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2021-06-29 04:30:36…Tyler POV…
Guess it was failed from the start, yes it was a thrilling ride, but I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for, beyond all the craziness that filled our lives, I need to allow myself to remember why I did not want to get involved. What made it all worthwhile was having her in my arms. I always thought that I have no purpose if I did not have her presence in my life. With Jenna, I needed to prove myself as the man I wish she would desire. Guess I have failed myself, not even to mention her as well.
Ya…I am soft.
But to have beauty in your life is easy; to have the beauty of the woman that you love and the one that loves you in return is the greatest gift that one can experience. I can, with all honesty, say that there is no doubt that she did complete my life. To be lonely for eternity can be seen as a life sentence, but having what you crave, is the greatest blessing.
Well, is that just not a bunch of Bullshit!
I was
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