SOFIA I felt as though I had been unclothed and I was now naked. The fact that Alex had caught me staring at him made the butterflies keep roaming around my stomach. I was suddenly ashamed that I flushed and I more or less ran out of his office.But the shame was a good one. It wasn’t like the one I felt that night he rescued me from my boss. That day, even though I was fully clothed, though, parts of my office clothes were torn, still, I felt naked. But now, even if I was to go naked before Alex now, I was sure I wouldn’t be ashamed.The rest of the afternoon was spent on blushing and happily doing my work. As I delivered the rest of the memorandum, I kept on blushing and that didn’t pass the eagle eyes of Susan. At the office cafeteria to have our daily morning coffee, she kept on eyeing me until I was forced to talk.“Okay, what’s with the face?” I asked her when she wouldn’t stop looking at me.“How was your delivery to the long, lean and lethal office?”“I am not having this dis
ALEX Was I damned? Yes, I was.I had picked up my phone. It was similar to a particular time that I had seen this person. That was years ago, that was when I was still so young, that was when I hadn’t understood my being as the son of the most powerful Mafia lord in town, I didn’t know my worth, so I didn’t understand my being.That time was when I was kidnapped with Anthony. That time was when Anthony had entered the enemy’s den and I had no choice than to follow him. It was also similar to that day Anthony had lied that I was beaten at the cafeteria, whereas, it was his friends and him that pounced on me that day.The stance of Blake Crow that day was so intimidating and I had been terrified. I was scared out of my wits and I swore that I soiled my pants.There are different reasons why I feared Blake Crow; he is my father, he is the most powerful Mafia lord I know, he had killed someone before my eyes before and he felt no remorse, his ‘beloved’ wife and mother of his children had
ALEX It felt like I was listening to a broken tape that was playing out the truth.I expected an answer, but Blake Crow continued to laugh dismissively. It was clear that he had no intention of considering my ideas seriously.And then, that was when he decided to drop all he had been saving to say to me."Oh, my boy, you make me laugh. Now, let me make it clear to you.” Here we go, here comes the lashing. “You are a born failure, and nothing you do now can make up for all your years of failure and set-backs, I don’t know how much I’ve got to say to you to make you see that nothing good stays in your hands, they die, even the bad ones wilt, go brittle and then die. Stop pushing it, my boy.”When he said that, I was tempted to want to ask a question from him. All I would ask was if he really was my father. Growing up, I didn’t see the good side of Blake Crow, it was the fucked up side of him I saw. The side of his anger and disapproval of anything I ever lay my hands on.One of his com
ALEXI listened. I listened to him talk. It was like I was listening to a radio station and I had no other choice than to listen. His words cut deep into my soul. It sent more than daggers into my mind and the question I had in my mind was just simple.It was a question of, “what was the whole point?” Like, what was the whole point of me coming to New York in the first place. It was like I came here to play around. The total months I've been here was a waste. It was about six months, and now it was a waste. It was as if all the dreams and aspirations I had carried with me had been swallowed by the towering skyscrapers of New York city that surrounded me. I sniffed and dropped my phone on the table. The city that was once filled with promise for me if I came was now poisonous and being here, it felt like a prison, trapping me in a life that offered no fulfillment.Damn! Damn Blake Crow! Damn him to the hottest part of hell.As I watched the towering buildings, I couldn’t help but q
SOFIA When I had saw it, the red sticky, very crimson colour, everything in me screamed and I was pushed to want to run. I did run, and as I ran, everything in me was shaking violently. It brought back too many memories that struck my heartbeat. For a moment, I had this crazy thought that what happened years ago would repeat itself again or had happened again. The blood was too much, it was splattered on the wall, it smeared the rug, and it was over their faces too. I vividly saw them that day before the police and paramedics came by. And what was I talking about? I was talking about that day that I and my sister had walked in and we had found our parents dead bodies on the floor with them in their own pool of blood. I could remember that day like I was there, in that house. It felt like I couldn’t live in that day, but now, I was in that house, on that spot, looking at their lifeless bodies.It was a day that will forever be etched in my memory. It was the day my twin sister, Oliv
SOFIAThe dress was suiting, because by the time I got to the place that Alex picked for the date, I was bewildered.The dress I choose was the best yet that I had. I don’t even have much fancy dresses but this was fancy enough to wear for this kind of date. It was a dinner dress that was stunning; it has this flowing silk fabric that suited my skin colour. It featured a fitted bodice with delicate lace detailing on the neckline and sleeves, adding a touch of femininity to my looks. The lower part has a cinched waistline that accentuated my curves, and it flowed gracefully down to the floor with a slight train. I was pushed to trim the lower part but I decided against that. I love it just the way it looked. The back of the dress was adorned with intricate beadwork, creating a mesmerizing pattern. And it exudes sophistication and glamour, making me confident and beautiful.And to talk about the make up? It was the best I had ever worn. After I was done, I looked at myself and smiled.
SOFIATonight was just boring.The day had been too and I had been forced to pick up my phone to call Alex. But after I looked up his number and was about to press send, I just dropped the phone and sighed deeply.Was I supposed to even think of calling him? The last time I did, we ended up in each other's arms, with me crying and him trying to make me stop. Wasn't that enough fuck up to deal with?I grumbled and got up to drink water. My eyes caught the wall clock, it was past six. Still early evening but I felt like I've lived today for more than the eighteen hours. I felt so old and rusty.I was at that period again when everything seemed choked up. When I start to feel so overwhelmed and want to cry. And this happened if something from my past comes to my present. It comes unannounced and distorts my peace of mind. And that distortion was Jake Kurt, my ex-boyfriend.I went back to sit at the edge of the bed. I just couldn't believe I was going to see him again in this life time af
SOFIA When I had seen Jake again, I couldn't deny the fact that something in me moved. Just like it had years ago when I first met him.And where was that? It was at a bar, I was drunk, so drunk to go back home and when I had finished my fifth bottle, I had gotten up and saw him.The bottle of alcohol was still in my hand as I stood up to come face to face with him. He was looking at me and he was coming close. When he was close enough, he had stopped and leaned closer. The way he had leaned in close, his eyes were flickering with mischief. It was a blur, yet I could still make out his features, just his eyes and his face.They were beautiful. I could even describe how he looked then. He had this piercing blue eyes and chiseled nose made that seemed to be made from one of Michelangelo's sculpture. He was that perfect. And there was a way he had looked at me then and after we began to date. It was if I were the only woman in the world. Despite our breakup then, I couldn't deny his und