Now that I know how that feels, I almost felt guilty for pulling him away from her. I make a mental note to give him a few days off when we get back to the pack. All the guys even, they needed it. They did their best, working nonstop and without sleep for Feyre. I loved their dedication to her, ev
FEYRE Sitting next to Zade for the past half hour has joined the list of the hardest things I have done in my life. I’ll admit, I seem to be a different person. It started when I step my foot in Darkmoon pack. Something about his presence makes me act out. It felt like I was becoming someone I w
FEYRE Zade didn’t actually have a valid reason for not telling me Asher had called. Unless you count him being jealous as a valid excuse. He didn’t actually say that but it wasn’t hard to guess. After he made that kissing comment and my face heated up, we just decided to change the topic. In the
ALPHA ZADE “You seem to be in a foul mood.” I shot William a stern glare, hoping that would shut him up. He didn’t shut up of course, he just threw his head back and laughed. “I know it has nothing to do with the council,” he brings his glass up to his lips and takes another sip of the whiskey he
FEYRE Asher is watching me with a small smile. I roll my eyes and look away. “You are so weird,” I grumble, folding my legs under me. I’m just trying to find something to do with myself because all I can think about is Zade. How he looked after I left him standing in the room. I should have fel
ALPHA ZADE I was about two floors away from Alpha Asher’s floor when I started feeling strange. I couldn’t explain what was going on. Cassian was acting weirdly. Growling for no reason and thrashing in my head, fighting for control. At first, I shook it off thinking it was just the exchange with
FEYRE I’ve heard multiple women talk about this pain. Heat. They taught us about it in high school. I remember laughing as the teacher explained how it would be. What it would feel like. Most of the girls in my class thought it would never happen to them. Because no one ever thinks they will m
FEYRE The whirring of the engine from the plane has my full attention. I’ve decided it was safer than letting the thoughts of the man across from me fill my mind. He was already everywhere else. I needed some sort of respite. My body had been bad last night, which resulted in us delaying our fli
After everyone settled and the place regained a semblance of normalcy, we gathered in the living room to talk about pressing matters. Feyre said she wanted to know everything before tonight. That way, she wouldn’t feel like there is something she has to do in her life. She wants to start on a clean
ALPHA ZADE Everything feels different when the plane lands in the private hangar. Even the air felt different, free and fresh. Feyre slept the entire ride to the packhouse. I relished holding cradling her in my arms like a precious jewel. Which she is. Alpha Asher is already waiting for our arri
If someone told me this would be my life four or five months ago, I would take them to the doctor because something had to be wrong with them. We’re here now, and I don’t think I can ever be this happy in my life. “Perfect.” Zade repeats. He grips my chin and tips my head up until I’m looking at h
FEYRE The gentle rhythm of the heart monitor is the sound I wake up to. I look around the dim lit room, sighing in relief when I note that it is NOT a hospital room. I think everyone would understand if I never wanted to be in one ever again. Soft breathing from beside me makes me smile. I push
We both stare at the gun we hadn’t noticed in alpha Lucien’s hand and Zade sighs, then he stands up, letting my hand fall off his body. “He would choose to die a coward. It is all he has ever been.” He turns and walks out of the place. I followed him without a word. When we walk out, there are mor
FEYRE Losing consciousness has become a second skin to me. That is my first thought when I wake up and find myself looking up at the ceiling. I pick myself up from the ground, craning my neck from side to side until I release the cramp. The man is still lying face down on the mattress. He looks d
I knew it was a reach but he was already on a sloppy hill, and this is the one thing I have always wanted to know, if he was the one that killed her or not. It looked like suicide, people believed she had a reason to. But I knew she wouldn’t. She promised to stand by me and she wouldn’t have left w
“It can’t be cured because it is not a fucking illness. Your delusion though, I’m sure they have mental institutions like this for that.” “Don’t speak to me like that.” he growls, sounding enraged. It is the only real emotion I have seen him shown in a while. “I had this all mapped out for years.
ALPHA ZADE I blink my eyes open, hoping everything I’m thinking right now is nothing but my imagination, or at least, a bad dream. A terrible dream where my father has me and Feyre in a crazy lab bunker. It seems too real, the déjà vu hitting me among other things. This has felt like it has happe