miss how Asher spoke with her, and her spirit immediately shifted. He has not only helped me, but now he’s helped my sister too. I’ll forever be grateful for him, and how he fought for us before I even knew there was an us. “Sleep tight, Cupcake,” Asher whispers as I pull Ruby’s comforter up to her chin, making her cozy within her oversized bed. She yawns, hugging a pink teddy bear close to her body. “Goodnight, Papa. Goodnight, Saph.” Her words fade as she drifts off to sleep. I place a gentle kiss on the crown of her head. The pack house is quiet. Archie and Yaya are temporarily staying in the guest wing until their new home is built. It will be a few months until that’s finished. I slowly close Ruby’s door, holding my breath, careful not to make a sound, hoping she stays asleep. I slowly rel
Asher POV “Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday, Princess Ruby! Happy birthday to you! Hip, hip! Hooray!” The entire pack sings out to my daughter in the dining room of UGET. Sam and Cam wanted to host this special occasion and made all the food for tonight. Everyone is dressed for the occasion. It truly looks like an elegant ball. Saph and her sisters, well, mostly Pearl, took the lead on planning this party and the décor. Everyone takes to the middle of the dining room, which has been cleared out to become a giant dance floor. Temporary black and white, faux marble floors have been placed over the rustic hardwood. String LED lights hang down from the ceiling, looking like we are in a blue cavern. The floor has snowflake-shaped spotlights spinning around, highlighting the dancing pack members. The buffet tables are adorned with white tablecloths and mini-ice sculptures. It looks like a dreamy, Winter Wonderland. I walk up
Asher POV “I’m so glad that Daya and I have a son. There’s no way Calson will want a party like this. He’ll be perfectly content with a funny movie and microwave popcorn. Isn’t that right, little man?” Dare tickles baby Calson’s tummy, causing the plump pup to erupt into a fit of giggles. Fuck, I love the sound of a baby laughing. Dare is looking dapper in a black, velvet tuxedo jacket. The kicker is that he got to dress his baby. And, yup, the poor baby is also in a velvet suit. It wouldn’t be my fashion choice, but Calson does look adorable. “For fuck’s sake, Dare! Did you put him in a velvet diaper too?” Archie clucks, sipping his club soda. “Fuck you, Arch! What is it that your mate calls you? Mop Top? How about you keep your opinions to yourself. My son is the most handsome looking guy in this room. Not that he has much competition between you fucks,” Dare snaps, rocking his son, who is gnawing on one of his tiny fists, and drooling all over
Saph POV 1 Month Later “I can’t believe I’m wearing this. This is ridiculous,” Daya huffs, looking at herself in a full-length mirror in mine and Asher’s bedroom. I fully moved into the packhouse with him and Ruby. Not long after moving my things here, and officially joining Red Mountain Pack as their Luna, Ruby insisted that I help her plan ‘the best princess birthday party ever!’ She is too cute to say no to. And, given everything this pack- our pack- has been through, a large celebration is needed. With the theme of a princess party, Ruby demands that everyone be dressed as a prince or princess- tiaras, crowns, and all. Again, nobody has the heart, or the gall, to say no to her. Even Daya, who hates her frilly dress, is all too happy to appease my little princess. “I think you look adorable,” Pearl says sweetly, strutting ever-so-comfortably in her own gown. A beautiful champagne, sleeveless gown, with a fitted bodice and a ruffled A-line skirt. Her
Amy POV I feel bad interrupting Saph’s and Tatty Daddy’s tryst, but we are driving back to Running River Pack this afternoon. I want to talk with them about some things. “Come back later!” Asher shouts, clearly frustrated that I’m disturbing their sexy time. Oh well. I’m sure he and Saph will be happy once they are clued into the information I have. “Can’t do that brother-in-law,” I say cheerfully. “Amy?!” Saph squeals. My cheeks are aching from the stupid grin that I’m sporting. I’m not a fan of cock-blocking, or box-blocking, but this is important. “Yea, sis. Just wanted to have a quick chat with you two before I head back home,” I maintain my overly sweet tone while twisting my torso as if I’m a little kid asking for permission. I mean, I’m the same size as one, so might as well lean into the role, right? “Remind me to pummel your sister after this,” Asher mutters, but not lowly enough for my werewolf he
Saph POV We should be working. There is so much paperwork and reorganizing that we need to do, but how can I think of anything besides Asher’s body on top of mine right now? This man brings out a freaky side of me that I love exploring with him. Watching him throw his computer and supplies off his desk makes me drip with need. “Asher! You’re crazy!” I laugh as I watch the formerly neat stack of papers litter the office floor. “Crazy for you and your pussy, Bunny,” he growls into the shell of my ear, sucking my lobe between his teeth. I moan, arching my back into his chest, feeling his long, smooth cock press between my ass. How this man is hard and ready to go again is a medical mystery to me. I know werewolves rebound fast, but this is impressive. “You want it, Bunny? You want me to bend you over this desk, shove myself deep inside you and fuck you until you can’t walk?” He thrusts his hips into me, grinding himself against my backside, our bodi
Asher POV Humans have an interesting way of thinking about trauma. I see all of these inspirational quotes, usually accompanied with kittens hanging on a tree branch; they all send the same message. Bounce back. It’s all going to be okay in the end. Some would argue that I bounced back after Portia’s death. And I did, to an extent. But I didn’t bounce back to where I was. Maybe this is the scientist in me, seeing things too literally, but I didn’t really bounce back. That would require that day to have never happened. I bounced forward, after rolling in the darkest, and thickest mud. It took Archie beating the shit out of me and reminding me that just because Portia’s life ended, mine didn’t. It took me realizing that Ruby still had one parent, and I was doing a shitty job at being even a decent father. A couple of months ago, my life was bippity bopping along, and then Saph crashed into me. I saw her and I knew her pain better than anyone else. She was s