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JADE

The newest discovery I have made is you can have a honeymoon phase inside a honeymoon phase. Or maybe, it is just when you finally learn how to be happy and accept positivity in your life that everything gets better.

Whatever it may be, I’m feeling it tenfold right now. This past week. Maybe almost an entire month and there is nothing I would do to change any of it.

I have never let myself e this happy. There were not enough resources, or at least I told myself that. Whenever, which was very rare, Atlas does something nice for me. I barely even let myself revel in it for more than a few minutes. I’ll be too busy worried and thinking about how he never does that and he’ll never do it again.

Being happy is foreign to me. This stress free too. There is a new feeling I’m starting to get used to, and it is hard but I’m doing my best to not let my mind cloud it over with worries of the future. I’m leaning to just live in the present.

The present where I wake up and Antonio is here with